The Winter Man (22 page)

She stopped immediately, flushing. She hadn't realized that Harry had come back inside. Thank God he hadn't seen her, or he might have asked some pertinent questions. She put the keyboard down and went to the kitchen, relieved that her singing voice was back to normal again. Elliot was morose at the supper table. He'd heard about the calf and he'd been as depressed as Amanda had. Quinn didn't look all that happy himself. They all picked at the delicious chili Harry had whipped up; nobody had much of an appetite.

After they finished, Elliot did his homework while Amanda put the last stitches into a chair cover she was making for the living room. Quinn had gone off to do his paperwork and Harry was making bread for the next day.

It was a long, lazy night. Elliot went to bed at eight-thirty and not much later Harry went to his room.

Amanda wanted to wait for Quinn to come back, but something in her was afraid of the new way he looked at her. He was much more a threat now than he had been
before, because she was looking at him with new and interested eyes. She was drawn to him more than ever. But he didn't know who she really was, and she couldn't tell him. If she were persuaded into any kind of close relationship with him, it could lead to disaster.

So when Elliot went to bed, so did Amanda. She sat at the dresser and let down her long hair, brushing it with slow, lazy strokes, when there was a knock at the door.

She was afraid that it might be Quinn, and she hesitated. But surely he wouldn't make any advances toward her unless she showed that she wanted them. Of course he wouldn't.

She opened the door, but it wasn't Quinn. It was Elliot. And as he stared at her, wheels moved and gears clicked in his young mind. She was wearing a long granny gown in a deep beige, a shade that was too much like the color of the leather dress she wore onstage. With her hair loose and the color of the gown, Elliot made the connection he hadn't made the first time he saw her hair down.

“Yes?” she prompted, puzzled by the way he was looking at her. “Is something wrong, Elliot?”

“Uh, no,” he stammered. “Uh, I forgot to say goodnight. Good night!” He grinned.

He turned, red-faced, and beat a hasty retreat, but not to his own room. He went to his father's and searched quickly through the hidden tapes until he found the one he wanted. He held it up, staring blankly at the cover.
There were four men who looked like vicious bikers surrounding a beautiful woman in buckskin with long, elegant, blond hair. The group was one of his favorites—Desperado. And the woman was Mandy. Amanda. His Amanda. He caught his breath. Boy, would she be in for it if his dad found out who she was! He put the tape into his pocket, feeling guilty for taking it when Quinn had told him not to. But these were desperate circumstances. He had to protect Amanda until he could figure out how to tell her that he knew the truth. Meanwhile, having her in the same house with him was sheer undiluted heaven! Imagine, a singing star that famous in his house. If only he could tell the guys! But that was too risky, because it might get back to Dad. He sighed. Just his luck, to find a rare jewel and have to hide it to keep someone from stealing it. He closed the door to Quinn's bedroom and went quickly back to his own.

Amanda slept soundly, almost missing breakfast. Outside, the sky looked blue for the first time in days, and she noticed that the snow had stopped.

“Chinook's coming,” Harry said with a grin. “I knew it would.”

Quinn's dark eyes studied Amanda's face. “Well, it will be a few days before they get the power lines back up again,” he muttered. “So don't get in an uproar about it.”

“I'm not in an uproar,” Harry returned with a frown. “I just thought it was nice that we'll be able to get off the
mountain and lay in some more supplies. I'm getting tired of beef. I want a chicken.”

“So do I!” Elliot said fervently. “Or bear, or beaver or moose, anything but beef!”

Quinn glared at both of them. “Beef pays the bills around here,” he reminded them.

They looked so guilty that Amanda almost laughed out loud.

“I'm sorry, Dad,” Elliot sighed. “I'll tell my stomach to shut up about it.”

Quinn's hard face relaxed. “It's all right. I wouldn't mind a chicken stew, myself.”

“That's the spirit,” Elliot said. “What are we going to do today? It's Saturday,” he pointed out. “No school.”

“You could go out with me and help me feed cattle,” Quinn said.

“I'll stay here and help Harry,” Amanda said, too quickly.

