You Can Die Trying
You Can Die Trying
Gar Anthony Haywood
Open Road Integrated Media Ebook
For My Sister,
SHANNON MARIE
The Best Friend
a Big Brother Ever Had
Detectives from the Los Angeles Police Department, Hollywood Division, found out later that the loser who had inspired Jack McGovern to blow a four-inch hole in the back of his own head was a twenty-eight-year-old ex-con named Perry Timmons, though Timmons had been careful not to drop his name over the phone.
It happened that Timmons had a rap sheet as long as a small telephone directory, but he was no murderer; he had only one weapons-related arrest to his credit, and that was for attempting to resell an unregistered handgun someone had given him in trade for a little homegrown grass over four years ago. What Timmons was was a thief, bold and brazen but utterly harmless, and only someone with an overactive imagination would have failed to recognize the fact. Knowing the cops as well as he did, however, the black man had nevertheless taken the precaution of calling 911 within an hour of McGovern’s death because he didn’t want any misunderstanding: He hadn’t
touched
the motherfucker.
They weren’t going to believe him for a minute, he knew—no matter how innocuous his record made him seem—but he wanted his account of the way in which McGovern had died on the record all the same, early, so that no one could say later that he was just making it up as he went along. He would tell them now, as he would no doubt have to tell them later, that he hadn’t killed
anybody
over one lousy little four-inch-screen TV.
Least of all an old demon of an ex-cop whose face he had remembered from the newspapers.
After asking his name a half-dozen times, as if he didn’t know what
fuck
you meant, the desk sergeant on the other end of the line asked Timmons to repeat himself, not surprising the black man in the least.
“Shit,” Timmons said impatiently, “you heard what I said. Man put the gun in his own mouth and pulled the trigger. I wasn’t nowhere near ’im, I swear to God.”
“What man is this? Where?”
Timmons took a deep breath, gathering his rapidly diminishing resolve, and said, “Old dude watchin’ the loadin’ dock at the store. The guard.
“Can you give me a name and a location of the store you’re referring to, sir?”
“Look, officer—don’t fuck with me, all right? The shit went down an hour ago, you know what goddamn store I’m talkin’ about! You motherfuckers gotta be crawlin’ all over the place by now!”
“This is a big city, sir. We’re crawling all over a lot of places tonight,” the cop said evenly, ever the consummate professional.
Timmons sighed, feeling more and more stupid for what he was doing by the minute. “I’m talkin’ ’bout the Circuit City store, all right? You followin’ me now? One over on Sunset, up by Temple. I ain’t gotta tell you that’s in Hollywood, do I? I told the fuckin’ operator I wanted Hollywood.”
Timmons could hear the desk sergeant lay the phone down to toss some hurried instructions over his shoulder, and he knew right then he’d fucked up, going out of his way to offer the police an alibi for a crime they hadn’t even been aware of until this moment. Within minutes, he knew, a black-and-white would arrive on the scene at Sunset and Temple and the cops would start drawing their own conclusions about what had happened there an hour ago. Conclusions he had to dispel right here and now if he didn’t want to end up either a ninety-nine-year-old cripple back in Chino or a twenty-eight-year-old stiff in the county morgue, which was where all the cop-killers he had ever known had eventually wound up.
“Why don’t you tell me what happened, sir?” the policeman asked, getting back on the line only a split second before Timmons could act on the urge he was fighting to hang up and make a run for it.
“I told you. I didn’t kill the man,” Timmons said flatly. “I took a goddamn hundred-dollar TV, man, that’s all.”
“You were burglarizing the store?”
“That’s right.”
“Go on.”
“Go on what? The motherfucker put his gun in his mouth and blew his head off! How many times I gotta say that?”
“He killed himself.”
“That’s right. He killed himself.”
“Why would he do something like that?”
It was the same question Timmons had been asking himself, over and over again, since it had happened. He let his eyes glaze over with the memory and said, “I don’t know why he did it. Cat must’a been crazy. I come out the back door and there he is, standing there waitin’ for me. His piece was pointed right at my head, and … I didn’t even know the goddamn store had a guard, he must’a been out the car, sleepin’ or somethin’.…”
“Go on.”
“He didn’t say nothin’. I kept waitin’ for him to say somethin’, like freeze motherfucker, or kiss your black ass good-bye, nigger. You know, somethin’ like that. But he never did. He never said shit. He just … stood there lookin’ at me. He got this funny look on his face and … it happened so fast, man! … he put the gun in his mouth and pulled the trigger, bam! Blew the back of his fuckin’ head off! Goddamndest thing I ever seen!”
Timmons was suddenly shaking like a scared kitten, and it wasn’t because he was standing out in the open night air of lnglewood using a kiosklike pay phone that did nothing to shield him from the elements. He was seeing the old guard’s head come apart again, the blood and bone jettisoning off in a wide, erratic spray behind him, and the vision ran a chill down the length of Timmons’s spine as sharp as a surgeon’s scalpel and just as hard-metal cold.
That was when he hung up the phone.
He wasn’t going to tell them the rest, no way. He had said too fucking much already. They were going to find out soon enough who the crazy old bastard had been—what he had been—and Timmons understood that that was when the shit was really going to hit the fan. They’d come for him in earnest, then, once they’d seen the old guy’s face and recognized it, just as Timmons had.
