The Tin Can Tree (18 page)

“I said something,” Simon told her.

Mrs. Hammond kept watching him, but he didn’t explain any further. Finally she turned back to Mrs. Pike and said, “Sit up, Lou,” and pulled her by the shoulders, struggling against the dead weight of her. “What’s the matter?” she asked. She looked into Mrs. Pike’s face, at her dry wide eyes and the white mark that the sewing-machine wheel had made down the center of her forehead. “What’s the matter?” she asked again. But Mrs. Pike only rocked back and forth, and Simon and Joan stared at the floor.

A
ll Tuesday morning, Ansel had visitors. The first one was Joan. She mustn’t have stayed long because she came and went while James was emptying the garbage, which only took a minute. When he returned Ansel said, “Joan’s been here,” and then dumped a cupped handful of sunflower hulls into an ashtray and sat down to read the paper.

“What’d she want?” James asked.

“Oh, nothing,” said Ansel. He opened the paper out and stayed hidden behind it, and with just one tuft of pale hair on the top of his head exposed to view. “You won’t have to work tobacco today,” he added as an afterthought.

“How’s that?”

But Ansel didn’t answer. Ever since he had awakened he had been angry; James could tell by his long silences, but he knew there was no point asking what was wrong. So he went on fixing breakfast, and while he was doing that he figured out that Joan must have come to say her uncle was working today. He flipped over a fried egg that was burning and called, “Ansel?”

“Hmmm.”

“Is Roy Pike working today?”

But that was another question he never got the answer to. All he heard was the steady thumping of Ansel’s foot (Ansel kept time to everything he read, as if it were a poem) and the crackling of newspaper pages. He didn’t try asking again.

The second visitor was Maisie Hammond. She came while Ansel was eating breakfast off the Japanese tray, and when she walked in Ansel said, “Um. Maisie,” and went on munching on his fried egg. (It was one of those days when James had brought a tray without being asked, simply because it was more comfortable to eat in the kitchen alone. Ansel had said, “
Well
. I see you’ve taken up cooking again,” which hadn’t even made sense.) Maisie was wearing a white summer dress with a full skirt, and she stood over his couch like Florence Nightingale and bent down to inspect Ansel’s egg. “What’s that?” she asked.

“Fried egg, of course.”

“It looks kind of funny.”

“It’s James’s,” said Ansel.

“Ah.” And she turned around, so that now she could see James where he sat eating in the kitchen. “Hey, James,” she said.

“Hello, Maisie.”

“Taken any pictures lately?”

“No.”

That seemed to end the conversation; she turned back to Ansel. “You mind if I sit on your couch?” she asked.

“I’d prefer the armchair.”

“Well.”

She settled on the very edge of the armchair, spreading her skirt around her. When she bent her head toward Ansel, with the tow-white hair falling over her face, the morning sun seemed to pass right through her
hair. She looked like glass. James studied her through the doorway as he munched on a piece of toast, but she didn’t look his way again. “I came to ask you to a picnic,” she told Ansel.

“Oh, no. Thank you anyway.”

“Aunt Connie’s giving it.”

“Well, it’s nice of you to ask,” Ansel said.

“Don’t you
want
to come?”

“Oh, I can’t. James, I’m through with my tray.”

“Put it on the table,” said James.

“There’s too much other stuff there.”

James scraped his chair back and went to the living room, still chewing his piece of toast. By the time he reached the couch, Ansel was already preparing to lie down; he held the tray out in one hand, while he swung his feet up onto the couch.

“Ansel won’t come to Aunt Connie’s picnic,” Maisie said.

“That’s too bad,” said James. He picked the tray up and went back to the kitchen.

“He just won’t be reasoned with,” Maisie called after him.

“Maybe he don’t feel up to it.”

“Will you hush?” Ansel asked. “
I’m
not giving any excuses; why should you?”

James made another trip back for the salt and pepper, which were sitting on the arm of the sofa. As he bent to pick them up, Maisie said, “Will you talk to him?”

