Everyone loved the cozy dark gray Ultrasuede family room furniture, with the pale blue, mint, and dove-gray area rug covering
most of the floor. The kitchen had toasted-almond-toned cabinets, and pale almond and chocolate stone countertops that were
a perfect complement to the stainless steel and chocolate appliances.
Each bedroom had its own walk-in closet and bath, with the master suite being graced with a closet that was almost as big
as a tiny bedroom, along with a wonderful Jacuzzi tub and double sinks. D’Relle’s room was pale green with cocoa accents.
It was simple, tasteful, and low-maintenance with lots of high-tech amenities. Danesha’s room, on the other hand, was a soft
pink and pale yellow. Whereas D’Relle had opted for natural-colored wooden blinds, Danesha’s windows had pale pink mini-blinds
softened with even paler pink sheers with tiny yellow butterflies all over them. There was a fluffy yellow rug in the middle
of the floor, and pastel-colored satin pillows on the pink satin comforter and baby-blue chair.
When you walked into D’Relle’s room you wanted to examine all of her cool stuff and read the books in her extensive library.
But when you visited Danesha you longed to grab a cup of tea in a fancy porcelain cup, turn on some good music, and enjoy
all of her original artwork, which was tastefully displayed around the room.
But if the girls’ rooms were a delight to the senses, Yvonne’s room was nothing less than a visual treat. Her walls were the
palest of pale cocoa color, with lavender on all the trim and moldings. She had a lavender, cream, and cocoa area rug, and
a dark walnut dresser, chest of drawers, and king-size sleigh bed. The bed always made everybody who came into Yvonne’s room
want to grab one of those plush pillows and take a long nap on the pale cocoa comforter with tiny cream and lavender hearts
on it.
Yvonne’s bedroom had lavender mini-blinds and pale lavender sheers on the windows. She had a hand-painted lavender desk and
chair, and a cocoa velvet seat at the foot of the bed that matched her oversize cocoa velvet chair and the ottoman facing
a walnut hutch with the TV, DVD, and stereo system in it. Like D’Relle, Yvonne had two bookcases loaded down with all kinds
of wonderful things to read. And like her baby girl, Danesha, she had her own original art pieces displayed on the walls.
Yvonne took the suit out of the garment bag to inspect it more carefully. It really was an incredible outfit. She slipped
out of her clothes and tried on the halter and skirt. Her first concern was that the skirt would not fit right, and then she
wasn’t so sure about the halter. She was a D-cup and knew that those “girls” needed support. She always wondered why folks
went on so about big boobs—they were very high-maintenance. And contrary to public opinion, it seemed to Yvonne that most
clothes were really designed for women with much smaller cup sizes. So she didn’t know what there was to get so excited about
when your cup overflowed.
This was a top-of-the-line outfit. The halter fit and had built-in support that fit. In fact, it felt wonderful on her breasts—not
too tight, not too loose, with the proper coverage on the sides. The skirt was shorter than she normally wore her skirts,
but it felt good on her body.
Surprised and satisfied, Yvonne took the clothes off and went to run her bathwater. She put in some bath salt and then added
some midnight pomegranate bubble bath. She finished undressing, waited until the tub filled up, and then eased into the water.
Yvonne leaned her newly done head on the tub pillow and sighed—the water felt so good on her lush, chocolate body.
She lifted a soapy leg up and examined it. Her leg was firm and shapely. She ran her hands over her stomach—it was flat and
firm. She raised her soapy arms up—they had biceps and definition. She looked at her full breasts with the deep dark chocolate
nipples that looked sweet to the taste. She examined the texture of her skin—so soft and smooth.
Yvonne sank back into the tub. The warm water came up above her shoulders, making her relax even more. She felt the water
swirling around every part of her. It felt good and reminded her just how much of a sensual and loving woman she was. But
who would ever discover this about her? Who would ever want to know who she really was? Was there a single man in her age
group out there with sense enough to see her and want her, and do what he had to do to get to her?
A hot tear trickled down Yvonne’s cheek and she whispered, “God, why would you bring me to such a state as this? I’m a beautiful,
wonderful woman. I’m not perfect, and I definitely have some areas where I need to grow and change. But I am worth a man wanting
me and seeing all that You’ve given me and desiring that. It’s not fair, God. It’s just not fair.”
