The White-Luck Warrior (62 page)

He had dreamed not the experience, but the
fact
of his ancient assassination.

What was happening?

He turned to Mimara, who lay motionless beside him, beautiful despite the squalor of her skin and clothing. He recalled her fateful declaration the first and only night they had lain together.

"You have become a prophet... A prophet of the past."

—|—

Never had he seen the like, not even in the darkest of Seswatha's Dreams.

They had crossed paths worn by herds of elk, vast swathes of grassland veined by innumerable trails, diverging, crossing, forking out to the limits of their vision. As gouged as they were, the scalpers could not but whistle, their souls' eyes straining to conjure a herd whose mere passing could so mark the earth. "The ground moans at their approach," Xonghis told them that evening. Apparently he had seen the elk herds during his days as an Imperial Tracker. "Even the skinnies flee."

But this...

They had spent the morning climbing long lobes of land piled one atop the other—a range of flattened hills. They paused to recover their wind when they finally crested the summit, only to find it stolen by the vista before them.

The Wizard's first thoughts were of the Great Carathay, that the drought had transformed the Istyuli into a northern desert. But as his aging eyes sorted through the distances he realized that he was gazing across another
trail
, one far greater than the braided immensities left by the elk...

"The Great Ordeal," he called out to the others. Something clutched his throat, thinned his voice, a horror or wonder he could not feel.

That was when his eyes began picking out the points of black scattered all across the landscape that bowled out before them in swirls of dun and ochre. The dead.

A battleground, Achamian realized. They had happened upon a battleground, one so vast it would take more than a day to cross, even with their quickened limbs.

"A battle of some kind?" Galian called as if reading his thoughts.

"Not a pitched one," Xonghis said, his almond eyes little more than slits as he peered northward. "A
running
battle, I think... There're dead skinnies along the entire length of the trail."

"The true contest was to the north," Cleric said, peering.

Images from his dreams assailed the old Wizard. In the early days of the First Apocalypse, before the coming of Mog-Pharau, the ancient hosts of Kûniüri and Aörsi had left trails such as this whenever they marched through Sranc lands. "A
Hording
," he heard himself say. He turned to address the small crowd of curious looks. "A mobbing like no other. This is what happens when you fight your way through an endless accumulation of Sranc."

"Now we know where all the skinnies went," Pokwas said, a great hand raised to the back of his neck.

"Aye," Galian said nodding. "Why chase scraps when a feast marches across your land."

The company passed the first clutch of Sranc within a watch of its downward trek, at least a hundred of them, their skin withered to hide, their limbs jutting like sticks. Xonghis had difficulty estimating when they had been killed because of the drought. "Dried to jerky," he said, gazing across the blackened remains with a practised eye.

Soon they were in the midst of the battlefield, a thin file wandering across trammelled dust that was barely whiskered with grass—a barren as vast as the horizon. They saw vultures feuding, crows probing eye sockets, wolves and jackals loping in wary circles. They saw figures burned to charcoal, little more than stumps jutting from sand blasted to glass. They saw bodies hacked to the ground, tangled lines and arcs of them, and in his soul's eye the old Wizard saw the battle formations that had shaped them, the hard-armoured men fighting beneath banners drawn from across the Three Seas. They saw what looked like the remains of pyres, broad circles of gutted black. Mimara crouched to the dust, fetched a wire Circumfix from the sand. The old Wizard watched her tie the leather string, then loop the thing over her neck. By some perverse coincidence, the symbol fell directly across the Chorae that lay hidden against her breast.

Everywhere the old Wizard looked, he glimpsed the stain of sorceries, Gnostic rather than Anagogic. To the practised eye, the difference was plain, as if the world had been gored with razors instead of bludgeoned with hammers. Mimara once told him that Kellhus had largely honoured the ancient Mandate monopoly on the Gnosis, granting the secret knowledge only to the witches, the Swayali, as both a promise and a goad for other Schools. So wherever he glimpsed some Gnostic residue, he could not help but think of his erstwhile brothers and wonder why he no longer seemed to care.

