The Songs of Manolo Escobar
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Authors: Carlos Alba
The Songs of Manolo Escobar
Manolo Escobar
Carlos Alba
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For my mum and dad
I'd like to thank several people for helping with the research for this book: Emilio Silva at the Association for the Recovery of Historical Memory; Valentina Montoya Martinez for sharing her experiences of coming to Britain from Chile as a child, following her country's military coup in 1973; staff at La Biblioteca del Casino de Manresa; staff at the Rif Hotel and El Minzah Hotel in Tangier; and Dr Nathanial Gardner at the Glasgow University School of Modern Languages and Cultures.
I
was five years old when I learned I was Spanish. I came home from school and told Mama I'd been pushed to the ground by a classmate for being a Paki.
âYou're not a Pakistani, you're a Spaniard,' she informed me indignantly.
I returned to school the following day and proudly announced that I was from Spain. I was pushed to the ground by the same classmate for being a Dago.
Even so young, I'd suspected for some time that our family was different. Why, for example, were Pablito, my elder brother, and I dark-haired and tanned when the rest of my classmates had hair the colour of sand, with pale skin and freckles? Why did our family have a second way of speaking, which I didn't understand? Why was ours the only home I knew where the walls were full of pictures of serious-faced men in waistcoats and tight trousers?
âWe come from another country, another culture,' Mama told me, which at least helped to explain why my parents were a mama and a papa and not a ma and a da, why they sat glued to the BBC World Service every night with expectant looks on their faces and left in their wake the faint whiff of garlic and Aqua Velva.
Ours was not a neighbourhood that celebrated diversity. Difference was tolerated only if it conformed to expectations: Pakistanis were poor and they ran shops; Italians were well off and they ran cafés; Spaniards slept in the afternoons and lived in Spain. There was no reason for them to be in Mosspark, where there was no afternoon sun to be slept through and where the retail sector had already been sewn up by the Pakistanis and the Italians.
At primary school the teachers, all of them floral-frock-wearing spinsters, insisted on anglicising my name.
âHis name's Antonio,' Mama pointed out.
âWe prefer Anthony,' my Primary One teacher replied with a dismissive tilt of her nose.
âBut his name's Antonio,' Mama insisted, a note of exasperation creeping into her voice.
Mosspark's ignorance of all things Iberian was reflected in the unwanted nicknames that followed me around throughout my childhood â like Greaser or Dago, and, inevitably, Manuel, after the fictional waiter. At least he was actually Spanish. I was also likened to Speedy Gonzalez, the sombrero-wearing Mexican cartoon mouse; Rangi Ram, the Indian lackey from
It Ain't Half Hot Mum
; and Idi Amin, the president of Uganda.
Coming to terms with being an outsider in my own country was hard, and the worst of it was I seemed to be alone. Pablito was happy enough to flaunt his foreignness, correcting friends when they mispronounced his name, peppering his sentences with Spanish words and eating Mama's cooking without complaint.
But I didn't want to be different. When I was about seven, I made a conscious effort not to learn any more Spanish, and I used that ignorance as a weapon against my parents. Although Mama was trying to learn English and was happy to practise with me, my stubborn refusal to speak or even allow myself to understand Spanish at home provoked a series of angry exchanges with Papa.
â
Habla español
,' he constantly ordered.
âI don't want to speak in Spanish,' I replied.
â
En ese caso, no dicen nada
,' he said. âThen don't say anything.'
I didn't care. I wanted to be like my friends. I
wanted
to be Anthony, not Antonio. I wanted to eat sausages and fish suppers, not
chorizo
and
pescaÃto frito.
I wanted to be normal.
One wet Monday morning in the playground, Bobby Miller â known to all as Max â told me that I'd never be able to play football for Scotland.
âBut I was born here â that makes me Scottish,' I protested.
âDisnae work like that. It's yer da that decides who you can play fur,' Max Miller insisted. âY'ill huv tae play fur the Dagos.'
It didn't seem fair. I wanted to play for Scotland. I'd seen the footage of the oily, moustachioed Atlético Madrid players kicking wee Jimmy Johnstone up and down the park when they played Celtic in the European Cup, and, along with every other Scottish supporter, I was appalled.
When I consulted Mama on the matter, she said I could play for either country because I had dual nationality. This sounded like a disease. But if it meant I could play for Scotland, I was prepared to accept it.
âI
can
play for Scotland. I have
dual nationality
,' I told Max Miller the next day, enunciating the words slowly and deliberately.
