When Twilight Burns (28 page)

The hackney was parked at the prearranged location, and they made their way back to the vehicle without incident. No sooner had Victoria clambered in and settled in her seat, the door closing firmly behind Sebastian, than Barth started them off with a great leap.

Whether it was by accident or design, she'd never know, but the lurch sent Sebastian onto her side of the vehicle instead of the bench politely across from her. Once gracefully settling into his seat, he turned to face her. His knees bumped gently against her right leg and his arm sidled along the back of the cushion behind her. His glove-less fingers jutted into the long, simple braid she'd tucked into the back of her tunic, his thumb smoothing over the sensitive skin at the nape of her neck.

The carriage was very dark, and there was only the ambiguous illumination from the lantern that swayed at the front of the vehicle. She didn't have the chance to speak, or even to think—for, all at once, Sebastian was there, kissing her.

His kiss was hungry, one that surprised her with its intensity. One moment they were climbing politely into the carriage, and the next, it was a tangle of lips and tongue, and hands that seemed to be everywhere.

Hot and sleek, his mouth covered hers as he held her face steady so he could delve and taste. Warm fingers settled at the base of her jaw, and Victoria raised her chin to gasp for a quick breath before slipping back into the kiss, fighting to keep back the red-edged memories threatening the corner of her mind…the lull of pleasure snapped by the sharp thrust of fangs…the pull of her blood as it coursed through her veins…the bizarre sensation of cold and warm lips against her skin.

She moaned softly, half in horror at the remembering, at the inability to stop it…half with melting pleasure, for this man knew where to touch her.

Battling back the horrific images, she forced herself to explore Sebastian, to remind herself that it was he, and not Beauregard…She wove her fingers desperately through his thick curls, arching up against his hard belly and insistent erection as he straddled her thigh, the edge of the bench slicing into her skin from beneath. His weight pressed gently against her hips, and she moved her hands so they eased up over the smooth muscles of his chest to curl at the top of his shoulders. Wide, strong shoulders beneath the coat, and under the dark linen…smooth, golden skin. Sebastian.

A light brush of hair stroked her cheek when his lips lifted, then fell to trace the curve of her jaw, nibbling and licking. His breath puffed hot and hard against her neck, and Victoria was aware of her own breath rising to meet his as she focused on the moment…the man. The sensations. Not the memories.

Barely aware of the carriage wheels rumbling beneath them, at last she allowed herself to fall into a spiral of urgent, slick kisses and to feel the skim of fresh air over bare skin as her tunic was lifted…warm, sure, possessive hands smoothing on her flesh, exploring and coaxing as she closed her eyes. The sensations mixed and whirled, and the coach seemed small and intimate as he stripped off his coat. She pulled his shirt from the waist of his pantaloons, at last feeling the warmth of flesh and the pull of muscle beneath a light dusting of hair. Her fingers slipped around, rediscovering the unyielding silver of the
vis bulla
that dangled from the hollow of his navel.

Release, relief, pleasure slid through her, loosening her limbs, making her feel liquid and warm. His mouth settled over a breast, bared by the tunic piled over her collarbones. The way his lips closed over her tight nipple, sucking gently and drawing it deep into slick warmth sent her shuddering and shivering on the bench.

He pulled away, settling himself over her, his face close. His linen shirt brushed over the tips of her breasts and she could see, just so, the half smile on his face.

“And so,” he murmured, his mouth close, “it is yet another carriage ride for us.”

She smiled and then gave a little gasp as his hand moved down between them, sliding beneath the band of her trousers. He watched her, his face jolting and swaying with the motion of the hackney as his fingers, sure and firm, found the place they sought. Victoria's breath caught at the first touch, and then she felt herself gathering up, tight and ready, as he stroked and slipped and slid down in the heat.

“Now this,” he said, his voice filled with amusement, “is the perfect way to end a night on the hunt.”

She closed her eyes, fell into the pleasure that surged and opened inside her, pushed away the worries, the memories, the image of dark, angry eyes…She tensed, and reached between them to lift his hand away.

