Authors: Fionnuala Kearney

You, Me and Other People (28 page)

Epilogue

The walk from the apartment on East 77th Street to Midtown West 53rd only takes about twenty-five minutes, but I hail a cab. The humid heat of mid-July is stifling and a cab ride means I arrive without my shirt stuck to me. Five minutes of midtown traffic later, I enter through the glass doors of the Museum of Modern Art and make my way up to the Monet exhibition, with the three-panelled oil-on-canvas displays. I sit on the middle bench. It’s the one I feel affords the best view of all three canvases at once. The bench can seat three or four people, and there have been times when I’ve had to share it, when someone else comes into the room and decides that yes, the best view really is from here. They sit next to me and I try not to resent them being here. Here in my space that, despite it being memorialized in film, I call my own.

Today, I’m alone. I’m happy to drink in the quiet. I remove my mobile from my jacket pocket, thumb her number and wait. I’ve taken to calling her from here at the same time every third Saturday, 11.30 New York time, 16.30 GMT. She doesn’t, of course, know where I call her from.

She answers with a happy, ‘Hi.’ She’s out of breath, like she’s been running. We chat, about Meg, about work, about her upcoming trip to LA. I joke that since we’ll be on the same landmass, maybe we should try and meet up. She laughs it off, tells me it would be easier for me to come back to London for a visit. I don’t push it, since I already know she’s taking Jon to LA with her. The gospel according to Meg …

She asks me if I’ve seen the movie yet. I tell her yes, of course. I don’t tell her I’ve seen it twice. As I’m talking, my eyes are glued to the lily pads. I swear they’re moving in the gentle sway of Monet’s pond. I swear that in the colours of the picture, the greens, the blues, the lilac hues, I somehow see her face.

She’s laughing at something, brings me back to the moment, and I realize she’s talking about Sybil, who has finally started her counselling course. Beth tells me she’s driving her mad with her own brand of analysis. I can’t help smiling – I love the sound of Beth’s laugh. It’s something I miss terribly.

Someone comes to sit beside me, almost hovers on the edge of the bench, like he’s sensitive to personal space. An older man, he removes a small notebook and pen from a linen jacket. My cue to look at my watch and leave. We have been talking for over fifteen minutes and now I’m late. I make my way to Terrace 5, hoping there’ll be an air-conditioned table free inside, rather than outside, where I would probably shrivel in today’s heat. Beth is still in full flow telling me Karen, now six months pregnant, is ‘as big as a house’ and Ben is walking around like the cat that got the cream.

I enter the restaurant and immediately she waves at me. I stop walking, wave back, and hold five fingers up so she knows I’ll still be a few minutes.

‘How are you anyway?’ Beth asks. ‘Come on, you’ve been months over there and I’ve never pried before. What’s happening?’

I know she’s asking if I’m alone, if there’s anyone in my life.

‘Funny you should ask,’ I say to Beth. ‘There is this woman …’

Acknowledgements

This book is now a real thing; something that I can hold in my hand, with pages and a spine I can run my finger along and my name on the front and … It is only real because I’ve been helped along the way by so many people and a lot of good fortune.

I have to thank my family, which firstly means my six mad siblings, and all my in-laws. You are, probably without exception, a little bit bonkers and I love you all. A special thanks to Annie, who has listened while I doubted and read more than a few versions of YM&OP. To my mother, thank you for sending me a book in the post years ago with a note attached saying, ‘You could do this, you know.’ You were right, Mum, and thank you for always having faith. To my Dad, alas no longer here with us, thank you for the writer’s DNA. I hold your handwritten ‘scribbles’ dear to me and am sorry that you were always a frustrated writer in a corporate world. I promise to try and live the dream for you.

To my friends – where would I be without you? I’ve been blessed over the years with many true, original, loyal and funny friends. Too many to mention here individually, but you know who you are, whether I’ve shared food and wine or tears or all three with you. A big thank you to you all, especially Mary and Steph, always there …

My world now has a wealth of writer friends that years ago I would never have dreamed possible. A big hello and thank you to all my friends on Twitter and Facebook. God, how I love procrastinating with you all! Long live the internet! When I first started writing, years ago, I joined an online forum (
www.writewords.org.uk
) filled with lots of other hopeful novices like me, which provides an environment where writers of all levels could share their work for critique. There, I met so many lovely people who, despite my husband’s initial concerns, did not turn out to be ‘dribbling weirdos’ but lovely, lovely people who to this day are firm friends. Thank you to anyone I met along the way there, like Jacqui C Ward (brilliant beta reader, and so on the button with her critique and ideas), Clodagh Murphy, Essie Fox and Caroline Green. A big “Yay”, as she would say, is sent to Keris Stainton who took a group of us to our own forum, ‘We Should Be Writing’. I’m grateful to you all, girls.

Huge cries of emotional, heartfelt thanks go to writer pals Claire Allan and Anstey Spraggan. Claire, you have been a mentor and friend. You were the first one to say, “You can write, girl”, and you’ve been the one to kick my sorry ass when I was ready to give up SO many times. You have always encouraged and believed and for that I’m just so enormously grateful. An accomplished writer, working journalist and Mammy to two – I don’t know how you do it and am in awe … Anstey, what fun-filled, fear-filled and nerve-wracking times we’ve shared! Racing each other to finish novels, critiquing and encouraging each other along the way. Thank you, friend, for being there every step of the way and for introducing me to the mad Moniack Mhor writers. Time with you and the ‘Maniacks’ has helped me learn so much and not just how to drink wine … Thank you guys and gals.

Anyone who has struggled to have a novel published will know it’s almost impossible to tread the traditional route without an agent. And mine is one in a million. Maddy, you’re more than an agent. You’ve become a friend and someone I hope to always have in my life. Your championing of my writing and hard work on my behalf has fuelled my confidence and together we can make great things happen. Thank you so much to you, and Cara too, for everything you do.

To the editorial team and everyone else behind the scenes who made this book happen at HarperCollins, a huge thank you. A special thanks to Kim Young – since that first meeting we had, I’ve known that you’re in my corner – and to Claire Bord, Penny Isaac and Charlotte Brabbin
who, between them all, helped YM&OP become the book it is today. Thank you for guiding this sometimes confused author through the process.

And finally, to my own family. Kate and Jane, you are my inspiration. Both now wonderful young women, there’s not a day that goes by where I’m not grateful for the fact that, somehow, you chose me to be your Mummy. I love you both all the way to the moon and back and beyond and back again. Thanks to Chris and to our darling Esme, who makes me laugh and want to squidge her tight every single day.

And Aidan. My man. My soul-mate. This book could never have happened without your incredible, never-ending faith, love and support. Thank you, I love you forever.

About the Author

Fionnuala Kearney lives in Ascot with her husband. They have two grown-up daughters (both with deliberately simple, monosyllabic names). One of seven children, Fionnuala likes to write about the nuances and subtle layers of human relationships, peeling them away to see what’s really going on beneath.
You, Me and Other People
is her first novel.

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