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Authors: Aubrey Irons

Chapter Sixteen
Silas

I
’m up early
, just before the sun crests over the breakers.

I’m always up early, at least since the crash. At first it was the nightmares - tires squealing, glass shattering, the weightless feeling as up becomes down, the sound of metal against the road. The sound of my friend’s scream going suddenly silent.

Yeah, I had those for a while.

But after that, being up early just became routine; something I did. Get up, get the strongest fucking coffee possible into my body, and then get the blood pumping. I stare into the mirror in the tiny bathroom of the houseboat while the drip machine works its magic, inhaling dark roast and the smell of low tide as I rub a splash of water across my face, my fingers raking across the stubble on my cheeks.

The coffee scalds on the first sip, but I drink it anyways; getting at least a few more in before I drop to the floor. I count pumping breaths as I do my pushups, In. Out. Up. Down. I go until my arms burn, and then I do two more before I flip onto my back for crunches. For those, I count by twos for some weird reason, clenching my core again and again until I can barely breathe. After that, it’s right back to the pushups, and the cycle continues ten more times.

When I’m done, my whole body is on fire, but every cell in my brain is firing on full cylinders. I refill the mug from the machine and take it out onto the deck, staring out at the mouth of the harbor as I take a fresh scalding sip.

“Well shit, kid.”

I whirl at the sound of the voice from my past - the voice of the man who sent everything shattering out of control.

Declan.

The world’s all-time
shittiest
uncle and legal guardian. I can’t really imagine a world where my parents’ legal will named a man like Declan as my next of kin, except in a world where I
have
no other family. A world where Declan McCreedy is
literally
the only option.

That I basically grew up in the Hammond house makes a
whole lot
of sense once you know Declan.

His hair is grayer now than it was then, slicked back to the point of pulling at the sallow skin of his forehead. He’s still got the same out-of-date mustache, grayer now, still tobacco streaked with yellow. I can remember him stroking it, like a nervous tick or a poker tell, that night in the car.

The night I watched her heart breaking from the hospital parking lot through the rain-streaked windshield.

The night he put a passport in my hand.

And now he’s standing right in fucking front of me, on the docks of Shelter Harbor.

He’s flanked by two bruiser-looking motherfuckers in black jackets and berets - the exact type of wannabe Irish-mob tools Declan’s always surrounded himself by. He’s got connections, sure, but he’s the big fish in a small fucking pond out here away from the city. He’s got his little criminal fiefdom here in Shelter Harbor, but he’d get eaten fucking
alive
in Southie or Charlestown, and he fucking knows it.

He’s wearing fucking
sunglasses -
big, gaudy grandmother-style ones. But I can see the lines around his eyes crinkle as the corners of his lips pull back in a grin.

“You look good, kid,” he growls out in that Boston-tinged townie accent.

“Catch a lot of rays over there in sunny fucking Dublin?”

The two goons snicker on cue. I just tighten my jaw.

Part of me wants to destroy this man for fucking up my life. Except eight years later, I know that’s only partly the blame. Deep down, I know it was me that did the destroying. Declan may have helped, but I’m man enough these years later to know that
I’m
to blame for my own shit.

As easy at it would be to kill this man with my bare fucking hands right here and now, even if it’d be my last move.

His goons are still chuckling when I interrupt them all.

“What do you want, Declan.”

He chuckles as he reaches up to pull the shades from his face. His grey-green eyes narrow at me, his tobacco-stained smile still leering at me.

“Just wanted to check in on my favorite nephew is all. Hey, if you don’t got family what do you have, huh?”

“You’re a pillar of the modern family, Declan.”

He grins, spreading his arms. “So, home sweet home, huh?”

“Yep.”

He shakes his head, his hand slipping into the breast pocket of his shirt for a pack of Lucky Strikes.

“I mean,
shit,
kid. You got me all choked up over here.”

I frown, my mouth tightening. “What.”

“What?” He laughs with the cigarette in his lips as he brings the lighter up to the end of it. Smoke billows out as he chuckles through the lighting of it.

“I mean, you don’t
call
, you don’t fucking
write
.”

