Then he tipped back the remains of his wine, stood up and bowed formally. He wished me a
buona notte
and was gone. I stayed at the bar supping my beer. When I looked round the nightclub I
noticed quite a few women in there who seemed to like shiny necklaces and bangles and such things.
But I liked the holidaymakers. They were relaxed, friendly and hell-bent on enjoying their well deserved break from the grubby offices and the scruffy factories and the dirty
coal-mines of their industrial year. I saw them at their best for the two weeks when they put down their loads and kicked off their shoes. They laughed easily and loved to share a joke or a story.
I saw how the mothers loved and how the fathers indulged their children. Perhaps it was that, and the fatherly talk from Luca Valletti, that made me call home the next day.
The conversation started badly. ‘You’ve remembered us, then,’ my stepdad said.
I think I had disappointed Ken. I don’t know when or how it started. He was a thoroughly decent man who had provided everything for me and my mother. Ken had spent his life developing his
building business. Raised in poverty, he knew the value of a good roof. I think he was always afraid that some misfortune, or a thief, or bad luck would come round and steal some of the tiles from
the roof of our own home. Yes, he was a working man made good but he was the kind who wants to pull the ladder up behind him so that no one else from a similar background can make good.
As an only child – he had no biological children of his own – it was somehow assumed that I would follow him into his business. I’d surprised him by wanting to go to college
and by standing up to him. He took it badly, as if my rejection of his trade was a personal insult. I don’t know why – I’d never once played that despicable game of saying
you’re not my real dad and so on. Now that I was old enough to understand what he’d done for us, I was grateful to him. But he seemed to take the whole college thing as a rejection of
what he’d done for me and my mother, too.
I knew that his plan for me to work with and for him that summer was part of a deeper scheme to embroil me in his business. Presumably he thought I would come to my senses after I’d
finished my three years at college. In a sense I had run away from all of this; run away to sea, or at least to the seaside.
The conversation with Ken was short and stilted. He passed me on to my mother, who asked a lot of questions about where was I washing my laundry and where was I doing my shopping. She finally
came to the point. ‘Why Skegness? Why have you gone to Skegness?’
‘I told you. There’s a job here. Plus I’ve got one of the better jobs going.’
‘It’s an awful place.’
‘No it isn’t. It’s a lot of fun.’
‘Of all the places you could choose,’ she said. ‘Of all the places.’
The days were getting hotter. The thermometer glass was reading the upper eighties day after day. It was all highly unusual for this temperate island of ours so the cool
shadows of the empty theatre were a regular seduction. I still wasn’t sleeping well and during one of my breaks I knew I could find a seat in the dark corner of the auditorium as a
comfortable place to take a nap. I was snoozing in there one evening, drifting in and out of sleep, disturbed now and again as the theatre acts began to arrive to make preparation for the big
Variety show we had that night. It was too early for any of the holidaymakers to be inside so the acts breezed in through the front of the house, walked down the aisle and up the stage steps to get
behind the wings.
I woke properly to the sound of an industrial vacuum cleaner. It was Terri, pushing the machine around the carpet in front of the musician’s pit just below and in front of the stage. I
smacked my lips and rubbed my cheeks, thinking I’d better go and throw water on my face. Then to the left of the stage the emergency doors swung open and Colin came striding in. He spoke to
Terri. The hoover was still roaring so I couldn’t hear what was said; and I was pretty sure neither of them knew I was up in the upper auditorium watching them from the shadows. Terri opened
her mouth and said something in reply.
It was like watching a dumb-show. Colin seized his wife by the throat with one hand. He shook her side to side and lifted her a few inches off the ground. It was like seeing a lurcher shake a
rabbit. Then he dropped her back on her feet, turned around and marched out of the theatre the way he’d come in.
It all happened in a second. Terri stood with her hands on her hips, looking at the door by which Colin had left. After a few moments she switched off the hoover. She bent to pick up some
cleaning cloths and a spray-polish, starting in on the mahogany woodwork that defined the edge of the stage. Whatever had just happened, it didn’t seem to faze her much.
I was trying to think how I might slip out without her noticing. I didn’t want her to know that I’d just seen that small exhibition of marital bliss. But then she started singing
again. At first she sang softly, then after a few bars she let her voice ring out, just as she had the previous morning. Whoever was in her heart when she sang these songs, I couldn’t imagine
it had much to do with Colin. She was using her singing as antidote to her woes. It was self-medication.
