Women on the Home Front (65 page)

‘You don't mind?' Gwen asked anxiously.

‘Of course I do,' said Connie brightly, ‘but if you and Clifford want to do it, who am I to stop you? Don't let your opportunities pass you by, Mum.' Her voice had become thick with emotion as she repeated the very words her mother had said to her when she'd talked about nursing.

Gwen flung her arms around her daughter. ‘Oh, Connie. You're such a wonderful daughter. You don't know what it means to me to have your blessing. I've been dreading telling you.'

As they let each other go, they both had tears in their eyes. ‘I shall miss you,' Connie smiled brokenly.

‘Why don't you come too?' said her mother.

Connie blinked. ‘To Australia?'

‘Why not?'

‘I can't, Mum. My training.'

‘You could enrol over there,' said Gwen, clearly excited by her own suggestion.

Connie shook her head. ‘Mum, I need my SRN.'

‘I wish it didn't have to be this way,' said Gwen, taking a hanky out of her apron pocket and blowing her nose, ‘but Clifford …'

‘I know,' said Connie, drying her own eyes. ‘Clifford is a good man and he wants the best for you both.'

‘There are such wonderful opportunities out there, Connie,' said Gwen. ‘And after what happened to poor Sally … those terrible letters. I can't wait to get away from here.'

‘Is anyone any closer to finding who sent them?'

Gwen shook her head. ‘There are some sick people out there.' She paused. ‘Oh darling, when you've finished your training please come and join us. We'd be settled by then.'

‘When do you plan to go?' Connie was dreading the answer and when it came it was worse than she thought.

‘The middle of September.'

‘September!' Connie cried. ‘So soon?'

‘The assisted passage is only for younger people,' said Gwen. ‘We have to be among the first to go. If we leave it any longer, Clifford will be too old.'

Connie's whole world was crashing down around her ears. ‘What does Ga say?'

‘We haven't told her yet,' said Gwen. ‘I wanted you to know first.'

‘Do you think she will go with you? I mean, she's got the money to pay her fare, hasn't she?'

Her mother's expression darkened. ‘We want to do this on our own.'

‘But what will she do?' Connie cried.

Gwen sipped her tea. ‘Sell up and move into a luxury flat I should imagine. She's never paid us a proper wage the whole time she's lived here, so I imagine she's loaded. She'll land on her feet. She always does.'

‘She kept you and Clifford short as well?' Connie gasped. ‘I thought it was only me.'

Her mother shook her head. ‘I shouldn't have told you really, but it's true. That's why Clifford gets so upset. She won't let him expand. She's stopped him from putting up more glasshouses, and she won't let him sell any of the land. He even suggested using the rough patch at the bottom for static caravans or building a few prefabs to help people with housing. The rent would have supplemented the nurseries but she won't have any of it and although we get by, he wants to be free to do what he wants without having to ask her first.'

By the tone of her mother's voice, Connie finally understood just how difficult it must have been to live with Ga. After she had packed up the WAAFs, Connie had been away from home for so long, that the thought of being forced to live with Ga again was what drove her towards nursing. The only reason she came home on her days off was to see her mother and Mandy. Certainly not Ga.

‘I had no idea it was so bad, Mum.'

Gwen sat next to her daughter and put out her arms. ‘I'm torn, Connie,' she said. ‘I don't want to leave you, but I must go with my husband. He's a good man but he's so unhappy.'

Connie could see that this was going to be a wonderful release for her mother, Clifford and Mandy. They could be a family in their own right at last. It was only the sinking feeling in her own heart that reminded Connie that she would be on her own too.

When she got back to her room in the nurses' home, Connie sat on her bed and stared dejectedly at the wall. She had heard the water running in the bathroom as she came in. Betty's things were on her bed but her dressing gown was gone from the back of the door so she must be in the bath.

Connie's chin quivered and she let her tears fall freely. Everything was going wrong. She knew she was a good nurse but every time Matron was around, she got so flummoxed she did stupid things and now that her mother and her sister were leaving her for good, she felt really depressed. How could she survive without them? And what on earth was she going to do about Kenneth?