Nothing could bring the heat down on a black man’s head faster than a dead cop, former or otherwise, and Timmons knew it.
He walked three blocks before he actually started running, because he knew once he did, he wasn’t going to be able to stop.
When they finally picked Timmons up two days later, as he had known damn good and well they would, sooner or later, he was amazed by the LAPD’s relative courtesy toward him. It was not at all what he had been expecting. From the pair of blank-faced uniforms who had stumbled upon him in MacArthur Park down in the Wilshire district, thinking they were just rousting another homeless bum trying to catch a little shut-eye on a public bench, to the plainclothes detectives working Hollywood homicide who interviewed him at the station later that same day, the cops had treated him with uncommon respect, and he didn’t know what to make of it. They raised their voices from time to time to make a point, as all cops did, but they never came on with any of the rough stuff he had braced himself to suffer, short of an earnest shove here and an emphatic push there. Even their questions were halfway polite.
It took Timmons a while to catch on, but in time he came to realize what, exactly, was going on.
They believed him.
They had believed him almost from the very beginning. His account of the Circuit City security guard’s death was bizarre, to say the least, but nothing about the physical evidence at the scene seemed to contradict it. And when the dead guard turned out to be Jack McGovern, it all made a perverse kind of sense. Because the last time the forty-seven-year-old ex-cop had drawn a gun on someone of Timmons’s ethnic persuasion, it had cost him nothing less than everything he had.
Once the cops realized this, Timmons was basically in the clear. By the time a thumbprint on the Hollywood Circuit City’s loading dock door had identified the man they were looking for as Timmons, they had pretty much made up their minds that the story he had told over the phone the night of McGovern’s death had been a fairly accurate one. His instrumental role in the ex-cop’s suicide didn’t win him any friends on the department, and he was going to have to do a little time, at least, for the Circuit City burglary, but no one was going to mistake him for a murderer. He was a thief, that was all he had ever been and all he was ever likely to be, and he was fortunate in that the homicide detectives working the McGovern case were bright enough to understand that.
Just as they were bright enough to know that McGovern had been dead long before he had actually blown his own brains out, in any case. Someone had killed him, all right, but it hadn’t been Perry Timmons. A man named Dennis Bowden had done McGovern in a good eight months before, and every cop pulling down an LAPD paycheck knew it. Bowden was a cop-killer, plain and simple, but it was highly unlikely that he would ever hear such an outrageous accusation made to his face.
For Chief Bowden was, after all, the biggest and baddest LAPD cop of them all.
1
He was working on the back door. He had little more than a crescent moon overhead to rely on for light, and the tools he was using had not yet made peace with his hands. He was making a lot of noise, picking and scratching on the tumblers of the lock, and he knew he was running out of time.
“Goddamnit,” Aaron Gunner said irritably.
He shot a quick glance at his watch, but its face was just a mottled shadow in the darkness on the porch. The windows of the little duplex were still pitch black, but he feared they wouldn’t be for long. A pair of dogs had broken into a heated debate a mere three yards away, and they were making enough racket to raise the dead. It was getting more and more difficult to concentrate.
A sharp clicking sound gave him reason to hope he had solved the lock’s riddle, but the tumblers still refused to turn. He dropped the tool in his right hand clumsily—a wicked sliver of metal with a sickle-shaped tip—cursed again as he retrieved it, and was attempting to reinsert it into the lock when the door swung open before him and someone on the other side of the threshold pressed the barrel of a pistol into his right eye, nearly blinding him.
“Why don’t you come on in and make yourself comfortable,” the big man with the gun said, stepping gingerly out onto the porch.
He was grinning, infinitely proud of himself. He was a dark-skinned black man with a head full of yellow hair and a face as square as a cinder block. He was taller than Gunner, by at least three inches, and that put him somewhere in the neighborhood of six foot six or six foot seven. He looked like a bank vault walking. It was nearly midnight, but he didn’t seem to know it; he was still fully clothed and his eyes were bright, not at all indicative of a man who had just been stirred from sleep by a prowler at his back door.
Gunner came up slowly from the crouch he’d been found in and held his hands out and away from his sides, dropping the tools he’d been using on the lock without having to be told to do so, but the big man wasn’t impressed. He kept the nose of his revolver right where it was, up against the soft flesh of Gunner’s right eyelid, apparently as unwilling to speak as he was to move.
“The gun’s a nice touch,” Gunner said.
“Yeah. I thought you might think so.”
“There wouldn’t actually be any bullets in it, I hope.”
“Bullets? I don’t know, partner. Let’s see.…”
He cocked the hammer back on the gun and Gunner slapped it away from his face with his right hand, stepping quickly aside. The big man stumbled backward and broke out laughing, tickled by Gunner’s reaction.
“You’re not a funny man, Fetch,” Gunner said, watching the big man fall all over himself at Gunner’s expense. “Don’t ever let anyone tell you that you are.”
“Ain’t no bullets in the fuckin’ gun, man,” Fetch Bennett said, holding the revolver forward for Gunner to inspect. “Check it out.”
Gunner snatched the gun out of the big man’s hand and said, “Kiss my ass,” before walking past him into the house. He turned the lights on in his kitchen and immediately went to the refrigerator, setting Bennett’s revolver on top of the box in order to withdraw a pair of cold beers. He sat down in a chair at the kitchen table and Bennett finally stepped inside the house to join him.