She
was
alive; screw what McCallister had said. This was all bullshit, and they were just trying to scare her. She’d blacked out when Freddy had been suffocating her with the bag; that was all—someone had gotten it off of her in time, and she’d been unconscious for a while, but she was okay now. Nothing weird about any of it.
In fact, she was no longer sure she’d even seen what she thought she had. Mrs. Jones had probably just been a junkie, sick with need. And the body in the bag … No, that had just been a decomposing murder victim, nothing special about it. It hadn’t moved. It hadn‘t.
It couldn‘t.
Bryn flexed her hand, staring down at it. Same smooth skin. Same fingernails, topped with the same chipped pearl-pink polish. Same flexors and extensors and muscles and bones. Same scar, there on the wrist, where she’d caught a piece of flying shrapnel from an IED. The only scar she’d brought back from the war.
Not dead.
There was a camera in the corner of the room, and Bryn stood and faced it, head raised. She felt cold, but defiant. “McCallister,” she said. “I’m not dead. I’m not. So you can stop all this crap; I’m not buying it, all right? Just let me go. I’ll sign whatever forms you want. Nondisclosure. Whatever.”
No answer. And the camera never blinked.
She found plain but serviceable clothing in the cabinet, neatly folded—they’d included a shirt, pants, socks, even underwear in her sizes. Bryn took everything into the bathroom to change, and as soon as the stiff, new fabrics slid over her skin, she felt better. More in control, even though she knew that was an illusion.
The room was small, and it got smaller the more she paced, arms folded, stopping to glare at the camera. She didn’t speak again. There didn’t seem to be any point.
Twenty-four hours
, he’d said. It was all nonsense, but still, she couldn’t help but wonder how much time had passed. Hours. Was he going to just keep her here the whole time, with not even the courtesy of a meal? Was this psychological warfare?
Well, she wasn’t worried. She could outlast some soft corporate drone, and if they wanted to do any serious psychological damage they should have left her naked, not given her perfectly fine new clothes and shoes. (The shoes were, she had to admit, actually nicer than what she’d been wearing with her suit. Although she missed the pink blouse.)
They’d taken her watch and, of course, her cell phone. Nothing to read, watch, fiddle with, or do. She methodically explored the cabinets and drawers, finding nothing that could help, and set the water dripping in a rhythm as close as she could get to one second per drop. She set the plastic cup under the tap and occupied herself marking off minutes, then five minutes, then ten, thirty, an hour.
Voilà. Instant water clock.
She was two hours into the exercise when she heard a harsh buzzing sound from the other room, and left the clock to see the door swinging inward.
Rush him
, some instinct said, so Bryn moved toward the exit, fast.
She skidded to a stop when Joe Fideli pointed a gun at her. He shrugged apologetically, but there was nothing but business in his blue eyes. “Sorry, Miss Davis,” he said.
“We’re back to Miss Davis, Joe?”
“Bryn. Sit down on the bed, please. No crazy stuff.”
She backed up and sat, well aware of the disadvantage at which he’d placed her. The hospital bed was high, and her feet dangled off the ground. No leverage for any sudden moves.
Bryn folded her hands and tried to seem as inoffensive as possible. He’d already mentioned how young she looked; that was an asset in a situation like this. One she hated to use, but still, she wasn’t exactly awash in options here.
Joe settled comfortably against the wall, still holding the gun steady on her. “Pat,” he said, “we’re good here.”
It bothered her how careful they were, because even then, Patrick McCallister surveyed the whole room before entering. Like Fideli, she was sure he’d had some kind of military-style training. Mercenary, if not traditional. He was way too good at checking corners.
He also secured the door, closing off her line of escape, before dragging over a chair and sitting down across from her. He did not, Bryn noted, block Fideli’s line of fire.
Close up, without the adrenaline and fear to blur her focus, she was able to spot some interesting things about Mr. McCallister. First, the suit he was wearing wasn’t just any off-the-rack thing; it was tailored, and silk, and every bit as nice as what the late Mr. Lincoln Fairview had worn to work. McCallister looked tired, as if he’d missed a night’s sleep, but he was handsomer than she remembered. She’d missed how warm his dark eyes seemed, for one thing.
