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Thoughts of the matriarchs caused Sara to attack the cotton strands on her door with renewed vigor. The sooner she cleaned the mess, the sooner she could get inside, have a hot cup of tea and the hot bath she had been dreaming of all day. It was going to be a late night. She really needed to relax before meeting everyone at the rapids for the ceremony and the celebration.

With the mess balled up in one hand, Sara Jane reached for the deadbolt. Before she could insert her key into the lock, the door swung inward and a muscled chest knocked her off her feet. Her heart thumped. Panic engulfed her as she tumbled onto the porch deck. Clarabelle let out a horrendous squall when her tail was trapped under Sara’s bottom. Sara shifted and Clarabelle, mighty protector that she was ran straight into the woods. Sara didn’t blame her; she wanted to follow her cat. The dual impulses of fight or flight warred within her as she struggled to her feet.

Excerpt from Paradise Found - That Second Chance Series – Book Four

by

Mary
Campisi

It's all about that second chance...

Sometimes we're lucky enough to get that second chance-in life and in love. That Second Chance Series are stories of strong women who battle heartache and loss with courage and determination to find new paths and true love. These books are standalones and are NOT related. Therefore, the characters
from one story will not appear in another. What ties them together?
A common theme-belief in the beauty of that second chance.

How does one see truly—with the heart or with the eyes?

Matt Brandon has it all—wealth, power, looks, and talent. Women want
him,
men want to be like him. When a freak ski accident strips him of one of life’s most basic needs—his sight—he struggles to accept the possibility that his blindness may be permanent.

Enter, psychologist, Sara Hamilton, a woman who has known her own share of grief and loss and may just be the one person who can help Matt redefine his new world.
Sara is every woman’s woman—she’s not a toothpick or a Cosmo girl, has never been prom queen, or dated the blond-haired god with the big white teeth. She’s honest and decent and real…and lives on the perimeter, applauding her patients’ successes, nursing them through their failures, but never acknowledging or accepting her own
lackings
. She’s loved and lost once and has been so emotionally scarred, she’s not willing to risk those feelings again.

Of course, she’s never met a man like Matt Brandon. As Matt and Sara explore the delicate balance between ‘blind’ trust and hope, they will discover that sometimes you
have to lose everything to find what you are truly looking for…

That Second Chance Series

Book One: Pulling Home

Book Two: The Way They Were

Book Three: Simple Riches

Book Four: Paradise Found

Chapter 1

“Sara, every man is not your ex-husband.”

“Thank God.” A woman could only take so many lying philanderers in her life and once was definitely more than enough. Of course, Jeff would remind her that psychologists shouldn’t dissect their personal lives
like case studies.
Easy for him to say.
He had a wife who loved him and a baby on the way. What did she have besides a hurt so deep she couldn’t take a full breath?

“You’d only be in California until I can get things squared away here. Then I’ll be right out.
A few weeks at the most.”
His voice softened. “Nina's having another ultrasound today. The bleeding's stopped.”

Sara pushed past the queasiness in her belly. “I know how much you both want this baby.”

“The doctor thinks everything will be okay, but I can't leave until we know for sure. But Matt needs help now. His brother said he’s
getting worse every day and lately he won’t let anybody near him.”

“Not even one of those little starlets of his?” If the tabloids were accurate, company, especially the female variety, was plentiful.

Jeff frowned. “You shouldn't believe everything you read.”

He was right, of course. The remark was not something a psychologist should say even if she thought it. “I'm sorry, that was unkind. I don't even know the man.” But she’d read a lot about him. Matthew Brandon.
Writer.
Millionaire.
Blind man.

“He's a decent guy once you get past the trappings.”

And there were plenty of trappings. Seven months ago, he'd
held the key to fame, fortune, and opportunity. One sharp maneuver down a steep ski slope had ended all that. The key was gone and he couldn’t even find the door.
Literally.

“He's been through four psychologists. West Coast brands, though”—he flashed
her a
grin— “so they don't count.”

“And you think one East Coast variety,
who
happens to be female, is going to make him behave?”

He shrugged. “You might be just what he needs. If all else fails, you can run interference until I get out there and knock some sense into him.”

“We're talking about a man's life, not a football game,” she said.
“And the man in question is more than a little noncompliant.”

Jeff laughed. “That's Matt all right. He's been that way since college. I sacked him three times during a drill one time. Told him not to try the damned
quarterback sneak
again or I'd bury him deeper than tomorrow. He didn’t listen.
Zipped right past me for the touchdown.”

“Well, he's not zipping past much of anything these days.”

“But the point is
,
he doesn't give up. Matt's the kind of guy who thinks if he tries hard enough and persists long enough, he can make anything happen. That's why he's so successful. He never takes no for an answer.
Until now.
He believes he'll never see again.”

“What are the odds he will?”

“Not good.
Getting worse each month.
He has to start accepting the fact that he may be blind for the rest of his life.”

“He doesn't sound like the kind of man who would accept anything he can't control.” She'd read about the multimillion-dollar book deal he and his agent had negotiated for
Dead Moon Rising
.
Four million?
Or was it five? There was even talk of another movie.
And a lot more money.
Matthew Brandon had been a regular in
People
magazine since his first book,
Hard Truths
, hit the big screen four years ago. Hollywood had opened her arms and sucked him into her Armani-clad bosom of beauty, wealth, and power. There'd
been a string— no, strings—of starlets and supermodels since then.
The beautiful people.
The ones to watch.
He'd become as intriguing as Jack Steele, the character in his books. Men wanted to be like him. Women just wanted him. Most women, that was.