Quinn's dark eyes searched hers. “Harry can manage by himself. You can come with me and Elliot.”

“You'll enjoy it,” Elliot assured her. “It's a lot of fun. The cattle see us and come running. Well, as well as they can run in several feet of snow,” he amended.

It was fun, too. Amanda sat on the back of the sled with Elliot and helped push the bales of hay off. Quinn cut the strings so the cattle could get to the hay. They did come running, reminding Amanda so vividly of women at a sale
that she laughed helplessly until the others had to be told why she was laughing.

They came back from the outing in a new kind of harmony, and for the first time, Amanda understood what it felt like to be part of a family. She looked at Quinn and wondered how it would be if she never had to leave here, if she could stay with him and Elliot and Harry forever.

But she couldn't, she told herself firmly. She had to remember that this was a vacation, with the real world just outside the door.

Elliot was allowed to stay up later on Saturday night, so they watched a science-fiction movie together while Quinn grumbled over paperwork. The next morning they went to church on the sled, Amanda in the one skirt and blouse she'd packed, trying not to look too conspicuous as Quinn's few neighbors carefully scrutinized her.

When they got back home, she was all but shaking. She felt uncomfortable living with him, as if she really was a fallen woman now. He cornered her in the kitchen while she was washing dishes to find out why she was so quiet.

“I didn't think about the way people would react if you went with us this morning,” he said quietly. “I wouldn't have subjected you to that if I'd just thought.”

“It's okay,” she said, touched by his concern. “Really. It was just a little uncomfortable.”

He sighed, searching her face with narrowed eyes. “Most people around here know how I feel about women,”
he said bluntly. “That was why you attracted so much attention. People get funny ideas about woman haters who take in beautiful blondes.”

“I'm not beautiful,” she stammered shyly.

He stepped toward her, towering over her in his dress slacks and good white shirt and sedate gray tie. He looked handsome and strong and very masculine. She liked the spicy cologne he wore. “You're beautiful, all right,” he murmured. His big hand touched her cheek, sliding down it slowly, his thumb brushing with soft abrasion over her full mouth.

Her breath caught as she looked up into his dark, soft eyes. “Quinn?” she whispered.

He drew her hands out of the warm, soapy water, still holding her gaze, and dried them on a dishcloth. Then he guided them, first one, then the other, up to his shoulders.

“Hold me,” he whispered as his hands smoothed over her waist and brought her gently to him. “I want to kiss you.”

She shivered from the sensuality in that soft whisper, lifting her face willingly.

He bent, brushing his mouth lazily over hers. “Isn't this how we did it before?” he breathed, parting his lips as they touched hers. “I like the way it feels to kiss you like this. My spine tingles.”

“So…does mine.” She slid her hands hesitantly into the thick, cool strands of hair at his nape and she went on tiptoe to give him better access to her mouth.

He accepted the invitation with quiet satisfaction, his mouth growing slowly rougher and hungrier as it fed on hers. He made a sound under his breath and all at once he bent, lifting her clear off the floor in a bearish embrace. His mouth bit hers, parting her lips, and she clung to him, moaning as the fever burned in her, too.

He let her go at once when Elliot called, “What?” from the living room. “Amanda, did you say something?”

“No… No, Elliot,” she managed in a tone pitched a little higher than normal. Her answer appeared to satisfy him, because he didn't ask again. Harry was outside, but he probably wouldn't stay there long.

She looked up at Quinn, surprised by the intent stare he was giving her. He liked the way she looked, her face flushed, her mouth swollen from his kisses, her eyes wide and soft and faintly misty with emotion.

“I'd better get out of here,” he said hesitantly.

“Yes.” She touched her lips with her fingers and he watched the movement closely.

“Did I hurt your mouth?” he asked quietly.

She shook her head. “No. Oh, no, not at all,” she said huskily.

Quinn nodded and sighed heavily. He smiled faintly and then turned and went back into the living room without another word.

