Authors: William Kent Krueger
Since he was sixteen Henry had had dreams full of animal desire from which he woke breathless and emptied. The first night with Maria was like nothing he’d ever dreamed, nothing he could ever have imagined. Their desire was a well without bottom. Henry had never been as happy as he was with Maria in his arms.
Long before dawn, long before the white men would be stirring, he rose and returned to his own tent, but he couldn’t sleep. He was too full of Maria.
She didn’t appear at breakfast. Wellington and Lima ate the biscuits and the oatmeal Henry had prepared. As sunlight began to climb the distant ridges, they set off across the lake. When they were out of sight, Henry went to Maria’s tent. He reached out, but held back from opening the flap, suddenly unsure.
“I’m awake,” she said from inside.
He found her still in her sleeping bag, looking at him with a tired smile on her face. He lay down beside her.
“You smell like smoke,” she said. “Take your clothes off and sleep with me.”
He dreamed of a snowfall that covered the forest, so deep he could barely move. Among the trees, wolves circled and he knew he could not escape them.
“You’re shivering,” she said, and that woke him.
They made love again. The tent was warm in the sunlight, and, afterward, they lay together, wet with their own sweat.
Henry heard the sound of music, a muffled chime.
“What’s that?” he said.
Maria reached into her canvas bag and pulled out a small box. Inside was a gold watch.
“It’s a present for my father,” she said.
She snapped it open and handed it to Henry. Opposite the face of the watch was Maria’s face, a small photograph behind glass.
“His birthday is next week. On the front, see the writing? It’s Spanish. It says, ’To my beloved papa.’ I wish it said ’To my beloved Henry.’ I wish I had something to give you. A present.”
“You already gave me a present, the best I ever had.”
He handed the watch back and she put it away.
That afternoon she swam again while Henry plucked the feathers from a grouse he’d killed. He could barely take his eyes off her. She swam naked now. She told him women had more fat on their bodies than men and could stand the cold, but Henry could see no fat on her.
Out of the corner of his eye, he caught a flash of reflected sunlight among the trees on a point a quarter mile to the west. It was a prolonged and brilliant glinting, the kind that came from glass or polished
metal or some other thing that didn’t occur naturally in the forest. Henry laid the half-plucked grouse on the ground. He grabbed his rifle, slipped into the woods, and worked his way soundlessly toward the point. Fifty yards away, he slowed and moved like a big cat hunting—creep and pause, creep and pause—while his eyes dissected every nuance of light and shadow.
He arrived at the place along the shoreline where he’d spotted the reflection. There was nothing to be seen. Henry studied the ground carefully. It was rocky terrain. The stones that poked through the soil were covered with lichen. On several stones, patches of the lichen had been scraped away by the careless placement of a foot. Henry widened his search. Twenty yards away he found a trail of broken ground cover leading west. In soft earth a hundred yards farther on, he found the imprint of a moccasin.
Henry stood up, certain now that he hadn’t been the only one enjoying the sight of Maria swimming.
His inclination was to begin tracking immediately, but he had no idea how far that would take him or how long he would be gone, and there was still the evening meal to prepare. He held to the patience Woodrow had taught him. When he returned to camp, Maria had finished swimming and was dressed.
“Where did you go?” she asked and kissed him.
“I saw something.”
She looked at his rifle. “What?”
He told her. She didn’t seem frightened.
“What should we do?” she asked.
“We will find him,” Henry said.
“Him?”
He didn’t think a woman would be alone in this deep wilderness, but Maria was right. He had no idea.
“When will we find him?” she asked.
“Tomorrow.”
“What about tonight? What if he—or she—comes back tonight while we’re sleeping?”
“I won’t sleep.”
She smiled. “I’ll help you stay awake.”
Wellington and Lima came back arguing. Henry could hear their angry voices across the water. When their canoe touched shore, they stepped out and continued throwing words at each other.
