Uncovering You: The Complete Series (Mega Box Set) (236 page)

It was never this way before with Andrew.

He stands, unmoving, as his chest rises and falls with heavy breaths. His hands are stiff at his sides.

He looks at the hand over my lips. His eyes soften, and some of his intensity subsides. “Paige, I’m so sorry.” He clasps his hands over his forehead. “I… I don’t know what got into me. I thought you wanted someone assertive. Someone who doesn’t ask. A guy who just takes.”

I shake my head
No
.

He sighs, then takes a step back, giving me space. I let my hands fall.

“You expect me to act like the man you know,” he says, his voice hushed. “And that’s what I’m going to do. Right now, that means me leaving.”

I keep my eyes glued to the floor as I listen to his footsteps trail out of the kitchen. I wait to hear the front door shut.

Then, I sink down and start to cry.

Chapter Twenty-Five

I feel awful.

Andrew walked out the door half an hour ago. I still haven’t found the strength to get up.

I should be angry with myself for letting someone as good as Andrew walk out of my life. I should care more.

But, I don’t.

The lack of feeling probably tells me something right there. But the way Andrew grabbed me, tried to kiss me… It was all so
forced
.

He’s not like that. And I’m not one to respond to an act.

I’m also pretty sure that I’m falling for Spencer.

I
shouldn’t
be falling for Spencer. I’m never going to be enough for him. He’s used to girls with experience, something I have none of. He’s used to girls who are confident and sexy and strong. Not ones like me, who don’t even know how far they want things to go.

I force myself to stand and wander over to the couch. I keep waiting for Katy to come back. I really need to talk to my friend.

Pickles, bless his little heart, must have thought I was beckoning him. He jumps up on the couch next to me and crawls onto my lap. There, he curls into a tight ball and leans against my belly.

I shift my legs, trying to get him off. He doesn’t budge. He readjusts himself, making it clear that he’s not going anywhere.

I reach out to feel his soft fur. I start to rub his neck. He purrs, and the sound calms me.

“You’re the best friend a girl can have,” I whisper to him. “Unfortunately, your advice on boys is limited.”

He settles closer to me. The warmth of his body makes me more comfortable. There’s no better therapy than a loving pet when you’re feeling down.

Still, I need to talk to someone whose advice I trust.

I turn my attention to my phone. I go through my contacts and land on Katy’s number, hit
dial
, and bring the phone to my ear.

It rings. And rings, and rings. And rings some more. Then, it goes to voicemail.

I hang up and try again. I
need
Katy to answer. I
need
to talk to her.

My second attempt ends the same way. So does my third.

I nearly chuck my phone into the wall out of sheer frustration. She’s not gone yet!

Then a new thought hits me.

I’m not sure what compels me to go through my contact list again. I’m not sure what compels me to hit
dial
. Most of all, I’m not sure why I stay on the line when my call is answered on the second ring.

“Hey!” Spencer’s voice is bright and cheery. I hear music and voices—a lot of voices—in the background.

I don’t say anything. The phone slips through my fingers and falls to the side.

“Paige, you there?” I hear a rustling noise, as if he’s moving away. He yells, “Guys, shut up!”, and when he returns to the phone, the background noise has faded. “Paige?”

I force myself to pick up the phone and bring it to my ear. “Hey,” I manage weakly. It feels weird to talk to him now that I don’t have Andrew to hide behind. It kept Spencer at a distance. Now, there’s nothing stopping me but myself.

Spencer immediately picks up on my distress. “Paige, what’s going on? You sound awful. Did something happen?”

“No,” I lie, shaking my head back and forth as if he’s right there to see. “I just… I just wanted to talk, Spencer.”

“Is everything all right?” His voice is full of concern. “You’ve never called me before.”

“I know.” I rub at my nose with the back of my hand. “Spencer? Can I… Can I come and see you? In person?”

He chuckles, seemingly relieved. “Is that what this is about? Are you calling to ask me for a date?” He lowers his voice. “I find it damn sexy when a girl takes the initiative.”

“No, it’s just—” I stop short.

I change what I was going to say. “Yes.” I force a laugh. “Yes, that’s exactly what it is.”

Spencer doesn’t answer for a long, drawn out second. When he does, that concern is back. “Are you sure? You sound…
different
. Did anything happen?”

“I’m just nervous calling you, I guess.” I can’t believe I just admitted that. “You can be pretty intimidating sometimes.”

My freaking mouth just doesn’t want to stop.

He laughs. “I’ve heard that before. So, what’s up? Do you want to go somewhere tonight?”

“No!” I flinch at how quickly I answer. “I mean, I want to see you. Now.”

“Now?” I can hear his widening smile. “I can do now. Are you at your place? I’m hanging out at the frat with the guys. I can be over in a few minutes.”

“No,” I say—again, too-quickly. But I don’t want to spend any more time than I have to in this apartment. Not right now. “I’ll come to you. I’ve never met your friends before.”

He laughs again. “Knowing them, I’m not sure I want you to.”

I chew my lip, debating what to say next. I do
not
want to stay here.

Spencer answers before I can. “All right,” he says. “You can come here. Just text me when you’re outside. Oh, and I have to warn you. After the party last night, the house is a mess. Actually, I’m pretty sure there are laws against guys bringing girls here for their first visit when it looks like this.”

That makes me smile. “I think I can handle it, Spencer.”

He chuckles. “Right. See you soon.”

“Bye,” I whisper, then hit
end
.

