What Happens to Goodbye (27 page)

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Authors: Sarah Dessen

Another silence fell. I could hear the fridge humming behind me. Weird how some things you’re never aware of until there’s nothing else to notice.
“So you think you’ll move from here again, soon? ” he asked finally. “When six months is up?”
“Don’t know,” I replied. “Sometimes we stay longer or shorter than that. It’s really up to the company my dad works for. And next year . . .”
I trailed off, realizing only once I’d started this sentence that I didn’t really want to get into it. But I could feel Dave watching me, waiting.
“There’s college, and all that,” I finished. “So this one already kind of has an end date, regardless. At least for me.”
We looked at each other for a moment. He was a smart guy, probably the smartest I’d ever met. So it didn’t take long, only a beat or so, for him to get what I was saying.
“Right.” He put his spoon down in his now-empty bowl. “Well, at least you’ll be ready for the dorm. You’ve got living simply down.”
I smiled, looking at the cabinets. “I do, don’t I?”
“Yeah. Maybe I should take some lessons. Might come in handy when I’m packing for our road trip this summer.”
“The road trip?” I asked. “Does that mean it’s back on? Your parents gave the okay?”
“Not exactly. But they’re warming up to the idea a bit.” He pushed his bowl to the side. “Mostly because I said I’d spend the second half of the summer at Brain Camp, which is what they want me to do. It’s all about compromise. But if it means I get to go to Texas with Ellis and Riley, it’s all good.”
“So Heather wasn’t invited?”
He smiled. “Good assumption, but actually she was in until recently. She, uh, kind of wrecked her car and got her license pulled for points. Her dad’s making her pay back all the debt and for a new policy before she can drive again, so all her money went to that.”
“Was this the guardhouse incident?” I asked.
“It was.” He sighed. “I swear, she is the worst driver. She doesn’t look when she merges.”
“So I hear.” I looked down at my bowl, pushing a stray carrot around. “So what’s in Texas?”
“Austin, mostly. Ellis’s brother lives there, and he’s always talking about how good the music scene is, all the cool stuff there is to do. Plus, it’s far enough that we can stop a bunch of other places along the way.”
“You’re excited,” I said.
“Well, unlike some people, I’m not exactly well traveled. And everyone likes a road trip, right?”
I nodded, thinking of my mom and me, driving to North Reddemane and the Poseidon. I knew he thought my life was weird, and the truth was, I didn’t expect him to understand where I was coming from. How could he, when he’d lived in the same place his entire life, with the same people around him, his history and past always inescapable, inevitable? I wasn’t saying my way was necessarily best. But neither was never having any change. And given the choice between these two options, I knew the life I was living was the better one for me. I might not have had spices, but I wasn’t lugging useless, chipped glass pans around with me either. So to speak.
“David? Hello?”
I turned to see Mrs. Dobson-Wade, standing on her side porch, her door open behind her. She was craning her neck, scanning the side yard, a concerned look on her face.
Dave got up, walking to our door and sticking his head out. “Hey,” he said. She jumped, startled. “I’m over here.”
“Oh,” she said. When she saw me, she waved, and I waved back. “Sorry to interrupt. But that documentary your father mentioned earlier is coming on, and I knew you wouldn’t want to miss the beginning.”
“Right,” Dave said, glancing at me. “The documentary.”
“It’s about the lives of cells,” Mrs. Wade explained to me. “A really fascinating, in-depth view. Highly acclaimed.”
I nodded, not sure what to say to this. “I’ll be there in a minute,” Dave told her.
“All right.” She smiled, then shut the door, and Dave came back to the table.
“Cells, huh?” I said as he sat back down.
“Yep.” He sighed, stacking our bowls one in the other, and putting both spoons in the top one. “They make up everything and everyone, Mclean.”
“I know,” I said. “I’m sure it will be fascinating.”
“Want to join us?” I bit my lip, trying not to smile as he stood up, pushing in his chair. “Yeah, it’s not exactly my cup of tea either. But if I want to go to Austin, I have to play the game. Be a good son, and all that.”
He walked over to the stove, where he picked up the saucepan, stuffing the pot holder in his pocket. Then, as I watched, he carefully shut all the open, empty cabinets. Just like that, my kitchen was normal again. At least, from the outside.
He was walking to the door now, the pot in hand, and I pushed out my chair, getting to my feet. “You know,” I said, “the fact that I didn’t come by today . . . it wasn’t about anything you said. I’m just—”
“Not into entanglements,” he finished for me. “I get it. Loud and clear.”
We stood there for a moment, just looking at each other.
If I had more time,
I thought, but really, it wasn’t about that. I just wasn’t sure any relationship could work. If the perfect love story turned out not to be, what did that mean for the rest of us?
Dave looked over at his house again. “I’d better go. The cells and their lives are waiting.”
“Thanks for the soup.”
“No problem. Thanks for the company.”
I pushed open my door, and he stepped through, glancing back once as he went down the stairs and across the driveway. I watched him go inside his kitchen, putting the saucepan in the sink. Then he started down the hallway, where the light of a TV was flickering in the distance.
