Ultimate Surrender (2 page)

“
Y
ou’re done already
? I was expecting more fireworks.”

Cassandra, who had been so busy cursing Lucian’s name she hadn’t even realized she had visitors, looked up into the laughing brown eyes of her friend Sloan Wakefield.

Sloan’s official title was Operations Manager, but those words didn’t even begin to get at what Sloan actually did at Silver and for each and every person who worked there. As far as Cassandra could see, Sloan’s job was, well, everything.

She made sure the team had whatever they needed, often anticipating what those needs would be before they told her, made sure everyone got where they needed to be, and did it all without breaking a sweat.

From the outside looking in, Cassandra suspected most people wouldn’t think curvy, five-foot-nothing Sloan, who was as sweet, friendly, and kind as anyone Cassandra had ever met, had any role to play in this company of hypermacho mercenaries. Foolish on their part. Sloan was the lifeblood of Silver Industries even if she didn’t know it.

“I decided to cut him some slack,” Cassandra finally replied, waving Sloan into the room. Not entirely accurate, but Cassandra couldn’t very well say she had essentially stomped off in a huff when Lucian had suggested she didn’t care about the company. Even now, she certainly couldn’t admit that she hadn’t fully recovered from the encounter, or the feelings, not all or even most of them negative, that Lucian stirred up.

Sloan chuckled and then ambled into the room, the wedge-heeled shoes she preferred giving her a few extra inches of height. She settled into the chair across from Cassandra’s desk and crossed her legs at the ankle, the movement sweet and quintessentially Sloan. As was the little glint in her eye, one Cassandra didn’t miss and one she suspected Sloan didn’t want her to.

Cassandra prepared herself for the coming onslaught.

“What’s got you feeling so charitable today?” Sloan asked, face still lifted with a bright smile, as she tucked a few of her thin braids behind her ear. Had Cassandra not known Sloan, that smile might have been reassuring. But Cassandra
did
know Sloan, and she knew that those beaming pearly whites and bright eyes were deceptive and that her benign, companionable question was bait, an attempt to drag Cassandra into what seemed to be Sloan’s favorite topic. And for some reason, Cassandra couldn’t keep herself from answering.

“I’m not being charitable, just”—Cassandra waved her hand in the air, searching for the right word—“recognizing the nobility of his intentions.” Which was one hundred percent true. She believed in the work Silver Industries did, believed in Lucian as a matter of fact, not that he’d ever believe or accept that.

She looked at Sloan, watching her friend’s face for a reaction, one that came quickly. Though she still smiled, Cassandra didn’t miss the skepticism illuminating her plump cheeks, so Cassandra continued.

“Is that impossible to believe?” she said, dropping the pen she held and leaning back in her chair, unable to take the smile off her own face.

“Of course not. You’re actually quite fair, but, let’s just say, you aren’t necessarily known for cutting
Lucian
slack,” Sloan replied, leaning back to mirror Cassandra’s posture. “I wonder why that is?”

“Wow, that’s a record, Sloan,” Cassandra said.

“I’m sorry, Ms. Portersen, can you clarify what you mean?” Sloan said in her most proper voice, the one that most times made Cassandra laugh out loud.

“I see through you, Wakefield. I know what you’re trying to imply,” she said.

Sloan threw her fingers across her mouth and widened her eyes into an exaggerated expression. “Me? Imply? Whatever could I be implying? I’m simply inquiring about the
relationship
between my boss and my very good friend,” she said. “I only want to know whether your interactions with each other are consistent and mutually satisfactory.”

Cassandra huffed out a laugh and then rolled her eyes. “You’re the worst, Sloan,” she said.

“You’ve never had me, so you have no evidence to support that statement. What about Lucian? Is he the worst? Somehow I doubt it, but I have an open mind,” she said.

Cassandra laughed out loud then and rolled her eyes again. “I cannot believe you’re still on about this Lucian thing after more than two years,” Cassandra said.

“And I can’t believe you’re still pretending I’m insane for even suggesting it after more than two years.” Sloan leaned forward, an excited gleam in her eye. “Cass, it’s palpable. You and Lucian eye-fuck and word-fuck like rabbits. It’s only logical to assume that smokin’-hot chemistry has spilled into other arenas.”

