One
May, 1808
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“How long do you intend to continue burying yourself in debauchery, little brother?” The Honorable Marcus Jeffries addressed what might have been a younger version of himselfâhad he been suffering the aftereffects of a night of pursuing the bottom of a bottle.
Trevor lifted his aching head from the pillow and squinted against the light when Marcus flung open the drapes. “As long as it takes. What are
you
doing here? Did Hansen not tell you I am not in?”
“He told me. My God, Trevor, how can you live like this? This room reeks.” Marcus pushed the window open to let in fresh spring air.
“Go away, Marcus. It will do no good for
you
to ring a peal over my head. Our estimable fatherâthe ever-so-worthy Earl of Wyndham
âand
his heir were here before you last week.”
“I know. They told me. Thought you might listen to me.”
“Oh, I'll listen. Not much choice, eh? I'll even
want
to do as you wish. But always it comes back. I keep seeing that damned carriage and Terrence and Jason just lying there . . .”
“Trevâit was not your faultâ”
“Yes! It was! If I had not pushed the idea of the race . . . They did not even want to buy that team, you know.”
“It was an accident. No one blames you.”
“Well, they should.” Trevor ran a hand through his dark-brown hair.
“I
should have been driving.”
Marcus snorted derisively. “With a broken hand? I doubt it.”
“Could we talk about something else? Maybe say goodbye as you leave?”
“I'm not leaving. Now get yourself out of that bed. Robbins is preparing a bath for you, and Mrs. Simpson is sending up some coffee and food.”
Trevor groaned and pulled himself to a sitting position. He knew his brother well enough to know that Marcus would not give up. And perhapsâjust perhapsâtalking with Marcus would keep the memories at bay.
But as he settled into the tub, they returned. Everything reminded him of Terrenceâeven the smell of his bath soap. And why should it be otherwise? After all, he and Terrence had shared everything all their livesâeven the womb before they saw light of day.
And now Terrence was gone. Along with quiet, amiable Jason Garret with whom the twins had shared so many schoolboy escapades.
And Melanie. Do not forget Melanie. You ruined her life, too,
he told himself.
She and Jason might have made a match of it but for your selfish need to see what a pair of prime goers could do.
He would give anythingâanythingâto undo that day. He had talked Terrence and Jason into joining him in the purchase of a racing curricle and a splendid team of grays. Despite the others' reservations, the three of them had felt like real men of the townâcocky, sure of themselves, reveling in a marked degree of popularity. He knew how they were viewedâthose handsome Jeffries twins and their friend Jason. An inseparable threesome. Invited everywhere.
“Trevor! Are you going to take all day?” Marcus called through the open dressing room door, interrupting the reverie.
“I'm coming.” Trevor grabbed at the dressing gown Robbins held out to him.
Soon he was seated at a small table devouring poached eggs and toast that had been sent up on a tray. Marcus sat across from him, sipping a cup of coffee.
Finally, Trevor sat back and eyed his brother. At nine-and-twenty, Marcus was eight years older than Trevor. His hair was slightly darker, but the blue-gray eyes were a mirror of Trevor's own. Trevor had only to regard Marcus to see himself a few years hence. The mature body of his older brother was fuller, more muscular than Trevor's slim, wiry physique, but they both had large, well-shaped hands.
“Well? Out with it,” Trevor demanded. “I suppose Father and Gerald sent you.”
“As a matter of fact, they did not. However, you must know we all care about your welfare. Melanie is beside herself with worry.”
“Rubbish. Father and Gerald care only for their precious earldom and their standing with the
ton.
Melanie
might
careâ”
“Of course she does. Good grief, Trevor, Terrence was our brother, too. This wallowing in self-pity has to stop. It has been four months since the accident.”
“Self-pity? Is that how you see it?”
“For the most part, yes. All rightâit was an accident. An unfortunate accident. And if there is any blame to be laid at a doorstep, there seem to be candidates enough.”
Trevor gestured dismissively. “You just do not seem to understandâ”
“I know there was more than your vehicle out there racing on a public thoroughfare. What were thereâfive? Six?”
“Five.”
“All right. Five. And the race was not your idea, was it? I understand it was Fitzwilliam who suggested it. True?”
“Yes. But what does it matter now?”
Marcus stood and began pacing. “
He
should have known better than to issue such a challenge to a bunch of green-lingsâyoung bucks like you.”
“Now see here.” Trevor straightened up, taking umbrage at his brother's condescending tone. “We knew what we were about.”
“Sure you did. But it was Fitzwilliam who collected on all those bets, was it not?”
“Fitz won the race. He even offered to forgive my loss, but as it was a debt of honorâ”
Marcus snorted. “More like dishonor, I should say.”
“Look. I know you have no great liking for Fitz, but he is ourâmyâfriend. 'Twasn't
his
fault that farmer's cart pulled out in front of Terrence and Jason.”
“Perhaps not, but Fitzwilliam was in the class ahead of me at school. Always instigating things that made him look goodâand left him free of blame.”
“Be that as it mayâ”
“Trevor, do you not wonder why a fellow well into his thirties seeks the association of men so much younger than himself?”
“Maybe because we ain't into our dotage yet?” Trevor raised an eyebrow in sarcasm.
“And maybe,” Marcus said grimly, “he finds preying on green boys extremely profitable.”
“Having reached my majority, I am hardly what you would term âa green boy.' ” Trevor knew his voice had become haughty and defensive. “Did you come here this morningâsorryâthis afternoonâto choose my friends for me?”
“No. I came to discuss the Bennington Trust with you.”
“What about it?” Trevor vaguely recalled his maternal grandmother having left funds for her daughter's younger children.
