Venetia Kelly's Traveling Show

During the early twentieth century, Ireland began to practice a wonderful new dramatic form—politics. It was free, compelling, and wild, and the Irish, with their fondness for high intrigue and low comedy, embraced it with love. This was a natural fit. Though colonized for generations, and denied formal education, the Irish had retained in their race memory the innate culture of the oral tradition. Thus they were always prepared to come out for someone who would tell a good story, play a fine tune, or act a great part.

Extraordinary passions were stoked in this theater-for-all, as massive figures, of uneven character and temperament, opened up the nation’s soul. The country became notorious for fiercely fought elections, fevered by noble intentions, instabilities, and greed. Some of the candidates believed that they had a destiny to lead; some proffered vision; some scarcely bothered to hide their predatory intent.

Idealism being the virginity of politics, the new nation burst at the seams with young zeal. But even the most idealistic discovered to their sorrow that freedom can also do harm to our values, because democracy, our “least worst” system, takes away even as it gives.

Innocence is the price of power.

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he sprang from the womb and waved to the crowd. Then she smiled and took a bow. That’s what her mother told me, and so did the midwife, Mrs. Haas. During the birth, the wind howled outside, and the snow whirled in a blizzard of frightful depth and terror. People died on the streets that evening, overwhelmed by the weather. When the blizzard cleared at around ten o’clock, the stars came out bright and brighter, salt grains and diamonds, high above New York. The wind had stacked up the snow in hefty, gleaming banks against the bases of the tall buildings. By then the infant was pink and asleep, tiny hands wrinkled and clenched. Venetia, her name was, chosen the instant she appeared, and she was born, her mother insisted, in mythic circumstances: “Moses;” “bulrushes;” “nativity”—she murmured those words, to herself as much as to me.

You are reading the story of Venetia Kelly, that “mythically” born baby. She became a young woman of remarkable talent and passion, and when she was thirty-two years old—the year I met her—she was drawn into a terrible intrigue that had a profound effect upon my parents and me.

I’ve waited a long time to write it down. My reasons for doing so at
all? Simple: The story isn’t over, and I’m telling it now to try to secure its ending. I’m aware that I’m like a man running after his hat in a high wind: I may never retrieve it; at moments I shall seem ridiculous; and finally the forces against me may deny me the result that I want. But there it is.

Venetia Kelly’s story became my story too; it determined the direction I would take at one time, and has controlled how I’ve lived ever since. I can’t say whether I might have had a different life if I’d never met her, but such has been her impact that I’ve never looked for anything else. In other words, the existence that I lead keeps me as close to her as I can get under the circumstances.

As you read, please know that I’m a man of mature years telling the story of himself when young, so forgive me if at times I make the young me seem and sound older than eighteen. In fact, I don’t think I’ve changed that much; certainly I recognize myself easily. And I wasn’t a complicated young man, but an only child is always a little different. My parents treated me almost as an equal, and I perhaps had more adult sensibilities than were good for me at that age.

I think that I might have found it easier to write about myself as a younger child—the small boy who dug for gold on the farm so that he could buy his parents gifts; who worried that they worked too hard; who bought his mother tinned pears for her birthday. At eighteen, some of that survived, but by then the sense of responsibility with which I am cursed had begun to grow all over me like an extra skin. I feel it every day, I feel it now; it too spurs me to try to put this account in your hands. But I’ll endeavor to assemble all the reasons, as I think of them, and as they arise.

Tiny Digression (more Digressions later too): Is there an ideal age at which momentous events should happen to us? Is there a certain plateau we must reach before we’re capable of taking on “big things”? I have no idea, and if anybody ought to know, I should.

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s you’ll see, I can’t tell you this story without the detailed inclusion of the mother, Sarah Kelly, also an actress. Sarah, when telling me about Venetia’s birth, flung about the word “auspicious.” That afternoon, in an attempt to induce birth—Venetia was two days late—the mother sang something from Donizetti; she said that women in the theater had told her a high note could bring on labor.

As she hit the note, a horse in the street below neighed so loudly that the two expectant women, Sarah with her massive bump and Mrs. Haas with an armful of warm towels, went to the window and looked down. Sarah said, given the tricks of the light, that she thought she was “looking at a unicorn.”

That same morning she had a letter from a school friend repaying an old debt.

