The Shuddering (8 page)

She felt like she was going to vomit, gasping for air as she clambered up a tree-dotted slope. The mountain went wavy behind her panicked tears, but she was sure if she kept going she’d find the main ski trail. Those things were distracted, fighting over their kill, and if she could just make it out into the open she’d be okay.

Her heart thudded in her ears as she threw herself forward, clawing at the embankment, scrambling up the incline as fast as she could. Panic having squelched her sobs, the icy slope of the blue run came into view, offering the hope of safety with its groomed, wide-open expanse. She struggled, trying to pull herself up to its surface from the snowbank, her legs stuck in the soft snow four feet below. Sucking in a steadying breath, she coiled the muscles of her legs and sprang forward, the front of her jacket kissing the iced-over surface of her escape route. Her gloved fingers curled into the ground as she crawled, kicking her legs in desperation, trying to find some leverage to get the rest of her body onto the same level as her torso and arms. Finally managing to get one knee up, she shoved herself forward. Overwhelmed with a rush of relief, she crawled out of the snow. She was going to make it.

But her heart stopped when her foot caught on something behind her. She shot a look over her shoulder, as one of those things coiled a huge hand around her ankle—almost human save for the wide flat of its palm, three crooked fingers and a thumb clamping around her foot so viciously that she could feel
the pressure from inside her boot. She thrashed against its grip as she screamed, desperate to get away, but the more she fought it, the more it exposed those predatory teeth, the more she was convinced it was
smiling
as she fought. She pulled in a breath for another scream, but it soundlessly escaped her lungs when the creature yanked her backward, so quickly that the world became a pale blue blur. It pulled her back into the snowdrift.

Back into the snow.

Sneaking up behind her, Lauren rested her chin on Jane’s shoulder. Jane was standing at the step that separated the kitchen from the living room, holding a steaming mug of tea between her palms, pretending to watch
The Thing
while the dual ovens worked away beside her. The scent of roasted meat that coiled through the house only reminded Lauren how hungry she was, not having eaten since breakfast. But Jane’s seemingly steadfast interest in the TV didn’t fool Lauren for a second; Jane hated horror movies. April and Sawyer were sitting on the couch together, Sawyer’s arm looped around that dark-haired pixie’s shoulders.

“Is watching movies about monsters stalking through an icy tundra while
in
an icy tundra kind of masochistic, or is it just me?” Lauren asked. Jane’s mouth quirked up in a halfhearted smirk, as though she had been wondering the same thing. “When’s dinner?” Lauren asked, turning toward the top oven. She cupped her hands against the oven’s glass door and peered inside.

“About an hour,” Jane told her, her gaze still focused on the living room, hypnotized by the couple that sat less than ten yards away, seemingly happy as could be.

“Is it weird?” Lauren asked, her words quiet enough to remain between only them.

Jane finally turned away from the living room and stepped to the kitchen island.

“A little, but it’s good.” She nodded as if affirming her own hushed words. “It clears things up, you know?”

“How’s that?”

Jane lifted her shoulders, letting them fall a moment later. “You stop thinking about it,” she said quietly, casting a glance over her shoulder to make sure the others weren’t eavesdropping. “About the possibilities, you know? I guess it’s kind of nice to know that the cards are off the table.”

Lauren nodded faintly. She admired Jane for her ability to stay positive, sure that if she were in Jane’s position, she’d avoid even looking at April, let alone occupying the same house with her. But that was Jane’s nature. She took the good and discarded the bad; she was nice to everybody, even if they didn’t deserve it, even if she secretly loathed their existence—though Jane would say that everyone deserved kindness and that she didn’t really
hate
anybody. Lauren supposed that sort of compassionate patience came with spending five days a week with a gaggle of kids. Once you could handle that, you could handle just about anything—even a waif of a girl who, in Lauren’s opinion, was trying to look way too French with her glossy jet-black hair and her flawless skin.

“Well, you’re a stronger man than I,” Lauren told her, grabbing an apple from a basket that sat on the island, biting into it before Jane seized it a second later.

“Don’t,” she said. “You’ll ruin your appetite.”