“Nothing I can say.”

“Why doesn’t he ever go places?”

“That’s
my
secret,” Ansel said. They looked at him. He was lying on his back, with his hands crossed over his chest as if he expected to be laid out any minute, and his eyes were staring upwards, wide and blank. But
now that he had their attention, all he did was switch his eyes suddenly to the window overhead and say, “Well, now. Yonder goes a jet.”

They both waited, still watching him.

“Little white tail behind it,” he said finally.

“Are you in some pain?” Maisie asked.

“Well, yes.”

She looked across at James. “Ansel’s in pain,” she told him. But James just sat down on a wooden chair, still holding the salt and pepper, and stretched his legs out comfortably in front of him. If Ansel began an answer by saying, “Well,” there was no use believing him.

“What shall I do?” Maisie asked him.

“I don’t know.”

“Get him a hot water bottle?”

“Hot water bottle on my
feet
won’t help,” said Ansel.

“Oh. Is it your feet that hurt?”

“I think it is.”

“I declare,” said Maisie, and then looked at James again, but he didn’t offer any suggestions. Finally she said, “Is that why you won’t come to the picnic?”

“No.”

“It’s not till Sunday, you know. You’d be all better by then.”

“I just don’t want to come,” Ansel said. “But thank you anyway.”

Maisie couldn’t seem to find anything to say to that. She sat there, twisting at the hem of her white skirt, and James began hitting the plastic salt and pepper shakers together until he had worked up to a good rhythm. He was considering starting some more complicated
beat when Maisie said, “Will you
stop
that
noise?
”

James stopped. Outside a car suddenly drove up, making a great racket as it skidded to a stop on the gravel road. Maisie stood up and bent forward a little to peer out the window. “It’s Aunt Connie,” she said.

“Maybe she’s come to invite me personally,” said Ansel.

“No, she’s going toward Mrs. Pike’s.”

“She won’t stay
there
long. Mrs. Pike wants to be by herself.”

“Aunt Connie’s very cheering,” Maisie said.

“Sometimes.
I’m
very cheering, but you know what happened when I—”

“It’s Aunt Connie’s biggest party of the summer I’m asking you to,” Maisie told him. “That’s all. The one where she hires the magician and all.”

Ansel sighed and looked at the ceiling. After a minute he said, “The actual place it hurts is right behind the anklebones. The pain is awful.”

“The anklebones?”

“Last night I walked too much.”

“Where’d you walk to?” Maisie asked.

James frowned at Ansel. He didn’t want Maisie to hear about last night, not after the scolding she’d given him. But Ansel wasn’t looking at James; he went on, placidly.

“I walked just about everywhere,” he said. “I thought, ‘I got to get out of here. This is no place for me.’ I went everywhere I could think of.”

“You shouldn’t take such strenuous exercise,” Maisie said.

“You have no idea how dizzy I was,” Ansel told her. “How swimming in the head I was. I couldn’t even
pack my things. I had to have a little something first to steady my nerves.”

“To—oh,” Maisie said, and she shot a glance over at James and narrowed her eyes. “Ansel, you
know
what happens. If you get to drinking, you
see
how you feel.”

“It was my mood,” said Ansel. “I started walking.”

James sat forward and said, “There’s a pitcher of Kool-Aid in the icebox. Anybody want some?”

“No,” Maisie said. “Where were
you
when all this was going on?”

“I was working,” said James. He stood up, before she had a chance to say any more. “I’ve got to go see Dan at the paper. Take him those pictures.”

“Well, goodbye,” Maisie said, and turned back to Ansel. James was relieved she had let him go that easily.

