Nobody was there alone.
As she got closer to the jetty at the end of the beach, the groups started to thin out and blankets got farther and farther apart, until it was just sand between her and the rocks.
Then, off in the distance, something caught her eye. It sat a few feet back from the point in the sand where it went from lumpy and horizontal to flat and slanting toward the water. The thing looked like a headâa decapitated headâlying amid the dried seaweed and broken shells. She ran toward it, but as she got closer she slowed down. What if it really was a decapitated head? She wasn't sure she would know how to deal with that. Maybe she should leave it for someone else to find. But now she could see that the head belonged to a girl. A girl, probably about her age, with amazingly curly light brown hair that glinted in the sun. Mary-Tyler decided she'd better check it out; if her head had been cut off, she wouldn't want someone to let it sit there and rot.
She took a deep breath and got within a couple feet of the head. No blood. It didn't smell or anything. She squatted beside it. The glazed-over eyes were looking at the water, the lips pursed thoughtfully. She was trying to decide whether or not to touch the halo of ringlets when suddenly the head turned to face her.
“What?!”
it said, with a dirty look.
Mary-Tyler jumped backward and landed on her butt. “Jesus, I thought you were a head!” she said, out of breath.
“Like, without a body!”
Wait, careful
, she thought. Is that a
handicap people can have?
“Do you
have
a body?” she asked, less delicately than she knew she should've. “I mean, you're not just a head, right?”
“Of course I have a body,” the head said, and went back to looking at the water.
“Right, duh,” Mary-Tyler said, smacking her forehead. She looked at the clumps of sand in front of the head and tried to imagine how far it was to her toes. Maybe she was extremely tallâlike seven feet; it was impossible to tell. “That looks rad,” Mary-Tyler said. “Mind if I join you?”
“I guess not,” the head said uncertainly.
Mary-Tyler tossed off her towel and began to dig herself a pit. The sand on top was smooth and fine, like flour. A few inches down it became moist. She savored the clumps of cool, muddy wet grains between her fingers, and neatly piled them in walls around the body-size rectangular hole.
She packed down the sand on the bottom and the sides, picking out stray rocks, crab claws, and pieces of sea glass.
It would be fun to make a person out of sand,
she thought, and imagined sculpting a giant hand, a torso, a row of toes.
“Don't take this the wrong way,” the head said, eyeing the hole. “But I think you'll need it wider than that.”
Mary-Tyler looked down at her body. Even in her modest bathing suit, she still felt like she was spilling out everywhere, all cleavage and thighs. She quickly dug around the edges of the hole, anxious to cover herself under the sand.
“And longer,” the head added. “You're kind of tall.” Mary-Tyler lay down beside the hole and saw that it came only to her ankles. “Good call,” she said, and expanded the end a little past the point in the sand where it started to slant downward.
“And you'll want a pillow for your head,” the head said.
“Oh
!
Thanks, good idea.” Mary-Tyler built up a higher wall at the top of the hole. She climbed in to test it out. She mushed her body into the sand, making it fit her contours. “Maybe a little deeper,” she said.
No reply from the head.
Mary-Tyler dug out a couple more inches of sand, then got in again. That seemed about right. She sat up and gathered the displaced sand over her feet, then her legs, and packed it in firmly. Then she lowered herself back down and covered her torso and shoulders.
“This is the tricky part,” the head said. “The arms.”
“I was just realizing that,” Mary-Tyler said.
“You can bury one. But then you kind of have to make a pile up above your other elbow, then shove your hand in.”
“Rad!” Mary-Tyler said. The technique worked perfectly.
“I just saved you a lot of time,” the head said.
“I know. It's a good trick.” Mary-Tyler looked out over where her body should be and saw nothing but sand. She felt cozy. As if she were being hugged by the earth.
A little birdâa sandpiper was it called?âhopped over their nonexistent bodies. Waves whished up ahead, at the bottom of the slope.
Mary-Tyler took a deep breath, catching a whiff of her sunscreen. “So, what's your name?” she asked.