“The geology’s right,” Wellington insisted. “And don’t forget, Carlos, you heard the same story I did.”
“I am not an impatient man, but I am also not a man without limits, Leonard. That goes for my money, too. And remember what happened in Ecuador.”
“Ecuador was a lesson for both of us.”
“An expensive lesson,” Lima said.
“Education doesn’t come cheap, eh?”
Lima moved close to the other white man. “You think that was funny? A joke?”
“The hell with you, Carlos. I need a drink.” Wellington brushed past him and stomped to his tent.
That night after the meal, Lima went to bed. Wellington continued the drinking he’d begun on his return. Like Maria, he spent time every evening by the fire, filling the blank pages of a leather-bound notebook with writing. In the shifting light of the fire, Henry watched the man’s eyes, which that night stayed dark and brooding as they lifted from his writing and held for long moments on Maria.
“The good daughter,” Wellington finally said.
Maria looked up from her notebook. “I try to be.”
“That’s why you’re here? To be the good daughter? You’re only making him nervous, you know that?”
“Nervous?”
“He wants to get you back to civilization as soon as he can.” He drank from the tin cup into which he’d poured his liquor. “A girl doesn’t belong on something like this.”
“I’m not a girl,” she replied coolly and went back to her writing. Wellington made a sound that might have been a laugh but came out more like a grunt. “I’ve noticed.” His glare shifted to Henry. “What about you, Henry? Bet you’ve noticed, eh.”
Henry burned. Wellington’s tone spoke disrespect. Henry had lived with that tone much of his life and had learned to ignore it, but
when Maria was included, that was too much. He’d been sitting near the fire, stirring the embers with a long, thick spruce stick to keep the flames alive for Maria’s writing. Now he stood with the stick in his hand, the tip glowing, an angry red eye at the end of his arm.
Wellington didn’t see. He stared at the fire and drank his liquor. Maria saw, however. She shook her head at Henry, her eyes afraid of what he might be about to do.
Wellington took a final long swallow. “Fuck it,” he said and stumbled to his tent.
Soon afterward, they heard his snores join those of Lima. Henry let the fire die. Maria went to her tent. Henry gathered dried leaves and sticks from the woods and spread them around Maria’s tent. Then he picked up his rifle and joined her.
That night clouds blocked the moon, but Henry knew Maria’s beauty without light. The down of her cheeks, the wet oval of her lips, the curve of her breasts, all of it soft as dreaming. He fit himself to her until he couldn’t feel a separation, couldn’t feel the place where his own body ended and hers began. They were one skin, one breath, one heart.
Her lips brushed his neck. “I wish ...”
“What?”
“I wish you’d been my first.”
“It doesn’t matter.”
Later he said, “What were they like?”
“Rich. Sophisticated. Spoiled. Weak in ways you’re not.” She laughed quietly. “I guess I’m like that, too. Everything I have I’ve been given. I’ve never had to make my own way. All my friends are like that.” She nestled deep into his arms. “You’re different from anyone I’ve ever known, Henry. I felt safe with you from the beginning. Here we are a thousand miles from everything and I’ve never felt so safe.”
He felt the same. She was like nothing he’d ever known. That they shared their bodies so quickly, so easily, so completely didn’t surprise him. He had the deep sense that being together this way had always been meant for them.
Maria fell asleep with her head against his chest. He was tired, too, but he lay awake, listening. With the dry leaves and the sticks surrounding the tent, even a careful man could not approach without Henry hearing.
H
enry rose with the sound of the first birds. The clouds that obscured the moon had passed, leaving the sky clear and full of stars. A faint glow along the eastern horizon suggested dawn.
He built a fire, filled the pot with lake water, and began coffee brewing. He made oatmeal and flapjacks. A few minutes after the sun came up, Wellington emerged from his tent. He went immediately toward the woods to do his morning business. When he returned, he poured himself coffee and stood staring at the lake. Henry had seen men hungover, and Wellington looked hungover.