“With Terrence gone, the trust is to be divided between you and me and Melanie. As the eldestâthat is, the eldest of the younger sonsâI, along with the solicitors, control the distribution of the trust.”
“So? We knew that. Grandmother Bennington was such an old pinchpenny there cannot be a great deal of money involved. Remember that ancient carriage she went around in? Her clothing was always woefully outdated, and her drawing room carpet was positively threadbare.”
“She was a frugal soul.”
“So just give me my twenty guineas and I shall use it to start tonight's game.”
“That is what I feared.” Marcus resumed his seat. “It is considerably more than twenty guineas, Trevor.” He named a sum that Trevor found hard to fathom at first.
“Wha-a-t? You cannot be serious.”
“Yes.” Marcus repeated the amount. “However, there is a catchâ”
“Why does that not surprise me?”
“Apparently, our grandmother was more astute than any of us gave her credit as being. Your share of the fortune is the Atherton estate in Suffolk. Properly managed, it could produce a tidy income, but it cannot be soldâonly passed on to your heir.”
“Are you saying there is no money in hand now?”
“That is precisely what I am telling you.”
“What about you? And where would Terrence have fit in all this?”
“Terrence and I were to share the investments on the 'Change, from which part of Melanie's dowry is to come as well. I shall continue to manage the investments and will share with the two of you Terrence's portion of the profits as they accrue.
When
they accrue.”
“There are none now?”
“No. Napoleon's blockade of British shipping has hit us rather severely.”
Trevor recognized his brother's propensity for understatement.
“Hell! Damn! Blast!”
“Just so, little brother. You must curb your profligate ways. Father has reached the end of his patience with you. There will be no increase in your allowance from him.”
“Hah! When did Father ever show patience with any of us but Geraldâand you on occasion?”
“You may have a point. Well . . .” Marcus set his hands on his knees and rose. “I must be off.”
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While he did not do so intentionally, in the weeks that followed, Trevor nevertheless dismissed from his mind the interview with Marcus. There was too much of his father's and Gerald's stodginess in the second brother, Trevor told himself. True, Marcus was not nearly so pompous as Geraldâand had always been more understanding of the younger siblings than either the earl or his heir. Still, the age difference was such that the twins had never had much in common with either of the two older boys.
Trevor was sure Gerald had been born with a middle-aged mind-set. And he thought Marcus had long since forgotten how to have fun. Terrence would have understood. And Melanie seemed to.
In this, her second season, Melanie was well received. She had gone into mourning for their brother and had only recently gone into half-mourning. Trevor knew she had had more than one offer of marriage.
One afternoon he called at the Wyndham townhouse primarily to see Melanie, though his mother was in the drawing room when he arrived and deigned to acknowledge her son. The townhouse was his mother's residence, since the earl rarely came to townâexcept when he wanted to dress down an errant child, Trevor thought sourly.
“Oh, Trevor, you are just in time to drive me in the park,” Melanie said as she bade one of her suitors goodbye.
“You failed to talk Thornton into doing so?” He gestured to the closing door.
“He offered. I want to spend time with you,” she said brightly.
Instantly he was on his guard. “I do hope
you
are not going to join the rest of the family in haranguing me about how I spend my time and the company I keep,” he said, sounding defensive even to his own ears.
“I am sure you deserve suchâbut no, that is not my intention. So will you drive me?”
“No. I will gladly walk with you, but you know very well I do not drive or ride for any but the most necessary purposes anymore.”
“I forgot,” she said contritely and placed a hand on his arm. “I heard Bellson bought the grays.”
“And my hunter.”
“I'm sorry, Trev. Surely you do not blame the animals for what happened.”
“No, of course not. Just my insane interest in them. I shall never again allow myself to become involved with horses for sport or pleasure.”
“But, Trev, you love them so. Even when we were small children, you loved them far more than Terrence and I did. We feared them at first. You never did.”
“And look what disaster my obsession wrought . . .”
She had started up the stairs to the bedchambers above. She paused on the first step, turned, and took his face in both her hands, forcing him to hold her gaze.
“Trevor, it was an accident.” She clipped each word off precisely. “It was not your fault. You must stop this.”
He held her gaze a moment, then looked away. “Hurry on up and get your cloak,” he said.
As they walked along toward a small park a few minutes later, he turned to his sister.
“Out with it, Mel. What is it you wanted to tell me without the countess hearing?” The twins and Melanie had always referred to their mother in this impersonal fashion. Early on they had realized that the position of countess was infinitely more important to her than the role of mother.
“Um . . . you know Sir Andrew Sheffield, do you not?”
“Drew? Of course. We were in school together, though he was two classes ahead of Terrence and me.”
“Wh-what do you think of him?”
“Nice enough fellow. Why?” He paused and turned to her.
She colored up. “Well . . . he and I . . . we . . . he has called several times,” she ended lamely.
“I see. I always thought you and Jason . . .”
“I know,” she said gently, “but that was a young girl's infatuation. Perhaps it would have eventually progressed to something more, but . . .” She paused. “Andrew is . . . Oh, Trev, I truly do care for him.”
“So what is the problem?”
“The countess, of course. Andrew is a younger son. His father is a mere baron.”
“I see. This
is
an obstacleâfor her.”
“How do I get round her?”
“Hmm. Enlist the aid of Marcus, to start with. She usually attends what
he
says.”
“What about Aunt Gertrude? She is acquainted with Andrew's family.”
“Good Lord, no! The countess detests Aunt Gertrude. Wait. If Aunt Gertrude were to
oppose
such a match, our esteemed mother would automatically approve it.”
Melanie laughed. “Yes, but Andrew says Aunt Gertrude is quite fond of him.”
“Well, if it would put a stick in our mother's wheel, I am sure Aunt Gertrude could be persuaded to dissemble. Would you like me to speak to her?”