Unintentional Virgin (19 page)

“I don’t know if I want to remember.” Karma shivered and Jax rubbed the side of her arm. 

When it was Karma’s turn to be seen, they whisked her back and attached her to monitors. He wasn’t allowed in the room with her and it was driving him crazy. They insisted he get his feet cleaned and bandaged up. Like he gave a shit about his feet. 

After his feet were wrapped he hobbled out into the waiting room. 

The nurse poked her head out and waved him in. He walked in just in time to hear the doctor say, “You’re one lucky woman.” The doctor smiled warmly at Karma. 

Karma looked up at Jax and said, “Very lucky.” 

Jax felt his heart swell. 

“We could keep you overnight for observation, or you can return if you start to feel dizzy or nauseated,” the doctor said, staring down at her clipboard. “I’m a little concerned because you don’t recall the incident, but that’s not unheard of.” 

“What sort of tests did you run?” Jax asked, running his hand through his hair. 

“Checked her vitals, EKG, and we even went as far as doing a CT scan to be on the safe side. They all came back clear.”

The tension in his chest receded. “That’s great news.”

 “I’d like to go home. My father is a doctor.” 

“All right, well, that makes me feel better about releasing you.” The doctor signed off on the paper and handed it to Jax. 

Now they had to go home and tell her father. Something Jax was not looking forward to. 

Chapter Twenty-Five

Karma still couldn’t believe what had happened. One minute she was laughing and having fun and then next she finds out she almost died? Hell, apparently she did die briefly, if Jax had to revive her. Talk about some scary shit. She couldn’t seem to wrap her head around it. 

Jax kept staring at her like he was afraid she was going to fall apart or disappear. She rubbed her temples and stretched out her legs. Every inch of her body ached. The hum of the tires against the pavement was making her drowsy. She really felt as if she could fall asleep and wake up three days later. But she willed her eyes to stay open. The doctor told her to try to stay awake for a couple of hours. Which might be easier if her head didn’t feel so heavy. 

“I should call my father,” Karma realized suddenly. If she walked in covered in bruises without a heads-up, he would have a fit. 

“Probably a good idea,” Jax agreed. 

Karma winced as she sat up straighter and grabbed her phone out of the cup holder. Her whole body was so stiff. 

Needless to say, her father freaked out. Especially when she got to the part about the CPR. Karma reassured him she was fine and would be home in a couple of hours. He said he’d have her favorite soup waiting for her, along with some arnica cream. Supposedly, it was something his patients used to help with bruising. 

Karma hung up the phone and turned to Jax. “Thank you for saving my life.”

His face flushed, and concern creased his brow.  “Don’t thank me. You wouldn’t have been in that situation if it weren’t for me. I nearly got you killed. If anything you should hate my guts and never want to see me again.” 

“I wouldn’t be alive if it weren’t for you.” Karma laid her head on his shoulder. She loved being so close to him, and she would never in a million years blame him for the accident. She had gone willingly into the raft, and knew there was danger associated with the activity. 

She kept trying to remember falling out of the raft, but there was nothing there. It was like an empty void in her brain. 

They lapsed into silence, and Karma tried to listen to the words of the songs to stay awake. 

Jax cleared his throat. “I’ve been thinking about what you said earlier—about our feelings not being real.”

“And?” Karma asked, not bothering to lift her head. Why was he bringing this up now? She really didn’t want to think or talk about the fact that they only had five days left together after today. 

“I think it is bullshit. Just to let you know.”

What was he saying? Karma’s head throbbed. “I can’t have this conversation right now.” 

She felt his body tense next to hers. 

“Sorry, I shouldn’t have brought it up, bad timing. I was just so scared when I thought you were gone. Jesus, Karma, I was out of my mind.”

It was obvious his words were sincere. But what if he only thought he cared about her because he almost lost her? It hurt her brain too much to think about it. She didn’t want him to feel obligated to her because of something he said in a life-or-death situation. It seemed to her that something like that would only enhance the theory of danger and attraction.

“Can’t we just keep things as they are, Jax? We’re having so much fun. I don’t want to spoil it.” 

Jax let out a breath. “If that’s what you want, but we’re going to have to talk about it eventually.” 

