Unforgettable 2 (Hollywood Love Story #2) (15 page)

I’m taking some time off. I’m using my vacation time. Please do not call or text me. I won’t answer.

~Zoey

PS I don’t know when I’m coming back.

I crumple the napkin in my fist. I’m so blood-curdling mad I can feel steam coming out of my nostrils. I should just fire her sorry ass. But I can’t. I love that ass. And that’s not all I love about her. I love her curves, her big brown eyes, those kissable lips. Her fire and pride. The way she laughs and makes me laugh. Fuck. She’s under my skin and in my bloodstream. She’s everything Katrina isn’t. I relive the spanking. How she submitted to me yet stayed so strong. Obeyed without questioning. She’s awoken my sexual desire and made me realize I need to be in control. Dominate. With Katrina, I can never be in control. She submits to nothing and to no one. Including me. She’s either pussy whipping me or busting my balls—and that’s when she’s not as frigid as Lake Michigan in the winter. How could have I fallen in love with her? Was I different before my accident? Did my accident change me?

A familiar voice cuts my thoughts short. “Brandon, that bitch assistant of yours almost ran into me!”

Damn. Katrina. She’s back from Paris.

I wish Zoey had.

I don’t know when I’m coming back.

A horrible thought hits me. Panic grabs me by the balls.

Zoey’s leaving me.

Zoey

I
’m heading back to that spa outside Joshua Tree. The one that slimeball Scott banished me to, of all places, while Brandon was comatose in the hospital. Call me nuts but don’t shred me. As much as I loathed it the first time around, it’s exactly what I need right now. An escape. It was relaxing; it made me think clearly, and I shed a few pounds.

On the lonely drive down the 10 Freeway, I call only one person, knowing once there, cell phones are banned. Get caught with one and say goodbye to both the phone and the spa. Pops picks up on the first ring.

I tell him I’m taking a vacation.

“Are you having a problem with Brandon?” he asks, always so intuitive. My father knows how I feel about my boss and is convinced it’s mutual. I don’t agree.

“No, Pops. I just need to get away for a few days.”
Far away from him.

“Where are you off to?”

“To the Vipassana Wellness Center. Don’t worry, Pops. It’s a retreat in the middle of the desert. I’ll be safe. Have you found out anything more about Scott?”

He updates me. Pursuant to his trip to Vegas with Auntie Jo, he conducted an investigation into Scott’s finances.

“Is he in debt?” My detective mind is at work.

“It’s hard to tell. All his credit card accounts have been closed, and he only uses debit cards. While his bank account is relatively small, he’s got substantial assets—including a two million dollar condo, a place in Aspen, and a fancy yacht. Plus, I learned Brandon pays him a heftier salary than you thought.”

“Like what?”

“A million bucks a year.”

“Wow!” I seriously didn’t think it was that much. Rage whips through me. The douche deserves shit. Fucking asswipe!

“Interestingly, he asked Brandon to borrow some dough.”

“How much?”

“Two grand.”

My heart sinks. Like Pops, I know that’s not enough to raise an eyebrow. With his hefty salary, Scott can easily pay him back.

“Do you think he owes Donatelli money?”

“Don’t know. But killing Brandon off wouldn’t solve the problem. He’d be literally cutting off the hand that feeds him.”

Frustration peppers Pops’s voice. “I can’t connect him to Brandon’s hit and run. He says he never left his Wilshire Corridor condo until late afternoon—way after the accident. The doorman corroborated this as did the building’s surveillance camera.”

“What about Donatelli?” I ask, feeling less and less hopeful.

“Zippo. We can’t trace him. He covers his steps all too well.”

When it comes to detectives, Pops is the best of the best. Yet, he can’t get to first base with either Mama’s case or Brandon’s hit and run. I know how defeated he must feel.

“What about Katrina?” I ask impulsively.

“She’s in the clear and has an alibi too. She says she was at her mother’s house. Her mother backed her up.”

What was I thinking? With all she stands to gain from marrying Brandon, she’s the last person who’d want him dead.

“Pops, did you show her the green glass heart?” It’s the one unusual thing that Pops found at the scene of Brandon’s accident. While I think it belongs to some local jogger, Pops is convinced it belongs to the person responsible for his hit and run.

“There’s a prob—”

“Pops, you’re breaking up. I can’t hear you.”

Shit. As I turn onto the 29—the Palms Highway—I lose my connection. Even if I could keep my phone at the spa, chances are I wouldn’t get service so deep in the desert.

With a leaden heart, I soak in the scenery. Though I’m not far from the Palm Springs hotel where I stayed with Jeffrey and Chaz just a week ago, this feels like a million miles away from civilization. Driving in silence, I pass miles and miles of exotic cactus, geologic rock formations, and spiky, twisted Joshua trees that look like they belong in a horror movie. In the distance surrounding me, the snowcapped Santa Rosa and San Jacinto mountains glow umber under the setting desert sun. It’s almost surreal.

Twenty minutes later, a campus of unpretentious adobe buildings rises from the desert landscape. I’ve reached my destination and pull into the entrance. I check in, surrender my phone, and then retreat to my quarters in the women’s building.

The room is small and utilitarian. It’s actually closer to being a jail cell than a room at a spa. There’s just a cot, a set of drawers, and a bathroom—a perk for returning “students of life.” Newbies have to use a communal one. I quickly unpack and put away the few things I’ve brought along, mostly yoga pants and tees plus my swimsuit, and call it a night. Except I don’t fall asleep. Fucking Brandon’s in my dreams. And I’m fucking him.

