Authors: Penelope Niven
He was spending eight hours daily at the Library of Congress, working on the third act of his play and reading the novels and essays of the writers he would meet “in Bogota, Quito, Lima and other cities.” He showed a young Brazilian novelist around Washington, met with Colombian officials, and on his private walks delivered, “not silently either, long lectures in Spanish.”
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THE WILDER
family celebrated some happy news in January 1941 with the announcement of Janet's engagement to Amherst native Winthrop Saltonstall Dakin, who practiced law in nearby Northampton. “She has already received a large diamond and a string of pearls and bland dreams of parasitism drift through the other Wilders' minds, like cats dreaming about firesides,” Wilder joked to Woollcott.
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Janet was teaching at Mount Holyoke, and she and “Toby”Dakin began planning a June wedding. Thornton would be home from South America by then, and could give her away, with all the Wilders on hand for the celebration.
Before his departure Wilder spent time with the family in Hamden, enjoying the long-standing family Sunday traditionâeating ham and eggs for breakfast, reading the newspapers, and writing letters. Then he was off to Washington and New York, planning to sail February 28 for his three-month assignment in South America. Hoping to have lunch with Charlotte a couple of days before he sailed, Wilder went to her Greenwich Village apartment twice but did not find her at home. He left a note on his calling card: “Dear SharlieâCalled at 1:10 1:45 Will stroll around neighborhood and call again at 2:10.”
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When he couldn't reach his sister, he wrote a note inviting her to go with him February 27 to a private, late-night screening of Orson Welles's new film,
Citizen Kane.
Although the movie would not have its New York premiere until May 1, Welles was eager to show it to Wilder before he left the country. “Whether I see you or not, lots of love for the present,” he told his sister, “& see you at Janet's wedding circa June 15.”
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Once again Wilder looked forward to a sea voyage and to adventures in new landscapes, filling his briefcase with the manuscript drafts of
The Skin of Our Teeth,
his journal, and novels and essays by some of the South American writers he would be meeting. He hoped he could speak Spanish “with complete ease.” His budget would be tight, and he predicted that Dwight Dana would “shake his head sadly” as Wilder spent his own money to pay for “dinners for the writers and professors and students and flowers for their wives.”
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The germ of my play, once started, began to collect about it many aspects which had nothing to do with Joyce. It fixed its thoughts on the War and the situation of the eternal family under successive catastrophes.
âTHORNTON WILDER TO ISABEL WILDER,
December 17
,
1942
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The United States and South America (1940s)
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sabella, Isabel, and Charlotte Wilder planned to meet Thornton at the West Sixteenth Street Pier in New York at noon on February 28, 1941, to see him off on the SS
Santa Lucia
for his official goodwill tour of South America.
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At the last minute Isabel was ill with a bad cold and stayed at home, and without explanation, Charlotte failed to appear.The Wilders were concerned when she did not join them as planned. Isabella stayed at the pier until Thornton boarded ship, and then went directly to her daughter's apartment in Greenwich Village. When Charlotte finally answered the door, her worried mother found her in her nightclothes, “bewildered, but quite gentle, and entirely normal most of the time.”
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Isabella begged Charlotte to dress and go out to lunch with her, and then to travel home to Hamden with her for the weekend, as they had planned. Charlotte agreed, but just before they reached the restaurant she “simply ran away, calling out that she had changed her mindâthat her âinner voices' told her not to goâto remain at her own room.” Alarmed, Isabella hurried back to Charlotte's apartment, but Charlotte refused to let her in. Finally Isabella took the train home to Connecticut “frightened and exhausted,” in hopes of getting advice and help for her daughter in New Haven.
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That night the news came by telephone that Charlotte had suffered “a complete nervous breakdown” and had been taken to Doctors Hospital in Manhattan, a fairly new private hospital. Because Thornton was at sea, and Janet and Amos were in Massachusetts, Isabella and Isabel coped with the immediate emergency, hurrying to Manhattan to begin what would prove to be a long vigil. The preliminary diagnosis was schizophrenia, and the doctors directed that Charlotte should be moved to the psychopathic department of the Payne Whitney Clinic at the Cornell Medical Center for thirty days.
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There Isabella and Isabel were referred to Dr. Lincoln Rahman, a young psychiatrist who not only was “pleasant and understanding,” according to Isabella, but was already doing groundbreaking research into schizophrenia.