From behind me I heard the swing doors open and then I saw Luca Valletti padding down the carpeted aisle. Luca didn’t see me either. He had his make-up bag in one hand and his other arm
was flung wide. His face was illuminated with delight.
‘My darling girl!’ he shouted. ‘What is this song-bird I hear?’
Terri stopped in mid-flight. As she turned to him in surprise her palm fluttered to her face in that already familiar gesture.
Luca moved towards her in a skip. ‘Beautiful, my darling! Beautiful! Why you not on the stage with me? It’s a crime! We should make music! We should make the duet! It’s like
the Cinderella to see you here when you should be up there! Under the lights! It’s a songbird you are! A beautiful songbird.’
Luca stood with his hand outstretched to her, smiling, his head tilted back and to the side, delighted.
The emergency exit door cracked open. Colin came in. He seemed to be in no hurry and yet something in his step alarmed me. It had calm intention but his face was impassive. As he crossed in
front of the stage he was like a postman walking up to someone’s front door with a letter.
He attacked the unprepared Luca and with his left hand around the Italian Tenor’s windpipe he pushed the singer up against the wall, sweeping him off the ground. He held his right fist
bunched and drawn back ready to strike. ‘Don’t you no never never never speak to my wife like that! No fuckin’ never! You don’t never you fuckin wop, you what? ? If I ever
you fuckin’ wop! If I ever!’
I made out the words but it was more like hearing a dog barking rapidly. I got to my feet; not to intervene, because I was too afraid of Colin, but to let him know that there were other people
around witnessing this assault. The racket drew others from back stage. Amongst them was Tony, his face half plastered with orange stage make-up. ‘Put him down you dozy bugger!’ Tony
roared.
Colin didn’t seem to hear any of it. He was in a zone of his own making. Tiny bubbles of saliva beaded his lips and yet his eyes were cold.
‘Colin,’ said Terri quietly, but firmly. ‘Colin.’
Pinky Pardew appeared on the scene holding a carton of No. 6 cigarettes. ‘What the fuck is going on?’
‘Colin,’ Terri said again.
Finally Colin released his grip on Luca’s windpipe. The Italian slid to the floor, gasping, holding his throat.
Pinky was red in the face. ‘Enough. You don’t come near this theatre again. Nowhere near. Set foot in here again I’ll have you off the camp and you can pick up your cards.
I’m not having it.’
‘He was having a pop at my wife!’ Colin stated mildly. He pointed at Pinky. ‘What would you do if he had a pop at your wife?’ Colin looked around wildly. He pointed at
me. ‘What would you do if some wop had a run at your wife?’
‘Go on, clear off,’ Pinky shouted at him. ‘Terri, you get on with your work. We’ve got a fucking show to run around here.’
Colin bared his teeth, put his head down and left.
Meanwhile Tony had helped Luca to his feet. Two of the dancers were fussing around him, dusting him down. ‘It’s finish,’ the Italian was saying. ‘It’s finish
here.’
‘Come on, old son,’ Tony said, ‘let’s get you backstage and straightened up.’
‘No I can’t. It’s no possible. It’s finish.’
‘Look,’ Tony said, ‘you know we all worship you, Luca. Never mind that fucking idiot. We all love you. You know that.’
Terri burst into tears. ‘I’m sorry, Luca. I’m so sorry!’
Luca suddenly recovered his composure. ‘My darling, was it you? Or was it him?’ He stepped over to Terri and took her hand, bent his head and pressed his lips to her trembling
fingers. Then with a sad smile he released her hand. ‘Yes. Si. Si. We have a show, no? We have a show.’ He turned and skipped up the steps and onto the stage to disappear behind the
wings, followed by Tony and the dancers, all still babbling incredulity at the event.
I was left out front with Pinky. Terri switched on the hoover and moved away from us. ‘I saw it all,’ I said.
Pinky sniffed. ‘Was he?’
‘Was he what?’
He nodded at Terri. ‘Was Luca having a sniff?’
‘Christ, no. Luca was just telling her what a great voice she has. That’s all it was. Unless that constitutes “having a sniff”.’
Pinky turned away from me and followed the others up the steps onto the stage. He puffed on his unlit cigar. ‘Sometimes it does,’ he said, ‘sometimes it
doesn’t.’