"Skinnies!" Sarl cackled from somewhere behind him. "A mobbing like no other! Think of the bales!"

The Captain said nothing. Cleric said nothing. Both walked as if the scene about them were interchangeable with any other landscape, as if mounds of dead surrounded them no matter where they walked. But the others craned their looks this way and that, pointing to various sights of grisly interest.

"He marches against Golgotterath," Mimara murmured from the old Wizard's side. "He slaughters Sranc..."

"What do you mean?"

"Kellhus... You
still
think him a fraud?"

He swept his gaze across the strewn carnage.

"That's for Ishuäl to answer."

Ghosts moved in him, ghosts of who he had been. Once, before his exile, he would have celebrated fields such as this with hoots of exultation, tears of joy. An Aspect-Emperor marching against the Consult, bent on preventing the Second Apocalypse: the old him would have laughed in derision had anyone suggested he would live to see such a sight, laughed at the desperation of his longing.

But there was
another
ghost in him, a memory of who he had been mere months ago, the man who would have been aghast at the sight, not because he did not pray for Golgotterath's fall—he did with a fervour only a Mandate Schoolman could know—but because he had wagered the lives of innocents in a mad quest to prove the faith of millions wrong, and a lunatic barbarian—a
Scylvendi
, no less—right...

What had happened? Where had this man gone?

And if he was gone, what did that make of his quest?

He turned to scrutinize Mimara, gazed long enough to spark a curious frown.

She was right... He realized this as if for the first time.

The Qirri.

—|—

Flies had inherited the earth.

They crossed fields of detritus, threading the hillocks of dead, stepping over dried-out puddles skinned in cracked blood. Lines and blots of interlocking corpses reached out to knot the distances. Skin tight about grinning skulls. Innumerable hands with sunken palms, fingers drawn into claws. A thousand poses corresponding to a thousand deaths: thrown, struck spinning, flailing in fire. All of them lying inert and breathless in pools of inky shadow.

The reek was overpowering, a mélange of rot and feces. The wind raised it, powdered them in it, yet they did not care.

The Captain called a halt. They prepared camp.

The sun scorched the western horizon. Nearby, hundreds of Sranc had been piled for some unknown reason, forming a heap that had dried into a kind of grisly deadfall. Stripped to his loincloth, Cleric climbed to the summit, his bare feet cracking ribcages like crusts of snow. The sight of him, a Nonman burnished in the bronze and copper of sunset standing upon the compressed remains of Sranc, struck the old Wizard with peculiar force. He sat gawking at Mimara's side, fumbling with things half-remembered.

Cleric stood with regal inhumanity, his skin gleaming as if greased. "This
war
," he began. "This war is older than your tongues and nations..."

The old Wizard found himself wondering where the gruel of rotted memory would lead the Nonman this time. Would he speak of Far Antiquity? The First Apocalypse? Or would he speak of times when the Five Tribes of Men still wandered the wastes of Eänna?

Would he reveal his true identity?

Achamian lowered his gaze, stared blinking at his hands, at his scabbed knuckles, at the grime darkening the whorls of his skin. How long had it been since he last asked this question?

When had he forgotten to wonder?

"Men bled here," Cleric said from his macabre summit. "Men leaned shouting into their shields."

How long had it been since he had last
cared
? Even now he could feel it welling within him, defeat and dissolution, a knee-cracking resignation. And a voice whispered within him,
his
voice, asking,
What is there to care about?

"So frail, so mortal," the ancient Ishroi continued, "yet they cast themselves before the scythes of happenstance, yielded their souls to the perversities of Fate."

All the world seemed a burned-out pyre. All the glory gone, roaring into the hiss of failing coals. All the hope twisting into smoky oblivion.

"Dogs scavenge," the Nonman called. "Wolves chase the foaling mother, the aged, and the weak. Even the lion shies from clawed prey. Only
you and I
know the madness that is war. Man and Nonman. Only we pursue what lions flee."

And who was he, Drusas Achamian, to think he could grapple Fate, pin Her to the floor of his hateful aspiration?

