A Maze of Death (24 page)

He placed his hand on the emergency release-lock of a nearby hatch vent. All I have to do, he said to himself, is move this thing counterclockwise.

He stood there, holding onto the release-lock, but doing nothing. What he intended to do had made him frozen, as if time had stopped. And everything around him looked two-dimensional.

A figure, coming down the corridor from the rear of the ship, approached him. Bearded, with flowing, pale robes. A man, youthful and erect, with a pure, shining face.

“Walker,” Seth Morley said.

“No,” the figure said. “I am not the Walker-on-Earth. I am the Intercessor.”

“But we invented you! We and T.E.N.C.H. 889B.”

The Intercessor said, “I am here to take you away. Where would you like to go, Seth Morley? What would you like to be?”

“An illusion, you mean?” he said. “Like our polyencephalic worlds?”

“No,” the Intercessor said, “You will be free; you will die and be reborn. I will guide you to what you want, and to what is fitting and proper for you. Tell me what it is.”

“You don’t want me to kill the others,” Seth Morley said, with abrupt comprehension. “By opening the vents.”

The Intercessor inclined his head in a nod. “It is for each of them to decide. You may decide only for yourself.”

“I’d like to be a desert plant,” Seth Morley said. “That could see the sun all day. I want to be growing. Perhaps a cactus on some warm world. Where no one will bother me.”

“Agreed.”

“And sleep,” Seth Morley said. “I want to be asleep but still aware of the sun and of myself.”

“That is the way with plants,” the Intercessor said. “They sleep. And yet they know themselves to exist. Very well.” He held out his hand to Seth Morley. “Come along.”

Reaching, Seth Morley touched the Intercessor’s extended hand. Strong fingers closed around his own hand. He felt happy. He had never before been so glad.

“You will live and sleep for a thousand years,” the Intercessor said, and guided him away from where he stood, into the stars.

Mary Morley, stricken, said to Captain Belsnor, “Captain, I can’t find my husband.” She felt wet slow tears make their way down her cheeks. “He’s gone,” she said, in a half-wail.

“You mean he isn’t on the ship anymore?” Belsnor said. “How could he get out without opening one of the hatches?
They’re the only way out of here, and if he opened one of the hatches our internal atmosphere would cease; we’d all be dead.”

“I know that,” she said.

“Then he still must be on the ship. We can search for him after we have our next polyencephalic world plotted out.”

“Now,” she said fiercely. “Look for him
now”

“I can’t,” Belsnor said.

Turning, she started away from him.

“Come back. You have to help.”

“I’m not coming back,” she said. She continued on, down the narrow corridor, into the galley. I think he was here last, she said to herself. I still sense him here, in the galley, where he spends so much of his time.

Huddled in the cramped little galley she heard their voices dim, gradually and slowly, into silence. They’ve gone into polyencephalic fusion again, she realized. Without me, this time. I hope they’re happy now. This is the first time I haven’t gone with them, she thought. I’ve missed out. What should I do? she asked herself. Where should I go?

Alone, she realized. Seth’s gone; they’re gone. And I can’t make it by myself.

By degrees she crept back into the control cabin of the ship.

There they lay, in their individual cubicles, the many-wired cylinders covering their heads. All cylinders were in use except for hers … and for Seth’s. She stood there, trembling with hesitation. What did they feed into the computer this time? she wondered. What are the premises, and what has T.E.N.C.H. 889B deduced from that?

What is the next world going to be like?

She examined the faintly-humming computer … but, of all of them, only Glen Belsnor really knew how to operate it. They had of course used it, but she could not decipher the settings. The coded output baffled her, too; she remained by the computer, holding the punched tape in her hands … and then, with effort, made up her mind. It
must
be a reasonably
good place, she told herself. We’ve built up so much skill, so much experience; it’s not like the nightmare worlds we found ourselves in at first.

True, the homicidal element, the hostility, had grown. But the killings were not real. They were as illusory as killings in a dream.

And how easily they had taken place. How easy it had been for her to kill Susie Smart.

She lay down on the cot which belonged to her, anchored within her own particular cubicle, plugged in the life-protek mechanism, and then, with relief, placed the cylinder over her head and shoulders. Its modulated hummm sounded faintly in her ears: a reassuring noise and one which she had heard so many times in the past, over the long and weary years.

Darkness covered her; she breathed it into herself, accepting it, demanding it … the darkness took over and, presently, she realized that it was night. She yearned, then, for daylight. For the world to be exposed—the new world which she could not yet see.

Who am I? she asked herself. Already it had become unclear in her mind. The Persus 9, the loss of Seth, their empty, trapped lives—all these faded from her like a burden released. She thought only of the daylight ahead; lifting her wrist to her face she tried to read her watch. But it was not running. And she could not see.

She could make out stars, now, patterns of light interladen with drifts of nocturnal fog.

“Mrs. Morley,” a fussy male voice said.

She opened her eyes, fully awake. Fred Gossim, Tekel Upharsin Kibbutz’s top engineer, walked toward her carrying official papers. “You got your transfer,” he told her; he held out the papers and Mary Morley accepted them. “You’re going to a colony settlement on a planet called—” He hesitated, frowning. “Delmar.”

“Delmak-O,” Mary Morley said, scanning the transfer orders. “Yes—and I’m to go there by noser.” She wondered
what kind of place Delmak-O was; she had never heard of it. And yet it sounded highly interesting; her curiosity had been stirred up. “Did Seth get a transfer, too?” she asked.

“‘Seth’?” Gossim raised an eyebrow. “Who’s ‘Seth’?”

She laughed. “That’s a very good question. I don’t know. I guess it doesn’t matter. I’m so glad to get this transfer—”

“Don’t tell me about it,” Gossim said in his usual harsh way. “As far as I’m concerned you’re abandoning your responsibilities to the kibbutz.” Turning, he stalked off.

A new life, Mary Morley said to herself. Opportunity and adventure and excitement. Will I like Delmak-O? she wondered. Yes. I know I will.

On light feet she danced toward her living area in the kibbutz’s central building-complex. To begin to pack.