“Okay,
Mom
,” Lauren teased, then turned to the kitchen door when what sounded like something between a growl and a bark echoed from outside.

Jane padded across the kitchen to peer through the glass embedded in the door. “Is Ryan out there?”

“I think he’s in the garage. I saw him dragging the boards through the hall a few minutes ago.”

A snarl tore through the air before one of the trees just beyond the porch shuddered. Lauren blinked, shooting Jane a startled look, a jolt of anxiety lodging itself in her throat. But she laughed quietly when a young doe bounded into view. It looked panicked, terrorized by the husky that was nowhere to be seen.

Jane took a sip of her tea before abandoning the mug next to the kitchen sink with a frown. “She shouldn’t be out there by herself,” she said, marching across the kitchen and down the hall before hanging a right past the laundry room. Lauren followed.

Jane pushed the door to the garage open, the smell of hot paraffin wafting up from five feet below. Down a set of cheap wooden stairs that didn’t match the cabin’s character, Ryan had set up shop; four snowboards lay suspended between two pairs of sawhorses, their colorful undersides exposed. The workbench at his elbow was littered with wax blocks and tuning tools. He didn’t look up, the melodic buzz of his headphones predictably blocking out the rest of the world. Lauren couldn’t help but wonder what he was listening to, whether they had the same taste. They had listened to Jane’s eighties stuff all the way up from Phoenix. He hadn’t complained even once.

It was by her own avoidance that she hadn’t met Ryan before this trip. She had evaded every get-together when she knew he was in town, sidestepped every invite she knew would put them in the same room. His accomplishments intimidated her. His ability to travel the world while she was stuck in 160 square feet of cubicle space made her hate him a little. He was
that
guy: the one everyone secretly detested not because he was loaded, but
because he was free. But the more time she spent around him, the more she wanted to know him.

Lauren bit her bottom lip as she watched him work on her board, the muscles of his arms rippling with each graceful pull of wax.

“Ryan.” Jane tried to get his attention, but Ryan was dead to the world, intently focused on his task. Lauren pushed her hair behind her ears, wondering whether Ryan was thinking about her, wondering if there was a reason he had started with her board rather than his own.

Jane sighed and tried again. “Hello? Damnit.”

“I’ll get him,” Lauren offered, descending the stairs, trying to give Ryan a wide berth so as not to startle him. She stepped around the other side of the sawhorses and waved. Ryan blinked at her before pulling his headphones from his ears.

“Hey,” Lauren said.

“Hey,” he replied. “What the hell did you do?” He drew his fingers across the gash she’d acquired two seasons ago when she just about Sonny Bono’d it into a tree. Lauren blushed as she considered another “accident” if only to have him tend to her wounds.

“Nearly died,” Lauren said lightly, a little embarrassed.

“Oona’s outside,” Jane said from atop the stairs. Ryan glanced up at her, then shook his head as if to ask what the big deal was. “You think that’s a good idea, letting her be outside on her own? What if she gets lost?”

“She’s not going to get lost.”

“Right, until she gets lost,” Jane said. “Besides, it’s annoying.” She motioned toward the door, the barking not only continuing, but growing more incessant by the second.

“Then why didn’t you let her in?” Ryan asked, dropping the block of wax onto his worktable with a frown. “Too difficult? You’d rather come bother me about it?”

“She’s not near the house,” Jane told him. “She’s out there chasing deer.”

“So?”

“Seriously?” Jane’s tone went edgy, and Lauren blinked up at her from the garage in surprise. It was rare to see Jane annoyed, but Lauren supposed that if anyone could push her, it was her brother.

“I’ll go find her,” Lauren announced, trying to alleviate some of the tension. “Janey’s making a five-course meal up there. I just need to grab my coat.”

“Don’t be a jerk,” Jane said from atop the stairs, her gaze still dead set on Ryan.

“What?” He looked perplexed, unsure of what she wanted from him.

“Do
not
make Ren go out there on her own.”

“It’s okay,” Lauren insisted. “I don’t mind.”

Lauren slid a finger across the bottom of her board thoughtfully, fresh wax warming her fingertip. She tried to make out the whispered melody from the buds hanging around Ryan’s neck. It sounded twangy, Jack White or the White Stripes or the Raconteurs. She looked up when the tone of Oona’s bark shifted into something more serious. Ryan straightened, his attention wavering from his sister.