"We die for what we know," the Nonman boomed, "and
we know nothing!
Generations heaped upon generations, tossing lives after self-serving guesses, murdering nations in the name of ignorance and delusion."

Seswatha? Was that who he thought he was? The incarnation of an ancient
hero
?

"We call our greed justice! We call our soiled hands divine! We strike in the name of avarice and vanity, and the—!"

"Enough!"
the Captain shouted at the high-shining figure. Aside from Cleric, he alone stood, wind whipped and insane. "Some wars are holy," he grated in blood-raw tones. "Some wars...
are holy
."

The Nonman regarded him from his summit, blinked once before turning from his furious aspect. He climbed from the heaped Sranc, making a stair of heads and torsos, then leapt to the dust with leonine grace. The shadows of the dead crowded his naked legs.

"Yes," he said, drawing his shoulders back to stand tall. "Enough."

The sky darkened. The reek of dust and death tumbled through the air. The Nonman reached for the leather pouch where it lay against his bare hip.

Yes!
something cried within the old Wizard, something that leaned forward with his own shoulders, flooded his mouth with his own spit. An affirming urgency.

Yes! This is all that matters. The worries will go away. They. Will. Go. Away. And if not, clarity will come—yes! Clarity. Clarity will come, the clarity needed to
honestly
consider these questions. Come. Come, old man! Out of the muck!

Animal spirits inhabit every soul, which is why a man could attend to one thing while remaining vigilant for another, why he could converse with his neighbour while lusting after his wife. In that moment, Cleric was all that existed.
Incariol
, wild and dark and, yes, even holy. The word upon which creation's own prayer seemed to turn. The Nail of Heaven gleamed across his scalp, a crown that only the Hundred could bestow. And it was as proper as it was inevitable, for he ruled the way the moon ruled the tides, the way the sun ruled the fields...

Absolute. As a father among his children.

One by one he ministered to the sitting scalpers, and Achamian watched, leaning in envy and anticipation. There is closeness in ritual. There is touch. There is an intimacy that approached coupling, an iron faith that the nearing hands would not strike or throttle. Achamian watched the near-naked form loom above Mimara beside him, watched her raise her lips in eager acquiescence. The blackened finger slipped along the chute of her tongue, pressed deep into her mouth. She went rigid, pulled her shoulders back in bliss. For the first time he noticed the bow of her belly...

Pregnant? Was she pregnant? But...

Yes!
his soul's voice cried.
Simplicity! You need
simplicity
to honestly ponder complications!

Cleric loomed over him, his shoulders brushing the violet clouds, his face blank with inhuman serenity. Achamian watched his finger, still glistening with Mimara's saliva, dip into the fox-mouth opening of his pouch. A delicious moment, magical in the way of small miracles, the little pins from which all life hangs. He watched the finger reappear, tip blackened as with soot... ashes...

Cû'jara Cinmoi.

Mimara... pregnant?

Who? Who are you?

Yes! Honesty. Simplicity! Raise your lips—yes!

The finger rose before him, its tip a tingling black. The old Wizard bent back his face, opened his mouth...

"The next time you come before me,"
the hated voice called out over fawning masses,
"you will kneel, Drusas Achamian..."

Kellhus.

A coldness smoked through Achamian. The finger hesitated. He raised his eyes to the Nonman's black-glittering gaze.

Kellhus. The Aspect-Emperor.

"No," the old Wizard said. "No more."

—|—

She falls asleep troubled by the wordless uproar of the evening. Her own half-hearted attempt to refuse the Qirri the previous week had occasioned little more than curiosity, it seemed to her. Who knew a women's fickle ways? But when the
Wizard
had refused, a strange species of alarm had gripped the company. Dread prickled the silence. She could sense the scalpers watching at angles to their eyes. Wariness quickened their movements as they went about otherwise thoughtless tasks. The Captain, especially, possessed the air of waiting.

"Akka..." she whispered in the dark. "Something is wrong."

"Many things are wrong," he replied, his voice clipped, his eyes fogged with turmoil.