One dolphin is much small er than the others. A young one, probably a calf born in the spring. It’s almost a baby, even in dolphin terms.
Dad taught me about dolphins. He loved them. He took loads of photographs of them. He knew the ones that came back year after year, but he said it was wrong to give dolphins human names and human characteristics.
They
know what their names are,
he always said.
They have their
own language. They’re better communicators than we are.
The dolphin calf is swimming close to his mother. She’ll be taking him south soon, to warmer waters. Wherever the dolphins are, Ingo is there too, I remember that. Even when they show their backs above the water or leap right through the skin into the Air, they still carry Ingo with them. So Ingo must be very close….
A pod is like a family of dolphins, and here they are, playing in full view of the humans they ought to fear. I count them. Six…eight…eleven…yes, Will is right, there are twelve dolphins here. They don’t seem at all afraid of us. But they should be afraid. Why should they trust a boatload of humans?
They’re coming closer and closer inshore. People on the beach are waving and clapping. Will switches off the engine and lets the boat rock. A long swel moves under the water’s surface. Little waves slap the side of our boat. I sit forward, tense, waiting. Something is about to happen. Every sound, even the noises of the sea and the people cheering the dolphins, seems to die away.
One of the dolphins leaps high out of the water.
“She’s seen us. She wants to talk to us,” I say under my breath to Conor. Mal glances at me.
Conor turns casually and murmurs in my ear, “Be careful, Saph.”
Will stands up, legs braced for balance, camera in hand.
“Should be able to get some good shots from here,” he says.
I was wrong. It isn’t quiet at all . Sound floods across the water in a wave. The dolphins are talking to one another.
There are a dozen voices, weaving together, clicking and whistling, fil ing the sea with a net of sound. Cautiously, so that my weight balances Will ’s, I stand up too.
“Careful, Saph,” says Conor again.
They want to come to the surface. They want to talk to us.
What is it? What’s happening?
“Beautiful,” says Will . He has got his shots. “I’m going to blow up these images into posters.”
“Hush. Listen.”
“What is it?” asks Mal.
“Don’t talk. I can’t hear what they’re saying if you talk.”
“They do say dolphins have their own language,” says Will .
Now I hear it. It’s like tuning in to stations on an old-fashioned radio. The airwaves wheeze and crackle. There’s a snatch of music, then something that might be words in a foreign language. One of the dolphins leaps so close to the boat that its wake catches us, our boat rocks, and Mal’s dad has to struggle to keep his balance.
“This…is…amazing,” says Mal in a low, awestruck voice.
“I’ve never seen them come in so close. Look at him there.” It’s not a male; it’s a female. An adult female with broad, shining sides and small , dark, intelligent eyes that look at me with recognition. Of course. Of course. I know her. I know the shape of her—her powerful fluke that drives her through the water and her dorsal fin. I know what her skin feels like when I’m riding on her back with the sea rushing past me. I know her voice and the power of the muscles beneath her skin.
“Hello,” I say. My voice makes only the feeblest click and whistle, like a baby trying to talk dolphin. She turns, swims away from the boat fast, then turns again and rushes the boat. Three meters from us, she stops dead. Water surges, and her eyes gleam, catching mine.
“That is just
so am-az-ing
,” says Mal again. Even though he’s Cornish, Mal likes to sound American, or maybe it’s meant to be Australian. He thinks it’s cool.
“I reckon she’s having a game with us,” says his father.
“They’re playful creatures, dolphins.”
She’s not playing. You can tell that from her voice. Lots of other voices are breaking in, all of them dolphin voices, some close, some far away. They weave a net of urgent sound, but her voice rises above them all.
.
kommolek arvor trist arvor
truedhek arvor
arvor
kommolek
lowenek moryow
Ingo lowenek
The dolphin language weaves like music. I hear some of it, and then it slides away. It rushes over my mind, teasing and tickling. I can’t grasp it.
“Please help me. I can’t understand what you’re saying.” She is very close to the boat now. Her eyes look directly into mine, powering their intelligence into me. But I can’t decode it; I can’t get there. My brain fizzes with irritation, just as it does when I’m on the point of solving a puzzle in mathematics.