“Miss Davis,” he said. “How do you feel?”
“Not like I’m dead.”
“You think I’m lying to you.”
“Obviously. You have to be.”
He shook his head slowly, and leaned back in the hard-backed aluminum chair. “Joe,” he said, “show her the video.”
There was a flat-panel TV set flush into the wall, and well out of Bryn’s reach; Fideli pulled a remote control out of his pocket and punched some buttons. Cue music and intro titles, and a logo that resolved into the words
Pharmadene Pharmaceuticals
. It all looked very polished and corporate. High production values.
But what followed was cold and clinical. There was a corpse lying on a morgue table, clearly and obviously dead; the skin was chilly blue, and still smoking a little from being removed from the refrigerator. The eyes were closed. It was a man, nothing special about him except that he was dead, probably from the two black-edged bullet holes in his chest.
Enter a medical team, hooking him up to monitors that read exactly nothing. No heartbeat, no respiration, nothing.
And then the injection.
It took long minutes, but then Bryn saw a convulsive shudder rip through the body, saw the ice blue eyelids quiver, saw the mouth gape open, and heard …
Heard the scream.
She knew that scream. She’d felt it rip out of her own mouth, an uncontrollable torrent of sound and agony and horror and fear. It was the lost wail of a newborn, only in an adult’s voice.
The corpse’s filmed eyes opened, blinked, and the film began to slowly fade. The skin slowly shifted colors from that unmistakable ashy tone to something less … dead.
And the bullet holes began to knit closed—but not before bright red blood trickled out and began running down the heaving, breathing chest.
The monitors kick-started into beeps. Heart rate. Oxygen saturation. Blood pressure.
Life.
He stopped screaming and looked at the doctors. His voice, when it came, sounded hoarse and dry. “Did it work?”
Nobody answered him. They were all busily noting details, murmuring instructions, taking samples.
It was like the living man, where the corpse had been, didn’t exist at all except as a clinical miracle.
Bryn felt a horrible chill inside, but she put on a brave face. “Nice special effects. Really nice—”
She would have gone on, but another video started, brutally fast.
That was
her
. Ash gray, lying dead in a hospital bed. Her eyes were swollen and bloodshot and blank, pupils completely blown. She’d bitten her lip, and blood had dried on her face. Her head lolled limp on the pillow. They cut away her clothing, reducing her to just another shell, another dead thing, pitiful and cold and naked, and Bryn couldn’t move, couldn’t do
anything
, not even demand for them to stop the video.
Fideli wasn’t watching it. He and McCallister were watching
her
. She was peripherally aware of that, but she couldn’t tear her horrified gaze away.
“Right, give her the full dose,” said the crisp voice of a doctor in the video. “Start the clock … now.”
It took long, torturous minutes, and then … then … Bryn’s body stirred. Gasped. Spasmed.
But there was nothing else.
“Vital reactions,” the doctor said. “Note the time in the log, please.”
A nurse spread a sheet over her naked body. They seemed to be waiting for something, and Bryn realized that the video-Bryn hadn’t opened her eyes, or taken another breath after that first, convulsive one.
The doctor glanced up at a clock on the wall. “She’s not responding. I’m going to have to call it.”
“Wait.” In the video, Joe Fideli moved out of the shadows and put his hand on her face. “Come back,” he said. “C’mon, Bryn, don’t do this. Come on back. Come back.”
He slapped her, a stinging blow, and Bryn saw her blank eyes finally blink, slowly.
And then she screamed.
The same scream.
Fideli held her hand through the rest of it. Bryn didn’t listen, couldn’t over the rush of blood in her ears. She felt dizzy and sick and very, very strange.
She looked at Fideli, who shifted his gaze away. Then she moved her mute stare to McCallister, the cool corporate drone, who leaned forward and took her hand in his. Squeezed, silently, and waited until the video finally ended.