“You’re ridiculous, Sloan. And, for the record, the ‘smokin’-hot chemistry’ you insist you see is actually two people deeply disagreeing about every topic under the sun because they can’t stand each other.”

“Ohh, hate-fuck! That’s even hotter,” Sloan said.

“Get out of my office, Sloan,” Cassandra said flatly, though she still smiled.

Sloan stood. “Whatever. Be that way. You want to wait here while I grab my bag and we can walk down together?”

“Sure,” Cassandra said, standing as she watched Sloan walk out.

When she was alone, she began gathering her things, chuckling quietly as she thought back on Sloan’s not-remotely-subtle questions about her and Lucian.

Not that there was now or ever would be a “her and Lucian.”

Cassandra pushed that thought aside quickly and returned her mind to Sloan. She was truly kind, but she had no qualms at all about expressing what was on her mind, especially when it came to Cassandra and Lucian.

When Cassandra had first come to Silver Industries, she had been surprised that Sloan had fit in so well in the group of loud, aggressive men. But it had quickly become clear that Sloan was as much a part of the team as the others. Part den mother, part cat herder, part living computer, Sloan was the lifeblood of Silver Industries and tough as nails, and it had quickly become clear to Cassandra that winning Sloan over would be as important as winning Lucian over.

Lucian was still a work in progress, seemed more like an impossibility every day, but she and Sloan had hit it off both professionally and personally. And now that she and Cassandra were friends, Sloan had no problem at all being direct about Cassandra and Lucian. Cassandra always laughed it off, but Sloan hit far too close to the truth far too often, something that Cassandra would never admit out loud but something she knew she didn’t have to.

Cassandra often hid in the belief she treated Lucian exactly the same as everyone else. That she was professional, cordial but firm, and solely dedicated to ensuring the shareholders stayed calm so that Silver Industries could survive.

But, when she was being honest, Cassandra could admit that was bullshit. Sloan was right. The chemistry between her and Lucian Silver was combustible, had been since the very first day they had laid eyes on one another. The chemistry was wrapped in animus, misunderstanding, and Lucian’s unwillingness to believe she was anything but an enemy. It was there nonetheless, though. As easily as he could spark her anger, and he could do it oh so easily, he could turn her on just as fast, make her body throb with a neediness she knew only he could fulfill.

Which was logical enough, at least if Cassandra only considered the surface.

Lucian was a work of art. Six feet three inches and two hundred forty pounds of pure muscle, he was an immaculate physical specimen, and his classically good-looking features, dark hair, and dark blue eyes didn’t hurt. So objectively, Cassandra could acknowledge that Lucian’s physical presence demanded a response.

What she couldn’t acknowledge and couldn’t forgive herself for, though, was the fact that she so often gave in to that reaction, that her body responded to him even when he was being his less than charming self.

Worse still, he reached her on an emotional level. And that was unacceptable. Cassandra had worked her way up through the defense industry on the civilian side, and doing so had meant she had to deal with all manner of personalities. And she had, easily, and at no point had anyone ever been able to get to her.

Until Lucian Silver.

His nearly complete unwillingness to listen to her sent her normally even temper into overdrive. The utterly complete way her body responded to him left her weak with neediness, the confusing, heightened state Lucian left her in sometimes enough to wring the air from her lungs.

And the kicker was Cassandra was voluntarily subjecting herself to this. When Damien Silver, Lucian’s brother and her dear friend, had come to her and asked that she serve as liaison between Lucian and the shareholders Silver Industries had been forced to take on, she hadn’t had the heart to tell him no, not when his reputation was in tatters, his freedom at stake.

Now, she couldn’t leave, wouldn’t, as hard as Lucian may have tried to force her. She was committed to this company, the people who worked at it, so there was no way she was going.

And, in the spirit of her honesty, she knew she would have missed Lucian. He drove her insane, but he also made her feel alive, and she was more than reluctant to give that up.

Cassandra zipped her laptop bag a little harder than necessary and slung the bag over her shoulder as she began her trek, hopeful that moving would shake the thoughts of Lucian out of her head, doubtful that it would.

Nothing had been able to so far.