“What do you do all day?” Wellington said.
“Cut wood for the fire,” Henry replied. “Fish. Hunt. Gather things to eat from the woods.”
Wellington was silent and sipped his coffee. He blinked against the morning sun. “What about Maria?”
Henry stirred the oatmeal. “She reads her books.”
“All day?”
“I can’t leave her. She comes with me when I go after food.”
“She doesn’t scare away the game?”
“She takes well to the forest.”
“She swims,” Wellington said. “I’ve seen her hair wet. But I haven’t seen wet clothes.”
“She dries her things over the fire.”
The flap of Lima’s tent swung open and the man stepped out. He coughed and spit. He went into the woods, and the noise of his business was loud and unpleasant. He came back and took the coffee Henry held out to him.
“Let’s go over the maps,” he said to Wellington.
They sat together looking at their charts, drinking their coffee, eventually eating the food Henry had prepared. After passing an hour in this way, they climbed into their Folbot and headed southeast across the lake.
When they were out of sight, Henry slipped into Maria’s tent. He kissed her forehead. “Wake up.”
Her eyes, brown like acorns, fluttered open. “What is it?”
“Time to go hunting.”
She dressed. They ate and started off. The morning was crisp, and at first their breath popped out in gray-white puffs. The sunlight sharpened the edge of everything, gave fine definition to color and shape. Henry had shown her how to walk in the forest on the outside of her feet to reduce the noise of her passage. He’d instructed her to keep silent, explaining how sounds in the woods carried far. They made their way to the place where Henry had found the moccasin tracks.
He eyed the western ridge that curved around the end of the lake. He pointed, indicating to Maria that that was the way.
The trail was a day old now, but Henry had little trouble following it. Whoever had left it wasn’t concerned about being tracked. Henry wasn’t sure how to interpret that, but hoped it meant the watcher didn’t think he’d been seen and was careless. The trail led them along the bank of a creek that edged the base of the ridge and curled into the folds of the land to the south. After an hour, the tracks joined a deer trail that angled up another ridge. When they reached the far side of that ridge, Henry paused and pointed toward a white patch of haze in a hollow below.
Maria whispered, “Smoke?”
Henry put his finger to her mouth to silence her. He nodded.
The next mile they moved at a crawl. With Maria behind him, he took no chances. He paused frequently to listen. Eventually he heard the chunk of an ax biting into wood. They came to a path through the undergrowth along a small, fast-running brook. The path led in the direction of the chopping. Henry debated following it. A path that well used was a danger. On the other hand, it would reveal to them quickly who held the ax, and with Maria, who still did not move with Henry’s stealth, it would mean a quieter approach. He chambered a cartridge and moved ahead.
He glimpsed the cabin fifty yards through the trees. He signaled
Maria to drop into a crouch. They crept forward this way, low to the ground. The chopping stopped. Henry stopped. He listened. Suddenly the sound of whistling came from ahead. Henry spotted movement, then saw a figure carrying a load of split wood in his arms. The figure was dressed in buckskin britches. Long gray hair flowed over a buckskin tunic. Henry also saw moccasins on the feet. The figure stepped through the cabin door and disappeared. Henry signaled Maria, and they moved forward again and slipped into brush that edged the small clearing where the cabin stood. Henry lay on his belly. Maria did the same beside him.
The brook flowed behind the structure, which was a log construction similar to the cabin Henry and Woodrow had built on Crow Point, but looked much older than theirs. A winter supply of wood lay cut and stacked against the west wall. The cut wood occupied almost as much space in the little clearing as the cabin did. Fifteen yards away was another, smaller structure that Henry recognized as a smokehouse. A cleaned deer hide was stretched across the smokehouse wall. A chopping block stood a dozen yards from the cabin door, an ax blade sunk into the scarred, flat top. Split wood and wood chips lay strewn about the base like bone fragments. Whistling came from the cabin, but it was too dark inside for Henry to see anything.