Fideli shut the TV off. In the silence, Bryn heard some rational voice in her head screaming,
It’s fake; it’s all fake, special effects. This isn’t happening; this can’t be happening.
The only problem was that she knew it
was
happening. She’d seen, and she finally, horribly,
believed
.
She looked up at Patrick McCallister’s face and saw emotion there, quickly hidden. Pity, maybe.
He was still holding her hand. He’d been holding it through the whole ordeal, though she’d forgotten he was even there.
“Joe,” he said, “I don’t think we need the gun anymore.”
Fideli put it away without a word. Bryn realized that she really ought to say something,
do
something, but for the moment, all she could think of was to sit very still, holding to the warm anchor of another human being. She felt like all the world around her had turned into a black, sucking whirlpool, and she was afraid that if she let go, even for a second, she’d drown.
Go back to … that. That empty ashen thing on the hospital bed.
Oh, she believed, all right. And it terrified her.
“What did you do to me?” she whispered. She was staring right into McCallister’s eyes now, looking for that spark of connection again, but it wasn’t there. He’d shut down. Maybe he had to, to deal with the emotion pouring out of her just now. She’d never felt so scared, or so alone. So
empty
.
“There’s good news,” he said, in a soothing, quiet voice that unpleasantly reminded her of Lincoln Fairview, with his nice suit and cultured palate and nasty lies. “You need a daily shot, but apart from that one thing, you’re in the best shape you’ll ever be in. No sickness, no aging. You won’t change, because the nanites returned you to a template of what you were just at the cessation of life, and holds you there.”
“I’m dying. I’m
dead
.”
“You’re dying less than the rest of us,” he said. “You’re …
on hold
would be a good description. And there are positives, believe me.”
“Positives!”
She couldn’t control the bitter, shaky laugh that burst out of her, and put her hand to her mouth to muffle it. “God.”
He didn’t tell her it was okay after that. He just let her sit and think for a while.
Finally, she wet her lips and said, “How in the hell does a company set out to create … this?”
“They didn’t,” he said. “Returné was an accident, a side effect of an experimental drug for the treatment of cancer. It would have won Mercer and Sams the Nobel Prize, if it had worked the way they thought. Or if they could ever actually talk about it again, but of course now it’s highly classified.”
That made her laugh again, but it wasn’t a laugh she recognized. It sounded wild and ugly, and very not-Bryn. Of course, she wasn’t Bryn anymore, was she? The Bryn from yesterday, that girl had her whole life ahead of her. A career, love, a family—those were the things she’d wanted. And she was gone.
So who was
this
Bryn? No, not who.
What
was this Bryn?
She wasn’t a person anymore. She felt like one and she looked like one, but what he’d just shown her had stripped that away.
She was an animated, breathing mimicry of life.
“Bryn,” he said, and drew her attention again. She hadn’t even realized it had wandered. “Bryn, please listen to me. You’re in the danger zone right now. It’s not just that your body has to survive;
you
need to survive along with it. If you withdraw, if you go catatonic, I can’t help you. Stay with me.”
Bryn pulled in a deep breath. “Do I have a choice?”
“Always. But I’d rather you didn’t pick the other option,” McCallister said.
“Decomposing?”
He ignored that, didn’t blink, kept his focus straight on her. “I have a proposition for you.”
She laughed again. Still not a nice laugh. “They lock you up in this state for necrophilia.”
“
Bryn
. Listen to me, because what I have to say is vital to your continued existence. Pharmadene wanted answers out of you, and I wasn’t able to get them. But together, we can offer the company something else. Something better, possibly.”
She didn’t answer, because there didn’t seem to be much point. He was talking, but she didn’t understand what he was getting at. Not at all.
They were never going to let her out of this room. Her water clock was going to fill up and spill over and she was going to sit here and rot. Literally. She imagined that it was going to hurt.
“Bryn.”
“I’m listening,” she said. She didn’t want to, but she couldn’t seem to block out his voice. Her own sounded remote and odd, disconnected from the rest of her, but it seemed to reassure him.
“I’m going to put you back in Fairview Mortuary.”