Then there was a sudden lurch and near tip as the carriage barreled around a corner and Sebastian, half on top of her, lost his footing and nearly sprawled on the floor. The unexpected motion brought her back to reality, and when he would have pressed back down against her, she placed her hands on his chest. His heart raced beneath her fingers; she felt it through the linen shirt.

“Sebastian,” she said as he would have bent to her again. “I…it's…I can't.”

He stilled against her, and she felt his chest rising and falling, as though he had to decipher her words. “What?” His voice was…wounded. He didn't sit back, but remained poised next to her, nearly on top of her. “What is it, Victoria? What's changed?” He gave a little laugh; it sounded forced, she thought. “You always made it a bit of a challenge, of course, and it was fun for both of us…but this is…different.”

“I…” She didn't like that she sounded weak, but she knew…she couldn't continue on the path they were going. She was confused, and frightened…and empty. She couldn't banish the image of those black, furious eyes.

Then, suddenly, before she could think of how to respond, Sebastian said something in French, so violent and sharp that she knew it was filthy. He grasped her shoulders now—not in a gentle, loverlike way, but with the need to know. “Beauregard. Was it Beauregard? Did he…touch you?”

Yes, yes, he had…but she remembered few details. She didn't want to remember them, didn't want to know enough to be able to answer his question. Victoria closed her eyes; what had happened with Beauregard had been ugly, horrific…but it wasn't the reason.

It wasn't because of Beauregard that she felt empty and lost.

“My God, you're shaking,” he said softly. “Victoria, I'm sorry.” He gathered her into his arms there on the bench, pressing her face to his chest, and wrapped her tightly. “I didn't know.”

Suddenly, before she could stop it, her emotions burst forth and the tears came. The sobs of worry and angst, of fear and horror…what was happening to her…what had she done…loneliness…sorrow…confusion…

Sebastian held her, let her weep into his shirt until it was sopping. His face pressed into the top of her head, the warmth of his body comforting. The strength of his arms, and the feel of his hands, cupping the back of her head.

He murmured something into her hair, and pressed a soft kiss onto her scalp.

So unlike Sebastian…to be serious, to hold her without wanting more, to be silent.

“What did you say?” she said, pulling away and swiping angrily at her tears.

“I don't have a handkerchief, but I still have your glove,” he said, giving her a rueful smile. “The one I tricked from you at The Silver Chalice.”

She blinked, her eyelids swollen and her nose streaming unattractively. “My glove.”

“I've kept it, and the other one I took later, too. Unfortunately,” he said, his smile wavering in the uncertain light, “they aren't a matched set. I seem to have a penchant for baring your left hand. Among other places.” He brushed the hair from her face. “I'm in love with you. I think I have been ever since you showed me your
vis bulla
in order to find out where the Book of Antwartha was.”

“You tricked me into showing you,” she said. Her mind spun.

“It wasn't a trick…I gave you what you wanted. Even though” —he chucked her lightly under the chin— “you still haven't given me what I want.”

“What is that?”

“Don't you know?”

Her heart thumped madly, and she curled her fingers around his hands, nestled there in her lap. She nodded. “I think I do. But…” She drew in her breath. There were so many things… “I don't know what's going to happen…to me.” Her voice caught, but she forced herself on. “I may not be…myself…much longer.” She couldn't put the thoughts into words.

God, please let me hear from Wayren soon!

“Lilith may be right,” he said, “but she lies well. And either way, Victoria…it would not be the first time I have loved a vampire.”

+ Twenty +

Wherein Lady Melly's Machinations Meet an Unexpected End

Victoria woke late the
next morning with swollen eyes and the remnants of dreams she didn't care to recall.

There was no word from Wayren, and Max had not made an appearance. Sebastian had reluctantly left her at the town house early that morning to return to wherever it was that he was staying.

Kritanu gave her the impression he was aware of Max's whereabouts. But when Victoria broached the subject, she was met with a gentle shake of the head and closed lips.