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Dr. Rahman and his colleagues hoped that thirty days would be enough time for Charlotte's recovery, and Isabella told them she would then take Charlotte home to stay “indefinitely.”
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Isabel took her sister's breakdown “very hard,” Isabella reported to Dwight Dana. As for herself, she was a mother in full armor, taking charge of the oversight of her daughter's treatment, conferring with doctors, living “one day at a time,” worrying about financesâand adamantly insisting that for the time being Thornton must not know what had happened. “I shall not spoil Thornton's trip with its responsibilities by any anxiety over home matters,” she declared to Dana and her family. “Have not decided yet how much to tell him or when. The fact that he got happily away without any of us knowing that a blow was to fall seems indicative to me that he should
not
know while he has to give himself so entirely to a new untried & perhaps difficult rôle in South America.”
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“I think you were wise not to tell Thornton the whole story,” Dana wrote to Isabella, adding that “for the time being at least it might be as well not to refer to Charlotte at all, pending more information as to how things are going to work out.” Meantime, he reassured her, “Don't worry about the financial part for I know Thornton will wish to take care of all of this, and his bank account is amply sufficient to do so.”
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THORNTON WAS
in Bogotá, still protected from the news about Charlotte's illness, when he received a cable from the family that Janet and Toby Dakin were married. “Janet's wedding was sudden,” Isabel explained to Dwight Dana,
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for the young man was drafted. By marrying now they had her Easter holiday for a trip South, and the hope of at least the spring together. . . . But it did make lots of excitement and complications. It was held in the pretty chapel of Winthrop's churchâEpiscopalian. Amos gave her away. Just we four and my brother's wife; the retired rector of the church, his wife, and a young couple, friends of Janet's were present. They left at once after we had tea at the Dakins' home and met Mrs. Dakin, an invalid of many years' standing so she could not be at the ceremony.
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When Thornton got the news of the wedding, he wrote to his new brother-in-law: “May you be very happy. May you found one of those American homes which is really one of the triumphs of civilization. . . . A thousand blessings on you both from Your brother Thorny.”
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FROM HER
first day at the Payne Whitney Psychiatric Clinic, Charlotte was “up and dressed and busy,” thanks to the “elaborate routine” arranged for the patients.
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At first the family continued to receive good reports about her progress, and on March 8 Isabella and Isabel were heartened to receive a note from Charlotte herself. It was, Isabel wrote to Dana, “most reassuring, so affectionate and gentle, proving she connects nothing of that dreadful Friday with having seen Mother earlier in the day. She is fully conscious that she is ill and glad the past, which she felt she had not made a good job of, is over; and that she will not have to go on thus, and spoil the future.”
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The Wilder family gathered around, unified in their support of Charlotte, endeavoring to provide the best medical care for her, but still determined to keep the news from Thornton. What could he do from South America that he was not already doing (through the attentive auspices of Dwight Dana, who promptly wrote checks on Thornton's bank account to pay every bill for Charlotte's medical care, as well as the bills for Janet's trousseau)?
The family insisted that Janet and Toby Dakin go on with plans for their southern honeymoon during Janet's spring vacation from Mount Holyoke. Isabella and Isabel would keep watch over Charlotte. They commuted between Hamden and New York, and Amos traveled down from Massachusetts to see Charlotte in the hospital as often as her doctors would permit her to have company.
Charlotte's “nervous breakdown” was actually a psychotic episode that marked the onset of schizophrenia, and from the first, she was fortunate to be under the care of some of the best doctors at one of the best psychiatric clinics of the time. Standard treatment in 1941 included psychotherapy, various physical therapies, electric shock treatments, insulin shock therapy, and, as a last resort, lobotomy. The first antipsychotic drug would not be identified until 1952, or approved for use until 1954. Isabella and Isabel had frequent conferences with the doctors, providing family history, answering the questions the doctors raised based on what they understood at that time about schizophrenia and other mental disorders, trying to help shed “any light on Charlotte's past that might add to the picture of the case.”
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There was no family history of mental illness or clinical depressionâalthough Amos had certainly suffered depression from time to time, especially in 1934, and their parents may have done so from time to time as well. There were, however, physical issues: Charlotte skimped on food, smoked a great deal, had serious dental problems, and had undertaken a fast that further undermined her health.