“Auspicious,” she said, waving a hand like a frond. “Wasn’t it all auspicious?”

The father wasn’t there that snowy night of the birth. Nor did he ever appear in Venetia’s childhood. He did speak to me eventually (once the others had agreed to be interviewed), and he then, this unpleasant, aloof beanpole, tried to buy my silence. This was a fellow so measured that
people said he never changed his clothes—always a black double-breasted suit, startling white shirt, dark red tie.

So: born out of wedlock, the daughter of a rich and prominent man and a glamorous and already renowned actress, a storm-tossed birth, a foot of snow in the streets, pedestrians hurled to the ground by winds of hurricane force, perhaps a unicorn, plus a recompense coming from afar. Was it mythic? It’s tough to say no.

“We have myth to correspond with the great moments of life,” Sarah Kelly said to me all those years later. She was prepared only to talk about such things as the birth or Venetia when young, and had condemned Mrs. Haas to the same restrictions. “‘When beggars die there are no comets seen; the heavens themselves blaze forth the death of princes.’ And every mother knows the exact, the precise, the meticulous details of the birth of every child she has ever borne—that’s her own, private little myth. So I can tell you—this was a birth from a legend. If you want proof, see how remarkable the child became.”

Now, looking at my notes of that conversation, I can analyze what Sarah said. In essence, she linked the birth of her daughter to the birth of Jesus Christ, and she supported her thesis with an unattributed quotation from Shakespeare, the remark about beggars and comets, and so forth.

If you want to put yourself in good company, reach for the top. That was Sarah—dramatic, resplendent, with a long, elegant slope of a nose, and born without the gene of shyness. And that, in essence, was the level of sophistication we came up against, my family and I. Plus, not far away from Sarah, crookedness, thievery, danger, and death.

Nobody here in Ireland recalls snow that night, or planets crashing, or at the very least some thunder and lightning. I’ve made local inquiries, and I’ve checked the meteorological office records—rain here, frost there, fog somewhere else, temperatures between 28 and 48 degrees Fahrenheit, nothing abnormal.

Where Venetia Kelly was born, the weather also looked as though it would stay ordinary that day—a dry and sunny New Year in New York, the first of January, 1900. In fact, it was unseasonably warm on Park Avenue. And then, in a matter of hours, the blizzard swept down from the
Great Lakes faster than a rumor. No wonder Venetia often complained of the cold.

Sarah had to leave the house that night where she gave birth; she had to get out before the Andersons returned. That, apparently, was part of the deal. The conception of the baby had taken place in Mr. Anderson’s study on Park Avenue—“on the desk,” she told me. Sarah had always wanted to see his home, observe the things that comforted him; so, his wife away for Easter, Mr. Anderson had invited her over on the Sunday afternoon.

When she discovered that she was pregnant, Sarah then told him that she’d like the child to be born in the house in which it had been conceived, because she understood that great good luck attached to it.

“It’s what the Chinese believe,” she told me.

I myself have had the good fortune to know some Chinese folklore scholars, and none of them has ever told me—or confirmed or found for me—such a nostrum.

The blue-blooded wife knew nothing of their affair and its arrangements—although Mr. Anderson mused that if she had known, she might well have agreed; she possessed, he said, that kind of eccentric tolerance, she was an American WASP. But in any case Mr. Anderson maneuvered things so that, once he knew roughly the date, he would make sure that they would be in Connecticut for their annual Christmas sojourn.

“The arrangement was,” said Sarah, “that I had to get out as soon as I felt able, no room at the inn, so to speak.” After the birth, Mrs. Haas was to send a message to Mr. Anderson in Greenwich, using Sarah’s code: “The workmen have left the house.”

Everything turned out as planned, although Sarah said she could have done without the rush to her father’s house on that cold night. Even so, she was to live there for eleven years until she came to Ireland.

Sarah Kelly eventually fetched up in Florida, retired and elegant, well cared for. She had spent most of her life in an ivy-covered house on the edge of Dublin, where I went to see her a number of times.

With her help (up to a point), and constant research and questioning, I’ve spent years trying to piece together this story. The decision to assemble it finally became a matter of inner peace. There had been so many
days when I’d asked myself whether I’d really lived through it, whether it had actually happened. Over and over I’ve had to interrogate the plot. Not to mention the sense of loss.