And then the connection breaks.
“Hey, Sapphire, that was fantastic fake dolphin language you were talking!” says Mal, and the dolphin turns and dives back to the pod. I think it’s Mal’s appreciation that is fake, but I say nothing. Conor is watching me, silently willing me to shut up and not draw any more attention to myself. And I certainly don’t want everyone in St. Pirans to think that I’m a crazy girl who converses with dolphins.
I haven’t conversed with the dolphin. I didn’t understand her, and I don’t think she understood me. My brain and tongue couldn’t break the barrier this time, into Mer. The dolphin was so close, struggling to make me hear her, but I couldn’t. Maybe moving to St. Pirans has taken me farther from Ingo altogether. I’m losing what I used to know. At this rate I will never, ever speak full Mer. A wave of despair washes over me, and I huddle down into the bottom of the boat.
Mal tags along all the way back to our house. Conor asks him in, but I say nothing.
Leave us alone, go away,
I think.
As if he has picked up my thoughts, Mal says, “All right then, I’ll be getting along. See you, Conor. Um, see you, Sapphire.”
“’Bye.”
As soon as we’re inside the house, Conor says, “You might be more friendly to Mal. He likes you.”
“He doesn’t even know me.”
“Okay, he only
thinks
he likes you. But you don’t have to be so hard on him. You don’t have to dive away when anyone comes near you.”
I hug Sadie so I can hide my face in her neck. Conor isn’t going to be deflected.
“That dolphin, Saph.”
“Which dolphin?”
“You know which dolphin. The one you were talking to.”
“I couldn’t talk to her properly. I was trying really hard, but I couldn’t. I think it might have been because I was in the Air and she was in Ingo. Even when dolphins leap out of the water, they are still in Ingo. Faro told me that. Or maybe I’m just forgetting everything.”
It’s the first time Faro’s name has passed between us for weeks. Conor frowns.
“Why did the dolphins come? Was it a message from Faro?”
“No. It wasn’t anything to do with Faro, I’m sure of that. It wasn’t exactly a message
from
Ingo; it was
about
Ingo. The dolphins were trying to tell me something, but I wasn’t quick enough. I couldn’t pick it up.”
“Did you want to?”
“What do you mean?”
“What I just said. Did you want to pick up their message?”
“Of course I did. It was
Ingo
, Conor, trying to communicate with me. With us,” I add hastily.
“You don’t have to pretend. It was you the dolphin was talking to. But what I want to know is, Do you want to listen?
Do you really want all that to begin again?”
“Conor, how could I not want it? It’s
Ingo
.” Conor’s eyes search my face. A strange thought strikes me. Conor is trying to decode me, in the same way I was trying to decode the language of the dolphins. But Conor and I belong to the same species. We’re brother and sister, for heaven’s sake. After a while Conor says very quietly,
“You could stop wanting it if you tried. But you don’t try, Saph.”
I struggle to explain. “It’s not like that. I don’t have a choice. I feel as if I’m only half here. Only half alive. Our life here in St. Pirans is all wrong for me. I feel as if I’m watching it on TV, not living it. Oh, Conor, I wish I was away in Ingo—”
“Don’t say that!”
“It’s true.”
“I know,” says Conor slowly and heavily. “You can’t help wanting what you want. I don’t blame you, Saph. I do know how you feel. It’s so powerful, so magical. It draws you. It draws me too. But I think that if you try as hard as you can— if you really struggle—you can stop yourself taking the next step.”
“What next step?”
Conor shrugs. “I don’t know. I was thinking aloud.” His voice changes and becomes teasing instead of deadly serious. “But there’s something you haven’t thought of, Saph. You’re so keen to talk to dolphins that you’re forgetting Sadie.”
“What?”
“They don’t have dogs in Ingo, Saph.”
As if she’s heard him, Sadie pushes up close to me, nuzzling in. She always knows when things are wrong and tries to make them better. Her brown eyes are fixed on my face. How could I have forgotten Sadie, even for a minute?