Isabella and Isabel thought that Charlotte's childhood history of being separated from the family might be a factor. Some of the Wilders wondered if part of Charlotte's illness was rooted in her relationship with their father and his ambitious drive for perfection in his children. There would be glimmers of Amos Parker Wilder's relationship with his children in George Antrobus and his daughter, Gladys, in
The Skin of Our Teeth
: “Papa, do you want to hear what I recited in class?” Gladys asks him. “ âTHE STAR' by Henry Wadsworth LONGFELLOW.”
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She strives to please her father:
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Look, Papa, here's my report card. Lookit. Conduct A! Look, Papa. Papa, do you want to hear the Star, by Henry Wadsworth Longfellow? Papa, you're not mad at me, are you? . . . Papa, just look at me once.
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With her mother's encouragement, she tries to be perfect: “And, Gladys,” Mrs. Antrobus says, “I want you to be especially nice to your father tonight. You know what he calls you when you're goodâhis little angel, his little star.”
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AS AN
adult Charlotte alternately defied her family's advice and desired their approval. Her daily life in New York was defined by her struggle to earn even a subsistence living, all the while trying to hide her dire situation from her family. Poets seldom survived on the proceeds from poetry alone, Charlotte knew, and she pinned her hopes on the new prose book, under contract to Coward-McCann. But at the time of her breakdown it was giving her troubleâ“vignette tales, about 20 or 25,” she wrote her mother, “all standing far off from subjective stuff, nothing intimate or involving personal stuff; each the kernel of some person, place, or tiny happening, which, if it happened, happened far away and long ago.”
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She continually assured Thornton, Isabella, and Amos that she was not “in a jam” about funds, even though she was. Amos had offered her a place to live and work near him and Catharineâ“something to fall back on.” She appreciated it deeply, she had written to him in the fall of 1939, promising “not to get into a nervous jamâbut to stay well and unworried; and ahead of myself as I am now.”
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She had applied for a Guggenheim Fellowship in the fall of 1939 in hopes of receiving a year's financial support, writing an application narrative so densely esoteric as to be incomprehensible. “I have known, and am knowing now, real privationâalthough I have, what many have notâthe security of a home background, which saves me from experiencing these ultimate crises of nervous anxiety that come with insecurity,” she wrote to the novelist Rollo Brown in 1939, after she had pinned all her hopes on the Guggenheim Fellowship application.
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She was bitterly disappointed to be turned down.
Charlotte had written a prose disclaimer about her sexuality in her first book of poetry,
Phases of the Moon
, for there were lesbian undertones in the poems. Charlotte sustained long, intimate friendships with the novelist Evelyn Scott and the educator and activist Ernestine Friedmann, the women to whom she had dedicated
Phases
in 1936. After the book was published, she had written to Amos about the “distasteful aspect of the confessional” in poetry. “I shall never again, doubtless, âlet go' in emotionalism in just that way, for I think an objectivity in me now functions in that material, absent then.” She wrote further in this letter to Amos:
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I was so explicit about the sex-frustration, because I wanted it to be understood, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that I was not a sexual pervert, experiencing sex in a woman's world. It seemed necessary to me because so much emotion was shown as directed toward women that a natural inference might have been drawn. The reading publicâused to the disguise of such things, achieved by a mere change of pronoun . . . would not, I argue, realize that had I been, I would have felt it necessary to be explicit about thatâand might have jumped to a conclusion, unjust to me, from so much show of feeling for women.
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Amos Wilder wrote with surprising candor about these themes in his sister's poetry in his book
The Spiritual Aspects of the New Poetry
(1940)
.
He had hired Charlotte to type his manuscript, encouraging her to comment on its substance and structure, but Charlotte apparently did not request changes in his treatment of her own work. In his chapter entitled “A World Without Roots,” Amos discussed the modern poet's alienation from nature, including “the desolation wrought in the lives of sensitive and mature moderns by the frustration of the sex relationships, and we are speaking solely of the area of personal and psychological hurts.” To illustrate, he quoted poems by T. S. Eliot, Francis Thompson, Dante, Geoffrey Scottâand Charlotte Wilder. He cited the “ravages done to the will, to the life force itself, by traumatic experiences in the area of sex, especially by the record of sex conflict and irreparable injustices and remorses.” The “records and ravages” in the “secret lives of men and women” may be found in their art, Amos wrote. He contended that “there is abundant evidence of the costs of frustration in this area largely consequent upon the character of our civilization: man âburned by the ropes of his own flesh' [a line from one of Charlotte's poems] as a result of false sex attitudes, delayed marriage, or the febrile overemphasis on and exasperation of sex by commercialism and amusements.”
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