“Would you go get her?” Jane asked, irritation dancing around the edge of her words. “It’s driving me crazy.”

Ryan’s face twisted in concern as the bark grew more frantic. “What the hell?” Stepping over to the cheap pine staircase, he pressed a button on the wall. The garage door whined as it rolled up, cold air unspooling across the bare floor, instantly turning the room into a freezer. Lauren coiled her arms around herself and followed Ryan outside, wincing against the wind. Ryan stood in the chill, seemingly unfazed by the cold as Oona went
crazy somewhere. “Oona!” He yelled the name into the trees, and for a moment the barking ceased. But the silence wasn’t reassuring. When Oona didn’t appear a few seconds later, Ryan marched past the driveway toward the steep slope of the road. Lauren shot back a look to a now obviously concerned Jane.

“Goddamnit,” Jane snapped, then pivoted on her socked feet and rushed through the door behind her back into the house.

“Oona!” Ryan’s voice was carried in the wrong direction by the wind. Lauren pulled the hood of her sweatshirt over her hair and braced herself and walked farther into the bitter cold, her bare fingers clamping the hood closed beneath her chin as storm clouds swirled overhead. She wondered whether the dog could even hear him—Oona could be a mile away and they would still be able to hear her, but Ryan’s call would never make it far enough to reach her ears, carried upon the cutting gale. Lauren’s stomach twisted at the idea of it—their first official day at the cabin and Oona was missing.

Ryan was a quarter of the way down the road when Lauren saw a streak of black and white bound from the trees. She sighed with relief as Oona bolted up the road toward her owner, Ryan crouching down to greet her. But she’d spooked him, and instead of welcoming her home with a ruffle of fur, he grabbed her collar and gave her a stern “no.” Releasing her a second later, he pointed toward the cabin, barking an order as Oona ran past Lauren and skidded into the garage, her tail between her legs.

Lauren had grown up surrounded by dogs; a lazy yellow Lab was waiting for her back in Phoenix. But it didn’t take an expert to see that Oona was scared, and it wasn’t because she’d just been scolded. When Lauren crouched down and took one of the husky’s ears between her finger and thumb, a whine rumbled deep within Oona’s throat, those stunning blue eyes searching for understanding.

“What is it, girl?” Lauren whispered, soothing the animal by pushing her fingers through Oona’s fur.

There was something out there. Oona had seen it.

Jane clasped her hands together as she looked at the table. There were five place settings: two on each side and one at the head, each setting identical to the one beside it—square white plates, their father’s best silverware, delicate crystal wineglasses glinting beneath the glow of an antler chandelier. It was the one of the things she missed the most about married life—she loved being domestic, making fancy meals for no particular occasion at all. Now, after four years together, she was left alone in an apartment big enough for two.

Their father had bought her a three-thousand-dollar wedding dress—one made out of silk organza that made her think of forest nymphs and fairy tales. Their parents had spent the entire day avoiding each other—Michael Adler doting on the girlfriend he had brazenly brought with him to the ceremony, their mother keeping her eyes averted and her emotions in check. After a dozen years apart, they still couldn’t sit at the same table without trying to tear each other’s throats out.

Ryan had sat with Jane in the back room of the church while the quartet played, quiet as a mouse, a hand pressed over his mouth as he stared at the ground like the Thinker. Jane knew he was scared for her. He didn’t trust Alex, afraid that history would repeat itself, that Jane would become their mother, torn apart by a cheating husband. And she was scared too, but she loved Alex; she couldn’t allow herself to be controlled by fear—a face that Ryan couldn’t seem to accept for himself. He had that same pensive look the day she told him Alex was gone, choking on her tears as she described the texts she’d found on his phone. Ryan listened in
silence, his anger dulled by a glint of vindication. She knew what he was thinking without him saying the words: he had predicted the worst four years before, but she hadn’t listened because that was Ryan’s thing—when it came to relationships, he was nothing but doom and gloom. And for nearly four years, everything had been perfect. For four years, Ryan had been wrong.