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Authors: Grace Livingston Hill

“I shouldn’t say so, miss. I’ve tinkered with anything that was out of the way myself. But you can see when you look around.”

So Mary Elizabeth entered the large, old rooms shrouded in memories of a bygone generation.

Big, wide rooms with fine white matting on the floors and many comfortable willow chairs, and couches with cushions of faded but fine texture. Quaint old pictures on the walls, some of them very fine, done by artists of renown. Long sheer curtains at the windows, floating in the breeze. Mary Elizabeth looked at them in wonder.

“Are these the old curtains? I would have thought they would have dropped to pieces.”

“Yes, they are the original curtains that were up when we came here to take care o’ the place. But Susan, she took care o’ them. She kept them washed and folded away where they wouldn’t mold nor rot, and now and again she’s done them up to have them ready in case some o’ the family came back. She wanted it to look like home for them.”

“And now we’ve come,” said Mary Elizabeth. “I’m glad! And it looks so nice. It seems just as it was when I was a child.”

“Well, we figured you might like it,” said the man with a pleased grin. “We didn’t get all the curtains hung yet, of course, but we went to work as soon as the wire came this morning, and we got all downstairs and two bedrooms done. I’m glad you like it. Now, I’ll call Susan.”

Susan came in a clean blue gingham dress, with her hands wrapped embarrassedly in her white apron and her face shining with welcome.

“It’s wonderful, Susan,” said Mary Elizabeth. “I came down here expecting to find things all run down and needing a lot of repairs before we could be comfortable here, but it seems everything is perfectly all right and doesn’t need a thing done to it.”

“I’m glad yer pleased!” said Susan, her face shining with pleasure. “I been hoping ye’d come some summer. It seems such a nice, pretty old house.”

“It is!” said the girl, looking around with loving eyes. “I love it here! I don’t know why we never came before. But we’re staying here this summer. My father will be down weekends sometimes, and as often between as he can spare the time.”

They went over the house eagerly, Sam as interested as anybody.

“Say, this is a swell joint!” he said.

But Sam didn’t waste much time in the house. He took possession of the room allotted to him, hung up the things he had brought with him, jammed himself into his bathing suit, and was off down to the beach.

Mary Elizabeth went about in a daze of bliss. It seemed somehow, as she trod the old halls and went into the rooms that had once been dear and familiar, as if her own mother had left the impress of her sweet spirit there, and by and by when Susan left to prepare the evening meal, Mary Elizabeth took out the letter from her stranger-beloved and went to her mother’s own room to read it over again. It gave her a sense of confiding in her mother, reading it there where she could remember sitting on a little footstool beside her mother, playing with her dolls.

Somehow the letter took on new sanctity, read there. She could fancy telling her mother all about it, what the stranger-best-man had said going down that aisle, what had happened all the evening, and his farewell at the station. It seemed, read in the light of a mother’s eyes, as if John Saxon would bear the scrutiny and have a loving mother’s approval.

Sometime she would tell her father all about him, but not yet. Not just yet!

The summons to dinner came while she was still sitting in her mother’s big chair by the window, looking out between the pines to the sea, dreaming.

She had seen Sam come dripping up from the sea and vanish into the house, and now she could hear him clattering down the stairs, hungry from his swim. So she tucked her letter away into safety and went down. Tomorrow, or perhaps the next day, she must answer that letter. She hadn’t yet felt ready to answer a letter like that. There were so many things to be considered about it. But soon she must answer it. She must not wait too long! It was as if the content and wonder into which his letter had led her were a spell too precious to be broken, a dream from which she was not ready yet to wake. And she felt instinctively that to answer that letter was to make more definite one way or the other this marvelous thing that had come so unexpectedly into her life. For the time, she was so lifted out of the conventions of life that she feared to get back into them by the formalities of correspondence, lest she might lose some part of the wonder that had touched her soul. Afraid, lest facing facts, Wisdom might step in and forbid the joy that was welling up inside her.

So she put it off, the writing of that letter, from day to day for three days more, going about as in a lovely dream, allowing her mind to frame tender phrases that hovered on her lips in a smile and made her so lovely that even Sam looked at her and wondered.

The second morning there came a letter for Sam, forwarded from home. And there were also letters from her father and uncle for Mary Elizabeth, her father giving directions for certain modern improvements in the way of plumbing to be installed in the house, for renovation of the old stable into a garage, and for several minor repairs and changes to be made in the house before he came down.

From her uncle came a brief note telling Mary Elizabeth that her Aunt Clarice had gone to the mountains with a friend and that therefore Sam was at her service as long as she wanted him, but that she was to return him to his home whenever she grew tired of his company. Sam could be in the office with him a good deal and would get along well enough if he grew troublesome to her, or she was bored with having a child about.