***

Ten minutes later, I’m walking alone down a crowded street. I pass a large grass field that’s taken up by two teams playing ultimate Frisbee. I take a second to stop and watch them, curling my hands around the waist-high wooden fence that separates us.

I find Spencer on the steps leading to the front door at Sigma Pi. He’s wearing a black tee and red sweats. It’s a departure from his typical wardrobe. It makes him look relaxed and decidedly
un
intimidating.

As I get closer, I notice the bags under his eyes. His hair is messier than usual. He doesn’t see me as he puts a hand over his mouth to stifle an enormous yawn.

“Hey,” I call out from across the street. Seeing him reenergizes me and pulls me away from the dark thoughts of my mind. “Did you spend the night here?”

His eyes light up when he sees me. He leaps down the steps and meets me halfway. I’m taken by surprise when he pulls me close and kisses my cheek. Surprise turns into warmth when he slips his hand over mine.

“Hi,” he says. “I’ve missed you.”

“I can tell,” I smile, pleased with his honesty. “Even though it’s been less than a day.”

He laughs. “You’re like an addiction. You know they say the first three days are the worst. I need my fix.”

“So if I wanted to get rid of you, all I’d have to do is disappear for three days?” I tease.

“That’s one way to do it,” he pouts, pretending to be hurt. “Although something tells me you wouldn’t like that anymore than I would.”

“No.” I nod to the frat house. “So, this is the famous Sigma Pi, huh? I’ve never been inside without drunk frat boys all around me.”

Spencer chuckles. “Trust me, it isn’t much different during the day. Today, least of all.” He hesitates at the door. “Are you sure you want to come in?”

“I seem to recall an invitation from you.”

“Yes, but—”

“Then I’m sure.”

Spencer sighs. “All right. But don’t say I didn’t warn you.”

He opens the door a crack. I’m greeted by the stench of stale beer. I wrinkle my nose automatically.

Spencer notices, and pauses with his hand on the handle. “Last chance to change your mind…”

I duck under his arm and enter the house.

The lobby of Sigma Pi is large, just like I remember, but today it’s so much…
grubbier
. Spencer wasn’t kidding about the mess. There are plastic cups, beer cans, and empty handles all over the floor.

At least someone had the presence of mind to sweep a path through the rubble from the door to the main hall.

Spencer closes the door and motions around us. “Welcome to my second home.”

I hear laughter from down the hall.
Lots
of laughter, from a lot of male voices. “Sounds like the party’s still in full swing,” I quip.

Spencer puts his hand on the small of my back and leads me in. “You’ll see.”

We walk down the hall toward the voices. At least the place seems cleaner the farther in we get.

My stomach does a flip when we enter the living room. There is a sea of unfamiliar faces lined up along three couches crowded in front of a gargantuan screen. Their focus is on whatever shooter they’re playing, so they don’t notice Spencer or me as we walk in. I’m glad . First impressions have never been my forte.

Spencer tries to sneak me to the stairs leading to the second floor without attracting attention. It doesn’t work. A guy sitting at the edge of a couch looks up and sees us.

He hoots. “Hoy, Spencer! Who’s that with you?”

His comment draws everyone’s attention. I feel twenty pairs of eyes on me. I shift, a little uncomfortable. Spencer groans.

“Damn, Spencer, you forget house rules?” another guy laughs.

“Shut up, Travis,” Spencer barks.

“
Oooh
!” a chorus of voices answers.

The guy who saw us first stands on the arm of the couch. “I think Spencer did forget, boys!” he calls out. “Should we remind him?”

Callous laughter and boorish barking erupts from the guys. Spencer glares at them. “Derek, shut the fuck up! Sit down!”

Derek, ignoring Spencer, starts to wave his hands around in the air as if holding a baton. “Ready?” he asks his brothers. “And a one, and a two…”

Twenty out-of-tune voices fill the air in a half-chant, half-song:

Mondays to Wednesdays for class,

Thursdays and Fridays for chasing ass,

Parties on Fridays for hos,

Saturdays only for bros!

Everyone breaks out into wild laughter at the end. Out of the corner of my eye, I see Spencer turning red. He takes an angry step toward his brothers.

“How could you forget, Spence?” Derek accuses, trying hard to hold in his laughter. “You were the one who came up with that song!”

That
pronouncement is followed by even more laughter. I feel Spencer seething beside me.

“Fucking hell, that’s
ENOUGH
!” he screams, loud enough to be heard over everyone else.

The laughter dies. Some of the guys look at Spencer, astounded. Others look confused. For a long, tense moment, the only sound I can hear is Spencer’s heavy breathing.

Acting on impulse, I step around him. “I have a question,” I say out loud. Those eyes turn on me again. I swallow and speak before I can chicken out.

“What are Sundays for?”

Derek blinks. For a second, I think I’ve overstepped some invisible boundary.

Then he falls back into the couch and starts laughing uncontrollably.

Everyone else takes his cue. They start laughing with him. Not out of hostility, but mirth.

“You,” Derek says, pointing a finger at me, “are all right. What’s your name?”

“Paige.”

“
Paige
!” he exclaims, as if my name is the most important thing in the world. He spreads his arms wide. “Welcome to Sigma Pi, Paige!”

His welcome is echoed by the others.

“Paige!”

“Welcome, Paige!”

“Spencer’s girl!”

Derek hops off the couch and runs over. He headlocks Spencer and jostles with him playfully. Both are laughing when they separate.

Derek winks at me. “Sorry if we spooked ya. Just had to make sure you were cool, that’s all.”

I notice Spencer smiling proudly behind Derek. “Did I pass?” I ask innocently.