“Anabelle,” the head said hesitantly.
“Mine's Mary-Tyler.”
Anabelle studied Mary-Tyler's face as if sizing her up.
Mary-Tyler looked back at the clusters of people on the other part of the beach. “Maybe this was a mistake,” she said. “You don't seem to want me here.” Even though it was late in the afternoon, the sun beat down on Mary-Tyler's face and she actually wished she'd brought that big straw sun hat her father was always bugging her to wear.
“Look, I don't want to seem rude, Mary,” Anabelle said.
“It's just, well, if you lived in Normal, you'd understand.”
“It's, um, Mary-Tyler. That's my first name.” She felt apologetic every time she had to correct people.
“That's unusual.”
“Yeah.” Mary-Tyler almost lifted her hand out of the sand to hold it over her faceâbut she stopped herself; she didn't want to ruin the illusion of decapitation. “It's this weird family thing. All the girls are named Mary-hyphen-their-dad's -name.”
“So your dad's name is...”
“Tyler.”
“And your mom?”
“Mary-Milton. And my grandma's Mary-Hank.”
“Whoa.
Really?”
Anabelle's voice perked up.
“Yup.”
“What about the boys? Do they get special names, too?”
“Jack.”
“Just Jack?”
“Yeah.”
“All
of them?”
“Right. And then there's Aunt Jack. But I don't really know how that happened.”
Anabelle laughed, shaking her head. “That just made my day,” she said.
“What do you mean?”
“I like absurdity,” Anabelle said. “And this name thing is pretty absurd. You have to admit.”
“Yeah, I guess it is.” Mary-Tyler half wanted to get out of her hole and walk away, but then where would she go? Home? “Hey, what were you saying beforeâabout how I'd understand if I lived here?” she asked.
Anabelle turned to look at her. Her face was sunburned. Not everywhere, but on the tops of her forehead, nose, and cheeksâall the planes that faced upward. “Just that you'd understand how we feel about tourists, if you had to deal with them coming in every summer. And especially now, with McMansionville growing. Those people come into Taffy Castle all the timeâwhere I work? And I want to strangle every one of them. They bring their bratty little kids with names like Mercedes and yell at me for being out of peanut brittle, when really we're a taffy shop and there's nothing in the name of the store that says we should have anything but taffy!”
Mary-Tyler shuddered as she remembered her dad complaining about not being able to find peanut brittle the other day. “What's McMansionville?” she asked, with the terrible feeling that Anabelle was talking about her street.
Anabelle gestured to the right with her head. “That's what we call those ginormous beach houses over there.”
“Oh, those fucking things,” Mary-Tyler said, trying to sound as disdainful as possible. “Yeah, they're awful. And hey, anyway, what makes you think I'm a tourist?”
“Well, first, I don't recognize you. Even if you were from Bay Beach or Surprise, I probably would've seen you around. And second, kids around here don't say rad.” Anabelle flicked her head sideways. “But hey, I'm sorry if I was mean. Don't take it personally or anything.”
“It's okay. I know how it is. You thought I was one of them.” Mary-Tyler made a hoity-toity face. “And I don't blame you.”
“Yeah. But it's alsoâ” Anabelle cleared her throat.
“Well, I'm in a bad mood.”
“What about?”
“Life.”
“Do you feel like talking about it?”
“I don't know. Probably not.”
This was good: Anabelle had a problem. And Mary-Tyler was great at helping people talk through their problems. Back home, kids she didn't even know that well sought her out for advice. Actually, what she gave wasn't quite advice, just a lot of question-asking and agreeing, making people feel like they were right. In any case, her listening skills were going to come in handy now in befriending Anabelle. “Well,” she said, “I'm leaving in a few days to go back to New York. So you can feel safe telling me whatever, y'know?”
Anabelle looked Mary-Tyler up and down, from forehead to chin. “I wouldn't even know where to begin.” She tilted her head back, squashing her curls. “But I guess it's not really that complicated. It just feels that way. It feels like there's nobody else in the world going through what I'm going through right now. And at the same time it seems so insignificant in the grand scheme of things and I wish I could just get over it.”