I level my eyes at him. “You
get
that I was in fucking
hiding
, right?” That I was in another country without a real fucking passport? Remember that part?”

Declan pulls on his cigarette, his cheeks hollowing and his eyes never leaving mine. “Not talking about fucking
Ireland
, boy-o.”

I say nothing, but he raises a brow at me. “Don’t bullshit me, kid. I knew when you came back.”

I force myself not to react - not to show a single flinch or sign that I give a shit that he knows.

He grins. “It’s not
that
big of town, Boston,” he says with a wink. “And boy, that Valerie sure is a piece, huh?”

I can feel a horrible chill run down my spine.

“Yeah, it’s not a big town and I
know
people, pal.”

“Been spying on me, Dec?”

He pulls the smoke from his lips and grins again as he hold his fingers up. “
Teeny
bit. What can I say? I missed you, kid.”

“You didn’t.”

He shrugs. “Well, not your
driving
skills.”

I can feel my blood
boil
as he grins and as the two black-coated goons chuckle. I
know
he wants me to react, so
he
can. It’s how Declan works. Always the viper, always the provocateur, so he has a reason to strike.

Don’t let him get to you.

I’m past this.

I’m better than this.

“Whatever you say, Declan.” I purposely turn my back to him, taking a sip of my coffee as I look out at the waves beyond the mouth of the harbor.

“But hell, I guess it’s not Valerie I should be watching these days, now is it?”

I freeze, the mug halfway to my mouth, before I slowly lower it and turn back to him. He’s leering at me, a wicked grin on his face as he stands with one foot up on the side of my boot. And that look say’s he’s
daring
me to make a move.

I don’t.

“Oh yeah, kid, I see it all.” He taps the side of his face as he grins at me. “Like a
hawk.

I’m turning, readying myself to ignore any more of his bullshit, when that voice of his cuts
deep.

“That Ivy Hammond sure has grown up.”

I turn back, my face tight. “
Watch
it.”

Declan chuckles. “That Instagram account of hers?” He whistles. “Shit, kid, I’ve fired off a few by myself to some of those yoga-pant and bikinis, if you know what I mean.”

I’m on him in a second, hands grabbing him by the collar and my eyes burning like hot coals into his. “You watch your
fucking
mouth!”

The two goons lunge forward, but my uncle waves them off with a hand. The corners of his mouth curl.

“Now, what it is you said to me all those years ago when I helped you out? When I
helped you
get away?” He raises a brow. “‘She means nothing,’ I think it was? That she was ‘just some girl’?”

I know what I said. I said exactly what I
had
to, to keep her distant from me; to make sure Declan didn’t think she was any sort of leverage on me. It’s also why I’ve got no intention of tearing a hole in him right now about the one letter she never got.

My hands loosen on his shirt.

“Just some girl, huh?” He shakes his head. “Eight years later and look at you - all piss and vinegar over it.” He snorts. “Must by some kind of cunt she’s got between her-”

I roar as I drag him around and slam him into the side of the boat. I’m seeing fucking
red
as I raise my fist with every intention of slamming it through his teeth, but I’m suddenly stopped and pulled away from him by the two goons.

“Whoa!
Whoa!

He’s chuckling again - fucking
laughing
as he stabs a finger at me.

“Mind your fucking manners, you little prick. Jesus fucking Christ, we’re family.”

I snarl as I shake loose of the two thugs holding me back. “I try and forget that detail.”

His eyes narrow as he jabs a finger at me again. “You got soft over there, kid.”

I bark out a harsh laugh.

It was the literal opposite. I grew
hard
over there. I grew rough, and unkind, and uncaring, doing jobs for Declan’s Irish connections that I wish I could take back.

He clears his throat as he straightens his shirt collar, frowning at me. “Jesus, I just wanted to come by and say hello and welcome back to town. Jesus fucking Christ, throw a damn tantrum about it.”

He shakes his head as he pushes past me. “Shit, guess we shoulda brought a fuckin casserole, huh boys?”

The two goons smirk at me.


That’s all
, Silas,” he says dramatically. “Just welcome home.”