“Matt's never been very good at settling for anything,” Jeff said. “That's why somebody like you might be able to help him. You've got a quiet strength, determined but not forceful.”

“I doubt he’ll listen to a woman. He needs a firm hand like yours.” She looked away, ran her fingers down the creases of her linen pants and concentrated on the way they popped back into place when she
lifted her fingers. Some people were like that. You could flatten them and they'd bounce right back. She’d bet Matthew Brandon was a survivor and blind or not, he’d pull through.

“If you think about it, Matt's going through the same thing you did a few years back,” Jeff said in the voice he used to calm his patients. “His identity's been stripped, his frame of reference distorted with the accident. You went through that when Brian left.”  He hesitated, his voice dipping lower. “And you lost the baby. In a few months' time your whole world flipped and crashed.”

I lost my heart
. “We have nothing in common.” From what she’d read, he didn’t have a heart.

Jeff pushed back his chair and moved to the other side of the desk. “I'd say you have a lot in common, and you might be just the one to show him how to survive.”

“I don’t think I could maintain my objectivity.” There, she’d admitted she couldn’t be objective about a man who reminded her too much of her ex-husband.

Jeff read her thoughts.
“Matt's nothing like Brian.
Once you get to know him, you'll see for yourself.”

She wanted to tell him she had no desire to get to know the man, but what purpose would it serve? Jeff needed her help, and as his partner and friend, she couldn't let him down.

“Two weeks?
Right?”
Certainly she could handle fourteen days.

He nodded and a smile inched across his face. “Give or take a day or two.”

“Okay then. I'd like to get everything wrapped up here and leave as soon as possible.” No sense prolonging the inevitable.

“Great.” He leaned over and clasped her hands in his. “I owe you.”

She shrugged, trying to pretend it was no big deal. “What about my clients?”

“Jessie can handle them if she needs to. Just get the paperwork in order and let them know you'll be gone for a few weeks.”

“She's so young,” Sara said, thinking of the perky redhead who followed her everywhere with notebook and pencil in hand.

“Twenty-five is not that young,” Jeff said. “Of course, she's not ancient, like you. What are you anyway?” he asked, rubbing his chin.
“Thirty-six?
Thirty-seven?”

Sara frowned at him.
“Thirty-four.
The same age as your wife, as if you didn't know.”

Jeff threw his hands in the air. “So I was off a few years. What does it matter?
Thirty, thirty-five, forty?
You'll still be beautiful at fifty.”

“You must be desperate to get me to California if you've resorted to out-and-out lying.”

“What do you mean?”

He actually looked confused. Okay, she’d clarify it for him. “Beauty has never been one of my greatest attributes. I've always opted for brains.” Though once in a while she had wondered what it would be like…

“Oh, so now you can choose your beauty like a pair of old shoes?” The look on his face told her he thought she was joking. She wasn't. For much of her pre-adolescent and teenage life, she’d known the sting of being just plain ordinary. Nothing spectacular, except perhaps her eyes—amber-green, almond shaped with a slight tilt. A seductress’s eyes, someone once said. What a joke. She'd never been able to seduce anything, including her husband.

Brian was the only person who had ever made her feel beautiful with his honeyed words and slow smiles.
Until he grew tired of her.
Until she balked at cosigning a hefty business loan for him.
She'd wanted him to wait until after the baby…

Can't you just once in your pitiful life say, ‘Screw
it?  I don't care if it doesn't make sense right
now,
I'm going to do it anyway?’ His perfect lips had pulled into a thin line. Hell no, you can't. You're so
goddamned responsible, it's suffocating. Well then, screw
you, Sara. He'd grabbed his jacket and slammed out of the house, leaving her sitting by the fireplace with her swollen belly and her shredded self-esteem.

No man would ever do that to her again, even if she had to reside in the world of the ordinary for the rest of her life. She was used to looking the other way when an interested male tried to catch her eye or a fellow colleague attempted to escalate their friendship to the next level. Ordinary was safe. Ordinary was what she wanted.

Jeff interrupted her thoughts with a long sigh. “One of these days, you and I need to have a long talk.”

“Oh?”

“Yeah.
Oh. One of these days, we're going to talk about the incredible job you do with your clients. How you dig them out of a garbage pile of despair, build their self-esteem and send them into
healthy new relationships and worthwhile jobs.”

“I care about those women. And I believe in them.” She had to, for God knew, they didn't believe in themselves, not when the pain and shock of being cast aside reverberated through their souls.

“You make it personal.”

He was right. She made it personal because she'd experienced firsthand every gut-wrenching emotion they would ever encounter and she'd survived.
“So, why the need for a talk?”

He pinned her with a blue stare. “Because I want to know how you can have such patience and foresight with your clients and make such lousy choices in your personal life.”

Oh. So it wasn’t a compliment—it was an accusation. “We've been through this all before.”

“Yes, we have and we're still hitting dead ends. The day you lost the baby, you gave up on hope. When Brian walked out, you gave up on love. Why is it you can help everybody else, but you can't help yourself?”

The phone rang just then and saved her from having to conjure up a response. Jeff leaned over and levered the receiver from its base. “Yes?”

Sara closed her eyes, taking the momentary distraction to pull
herself
together. Jeff’s words made perfect sense. After all, she spoke similar ones to her clients every day. Why
couldn't she listen to her own professional recommendations and open herself up to love again?

The answer was simple—she wasn't willing to risk the pain. It had almost destroyed her before and she couldn't chance it a second time. That's why she worked so hard with her clients. They were her success. They went on to live again, love again, hope again. She was a part of that and it was enough. It had to be.