Gome on
, Mary-Tyler thought.
Give me something
I can
latch onto
. “You're being pretty vague,” she said, looking out at the ocean. The tide had started creeping up the sandy slope.
“Okay, if you
really
want to know...” Anabelle exhaled hard through her mouth and a small wisp of sand flew out from under her chin. “There's this guy I liked. A lot. I'm not even sure why. He's totally not my type.”
“Why not?”
There we go
, Mary-Tyler thought.
Now she's opening up.
“I don't know,” Anabelle said. “I guess just because he's such a badass. Maybe it's not so much that he's not someone I should like, but that I never thought he'd like
me”
Mary-Tyler could hear Anabelle's voice relaxing; she was pretty sure she was winning her over. “Did he?” she asked.
“Yeah. Yeah, I think so. Maybe, probably. It's so dumb. He used to high-five me when we passed each other in the hall at school and it made me feel so cool, yâknow? 'Cause he only did that with other guys. Then he started sitting on my lap all the time. Like in a joking way when we were hanging out in a group. And once he told me he had this dream. About me, like, floating over him and kissing him. I mean, what is that?”
“Are you kidding?” Mary-Tyler said, nodding at Anabelle. “It's him liking you. For sure.”
“That's what I thought.”
“But...” Mary-Tyler flattened her hand under the sand, indicating for Anabelle to continue, and then realized that Anabelle couldn't see it.
“But then, ughâ” Anabelle moaned. “This is where it starts to sound so stupid and petty. Like something out of a soap opera, you know?”
“Not really,” Mary-Tyler said. “Give me specifics.”
“Okay. Problem is ...” Anabelle swallowed hard. “I had a boyfriend. A serious, long-term boyfriend. Not this badass guy I was telling you about. His, uh, best friend, actually.”
“Uh-oh.” Mary-Tyler was sure her scalp was burning, but she told herself to fight the temptation to get up.
Anabelle turned back toward the quickly approaching water. “You already think I'm awful. I can hear it in your voice.”
“No, I'm not judging. I promise. I can just tell this is gonna get messy.”
“Yeah,” Anabelle said flatly. “It does.”
No, no, no, don't shut down now,
Mary Tyler thought. You
were just getting started!
“The boyfriend,” she said encouragingly. “What's the deal with him?”
“Well,” Anabelle continued cautiously, “he could kinda tell all along I had a thing for ...”
“For Mr. Badass.”
Anabelle let out a little laugh. “Yeah, so, my boyfriend was on my case about Sir Badass. And I swore up and down that he was wrong, that I wasn't dumping him for someone else.” She tucked her chin and a few curls bounced forward, covering the side of her face. “The thing is, he was right.
I was dumping him for someone else. I had this stupid fantasy that I would run off with this guy and everything would be great.”
Mary-Tyler was familiar with this feeling. “But it wasn't as amazing in real life as it seemed in your head?” she asked knowingly.
“Actually, it didn't get that far. We never even kissed or anything.”
“Why not?”
“It's complicated.”
“No, it's really simple. You obviously both want each other. And it's not like you'd be cheating or anything. You already broke up with your boyfriend. Who cares what you told him when you were together?”
“Well, the thing is, I could've kissed him. I could've kissed him after the breakup. I probably could've kissed him before the breakup. Trust me, I thought about it tons of times. Every time we were alone.”
“So why didn't you? Why don't you get your butt out of this hole and go find him and just smooch him already?”
“I know, it's weird, right? When I'm away from him, all I can do is think about him. I'll run over and over in my head the sweet things he's said to me, the times he's touched me. But then when it seems like a chance comes up for something to really happen, I'm the one who stops it. I'll just start talking a mile a minute or laughing or something. And it seems crazy, y'know? Because I've been obsessing over him for months. But I just can't get myself to go through with it. Maybe it's because I've started noticing he's not perfect. Like how he smacks his lips when he eats. Or that he's got warts on his hands. Stuff that just snuck by me before.”