“You mean we’re going to have to say good-bye eventually.” Her throat was dry and itchy, so she reached down and grabbed the water bottle and took a swig. “Everything comes to an end, Jax. I’m really okay with it. You don’t have to worry about me.” 

“That’s not what I was saying. I don’t want to say good-bye,” he said, frustrated. 

“We’ll talk about it in five days,” Karma said, closing the subject. Of course, she wanted Jax to still be with her after their time was up, but a big part of her really thought the attraction was situational based. If she had not told him she was looking for a one-night stand, he would have never given her the time of day. And if she was being truthful, had she not been looking for just sex, she might not have even noticed him. He wasn’t exactly her type. Granted, once she got to know him it was obvious he was amazing and nothing like the tattooed bad boy he came across as. But how long could the attraction last? She’d rather it ended on a positive note than trying to make something work that wasn’t meant to be. Right now she could walk away, because that was the agreement. But if they continued on she knew without a doubt she would get crushed. And she wasn’t sure she could handle that. 

Jax pulled into the driveway and her father came rushing outside with Matt close on his heels. Karma’s mouth turned up as she forced a smile, trying to ease their concern. 

“I’ll carry her in,” Jax said to Karma’s dads. 

They looked down at his bandaged feet and gave him a skeptical look. 

“I can walk myself in,” Karma said firmly. Placing her hand on his shoulders, she let Jax lift her down from the truck. “I’m fine. Just a little shook up, that’s all.” 

Her dad walked around to her other side and put his comforting arm around her. She smiled and leaned against him and Jax let go, following them up the stairs. 

Matt insisted she lie on the couch as he whipped up his famous soup. She was tired so she didn’t bother to fight it. Her father propped up some pillows and she leaned back, closing her eyes.

What a crazy-ass day.

Chapter Twenty-Six

Three days later Jax’s doorbell rang while he was making a sandwich in the kitchen. He set the knife aside and washed his hands before answering the door. It was probably someone trying to sell him something, disregarding the no soliciting signs clearly posted across the apartment complex. 

He wiped his hands across his jeans as he strode across the room. He pulled the door open and was stunned to see Karma standing on the other side. The bruises on her face had started to fade. Her hair fell in wild curls around her shoulders. But what surprised him the most was the uncertainty in her eyes. His stomach dropped. Had she come over to call it quits when they still had two days left? The day after the accident he hadn’t seen her at all. He offered to call in sick to work, but her father insisted she needed the rest and as much as Jax hated it, he agreed with him. And yesterday he went to her house, where they just stayed in watching a movie and eating pizza. Karma seemed a little distant from him, but he tried to brush it off. They hadn’t even kissed each other goodnight. 

“Can I come in?” Karma asked. 

Jax realized he had been standing there staring at her but hadn’t spoken yet. “Yeah, of course, I’m just surprised to see you. I didn’t even realize you remembered how to get here.”

“I didn’t. Matt reverse-searched your cell phone number.” 

“Ah, I guess that should freak me out a bit. I thought cell numbers weren’t as easy to trace now.” 

Karma shook her head with a smile. “We’re talking about Matt here, remember?”

He’d totally forgotten that Matt was a computer hacker. 

“I thought I was picking you up in a couple of hours.” Jax kicked the door shut. “I was just making a sandwich, do you want one?”

“I can’t wait, Jax. I want you. Please don’t make me wait any longer. I know you want me too.” 

Jax was so caught off guard he didn’t know what to say. So he didn’t say anything. They stood there just staring at each other. The only sound was the rhythmic click of the ceiling fan.

“Don’t you want me?” Karma asked. Her voice shook slightly. 

“Jesus, Karma, I want you so badly I ache for it. I can’t wait to get inside of you. I can scarcely think of anything else.” 

He could see the raw need in her face along with a hint of vulnerability and uncertainty. She was afraid he would say no. Like hell he would. He’d kept his end of the bargain. Well, almost, what was two days? As far as he was concerned all bets were off. He pressed his body to hers, feeling her chest rapidly rise up and down. Instant hard on. 

His pulse was suddenly in his throat. He couldn’t believe this was happening. He wanted to touch and taste her until she held no secrets—until he knew her body as well as his own.

