Authors: Jettie Woodruff
them out of his hand.
“Not with clothes,” I warned with a smile. I
opened the door and walked out, down the long hall
toward the pool.
“Morgan!” he called after my naked behind in a
loud whisper. “Marta is here.”
I didn’t answer and only gave him a sexy smile as I
flipped my hair.
I walked down the pool steps and had to laugh at
Drew covering himself and speedily walking after me.
As soon as he was in the water, I had my arms and
legs wrapped around him. He held me tight to him and
walked us out to about four feet. I let go of my hold around
his neck and laid back, dipping my hair in the water. He
ran the palm of his hand down my chest and brushed my
nipple with his thumb.
I pulled myself back up to him, and we kissed.
“I love you, Morgan,” Drew whispered to my lips.
“I hope so, we’ve been married for eight years,” I
teased. He wasn’t laughing.
“I mean it, Morgan. I love you more than I ever
thought possible, and no matter what happens, I am telling
you now, how sorry I am while you love me too.”
“Don’t, Drew.” I begged. I wanted him to stop. I
didn’t want to know anymore. I didn’t care about what I
didn’t remember. I hoped that I never remembered.
Drew had to go out of town the next morning, but
surprised me Friday afternoon by showing up at the
Scorpions baseball game with me. I loved watching him
walk toward me knowing that he was mine. Our eyes
locked with the same smile. He missed me when he was
gone. I could tell.
We ate ribs again at the little sports bar because he
said that he was in love with them. We only drank one
beer because we had no Marta at the house to drive one of
the cars home.
He flew me to Ubud, Indonesia for our eighth
honeymoon and my birthday. It was already passed both,
but he decided that we needed to celebrate. I was game. I
had to make an appointment with Dr. Tharp before he
would tell me anything. I would have never thought
Indonesia could have been so exotic. It was, and we had a
blast. The food too was exotic, and I loved trying all of the
different cuisines. I had things that Drew had to pronounce
and order for me. He loved it and laughed when I would
try to say the names as well.
He gave me a beautiful necklace for my birthday
and a brand new wedding set that I was sure cost more
than I cared to know. He took the set back that I had been
wearing. I almost ruined his moment when I stared blankly
at him sliding the rings off of my finger. It was déjà vu.
This happened before. Drew sensed it too.
“Morgan,” he softly spoke, pulling my eyes from
my fingers to his eyes.
“What’s wrong with the rings that I have been
wearing?” I asked, trying to recover.
“They were put there for the wrong reason. I think
you know that. This set is truly from my heart, and I hope
you will always wear them.”
I smiled as he slipped them on my wedding finger.
“I will try my best,” I said, and he knew what I meant by
that. “I love you,” I said kissing him.
“Read the back of the necklace,” Drew said.
“Please give me twenty more,” I read, and I hoped
that I could.
We spent seven days in Ubud. We had amazing
food, watched some shows, joined in a street dance, and
made love several times a day, including the plane ride
home. It’s a good thing we had a private jet, I was sure we
would have been thrown to our deaths.
Other than hating Derik, my life was perfect, and I
was working on that. I had finally gotten the number for
Mr. Callaway one afternoon when Drew left me in his
office while he got us something to drink. I had the yellow
post-it in my pocket, and when Drew left the next day I
went to town with Marta. We walked around a pawn store
for a little bit and then had lunch at my favorite café. That
was where I was going to make the call to Mr. Callaway
so that I didn’t have to use my cellphone.
Marta and I were standing at the counter laughing
with Timmy and Jewels when I heard my name.
“Riley?” I heard, and instantly turned my head.
Everything came crashing back to me like a
tsunami. I stood frozen while my whole life flooded my
brain, my home in West Virginia, my parents, my little lost
brother, Drew…Oh God Drew. I thought I was going to
throw up right there. My entire retched life was being
played out right before my eyes. My head hurt. It hurt
horrible. Was it the flood of memories? Why did I have
such an excruciating headache all of a sudden?
“Dawson,” I managed to say.
“Morgan, I think you need to sit down,” Marta
said, concerned with my ghostly white complexion.
“Riley, please talk to me,” Dawson begged.
Marta was right. I needed to sit down. My head
felt like it was going to explode and the sick feeling I had
in the pit of my stomach was unbearable. Dawson, it was
Dawson, my sheriff. I couldn’t breathe. What was
happening?
“I’m sorry, but you evidently have the wrong
person,” Marta told Dawson, but she knew something was
up too, she had to. I didn’t just have this reaction for no
reason. She helped me slide into a booth while Timmy
brought me water.
“Marta, could you leave us alone for a second
please?” I asked.
“I don’t think that’s a good Idea, Morgan. You look
like you’re ready to pass out.”
That’s because I am…
“I’m okay. I’ll just be a minute.”
Marta walked back to the counter, and I knew all
eyes were on Dawson and me.
He sat across from me and looked like he didn’t
understand. I didn’t understand. What the hell just
happened? What a sick fucking joke. Was life really this
cruel?
“There’s a high school two blocks north of here.
I’ll be there at six tonight. I can’t talk to you here. Meet me
there,” I explained.
“Riley, I’m not sure what’s going on here,” he
stated. He too looked white as a ghost.
“I can’t talk to you here. Please just meet me over
there,” I got up and Marta followed me out. I needed air,
not that the Nevada heat had much to offer, but I had to try.