This seemed to silence him, but worse was to come. The following week, he appeared in school brandishing a copy of
The Victor
which included a strip where Matt Braddock, VC and bar â the valiant British Second World War flying ace â single-handedly foiled a Nazi plot to smuggle arms to beastly Irish collaborators through the Iberian peninsula, assisted by equally beastly Spanish fascists. Braddock's swashbuckling heroics were accompanied by speech bubbles containing imperatives such as âTake that, snivelling Nazi Quislings!' and âEat lead, Hitler-loving swine!'
âYou helped the Jerries in the war,' Max Miller spat at me accusingly. âYou cannae be on Britain's side any more.'
âWhat are you talking about? I always fight on Britain's side,' I protested. I didn't want to be banished to fight alongside the friendless dunces who made up the German forces in our daily breaktime game of Commandos.
âWe cannae take the chance,' he said through grinning teeth. âHow dae we know you willnae give away secrets tae the Nazis?'
Max Miller had done his homework. He'd consulted with his Uncle Eddie, who'd informed him that thousands of Spanish soldiers and workers had flooded into Germany to help with the Nazi war effort.
I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Surely it couldn't be true? Was I really descended from a nation of Nazi sympathisers? All the stiff-upper-lip values of straight-batted, battling-Jerry-for-Blighty honesty ingrained in my psyche from years of watching the on-screen exploits of Trevor Howard and Jack Hawkins seemed like a sick joke. I may have been a British subject, but I was a second-class British subject, I now realised â and, if Max Miller's playground straw poll was anything to go by, I was only in Britain under sufferance.
âWhy you wanna know about the bloody war?' Papa demanded angrily that evening as we ate dinner.
âA boy in my class says Spain was on the same side as the Jerries.'
âYou tell yer friend tae mind his bloody business.'
âBut is it true?' I asked desperately.
Papa stopped eating. He put down his fork and looked into my eyes. His face broke into a warm, reassuring smile.
âNa, is nae true,' he said, ruffling my hair. âYou tell yer friend he talk a load a bloody rubbish.'
I
made my way down an impossibly steep and narrow wooden staircase. On either side, walls were plastered with posters advertising obscure musical acts like Chainsaw Armageddon and Satan's Rampant Fuckstick.
At the foot of the stairs a stiff door opened into a darkened, smoke-filled room where the unmistakable, musky stench of dope hung heavy in the air. A few shabby, wooden tables were populated by pale, gaunt men dressed mainly in black leather. Thumping, primal rhythms boomed from large speakers. If hell had bars, I felt sure they looked like this.
Is this what I'd spent five years at university and journalism college preparing for? I'd been asking myself this with increasing frequency of late. Earlier in the day I'd been in Bournemouth to interview Britain's youngest mother, a sullen eleven-year-old who chain-smoked through our exchange while her lumpy-faced mother pored over the details of their contract with the paper. The putative father whom they'd promised I could meet failed to materialise. Why, as a political editor, I should be despatched on such a mission was beyond me. But then job titles didn't seem to mean anything any more in our ever-dwindling pool of talent. You did what you had to do.
âIt's got social repercussions,' Kevin the so-called news editor had insisted. âIt's all about Broken Britain. That's politics, isn't it?'
After leaving the family to prepare for their imminent infamy, I was making my way back up to London to catch a train to Scotland to visit my parents when Kevin rang again. A reader had been in touch, claiming to have mobile-phone footage of Nigel Piers, the junior environment minister, fellating a Somali
rent boy in a public toilet in Clapton. That was hardly news, I pointed out, but Kevin assured me that wasn't the real story. Piers, the rent boy claimed, had later taken him to Petrus and told him to order what he liked as he'd be claiming the meal on expenses.
The rent boy had demonstrated admirable resourcefulness in snapping the receipt with his phone while Piers was taking a piss, and he was willing to hand over all of the evidence for a price to be negotiated. I was told to meet him in this fetid dungeon in Canning Town and to go no higher than five grand.
A wall of lifeless eyes locked on to me, and I felt myself sweating coldly. I slipped open the top button of my shirt and loosened my tie. I became aware of someone standing in the doorway, immediately behind me, a little too close for comfort. It was the same figure I'd caught sight of outside in the street, minutes earlier. I'd only seen him from behind, but it had been enough for me to make a mental note that this was someone to avoid in a dark alley. He was tall, with greasy black hair tied in a ponytail. Daubed in white paint on the back of his leather biker's jacket were the words âCradle of Filth'. Dirty, ripped jeans hung loosely around his shapeless arse, their legs tucked into knee-length motorcycle boots. On each wrist he wore a black leather cuff, studded with chrome spikes.
It flashed through my mind that perhaps he'd followed me in. I looked away, trying to ignore him. He moved closer. I tensed as I felt his hand rest on my shoulder.