In the darkroom he got his pictures together—one fire, one family reunion, two ladies’ meetings—for this week’s paper. Then while he was hunting for a manila envelope he heard a knock on the door. He straightened up and listened (it might be Joan again) but it was only the Potter sisters, dropping in for their biweekly visit to see how Ansel was. He heard their little chirping voices, with Maisie’s voice running flatly behind them. “We brought some Jewish grandmother cookies, the kind you like,” Miss Lucy said, and Ansel said, “Why, that’s real—” “I’ll take them,” Maisie said. Maisie was always butting in, James thought. He set down his pictures and came out to the living room, just to say hello, and saw that both the Potter sisters were still standing in the doorway while Maisie sat back in her easy chair with a bag of cookies in her lap. “Why don’t you sit down?” he asked them, and then the chirping sounds
began all over again, and the sisters came toward him with their hands outstretched. They had on those dressy white gloves of theirs with the ruffles around the wrists. Seeing that made him sad—they looked as if they were expecting so much out of the visit, when all they were going to do was sit on the threadbare plush chairs a minute and then go home again. He said, “It’s good to see you, Miss Lucy. Miss Faye. Nice of you to bring the cookies.”

“We
like
doing it,” said Miss Lucy.

“Will you have a seat?”

Miss Faye took the chair he pointed out to her, but Miss Lucy chose to sit by Ansel on his couch. He didn’t object. He was sitting upright now, and when she settled down next to him he only smiled at her. “I
heard
you tapping those walls last night,” he said.

“Tapping the
what
?” asked Maisie.

Miss Lucy looked very severe suddenly and tucked her head further inside her high collar. She never mentioned her nightwalking during the daytime. “We came to see if you’re well,” her sister said, “and to remind you that tomorrow’s Wednesday. Time for your shots.”

“James already told me,” Ansel said.

“Last time you forgot
anyway
. You went visiting.”

“That’s true, I did,” said Ansel, and then he sat back and smiled around the room, looking so happy and pleased with himself that everyone else smiled back. The Potters made little ducking smiles down at their gloved hands, and Maisie smiled with narrow eyes straight into Ansel’s face. James stood up; now that people were seated and comfortable he could go.

“I have to see Dan Thompson at the paper,” he told the Potters. “Sorry to run off.”

“Well, now, have a good time,” said Miss Faye.
“Will you remind him of that announcement about our niece’s baby?”

“I sure will. See you later.”

He went back to the darkroom. Here it was cool and distant-feeling; the voices in the living room were faded. He put the week’s pictures in the envelope and then, to prolong his stay in the coolness, he set that down and began filing away the pictures that Ansel had been looking at a couple of days before—the Model A, Ansel on his couch, Joan in the dust storm. When he came to the picture of Joan he stopped and studied it; he thought it might be the best thing he had ever done. Her figure made a straight, black line through a circle of wavery blurs, and her head was bent forward in that way she had when she walked. He didn’t know how many hundreds of times he had seen her like that. And facing that photograph head-on, having a tangible picture of the way he saw her in his mind, made him think about the quarrel again. All last night and all this morning, he had been trying not to.

It seemed to him, now that he stopped to consider, that if he wanted things to be smoothed over again it would have to be he who took the first step. Joan wouldn’t. She would never change her mind about Ansel or even pretend to, in order to make things easier. He would have to go over and say, “Well, however we feel, I’m sorry that fight happened,” or else she would just stay quietly in her own house, playing games with Simon and occupying herself with little private chores until she died. And all over nothing. He tucked her picture back into the file. Mr. Pike was always saying, “Someday, boy, that girl is going to walk off and leave you,” and he didn’t know how right he was. Last month Joan had packed her things and gone downtown to catch
a bus for home, but then she had decided she might as well go to a movie first and by the time the movie was over she had changed her mind and come home again, dragging two big suitcases behind her and hobbling along on her dressup shoes. She had told James about it, laughing at herself as she told it, but James hadn’t laughed with her. If she were to go, what would he decide to do about it?

Out in the living room, he could hear Miss Lucy discussing her nephew, who was a missionary in Japan and a great curiosity there because of his red hair. “You ought to see him bow,” she said. “They bow all the time, he tells me …” James half-listened, drumming his fingers on the steel file drawer.