Over the next few days, I set out to accomplish what I’ve come here to do. The spa is renowned for offering peace and tranquility, quietude and beauty. Rooted in a form of meditation that originated in ancient India, Vipassana is a refuge for the human spirit, self-discovery, and healing. Each morning after a sparse breakfast of blended organic juices, I retreat to a meditation room and meditate. As I sit cross-legged on a mat surrounded by a dozen other similarly posed individuals, I focus on my breathing and try to cut him loose from my conscience. But I can’t. All this visualization crap is backfiring. His gorgeous face fills my mind as I contemplate my resignation letter:

Hi Brandon…

Yo Brandon…

Dear Brandon…

Dearest Brandon…

My Dearest Brandon…

My Beloved Brandon…

Hey Dickhead…

Tears sting my eyes. I can’t get past these words. Vipassana means seeing things for what they really are. After three days, it’s as clear to me as the desert sky—I can’t leave him. I’m addicted to him…in love.

I make it through a week. Meditating and juicing. On my eighth day in the late afternoon, after a vile green liquid lunch that I can barely swallow, I retreat to the heated mineral pool that’s like a grotto in this giant mosaic of nature. Using the techniques Brandon taught me, I swim laps and laps until I lose track of time and all I can think about is lifting my head out of the bubbly natural spring for a breath of air. After about an hour, I get out. The desert sun beats fiercely and I relish the heavenly clean air. I don’t even need a towel to dry myself. Invigorated from my long swim, I take a seat in one of the Adirondack chairs that surround the pool. I close my eyes and let my bones soak in the heat. Aah! It feels good.

When I open my eyes, I find an older woman sitting next to me in a wheelchair. Her thick silver hair trails down to her waist in a loose braid, and though gaunt, her strong, defined features with cheekbones like apples tell me she must have once been a great beauty. A light cotton blanket covers her. I notice that she shakes. The more I look at her, the more she seems familiar. But even with my eidetic memory, I can’t place where I’ve seen her before.

“Hello, my dear,” she says. Her voice is husky and theatrical. “I enjoyed watching you swim laps. You have lovely form.”

I smile. “Thank you. I had a great teacher.” The memory of Brandon teaching me how to swim floats into my head. I can feel his strong arms holding me in the water and then wrapped around me after I completed my first lap. I can almost hear his heartbeat in my ears though we’re miles apart.

The woman smiles back at me. “I used to be a teacher. But, now due to my health, I only occasionally instruct classes at my school.”

“What’s wrong with you?” I venture, instantly regretting my words.

But the woman is not offended. “I have advanced Parkinson’s. I come here once a month with my nurse for the special Ayurvedic spa treatments they offer.”

“What exactly are those?”

“A variety of mineral massages and herbal hydrotherapies as well as a special organic diet specific to Parkinson’s sufferers. The treatments originated in ancient India. They help halt the progression of the disease though I’m not sure if they can cure it.”

“I’m sorry,” I say, for lack of something better to say.

“Don’t feel sorry for me, my dear. I wake up happy every day of my life. I’ve lived a full life and have no regrets.” She holds me in her warm, soulful gaze. “So, tell me, why are you here?”

Be it I feel so cleansed and clear-headed or that she makes me feel so comfortable and I have the need to talk to someone, I open up to her.

“I’ve been having a problem with my job.”

“Are you an actress? You have such an interesting voice and a lovely way of projecting it.”

“Hardly. I’m the personal assistant for someone.”

She shoots me a knowing smile. “Ah, so you’re in love with your boss.”

I flinch. “How did you know that?”

“My dear, it’s written all over your face. I’m a master of reading emotions. What is the conflict?”

“He’s engaged to someone else. They’re getting married in May.”

“How do you know he’s in love with her?”

“He bought her a gazillion dollar engagement ring and a magnificent necklace for her birthday.”

She lets out a deep throaty laugh. “My dear, those are just material things. Does he hold her hand? Caress her face? Flick her nose? Brush away her tears? Carry her in his arms?”

All the things Brandon does to me. “No,” I say with a small shake of my head. While I’ve had the misfortune of witnessing a blowjob, I’ve rarely seen Brandon being affectionate with Katrina.

“I came here to get him out of my system. A cleanse, I guess. But when I meditate, I only think of him and when I go to sleep, he’s always in my dreams.”

The woman nods. “Then your stay here has served its purpose. That is your clarity.”

“What do you mean?”

“Let me ask you. Do you want to work for someone else?”

I shake my head again. “No. I only want to give myself to him.”

“Has he ever demonstrated that he cares about you?”

Delicious memories dances in my head. Taking that shower with him fully clothed…dressing him for the Golden Globes…being swooped up into his arms after coming home from the hospital…the spanking. As much as I want to share them with this wise woman, I simply nod and whisper “yes.”

She takes my hands in her frail trembling ones. “My dear, actions speak louder than words. The smallest gesture can convey so much more than the biggest word. Even just the touch of a hand.”

My mind flashes back to the first time I met Brandon…how, when our fingertips met in the pouring rain, all the thunderstorms in the world couldn’t put out the fire that raged inside me. And then my mind jumps to our hike up the canyon with little Gucci. The touch of his hand when he took mine connected me to his soul and core. A slight desert breeze sends a row of goosebumps up my arms.

“What should I do?” I ask this bastion of wisdom, my voice so small. “I can’t stop dreaming about him being mine.”

“My dear, I have always told my students
not
to follow their dreams.
Lead
them and land them. Go back to him and fight with your heart for what you want. If it’s meant to be, it will happen.”