“Ready, Sloan?” she called as she rounded the corner to stop in front of Sloan’s cubicle.

“Yup,” Sloan said, locking her desk drawer and then walking toward her with her own bulky briefcase weighing her down.

Cassandra shook her head. “I can talk to the boss about getting you an office,” she said.

“No, ma’am. I need eyes on everything. Can’t have that if I’m shuttered behind a closed door,” she said.

“Uh-huh,” Cassandra said, giving Sloan a knowing look. More like she needed to keep tabs on comings and goings, but Cassandra wouldn’t begrudge Sloan her access. Cassandra changed the subject. “Plans for tonight?” she asked as the women got into the elevator.

Sloan pushed the G button and the doors quickly slid closed. She looked over at Cassandra. “Let’s see. The cleaners have a twenty-percent-off special tomorrow, so I’m going to sort laundry. And I think there’s gelato in the freezer. Another exciting night in the life of Sloan Wakefield,” Sloan said with a girlish giggle.

“Gelato? You’re ahead of me,” Cassandra said. She hadn’t had something as interesting as gelato to look forward to for a long time. Excluding, of course, her alone time with her fantasies about Lucian.

The elevator arrived, and as the doors slid open, Sloan smiled at her and then stepped out. “One day I’ll teach you how to live. Night, Cassandra,” Sloan said as she waved and then headed out of the lobby to the bus stop at the end of the block.

Cassandra stayed on and rode the elevator to the basement and then debarked, distractedly walking to her car. Her high-heeled pumps clicked against the concrete, the ringing sound familiar though distant. So, on autopilot, Cassandra got into her car and began the drive home, mind only halfway present, the rest of it with Lucian.

Twenty minutes after she left the office, and after she’d resisted the temptation to stop and get gelato, she finally saw her house in the distance as the burnt-orange sky transitioned from dusk into full darkness. She turned in to her cobblestone driveway and parked in front of the garage, pausing long enough to lament the fact that, four years after she’d bought the house, the garage was still too full for her to park inside.

But the thought of going through all the crap she kept in the garage was a nonstarter, so she parked in the driveway and got out.

Issues with her stuffed garage aside, she loved this house, loved everything about it. It was way too big for her with four bedrooms and three and a half baths, and while she had tried to talk herself out of loving it, had told herself it would be too much to handle, those admonitions had been to no avail.

Because with every mental protest came a memory of how the house was situated on a corner lot with generous front and back yards or the red brick facade that reminded her of the homes she’d loved as a child, the kind of place she might have grown up in if she’d had a different fate. She’d been powerless to resist, a rarely exposed streak of sentimentality overcoming her pragmatism, and she’d gone into escrow within three weeks.

Over the years, her sprawling house had become the home she’d always dreamed of, right down to the big metal mailbox with flowers painted on it that still made her smile every time she saw it.

Owning this house had been made possible by Silver Industries. That thought inevitably led to others about Lucian.

A tingle, one she wished was of disgust but which was of desire, rushed through her, and she tried to ignore it as she pulled open the mailbox and retrieved the evening’s bills and junk mail.

She’d been doing that for more than two years now, trying to ignore the feeling that Lucian evoked. Or at least that particular feeling. Which made no sense at all. Cassandra knew herself well, what she liked and what she didn’t, and there was no universe she could contemplate that involved her not being able to shake Lucian. Yes, he was unapologetically handsome, his classic good looks apparent enough for anyone to see.

But looks aside, difficult as it was to ignore them, impossible in Cassandra’s case, they shouldn’t have made a difference. Lucian played too fast and loose for Cassandra’s tastes, wasn’t contemplative, methodical like she preferred people to be, especially those who were responsible for a company like Silver Industries.

So Lucian’s behavior should have pushed her away or at least kept her somewhat distant, but there was none of that. Her common sense, her awareness of who and what he was, did nothing to obliterate his impact on her.

So, as much as she wanted to pretend that she was immune to him, as hard as she tried, here, when she was alone, she could admit, at least to herself, she wasn’t immune to him, not at all.

If anything, the very thing that made her job so difficult was what drew her to him. The man he proved to be under all that bluster and impulsiveness, loyal, honest, far more genuine than she had initially thought, only intensified her connection to him.