I was left with Terri as she trawled up and down the aisles with the hoover. I wanted to go but then again, I didn’t. I watched her work as if nothing had just happened, and I knew she was
aware of me watching her. It was ridiculous. She was beautiful. It didn’t seem possible that she had become yoked to a man like that, someone twice her age, someone who was a beast and who
could offer nothing but raw violence and meanness and a life of low instinct.
Very slowly she worked her way back towards me with the vacuum cleaner, bringing the thing close to where I was standing. I wondered if I was supposed to lift my feet like I’d seen my dad
do for my mum, but when the machine was almost touching my shoe she switched it off. The new quiet pulsed in the empty auditorium. A stray lock of hair had fallen across her face and she pretended
to blow it out of her eye but I knew it was a breath of relief. She gave me a deep, searching look. Then she parted her lips and mouthed one single, painful word.
She didn’t even have to say it.
The following morning I got to find out who I was billeted with. It turned out to be the missing Greencoat, a cheerfully psychotic Mancunian chain-smoker called Nobby. After
another bad night I was actually sleeping well one morning, only to be awoken when his key hit the lock from the other side of the door.
If he was surprised to encounter a new room-mate he didn’t show it. He stood over me in a Greencoat outfit of whites or rather off-whites – and a blazer identical to mine. ‘Are
you with us, son? It’s a brand new day!’
I blinked up at him from my pit. He was at least ten years my senior. His hair shook in its tight perm of dark curls streaked grey at the temples. The tremor was from an endless nervous energy
that would never – I was about to discover – allow him to be still.
‘You the new Greencoat then? Shake a leg and I’ll walk down with you. Though you can have this shithole to yourself cos I’m never here how the fuck they expect two grown men to
sleep side by side in this depressed hen coop for plucked chickens I’ll never know are you up yet? Come on, son, come on.’
‘I’ll get a shower,’ I muttered. I grabbed a towel and walked out into the corridor.
For some reason Nobby followed me. ‘Shower? Shower? Throw water on your face, you’ll be fine. There’s a drought on! War rations. I mean war footing! Plus showering every day is
bad for you no one ever tell you that scrubs away the natural oils so essential to your vitality, son. Not to mention the pheromones yes yes yes. Did I mention the pheromones?’
There was a communal shower at the end of the building and I walked in and switched on the faucet. ‘The what?’
‘The what? They told me you was fuckin’ educated. Pheromones, son, pheromones. This is what it’s all about, in’t it? Are you getting plenty? If you are that’s cos
of your very fine zinging pinging pheromones. If you’re not getting plenty that’s cos your pheromones are no good. Or rinsed out. Wash it all away and well, damp squib sort of
thing.’ He stood watching me shower and didn’t stop talking except to light up a cigarette. ‘Too much fuckin’ showering that’ll do it. Hey! Hey! Hey! You listen to
Nobby. Nobby knows, you know.’
I dried off and padded back to my room. Or
our
room, as with increasing dismay I now felt I should call it.
‘Flip-flops! Get yourself some flip-flops. Cos o’ the slops they’re dirty, lazy bastards in here and you’ll get athlete’s foot off this shower floor and verrucas
and viruses and what else trenchfoot I don’t know warts corns blisters in-growing toenails instep fungus hammertoe, hey hey! That floor is like a smorgas board of infection, hey!’
I made the mistake of trying to listen to this barrage but it was impossible. I found my brain starting to tune him out. I’d known him maybe three minutes and already he exhausted me. As I
got dressed I said, ‘I thought you’d quit.’
‘Why? Why’s that then? Why?’ He went over to the open window, and flung his cigarette butt outside. Then he sat on my bed, took out a fresh ciggie and did that trick of
flipping it in the air and catching it in his mouth.
‘Well, you’d been missing for a few days.’
‘Missing? I haven’t been missing. I’ve been on my other job.’
‘Other job?’
‘Look at the state of your whites! Bit how’s-your-father round the waist I’d say. That the best they could do? That’s a joke that. A joke. Go and see Dot and don’t
take any shit. Better still I’ve got some as will fit you better.’ Then he slapped his thigh and fell sideways on the bed, laughing, a cancerous cackle. ‘A joke.’When
he’d recovered from the hilarity of laughing at my ill-fitting whites he recovered to light up his cigarette. ‘Yes I’ve got another job up the road.’