He meant to be gentle with her, but when his lips pressed against hers, he kissed her hard and fierce. Karma opened her mouth to him, and Jax intensified the kiss. He kissed her like he wanted to crawl inside of her. Karma responded with the same urgency, pulling his shirt out of his pants. 

The fabric of her sweater was so soft as his hands moved to cup her breast. With haste, he pulled her shirt off her and unclipped her bra. His large hand cupped her full breast, squeezing and caressing as his lips trailed down her neck. He could feel her pulse beating on his lips, and it nearly drove him crazy. His lips touched the sensitive cord at the side of her neck, and she gasped. Her fingers dug into his arms, and he groaned.

Karma slid her hands down, unbuttoned his jeans, and pushed them toward the ground. His cock sprung free of his boxers and brushed against her abdomen. 

With his jeans bunched around his ankles, Karma knelt in front of him. Her mouth only inches from his cock, he could feel her warm breath against his skin. 

Jax kicked off the jeans and pulled Karma back to standing. He knew if her mouth wrapped around him, he wouldn’t last. He wanted to make their first time memorable. They could explore that avenue later. He wanted tonight to be about pleasing her. He slipped his arm around her waist, pulling her to him. 

With fumbling hands, he pulled off her pants while they were still standing in the living room.  If it weren’t for protection, he would have taken her right there in the doorway. Jesus, what the hell was he thinking? It was her first time. He willed himself to slow down. His chest heaved up and down as he gazed down at her, trying to control his breathing. 

“Please don’t stop,” Karma pleaded. 

“I’m not stopping.” His voice sounded hoarse. “We just need to make it to the bedroom.” 

“Oh.” Karma smiled, relieved, and turned and walked quickly in front of him to his room. Jax watched her hips and ass sway; she was still wearing a pair of white panties. He couldn’t wait to slide them off inch by inch. She turned and smiled nervously at him. His heart pounded hard in his chest as he hurried after her. 

As he stood in the doorway, his breath caught in his throat. His body stilled.  Karma was lying back on the bed, her head turned to the side to look at him. Her mass of wavy mahogany hair spilled all around her. If he lived a thousand years, he would never see anything more sensual in his life. 

“Don’t just stand there,” Karma laughed. 

“Don’t move. I want to remember you like this always.” 

He saw a flush spread across her pale cheeks, but she didn’t look away. He took in every line and curve of her body like a snap shot in his mind. The image would be burned in his mind forever. 

“Get over here,” Karma said, her voice low and husky. “I need you.”

Jax grabbed a foil package out of the box in his nightstand drawer. Slowly, he eased himself onto the bed. His thighs pressed against hers as he held himself up. Karma grabbed the back of his head and pulled him toward her. They kissed deeply, and Karma trembled against him. 

“I’ve wanted to do this every minute of every day since I met you.” Kisses drifted from the underside of her jaw to the hollow of her shoulder. 

“Jax, please, I can’t wait any longer,” Karma gasped.

Neither could he. His cock was so hard it was painful. He leaned back and trailed his hands slowly down her body. His fingers hooked on the side of her panties, and he eased them down. She lifted her hips to help him. 

“I’m afraid I’m going to hurt you,” Jax whispered. 

“You won’t. I want this. I want you.” 

He slid his finger deep inside of her; she was velvety soft and oh so warm. He couldn’t believe this was happening. 

Karma bucked her hips up and he nearly came. He hadn’t even entered her yet. He took a deep breath, pulled his hand away, and tore the foil. Karma looked up and watched as he rolled the condom over his throbbing shaft. 

Her legs dropped to the side, and he watched her face intently. Her eyes were shining brightly with eagerness. He wanted to drive himself deep inside of her but he knew he had to be gentle. The last thing he wanted to do was cause her pain.

He parted her lips and pushed the tip of his cock into her as their eyes locked. It was so fucking tight he couldn’t even get more than two inches in. Karma flinched, and her body tensed. 

“Am I hurting you?”

She shook her head no. Jax tried to nudge it forward, but there was no movement. He’d never been with a virgin before and had no idea what to expect. He should have brought something to lubricate. He pulled out the tip, and his lips trailed down her body. Her back arched as he lightly licked her hard nipple.