She looked up from these letters to find Sam at her feet sprawled on the upper step of the piazza, absorbed in a letter of his own. She watched him for a moment, for there was an eagerness in his quietness that interested her.

“Did you get a letter from your mother?” she asked, wondering if the matter of camp were still hovering in the offing.

“Gosh, no!” he said. “It’s from Mr. Saxon! He’s sent the new Bible lesson for this week! Gee! I gotta get ta work!”

“Oh,” said Mary Elizabeth with a heightened color in her cheeks, “is he—back at home—again—yet?”

“Oh, sure!” said Sam. “He’s back. He’d been working in the orange grove all day the night he wrote this. Wantta read it?” And Sam handed up the letter into her hungry hand.

It was just a brief, simple letter, as if an older brother were writing to a beloved younger one, yet the girl’s eyes lingered on every pleasant word.

Dear Sam:

I got back home last night late and have been working in the grove all day, so haven’t had much time to write, but I made out the lesson for this week on the way down and enclose it. Am anxious to know how you got on with the first two lessons, and I shall hope to hear from you soon. If you find the work too hard, let me know. I’m hoping it interests you as much as it has me to get it ready for you
.

Your friend in Christ
,

John Saxon

What a friend for a boy to have! What a tie to claim, “in Christ”! Mary Elizabeth felt a passing pang at the sure, strong bond that bound them and gave a half-envious smile at the boy as she handed it back. There was no disturbing separation between those two; it was all settled. It was a friendship, a fellowship, that nothing could break. There were no disturbing questions to settle.

“This looks like a corker!” said the boy, lifting his eyes from the other paper he held. “Wantta see it?”

Mary Elizabeth accepted the other sheet and ran her eyes down at the startling questions, the strange symbolic abbreviations, and her eyes grew large with earnestness.

“It looks,” said Mary Elizabeth searching for the right word, “it looks rather startling! I’m afraid I wouldn’t know how to go to work to answer those questions.”

“Aw, the references’ll answer those,” said Sam easily, “only sometimes ya havta use yer head. How’d it be if I get my Bible and show ya?”

“I’d love it,” said Mary Elizabeth fervently. “But have you a Bible with you? I don’t know whether there would be such a thing about this house or not.”

“Oh, sure! That’s part of it. We fellas always carry our Bibles wherever we go. We all got small ones that don’t take up much room fer traveling!”

Sam tore up the stairs three steps at a time and returned with a small, limp Bible of surprisingly supple and diminutive proportions, and sat himself down on the upper step again.

“Now, Mary Beth,” he commanded, “you read out the questions and references, and I’ll look ’em up and read ’em!”

So for nearly two hours through that long, bright morning the two sat on the piazza and studied the Bible together. Questions grew out of the first question, and Sam found he had to go back to foundation principles and give some of the instruction that had been given to him during his winter in the Florida scout camp with John Saxon, but both the young teacher and the learner were so deeply engaged in the study that they were surprised, when the lunch bell rang, to discover that the morning had fled.

Bright-faced, the boy got up from the step and tossed back his sandy hair that matched his golden freckles and grinned at her.

“Gee! I was going crabbing this morning, but I guess it doesn’t matter. Anyhow, I’m glad I got this lesson worked out. It’s lots more fun having you do it with me. I wish I had somebody all the time. I hope I didn’t bore you.”

“Why, I think it’s wonderful!” said Mary Elizabeth. “If you don’t mind, I’d like to study it every week with you, unless you think Mr. Saxon might mind. This isn’t a secret organization, is it? This fellowship of yours?”

“Not on yer life!” said Sam. “We’re out ta get everybody studying we can. I’ll tell Mr. Saxon I got a new recruit.”

Mary Elizabeth’s cheeks flamed.

“Well, perhaps you’d better not, just yet, Sam. It might make me sort of embarrassed, you know. I’d rather wait till I learn a little more. You see, I don’t know so much about it yet. Just keep it to yourself awhile, Buddie.”

“Okay!” agreed Sam cheerfully and grinned as if he understood. And so they went in to lunch.

After lunch Sam went with Frank Bateman out in his boat for a little crabbing and later to watch the hauling in of the deep-sea nets.

But Mary Elizabeth sat on the porch and faced her future.

Chapter 13

T
he day that Mary Elizabeth finally wrote her first letter to John Saxon, Sam had gone off to the inlet with Frank Bateman. They had taken a lunch, and Mary Elizabeth had the day before her uninterrupted.