I was almost back to my room, and my homework, when the phone rang. Which startled me, honestly, as I’d sort of forgotten it was there. My dad and I usually didn’t bother with landlines, instead just using our cell phones, as it was easier than having to keep learning new numbers in every place. But here, for what reason, EAT INC had put in a house line for us. The few times it had rung, they were wrong numbers or telemarketers. If it wasn’t for the fact that I was looking for a reason to procrastinate, I probably would have ignored it altogether.
“Hello?” I said, my tone stern, already in No mode.
“Is that Mclean?”
I didn’t recognize the voice, which just made the fact that the caller knew who I was that much weirder. “Um,” I said. “Yes. Who’s this?”
“Lindsay Baker. From the town council. We met the other day at the restaurant.”
Immediately, I saw her in my head: that yellow-blonde hair, bright eyes, even brighter teeth. Even over the phone her confidence was palpable. “Oh, right. Hi.”
“I’m calling because I’ve been trying to reach your father for a few days now on his cell and at Luna Blu, without any luck, and I was hoping to catch him at this number. Is he around?”
“No,” I said. “He’s at the restaurant.”
“Oh.” A pause. “That’s strange. I just called there and they said he was at home.”
“Really?” I looked at the clock: it was 7:30, prime dinner rush. “I’m not sure where he could be, then.”
“Oh, well,” she replied. “It was worth a shot. I’ll keep trying him, but could I bother you to pass on my number and a message? ”
“Sure.”
I picked up a pen and uncapped it. “Just tell him,” she said, “that I’d really like to get together for lunch and discuss what we talked about the other day. My treat, at his convenience. I’m at 919-555-7744. That’s my cell, and I always have it with me.”
LINDSAY BAKER
, I wrote, with the number beneath it.
WANTS YOU FOR LUNCH
. “I’ll tell him,” I said.
“Perfect. Thank you, Mclean.”
We hung up, and I looked back down at the message, realizing only then that it sounded like something the big bad wolf would leave.
Oh, well,
I thought, sticking it on the kitchen table.
He’ll get the idea.
I went back to my room and tried to immerse myself in the Industrial Revolution. About a half hour later, I heard a soft knock at the back door, so quiet I wondered if I’d imagined it. When I came out, no one was there. On the back deck rail, though, there was a small box, a sticky note attached to it.
I picked it up. It was a plastic container of thyme, already opened, but more than half full.
JUST IN CASE YOU DECIDE TO STICK AROUND,
the note said in messy, slanted writing.
WE HAD THREE OF THESE.
I looked back at the Wades’ dark kitchen for a moment, then turned around and went back inside, putting the thyme in the cupboard, right by the salt and pepper and the silverware. The note I took back to my room, where I stuck it on my bedside clock, front and center, so it would be the first thing I saw in the morning.
Nine
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The next day I woke up to a bright white glare outside my window. When I eased the shade aside and peered out, I saw it had snowed overnight. There were about four inches covering everything, and it was still coming down.
“Snow,” my dad reported as I came into the kitchen. He was at the window, a mug of coffee in his hands. “Haven’t seen that in a while.”
“Not since Montford Falls,” I said.
“If we’re lucky, it’ll delay Chuckles at the airport. That would at least buy us some time.”
“To do what?”
He sighed, putting down his coffee cup. “Wave a magic wand. Poach the staff of the best restaurant in town. Consider other career options. That kind of thing.”
I opened the pantry door, reaching inside to pull out the cereal. “Well, at least you’re thinking positively.”
“Always.”
I was getting out the milk when I suddenly remembered the call I’d answered the night before. “Hey, did you leave the restaurant last night?”
“Only at about one to come back here,” he replied. “Why?”
“That councilwoman, Lindsay Baker,” I said. “When she called and left that message, she said they’d just told her you were gone.”
He sighed, then reached up to rub a hand over his face. “Okay, don’t judge me,” he said. “But I
might
have told them to tell her I wasn’t there.”
“Really?” I asked.
He grimaced.
“Why?”
“Because she keeps calling wanting to discuss this model thing, and I don’t have the time or energy right now.”
“She did say she’s been trying to reach you for a while.”
He grunted, taking one last sip off his mug and setting it in the sink. “Who calls a restaurant in the middle of dinner rush, wanting to make a lunch date? It’s ludicrous.”
“She wants a date?”
“I don’t know what she wants. I just know I don’t have time to do it, whatever it is.” He picked up his cell phone, glancing at the screen before shutting it and sliding it in his pocket. “I gotta get over there and get some stuff done before Chuckles shows up. You’ll be okay getting to school? Think they’ll cancel?”
“Doubt it,” I said. “This isn’t Georgia or Florida. But I’ll keep you posted.”
“Do that.” He squeezed my shoulder as I reached into the fridge for the milk. “Have a good day.”
“You, too. Good luck.”
He nodded, then headed for the front door. I watched him pull on his jacket, which was neither very warm nor waterproof, before going out onto the porch. Not for the first time, I thought of the next year, and what it would be like for him to be living in another rental house, in another town, without me. Who would organize his details so he could be immersed in someone else’s? Iidth it wasn’t my responsibility to take care of my dad, that he didn’t ask for or expect it. But he’d already been left behind one time. I hated that I’d be the person to make it twice.
Just then, my phone rang.
Speak of the devil
, I thought, as HAMILTON, PETER popped up on the screen. I was moving to hit the IGNORE button when I looked at the clock. I had fifteen minutes before I had to leave for the bus. If I got this over with now, it might buy me a whole day of peace, or at least a few hours. I sucked it up and answered.

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