Well, if Max wouldn't give her the chance to apologize, to explain why she'd been so certain—and that she'd been
right!
—the evening had been a trap meant for her as well as him, so be it. He could sulk and brood and stay away.

Victoria had more important things with which to concern herself. Besides, if Max were around, she'd be forced to confess the whole situation to him, including Lilith's frightening prediction. Which she felt no real need to do.

She hadn't forgotten the fact that he'd been holding a stake, ready to put it to use when she woke up back in the Consilium.

And that was what she kept telling herself, over and over. And over.

Max was out of her life. For good.

He doesn't want anybody.

Instead, she had to face the facts. Her night vision had become much clearer. If Lilith was right, and the vampire blood was taking over inside her…was it something she could fight? Something she could stop? Or was she destined to become undead?

The possibility was simply too horrific to consider. It just couldn't happen.

She wouldn't allow it.

The fact that Wayren hadn't responded to a message sent by pigeon caused Victoria even greater trepidation. Wayren's pigeons were trained to find her anywhere, and always seemed to do so, and to provide a response within twenty-four hours regardless of where she was. Thus Victoria began to fear the wise woman had abandoned her as well.

Late that afternoon she sat grumpy and fidgeting in Lady Melly's parlor, listening to the three cronies discuss the details of George IV's coronation ceremony, which was to be held in a matter of days.

It was no surprise the topic dominated their conversation, for the coronation of the man who'd been known as Prinny, nearly eighteen months after he'd ascended to the throne, was to be the greatest, most expensive and flamboyant crowning of an English king.

“What will you wear, Victoria?” asked Lady Nilly, leaning forward as if in anticipation of some great fashion secret.

“I don't believe I've been invited,” she replied tartly, unconcerned with civility today. “And I do not plan to attend.”

“But of course you have been invited! The only person of Quality in all of the land who is not to attend is the queen herself,” Lady Melly chided her. “And if you stay away, you may be aligned with her in the eyes of the
ton
. That would not be fitting for the Marchioness of Rockley, Victoria, to take the side of Queen Caroline.”

“It is
abominable
that the working and trades cheer that disgusting creature whenever she goes about the City, giving her false support,” Lady Nilly said, her nose raised as if she smelled something objectionable. Perhaps it was the bouquet of daisies on the table near her tea. Victoria had always disliked the smell of the sunny flowers.

“It's only because they despise Prinny—er, His Majesty—that they love her. Or claim they do, which I freely doubt. If any of them got within a king's yard of that smelly sow, they should run the other direction and reexamine their thoughts,” Lady Melly said primly.

“If the woman would wash or change her undergarments, or even comb her hair, perhaps His Majesty would allow her near him…but she does not.” Duchess Winnie's multiple chins trembled, but she was not in danger of being accused of living in a glass house. “It's a simple matter of grooming,” she said, smoothing her perfect skirts pointedly. The duchess, who was also a woman of large proportion, was always supremely clothed and coiffed before she stepped from her chamber. “I vow the queen's goats are better groomed than she.”

The other ladies laughed, and even Victoria couldn't hold back a little smile. The gossip about the queen wasn't completely mean-spirited. The woman had made no friends from the moment she arrived from Germany to wed the man who at the time was the Prince Regent.

Victoria remembered the story of Caroline of Brunswick's first meeting with Prinny, in which the prince had come face to face with the sloppy, putrid woman and said, quite loudly, to the Baron of Malmesbury, “Harris, I do not feel well. Pray get me a glass of brandy.” He'd not ceased drinking for the three days up to and including the wedding. He'd passed out on his wedding night, and Caroline had left him on the floor.

It was no wonder there was enmity between the two.

A knock came at the parlor door, and Lady Melly straightened expectantly. Victoria tightened her fingers around an innocent teacup, knowing that her mother's anticipation could bode no good for her.

But it couldn't be James. He'd been turned into a pile of dust and would no longer be at the mercy of her mother's machinations.