More tears spilled over and before she knew it, Yvonne was sobbing so hard her chest ached. It wasn’t fair that she had to
be so alone with no end in sight. It wasn’t fair that her ex-husband could break her heart, dump her, put her out of her own
house, and then go off to find his happiness. She didn’t care that he didn’t want her anymore. But it simply was not fair
that he got to have a life and she had to stay stuck. It wasn’t fair and God needed to step in and do something about this.
Yvonne cried some more and then tried to will herself to stop. It only made matters worse. She felt bad because she was mad
at the Lord, who she knew could change her situation in the blink of an eye, for letting her be here like this, and for so
long. It wasn’t fair.
“
Whoever said I was fair as you all define fair, Yvonne,” a soft voice whispered to her heart. “I’M JUST. I have not left you,
nor have I or will I ever forsake you. So fear not for I have overcome the world.
”
The tears stopped, the hurt ceased, the peace came, and hope was alive and well in Yvonne’s heart in a way that it had not
existed in years. She relaxed. Rest, true rest, rest-in-the-Lord rest, finding that resting place promised in the Book of
Hebrews, was what Yvonne felt. She realized as she submitted her will and weary soul to this rest that she hadn’t known what
rest was until this moment. She laid her weary head on the tub pillow, whispered “Thank You,” and fell asleep until the water
became tepid.
Yvonne finally got out of the tub, dried off, wrapped herself in a huge towel, and washed her face. She felt so much better.
It had been a long day, full of twists and turns. And the one twist she’d completely forgotten when she threw that pity party
was that she had a date with a fine brother.
After washing her face, brushing her teeth, and putting on deodorant, Yvonne went to her perfume shelf and selected her newest
addition, Daisy by Marc Jacobs. She indulged herself in the wonderful body cream and then layered that with the cologne. Smelling
good, she went into the bedroom in search of the perfect underwear for this suit—baby-blue lace string bikinis and a pair
of silky, chocolate-flesh-toned pantyhose with light blue roses down the side of the leg. Yvonne had fallen in love with those
stockings when she saw them but had never found anything to wear that did them justice until now.
She put on some light moisturizer, and then dusted her face with the new mineral foundation and shimmering pinkish blush Elaine
had given her. She applied the sparkling brown shadow across her lid and added a navy metallic in the crease, finishing off
her eyes with the ebony liner and a few brushes of mascara. The only thing missing was the shimmering dark rose lipstick that
made Yvonne’s wide and full mouth so lush, it looked like it was begging to be kissed.
She ran the comb through her silky hair, shook it, and watched it fall right back in place. A thick wisp of hair fell over
her eye, giving Yvonne that “I just left my man” expression the makeup artists spent so much time perfecting on celebrity
pictures in the magazines. And here she was, uncool Yvonne reppin’ what women paid good money to get.
“Perfect,” she whispered with a smile.
She sat down on the side of her bed and slipped those blue suede shoes on her feet. “Ooooooh,” Yvonne purred in pure delight,
“these things feel good.”
Yvonne packed up the new purse with way too much stuff. She emptied and refilled it three times before she was able to fit
the right amount of everything she needed into it, before looking for jewelry that would do this outfit right. She could not,
in good conscience, wear something of this caliber and not put on the right earrings and necklace. Unfortunately, the only
jewelry that met this standard was the pieces Darrell had bought her years ago.
She pulled at the “Darrell Drawer” on the jewelry box and selected a pair of thick platinum hoops with diamonds and blue and
brown topaz stones sprinkled on them, two-carat diamond studs for her second holes, and the two-carat, heart-shaped diamond
pendant hanging from a delicate and barely visible platinum chain.
Yvonne had not been able to stomach that jewelry touching her skin for the past two years. As pretty as those two pairs of
earrings were, Yvonne practically threw up the last time she tried to put them in her ears. But that was then, and this was
now—this jewelry looked good and she was wearing it.