On her way in, she'd been to her pigeonhole and collected a letter from Roger. ‘
Thanks for both of your letters,'
he wrote. ‘
I think our letters must have crossed in the post. I've been kept quite busy. It seems that as soon as things get back to normal, someone uncovers another UXB. I reckon we'll be carrying on with the unit for some time to come.'

She didn't know what to do about him either. She liked him. He was a good friend but did she really want more? Not that he'd intimated anything else but friendship of course. She sighed. It was hardly the end of the world but it was one of those moments when you wonder what it's all about.

There was a soft knock on the door and Eva came in. ‘Hello. Had a nice day? I saw the light was on.' Her voice faltered. ‘Connie, whatever's wrong?'

Eva sat on the bed beside her and as soon as she put her arms around Connie's shoulders, she broke down altogether and once she started crying, she couldn't stop. Eva let her do it, plying her with clean handkerchiefs until she was done, and Connie told her everything. Some of it, Eva already knew. She knew about Kenneth and Connie's dilemma about telling her mother, but Connie's run-ins with Matron and the family's move to Australia was news to her.

‘Dear life,' said Eva, ‘you've obviously had one hell of a day.'

‘What am I going to do?' Connie wept.

‘Well,' said Eva blowing out her cheeks, ‘as far as Kenneth goes, I think you should tell your mum. She'll be angry of course but she will hate you forever if you let her go all the way to Australia without seeing him.'

Connie nodded. ‘You're right. I've been so anxious to please him, I haven't really thought about how it would affect Mum. Going to the other side of the world changes everything.' She burst into tears again as Betty came into the bedroom wearing her dressing gown. Her towel was over one shoulder and she was carrying her wash bag. ‘Whatever's wrong?' she gasped.

‘Connie has just discovered her family are moving to Australia,' said Eva.

‘Oh, you poor love,' said Betty sitting on the other side of Connie. She smelled deliciously of Yardley's French Fern bath salts.

‘I don't think I can do this anymore,' said Connie. Deep in her heart she knew she didn't really mean what she was saying but she was hurting so much. She couldn't do anything about Australia, and she knew whatever she decided Mum was going to be upset about Kenneth. Nursing was the one part of her life over which she had complete control.

‘Do what?' said Betty.

‘Be a nurse,' Connie wailed. ‘I'm lousy at it. For some reason, Matron's got it in for me and she gets me in such a state I can't do anything right.'

‘Don't be silly,' said Eva. ‘You can't let the old bat ruin your life.'

‘But she always picks on me, Eva,' said Connie blowing her nose. ‘You remember how I was when she asked me about the Benedict solution. I knew what it was, but she got me in such a panic my mind went a complete blank.'

‘She does that to everyone,' said Eva.

Connie was calming down but she wasn't ready to let go yet. ‘Then there was that day when she found the dust in the room I'd just cleaned …'

‘The old cow has been doing that one for years,' scoffed Betty. ‘She had a pair of white gloves on, right?'

‘Yes,' said Connie slowly.

‘Some of the older girls have told me about it,' said Betty. ‘She makes a big thing of putting on one glove and keeps the other in her hand, right?'

‘What
are
you talking about?' said Eva.

‘And when she comes out of the room,' Betty went on, ‘she's got both gloves on and one of them has a dirty finger. Am I right again?'

The two girls looked at her with blank expressions.

‘That's because she's already blacked it with shoe polish.'

Neither girl spoke.

‘It's a set-up,' cried Betty. ‘There was nothing wrong with the room you cleaned.'

Connie was trying to recall everything that happened and Betty was right. She had searched that room from top to bottom but she'd never found the source of that black smudge. No wonder if it was boot polish!

‘I don't believe it,' gasped Eva. ‘That's an awful thing to do.'

They looked from one to the other and burst out laughing. ‘The crafty old cat!' cried Connie.

Betty got up from the bed. ‘I've got a bottle of sherry in the wardrobe. Fancy something to drink, girls? Connie?'

Connie blew her nose noisily.

‘She's up for it,' said Eva. ‘Is that a letter from Kenneth?'

Connie blushed. ‘From Roger, actually.'