My mouth stays shut this time, and Declan just gives me a final shake of his head before the three of them turn and start to go.

“Oh, Silas,” he turns. “Things haven’t changed, while you were gone.” His eyes narrow at me. “I still
run
this town, and kid?” He grins. “I still
own
you.”

“The fuck you do.”

Try me
.

“I did what you asked, Declan. I worked for your fucking people over there for
five
damn years.”

“Beats jail, wouldn’t you say?” He pulls another cigarette out of his pack and jams it in his mouth.

He’s the only person in the world I’d
actively
wish cancer on.

“The statute of limitations is up,” I growl. “I
did
my time for you, but I’m done now.”

Five years. After five years, they can’t prosecute. That was the whole arrangement. Dodge the heat, and do jobs for the Irish Kings instead of Bubba or Curly in Walpole prison.

Declan puffs smoke through his nose as his eyes drag back to mine.

“Federal
,” he says with a small little grin. “Federal is five years for grand theft.”

He flashes his teeth, his whole damn face smiling like he can’t
wait
to drop the other shoe on me.

“But Massachusetts
state
limitations is
ten
.”

I can feel my teeth grinding as he ashes his cigarette onto the floor of my boat.

“Walpole, now that s fun little place, I hear.”

He winks before he sticks the cigarette in his mouth and turns on his heel.

“Welcome home, nephew,” he calls over his shoulder as the three of them march back down the docks.

Chapter Seventeen
Ivy

I
can’t believe
I kissed him.

And I did.
I
kissed
him.

That was no stolen kiss - nothing hidden in the shadows behind Ms. Hempstead’s garage. That was two people coming together for what they needed - magnetic attraction, like it always was with the two of us.

That was stupid
.

It was stupid for me to be alone with him, to go there at all, really. So why
did
I? What, because I was
sad
about Blaine doing what I’m fairly certain deep down I always knew he’d do? What he’d probably done before he finally admitted it? I mean, I
was
sad, but I wasn’t heartbroken.

I
can’t
be heartbroken.

There’ve been three real relationships now, since Silas. Three that fell apart, because there was never anything of substance there, nothing that shook me to my core. Nothing that gripped me, or scared me.

And I hate that
that’s
his legacy on me, all these years later.

Every breakup hurts of course, but none of them ever
really
hurt - not in that way where you don’t know if you’ll live. Not in the way that brings you to your knees and crushes you under the weight of it.

And how could they?

Because it’s not just that Silas went away and left me with a broken shattered heart, it’s that he left and
stole it
with him. You can’t
get
heartbroken after that, with no heart left to break.

I’m mulling it over on the bench in my parent’s backyard, under the red leaves of the Japanese maple tree. It occurs to me that I used to press my lips to Silas’s on this very bench late at night after sneaking out the backdoor. But then, there’s not a lot of places in this stupid town where I
didn’t
do that.

Stupid, dumb, young love.

“How’re you doing?”

I glance up to see Sierra ducking under the canopy of branches with a sympathetic look on her face.

“Ugh.”

I shake my head and look away. I’m not ready to go there yet with anyone - not ready to tell her where I went last night.

Or
who
I went there with.

“Wanna talk about it?”

I give her a wry, sideways smile. “Not really.”

“Can I bribe you?”

She brings her hand from behind her back, a plate with two white-bread, peanut-butter and jelly sandwiches cut on the diagonal on them.

I grin in spite of myself.

It’s
exactly
the type of lunch we used to munch on out here on this bench, and I
know
she knows that.

She smiles and plops down next to me, grabbing a sandwich and passing me the plate.

“Nosey,” I mutter, taking a bite of PB&J.

“I know.” She arches a brow. “So, where’d you go?”

“O’Donnell’s.”

“No, I know that part.”

I raise a brow and she rolls her eyes.

“You dipped into Rowan’s stash. He noticed.”

I laugh and pull a face. “His ‘stash’ is disgusting cheap shit. Tell him if he’s going to go through the trouble of a ‘stash’, he should at least make it the good stuff.”

She laughs and then looks at me pointedly. “And after that?”

I look away.