They don’t have dogs in Ingo.
Maybe they do. Maybe they could. Sadie’s not like an ordinary dog. Could she come with me through the skin of the water and dive into Ingo? I don’t know. I try to picture Sadie’s golden body swimming free, deep in Ingo, with her nostrils closed so that the water won’t enter them. But it doesn’t work; the picture I create in my mind looks like a seal swimming, not like Sadie at all .
Sadie whines. It’s a pleading, plaintive sound from deep in her throat. She puts her front paws up in my lap until her whiskers tickle my face.
“You’d never have got Sadie without Roger,” Conor goes on. “He really pressured Mum.”
I know that’s true, but I don’t feel like agreeing with Conor just now. Besides, why bring up Roger? Roger may have been the one who made sure I got Sadie, but he’s also taken Mum and split my family apart.
Sadie gazes at me reproachful y, as if begging me to admit that my version isn’t quite true.
Who split your family
apart, Sapphire? Was it Roger, or was it your own father,
who loved you and Conor so much that he left you both
without a backward look or even a note to let you know
where he was going?
Your father, who has never seen you or spoken to you
since.
Angry, bitter thoughts rise in my mind. I’m so used to loving Dad, but I’m beginning to realize that it’s also possible to hate him. Why did he go? What father who cared about his children would take his boat out in the middle of the night and never return? I can taste the bitterness in my mouth.
No, I’m not going to let that wave of anger drown me. I’m going to ride it. Dad disappeared for a reason. It’s just that he hasn’t been able to explain it to us yet.
Suddenly an upstairs window bangs. Our house here in St. Pirans is tiny, even small er than the cottage. Downstairs there’s one large living room, with the kitchen built into one end. Upstairs is larger because the house has something called a flying freehold. This sounds more exciting than it is.
All it means is that part of this house is built above the house next door. We have three bedrooms and a bathroom. My room is so small that a single bed only just fits into it, but I don’t mind that at all because the room also has a round porthole window that hinges at the side and swings open exactly like a real porthole on a ship.
Mine is the only window in the house from which you can see the sea. My bedroom is part of the flying freehold. I like it because it feels so separate from the rest of the house. I can’t hear Mum and Roger talking. I’m independent. When I kneel up on my bed and stare out to sea, I can imagine I’m on a ship sailing northeast out of Polquidden, out of the bay altogether, and into deep water—
The window bangs again, harder. The wind’s getting up.
This is the season for storms. When storms come, salt spray will blow right over the top of the houses. I can’t wait to hear the sea roaring in the bay like a lion.
“Better shut your window, Saph.”
“Are you sure it’s my window that’s banging?”
“Yeah. No one else’s bangs like that. Your porthole’s much heavier than the other windows.”
Conor was right. The porthole has blown wide open. I kneel up on my bed and peer out. Beyond the jumble of slate roofs there’s a gap in the row of studios and cottages through which I can glimpse the sea. The wind is whipping white foam off the tops of waves. Gul s soar on the thermals, screaming to one another. We’re very close to the water here. I’m used to living up on the cliff at Senara, and it still seems strange to live at sea level.
“I’m going down to the beach,” Conor shouts up the stairs.
“I’ll come with you.”
The wind’s really blowing up now. It pushes against us as we come round the corner of the houses and onto the steps.
“Do you think there’ll be a storm?”
Conor shakes his head. “No. The barometer’s fall en since this morning, but it’s steady now. It’l be a blow, that’s all .”
We jump down onto the sand. The cottages and studios are built in a line, right on the edge of the beach. The ground-floor windows have big storm shutters that were hinged back when we first arrived, but now they are shut and barred. Some of the shutters are already half buried in sand that was swept up in the storms we had around the equinox, in late September.
Sand could easily bury these houses. Imagine waking up one morning and finding the room dark because sand has blown right up to the top of your windows. Or maybe it wouldn’t be sand at all , but water. You could be looking at the inside of the waves breaking on the other side of the glass. And then the glass would break under the pressure, and the sea would rush in.