Eva grinned. Betty poured the sherry into the one glass she had stashed in her wardrobe and some more into the lid and a third lot into her tooth mug. Eva got the glass, Connie the tooth mug. Connie sipped slowly. Even though the mug was clean, the sherry still tasted vaguely of toothpaste.

‘Ga always pulls me up on my shortcomings,' said Connie. ‘She was convinced from the start that I'd never make the grade. Do you honestly think I can do it?'

‘Absolutely,' cried Eva. ‘You're a really caring person, Connie. Just the sort of nurse the new NHS will need.'

‘Don't let Matron see that you're getting into a flap,' advised Betty. ‘Find a way to bring her down to size.'

‘She's pretty small if she has to resort to such mean tricks,' said Connie.

‘Atta girl,' said Eva, giving her a hearty pat on the back.

‘Anyway, enough of that,' said Betty. ‘Have I got a juicy bit of gossip for you!'

Connie and Eva looked up.

‘Sister Hayes is leaving,' said Betty. ‘She's pregnant.'

‘But she's not married,' Connie blurted out.

‘Exactly,' said Betty. She puffed up her chest and imitated Sister Hayes as she was on their first day. ‘This hospital has a good reputation for clean living gels with fine upstanding morals. We don't allow men in the nurses' home under any circumstances.' Betty paused for effect and then lifting the lid of the sherry bottle to her lips added, ‘Sound advice if you don't want to get in the family way, gels.'

And all three of them roared with laughter.

It was supper time and Matron made a surprise visit to the women's ward. ‘We are short of nurses in the special clinic,' she announced to Sister Wayland.

‘We don't usually send the students,' Sister reminded her. ‘Dr Saunders prefers the older nurses.'

‘Needs must, when the devil drives,' Matron said coldly. ‘Who have you got on duty?'

Sister Wayland read out the names on the duty roster.

‘Give me Nurse Dixon,' said Matron.

Connie put Mrs Meyer's meal on the locker and with an apology left her chewing a morsel of fish. Mrs Meyer had little appetite these days and she knew she hadn't got long to live. It had taken a while to trace her daughter who lived in Kenya but she was now on her way. They'd told Mrs Meyer she was coming, and somehow it kept the old lady going. As Connie did her best to encourage her to eat a little more she couldn't help wondering how she would feel if her mother was taken ill when she was twelve thousand miles away. She could only hope and pray that Mrs Meyer's daughter got here in time to say her last goodbye.

‘You will report to the special clinic,' said Matron. ‘Have you any objections to that?'

Connie shook her head. ‘No, Matron.' What was the special clinic? Connie was dying to ask but she couldn't bring herself to say the words. Matron turned and walked away. A couple of seconds later, she came sailing back down the ward, her mouth looking as tight as a cat's bottom. She was holding up a stocking. Connie braced herself.

‘What's the meaning of this?'

Connie stared at her blankly. ‘I don't know, Matron.'

‘I found it attached to the cupboard door,' said Matron. ‘You have just come from that cupboard, haven't you?'

‘I needed to get Mrs Meyer a new gown,' said Connie.

‘Don't answer back,' Matron snapped.

Connie thought about protesting but what was the point? The woman had already made up her mind Connie was responsible for putting the stocking there and nothing would change it. ‘No, Matron.'

There was a loud bang and Sister came running. ‘Who has been messing around with the cupboard door again? I thought I told …' The words died on her lips as she saw Matron. ‘Excuse me, Matron. I thought you'd gone.'

Matron puffed out her chest. ‘I had until I saw what this stupid nurse had done.'

She threw the stocking in Connie's face and turned on her heel saying, ‘Please remember that this is a hospital ward, nurse, not a changing room.' And with that she swept out.

There was another loud bang. Sister bent to pick up the stocking. ‘Someone spilled some cleaning fluid on the floor,' she said. ‘I kept the door open with the stocking to assist the drying. If it's not tied back, it bangs all the time.'

Biting back her tears, Connie returned to her patient. ‘I'm sorry, Mrs Meyer, but I have to go. I am needed elsewhere. I'll get Nurse Frances to help you.'