“Silas?”

I frown and take a mouthful of sandwich.

Sierra groans as she slumps back on the bench. “Oh
c’mon
, Ivy!”

“What?” I pout. “It’s complicated, okay?”

Its complicated because we’re married. Because eight years later, he still holds everything I am in his hands and I don’t know how to get free of that.

I take a deep breath.

I don’t know if I
want
to get free of that.

My phone pings beside me and Sierra throws her hands up as she rolls her eyes. “Of
course
; saved by Twitter or whatever.”

I stick my tongue out at her as I glance at the text from my friend Meredith.

WTF is going on with Blaine’s Instagram?!?

There’s a cold, sinking feeling in my stomach. My hands shake as I quickly open the app, swiping down until I land on his name.

Oh that FUCKER.

He’s been posting all morning, it appears - easily twenty new pictures on his account.

But they aren’t of surfboards, or fucking hiking boots, or whatever micro-distillery whiskey is paying him this week.

They’re of
her
.

I feel the fire
exploding
inside of me as my jaw drops. Twenty
fucking
pictures of the two of them - sitting on a bench in Boston Commons, a clichéd shot of two pairs of lips sipping a smoothie from two straws.

Her lips on his cheek, his lips.

Her face is half-obscured - shot only from the nose down on any picture she’s in, but it doesn’t matter. I don’t give a shit
who
she is. Truth be told, I don’t even give much of a shit that he’s found someone else, which is a weirdly cold feeling.

But it’s true.

I’m not mad - well, not
that
mad - that he stood me up at my own parents’ house. Or even that he left me for some other girl.

I’m mad that he’s
humiliating
me about it. I’m mad about having my fucking
face
rubbed in it.

“Oh that
fucker!

Sierra snatches the phone from my hands before I can stop her, her jaw dropping even more than mine, her eyes looking even more livid.

“Is he for
real?!

“Apparently,” I mutter.

Sierra stares at me. “Why aren’t you mad?”

I frown. “I am mad.”

“Not as mad as you should be.”

I shake my head, looking away. I don’t want to get into how Blaine and I have been rocky for months. How he ended up keeping his own apartment when he was going to move into mine a month ago. How he canceled the plans I’d made for
his
birthday at the last minute because “something came up.”

How the fact that this whole “I’m just not ready to settle down” bullshit actually being about another girl doesn’t
actually
surprise me that much.

Sierra shakes her head at me. “Fuck,
Ivy!
Get mad!”

I drop the sandwich back down onto the plate. “I
am
mad, okay? I just have a lot of other things on my mind right now, and a
lot
more to think about that you can even-”

“Oh, what, like
Silas?

I glare at her and she rolls her eyes.

“Jesus, Ivy, he’s not your stupid high school boyfriend anym-”

“I know that!” I snap, standing suddenly and feeling the blood pounding through me.

Sierra’s mouth snaps shut as she blinks quickly at me.

“I know that, Sierra,” I say, quieter this time. “I’ve known it for eight freaking years.”

“Look, I know I was younger when it all happened, but I just-” she makes a face. “Okay, you know I loved Silas like all of us did, but he was bad news, Ivy. I mean even
I
knew that.”

“People change,” I say quietly.

“People change or you
want
people to change?”

I look away.

“Ivy,” Sierra puts a hand on my shoulder. “Look what you’ve got now, this empire you’ve built. Shelter Harbor is always going to be home, but,” she shrugs, “sometimes you need to move forward.”

“I know,” I say with a sigh.

“So why don’t you let it go?”

Because he’s my husband, technically.

It’s a stupid excuse, and I know it. I’ve used it for so long to justify thinking about him in my own head, but the truth of it is, if that were
really
the only thing still holding me to him, I could have done something about that years ago. Filed for an annulment, or abandonment or something.

God knows I researched it.

But that’s as far as I got. Because it’s more than the rings and the piece of paper filed in the Stoborough town records department, or even the ink on our bodies.

It’s that a piece of my heart that left with him that night.

And there’s something about him being here again, something about his proximity that makes the missing piece feel like it might be closer to being made whole again.

One way or another.

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