It was a long afternoon, made longer by the strain Amanda felt being close to him. She found her eyes meeting
his across the room and every time she flushed from the intensity of the look. Her body was hungry for him, and she imagined the reverse was equally true. He watched her openly now, with smoldering hunger in his eyes. They had a light supper and watched a little more television. But when Harry went to his room and Elliot called good-night and went up to bed, Amanda weakly stayed behind.

Quinn finished his cigarette with the air of a man who had all night, and then got up and reached for Amanda, lifting her into his arms.

“There's nothing to be afraid of,” he said quietly, searching her wide, apprehensive eyes as he turned and carried her into his study and closed the door behind them.

It was a fiercely masculine room. The furniture was dark wood with leather seats, the remnants of more prosperous times. He sat down in a big leather armchair with Amanda in his lap.

“It's private here,” he explained. His hand moved one of hers to his shirt and pressed it there, over the tie. “Even Elliot doesn't come in when the door's shut. Do you still want to take my shirt off?” he asked with a warm smile.

Amanda sighed. “Well, yes,” she stammered. “I haven't done this sort of thing before….”

“Neither have I, honey,” he murmured dryly. “I guess we'll learn it together, won't we?”

She smiled into his dark eyes. “That sounds nice.” She
lowered her eyes to the tie and frowned when she saw how it was knotted.

“Here, I'll do it.” He whipped it off with the ease of long practice and unlooped the collar button. “Now. You do the rest,” he said deeply, and looked like a man anticipating heaven.

Her fingers, so adept on a keyboard, fumbled like two left feet while she worried buttons out of buttonholes. He was heavily muscled, tanned skin under a mass of thick, curling black hair. She remembered how it had looked that first night she'd been here, and how her hands had longed to touch it. Odd, because she'd never cared what was under a man's shirt before.

She pressed her hands flat against him, fascinated by the quick thunder of his heartbeat under them. She looked up into dark, quiet eyes.

“Shy?” he murmured dryly.

“A little. I always used to run a mile when men got this close.”

The smile faded. His big hand covered hers, pressing them closer against him. “Wasn't there ever anyone you wanted?”

She shook her head. “The men I'm used to aren't like you. They're mostly rounders with a line a mile long. Everything is just casual to them, like eating mints.” She flushed a little. “Intimacy isn't a casual thing to me.”

“Or to me.” His chest rose and fell heavily. He touched her bright head. “Now will you take your hair down, Amanda?” he asked gently. “I've dreamed about it for days.”

Amanda smiled softly. “Have you, really? It's something of a nuisance to wash and dry, but I've gotten sort of used to it.” She unbraided it and let it down, enchanted by Quinn's rapt fascination with it. His big hands tangled in it, as if he loved the feel of it. He brought his face down and kissed her neck through it, drawing her against his bare chest.

“It smells like flowers,” he whispered.

“I washed it before church this morning,” she replied. “Elliot loaned me his blow-dryer but it still took all of thirty minutes to get the dampness out.” She relaxed with a sigh, nuzzling against his shoulder while her fingers tugged at the thick hair on his chest. “You feel furry. Like a bear,” she murmured.

“You feel silky,” he said against her hair. With his hand, Quinn tilted her face up to his and slid his mouth onto hers in the silent room. He groaned softly as her lips parted under his. His arms lifted and turned her, wrapped her up, so that her breasts were lying on his chest and her cheek was pressed against his shoulder by the force of the kiss.

He tasted of smoke and coffee, and if his mouth wasn't expert, it was certainly ardent. She loved kissing him. She curled her arms around his neck and turned a little more, hesitating when she felt the sudden stark arousal of his body.

Her eyes opened, looking straight into his, and she colored.

“I'm sorry,” he murmured, starting to shift her, as if his physical reaction to her embarrassed him.

“No, Quinn,” she said, resisting gently, holding his gaze as she relaxed into him, shivering a little. “There's nothing to apologize for. I…like knowing you want me,” she whispered, lowering her eyes to his mouth. “It just takes a little getting used to. I've never let anyone hold me like this.”

His chest swelled with that confession. His cheek rested on her hair as he settled into the chair and relaxed himself, taking her weight easily. “I'm glad about that,” he said. “But it isn't just physical with me. I wanted you to know.”