I didn’t know if Dawson would show up or not. Hell, I
didn’t know if I would show up.
“What the hell, Morgan?” Marta asked as we
walked to my car.
“You drive, Marta,” I said, ignoring her and
getting into the passenger side.
“Will you tell me what the hell that was all
about?” she asked again as she pulled on her seatbelt. I
didn’t put mine on. I wanted to crash and burn.
“That was someone from my past, Marta. I
remember him.”
“You do! That’s great. We should call Dr. Tharp.”
“It’s not great. He is someone Drew wouldn’t
understand,” I snapped at her. I didn’t mean to snap. I just
didn’t know what to think myself, and I wasn’t about to
explain it to her.
“Oh,” Marta said. I could tell she thought that he
was someone that I was cheating on Drew with. I didn’t
care. I wasn’t even going to try. I knew her enough to
know that she would mind her own business.
I went right to mine and Drew’s bed and lay down.
I couldn’t take the pain in my head. I couldn’t think about
anything until it stopped. Marta brought me the water and
pain pills that I asked her to bring to me.
My cellphone rang. I didn’t want to answer it. I
knew that he could tell something was wrong from where
ever the hell he was. I didn’t care. I didn’t want his pity
party at the moment.
“Hello,” I almost yelled. Even my own voice
echoed through my head.
“What’s wrong, Morgan?” He asked concerned.
“I just have a headache from hell. I need to rest for
a little bit. It was probably just the heat.”
“I’m calling Dr. Tharp,” he demanded.
“I don’t need Dr. Tharp. I just need to rest for a
few minutes. I’m fine.”
“Okay. Go rest. I will call you in a couple hours to
see how you’re doing. I love you,” he added.
I could only grunt as I felt the tears. No. I didn’t
want to cry.
I covered my head with the pillow, one I couldn’t
stand the light at the time, and two, I didn’t want Drew to
see me cry.
Dawson Bade, Lauren, Starlight, the coffee shop,
my house, Misty Bay, my trip to Vegas, my wreck. I
remembered it all. I was going to marry Dawson. We
were to get married two months ago. I never fell asleep. I
would probably never sleep again. I felt the love that I had
for Dawson as soon as I saw him. It was real, and I knew
that he loved me. Wait. He knew. He knew all about
Drew. He knew what a monster he was. Why did he wait
five months to come for me? How did he find me?
I let everything flood through my mind, everything
but the one that was going to rip my heart out. I saved that
for my last memory or memories. There were so many of
them. Not one was good. Drew hit me. He called me
names, humiliated me, and he did treat me like a piece of
meat. Why Drew? Why did you buy me for cash if you
never wanted me? How could you do those things to me? I
hated him. I hated him with everything in me. What should
I do? Should I just run away with Dawson? What if he
didn’t want me anymore?
I lay with my head covered for almost three hours
while thoughts and memories flooded my mind. I finally
sat up around four to see if my head felt better. It wasn’t
gone, but it did feel better. I guessed it was just
overloaded and needed time to funnel all of the abrupt
information.
“Feel better?” Marta asked as I walked into the
kitchen.
“Yes, thank you. Could you make me a sandwich
or something before I head out,” I asked, sitting at the
table.
“Yes, but I’m not sure you should go to that game.
You had a pretty bad spell this afternoon.”
“It was just the heat. I’m fine now,” I lied. I wasn’t
fine. I had no idea what to do.
“Maybe I should come with you.”
“Marta,” I warned with a look. “I’m fine. I just
need something to eat.”
I didn’t shower, change, do my hair or put on
makeup. I wasn’t trying to impress anyone at the time. I
wore the same jean shorts and red tank top. I had been
looking forward to this game for three days, and now I
knew I wouldn’t even see it.
I saw him standing at the concession stand. My
heart ached for him. He smiled a warm smile as I neared.
“Do you want something to drink?”
“Lemonade, please,” I replied.
We didn’t walk to the bleachers around the crowd
of people. He followed me to a picnic table under a shade
tree. He sat right beside me rather than across from me
like I wanted him to. I hoped he would start. I didn’t have
a clue what to say. He didn’t either.
“How did you find me?” I asked.
“You didn’t make it easy. You lied about
everything.”
“No. I didn’t. I only lied about things that would
lead you to Drew which would lead him to me.”
“I don’t understand, Riley.”
I snorted. That wasn’t my name. “How did you
find me?” I asked again.
“I tried everything to find you with Starlight and
Lauren’s help. I was lying in bed the other night and I just
remembered you telling me about Drew coming to your
high school and donating money. I went there and
pretended to be investigating a fraud case. They told me
that the money that was donated that year was from
Callaway Jewels. You told me he was a software
developer from Indiana. Did you leave me, Ry? because
you could have just told me.”
“Daw,” I quietly said. How was I supposed to
explain this? “I didn’t leave you. I didn’t know you.”
“What do you mean?”
I took his hand and ran his finger over the L shaped
scar down the whole right side of my head. “I was in a car
accident before I got out of Vegas. I didn’t remember
anything until I saw you in that shop this afternoon. I
remembered my whole life today, right at that moment. I
have spent the last five months of my life not knowing who
I was.”
“But you were on the plane. The airline told me
that you had departed and landed in Chicago.”