She had been invited to go along but had declined on the plea that she had letters to write and would go another time. So quite early in the middle morning she took her writing materials and established herself in a great steamer chair where she could look out across the vista of pines and lawn and see the wide blue sea and sometimes catch a glimpse of a great wave curling high and breaking in foam on the white sand through the lacework of the iron grille that surrounded the estate.

A long time she sat with pen in hand, gazing afar, where a little white toy of a boat tossed on the blue horizon, trying to decide how to begin. She wasn’t just sure how much of her heart she was willing to reveal in that first word she would put upon the paper, but at last she began to write:

Dear Breath-taking One:

I have been waiting a few days since receiving your letter, trying to get my feet down to earth again after being up in the clouds with you! For you must own you were unexpected, to say the least.

You see, you had the advantage of me—you having been looking for me a long time. You said you were afraid that the traditions of my family had prepared me for a more conventional form of prince, less interesting, less eager, more calculating! That was what I was brought up to expect in a man. My highest dreams had not dared to snatch at such a romance as you flung at me so unexpectedly coming down that aisle.

And so I’ve had to get my bearings, and my breath, before I answered you.

Not because your letter did not also carry me away again, but because I sensed that this was the gravest, most serious thing that would ever come into my life, and I must not write this lightly, as I have always taken all things in life so far. I wanted to weigh every word of my reply and be sure I answered you as you had a right to be answered. Your letter means too much to me to be answered on the spur of the moment.

So I have come down to Seacrest, to an old summer home we have had a good many years, where we used to come when I was a child when my mother was living. It seems more like home than any other place on earth now, with memories in every corner and the blue sea stretched out before me. It seemed to me a place where I could be still enough to think and alone enough to talk with you.

I brought my young cousin Sam along, whom you know. But he is away crabbing for the day, and I am alone with you.

If I were a painter I could make you see where I am sitting looking over toward the sea. If I were a musician I could make you hear the melody the waves and pines are making in such perfect rhythm. If I were a poet, like you, I could tell you how the sea and sky and pines and the perfume of the roses growing over the porch and the quiet of the big old house behind me, full of dear memories of the past, are combining to make a haven for me where I can talk to you, this first time, as I did not feel I could back in the city.

But I am neither poet nor painter nor musician, only a shallow girl who has gone about like a butterfly, tasting of this flower and that all over the earth, wherever a bright bloom called me. Never before have I come face-to-face with a great love and a great wonder and been able to call them mine. Therefore, I approach the matter with deep reverence and heart-searching.

And now, I have the advantage of you! For you seem only to have found out about my financial and social position and the possible traditions that belong to the family of Wainwright, while I have been learning much of your inner life from one of your most devoted admirers, my young cousin, Sam, who seems to be remodeling his life after the pattern that you have given him.

You cannot know what it has been to me to learn of you in this way, out of the mouth of a guileless child who adores you. And the more I have learned, the more I am filled with humility and awe to know that you should have put your love upon such a one as I.

You have been blaming yourself for the beautiful thing that you did, in confessing your love, because you think that perhaps I have more money than you or a higher social rank in this world!

But don’t you know that such great love as you have to offer far outweighs any such differences as those? Just material differences! And anyway, if I give you my love, wouldn’t any wealth and position I might have be yours also, just as any other asset I might have, such as hair and eyes and smiles and the like?

And you have tried to humble yourself for matters of that sort! But I, far more, for another reason!

Why, John Saxon, you made me feel for a few paragraphs that you were sorry for what you had done, that you repented having told me of your love. You made me jealous of that poor other girl—Helen Foster, whom neither of us has ever seen—until I read on farther and found your love again, and that healed the hurt. But it made me know as I read on, that it was my place to be humble, not yours.

Because you have something that makes a far greater difference between us than wealth or station. You have God, and I don’t know Him! And I’m afraid He doesn’t approve of me!

It is not that I mind being second to your God. I would count it a great honor to be so near to God as that. But John Saxon, beloved stranger, I’m afraid He wouldn’t want me there! He wouldn’t think I was worthy to be near you.

In fact, ever since your letter came, I have felt your God standing near me, looking through my soul, and I feel so small and shamed and utterly undone, I need to hide somewhere. I never knew a God before, not so near. I never thought about God before at all! And you are His!

You see now, don’t you, that it is not money, nor family, nor position that should separate us, but your God!

I feel that perhaps you know this already.

But I love you, oh I love you, John Saxon, beloved stranger! I never loved anyone this way before. I never knew there was such love!

And you have said that you will pray for me!

It seems to me that I shall go reverently all my days, just because you have made mention of my name to God.

Mary Elizabeth

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