What You Do To Me (Unexpected Love)

             
Seriously, what
was
I thinking? Why
was
I here? Without even
thinking,
I
pulled
out my phone and
sent a
text
to
Lexi.

             
Remind me again what I am doing here and
once
again why I’m doing it alone?

             
Knowing
I would
be going into freak out
mode, I knew
she
had
her phone with her.
While I
waited
for the response
,
I look
ed
at my surroundings and realize
d
I
was
totally out of place. Shit, I so
wanted
to leave.

             
Feeling the buzz of my phone
,
I look
ed down at her message and saw her response.

             
You are learning to live again,
becoming
a stronger person
for YOUR GIRLS. Remember
, I offered to go, but you
just
HAD
to do this on your own
,
so do it!

Then, another buzz of the phone.

             
Plus it is on
“the list”

             
Ugh! The list
;
the fucking list
that
Derek and Lexi seem
ed to keep making me stick t
o. I wish
ed
I could rip it up into a million pieces, but
it had
been talked about so much that it
was
burned into all our brains.

             
The noise around me grabbed
my attention. OMG,
there
they
were
. Standing in the back of the line
,
I
took
in al
l the people around me. There
were
not a whole lot of clothes a
nd I actually
felt
a tad overd
ressed, but then again
,
my reason for being here
was
completely different
from
the rest of these people. They
were
all here
trying to
grab a few minutes of attention from
Awakening
,
but
I
was
here to prove something to myself. I still
couldn’t
believe Lexi and Derek got
the sweet seat in the front center
and
backstage
passes for me to have for a meet and greet
. Shit, front center at an
Awakening
concert
was
like a dream come true
. What
was
I doing here
?
Another buzz
from my phone
made
me become alert. Looking at the
screen,
I saw it
was
from Derek.

             
Stop freaking out! Have fun, but be careful & stay away from the guys with the tattoos
;)

             
Seriously
, how well
did
my friends know me?
I
loved
tattoos and
could possibly be considered
  a tattoo slut. Looking up at the line again, I
saw
that not many peopl
e
had
made it through
yet. I thought all these meet and greet the fan things were quick. Smile, take a picture and leave. Why
were
the guys in
Awakening
talking so much to everyone in line
?
Maybe
,
by
the time
I
got
up there
,
since
I was
last,
there
wouldn’t
be a lot of time for chitchat and I
could
smile
,
get my picture to appease Lexi and Derek
,
and watch the concert
that
I’d
been dying to see forever.

             
As
I continue
d
people watching
,
I
was
shocked
, almost laughing
aloud. Some of those girls were
so funny to watch. Really, who has someone sign their chest? I wouldn’t, but then
again,
my size A tits wouldn’t really excite
those
guys in the least bit. My eyes shift
ed
to
the guys in the group. There were
four of
them.
All
of them
were
tall,
well built
and
with
tattoos to drool over. I
couldn’t take my eyes off all the ink. I practically went
weak in the knees.
I had
always loved a man with ink. I remember begging David to get a full arm sleeve, but he was always reluctant.  Having both upper arms and his chest done was enough for him. Ugh, I
needed
to stop that. I
needed
to focus on why I
was
here and pay attention
, because
I
was
up soon.

             
Digging my camera from my small purse
, I got ready to take
a picture
with all the guys. Fuck, who was
going to tak
e the picture? Everyone else had
someone with the
m and here I was all alone. Why didn’t I allow Lexi or Derek to come with me
? I
knew
why I didn’t
let Derek
accompany me
. Derek
was
David’s
friend and mine, but I
knew
he
had
feelings
for me
.
To
allow
him to come
with me for this weekend woul
d not have ended
well
. I didn’t want to crush him and I didn
’t want to lose him from my life. He
was
like a brother and lately
,
he
had
been my
rock
,
not
just my rock, but the rock that
had
been there for my girls too.

             
Oh shit, I
saw that I was up
next. Bringing a palm to my hair
, I tried
to smooth
d
own the stray hairs and then I slid
my palms
d
own my side to smooth my shorts.
I felt winded. Christ, why
did I feel
so fucking nervous? These guys could give two
shits less about me and
they would
probably just
be happy
that
I was
the
last
one
in
the
line. They probably
hated
thi
s meet and greet as much as I
did
right now. Looking at the ground
,
I
heard
the words, “
Next.
”

             
Walking up to the guys, I tried to look confident, but I felt it really wasn’t working. They all ga
ve me a polite smile and the lead
singer,
Alex
,
flas
hed
his
white, toothy smile at me.
God,
he was
hot. Wow, pictures
did
no
t do him justice at all. I couldn’t
help but stare at him.

             
“So, I see you have a
camera.
Would
you like a picture?”  Snapping out of my daze, I realize
d Alex had been talking to me.
Alex
asked again
, “Would you like a picture?”

I finally choke
d
out a response. “Yes
,”
Wow, I
seriously
sounded
like an idiot. I then
remembered
I
had
nobody with me to take the damn picture. “Yes, I would, but I don’t have anyone with me who can take it.”

The guys all smile
d
at me
again
,
and the drummer
whose name
was
Steve
,
responded
,
“We have staff here,
so
I’m sure one of them will be
glad to take it.” He then shouted
to someone by the door and waved him over. Looking at
them,
I felt like an idiot. I should have
skipped this meet and greet.

             
“Are all
of
your friends waiting for you out
front?” Alex
asked
. His eyes were so intense watching
me,
I felt
uncomfortable and excited at the same time.

             
“No,
I’m
here
alone,
”
I said, not
re
alizing my voice was
soft
and barely above a whisper.

             
“What?”
Steve asked.
“You came to an
Awakening
concert by yourself?”