But the necklace was an entirely different story. She had picked this chain out when Darrell, who was deep in his affair with
Bettina, was trying not to spend extra money on Yvonne. She had figured correctly that Bettina’s birthday had to be somewhere
in the vicinity of her own, and that Dr. Darrell could not afford two expensive pieces of jewelry at one time. So he had opted
to get rid of the Yvonne expense factor by offhandedly telling her to buy her own gift, thinking she’d get mad and refuse
to do so—and therefore save him a lot of money.
Darrell was horrified when he discovered that his scheme had backfired, and his coveted Bettina cash had been spent on Yvonne,
and by his own hand. The day the necklace was delivered to the house, Yvonne was forced to watch, horrified, as Darrell confiscated
her necklace from the jewelry store’s courier.
When she mustered up enough courage to protest, that boy actually formed his mouth to say, “See, that’s what I keep telling
you about yourself, Yvonne.”
“Telling me what?” she asked gingerly, wondering what her necklace had to do with something this joker was always telling
her about herself.
“You lack confidence. And this piece of jewelry has to be worn by someone with true confidence. It wouldn’t even look right
on you. So I’m going to keep it as an incentive to inspire you to display the kind of confidence that I endorse. You see,
it’s this kind of thing that makes me not like you, Yvonne.”
As Yvonne allowed those harsh words to pierce through her heart, she did what she always did when Darrell was mean to her—she
fought back the tears. She was in the process of holding her head back to stop the tears from falling when she heard a soft
voice whisper, “Pull yourself together and pay attention.”
Yvonne opened her eyes just in time to see Darrell going upstairs with the courier package in his hand. She was about to run
up the stairs behind him when she felt a firm but gentle pressure on her chest, keeping her from moving forward for a good
twenty seconds. As soon as she felt the release, Yvonne found herself yielding to the pull of the Holy Spirit on her heart—something
she had not been in tune to in several years.
She walked up the stairs quietly and went to their bedroom door, pausing when she felt that pressure on her chest one more
time. The door was open just enough to afford her the privilege of watching Darrell without being seen. Yvonne heard him whisper
into his cell phone, “Bettina, baby, I have something for you,” and hang up.
Darrell glanced over his shoulder and then surveyed the room for the perfect hiding place. As soon as he found that spot,
he smiled, dropped the package into a drawer, and went into the bathroom.
Yvonne eased back down the stairs and went into her office near the kitchen and closed the door before she fell on the floor
laughing so hard, tears were streaming down her cheeks.
“What an idiot,” she whispered after another bout of laughter. “And to think that I once thought this man was smarter than
me.”
“Are you praying out loud again, begging and pleading with
God
to …” Darrell frowned and snapped his fingers, searching for the words he always overheard Yvonne use when he made her
so distraught her only recourse was to run like a snitch and tell on him. Only thing, this silly girl didn’t run to a person,
she ran to something as intangible as G
od
.
His long, lanky frame cast a shadow over Yvonne, who had stretched out on her back on the floor to ease the laugh cramps in
her side.
“Oh, I know what it is you’re always bugging
God
to do,” Darrell said. “Deal with me. Is that why you’re on the floor in tears? You’re running and tattling to
God
to
deal with me.
”
Yvonne sat up and wiped the tears of laughter off her cheeks in the same manner as when she was crying. She hoped that she
was affecting despair well enough to make Darrell so disgusted with her that he left before she lost her cool and started
laughing all over again. She was simply amazed at how fast and how well the good Lord worked.
In Darrell’s haste to hide the necklace, he’d made the mistake of dropping the packet into a drawer on Yvonne’s side of their
dresser. God led Yvonne to get that necklace as soon as Darrell left the house to go see Bettina. She then ran to the post
office and mailed it to her parents in North Carolina.
Until this evening Yvonne, who had long since retrieved the necklace from her parents, had not known what to do with it. She
had always assumed that God had led her to keep her necklace because she might have to sell it when she needed some extra
money. But for some reason, the Lord meant for her to wear this fabulous jewelry. For some reason, He wanted her to wear it
this evening—and that is exactly what she was going to do. Yvonne had learned (and many times the hard way) not to question
God, but to obey Him without thought or question when He led her to do something that did not make sense to her finite, “her
thoughts were not His thoughts” mind.