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Authors: JC Andrijeski

Allie's War Season One (32 page)

“We may as well talk,” he said.

Sighing, I sat up straighter. I stuck my arms back into the sleeves of my jacket.

“No, thanks,” I said. I felt him tense, but ignored it, too tired to play at being polite. Crawling forward, I reached for the metal door.

He sat up. “No. You cannot go outside.”

I craned my neck around, suddenly even more tired. “Really? I really can’t just go look at the water?”

He shook his head. “It is an unnecessary risk.”

“What is?” I said. “Windburn?”

“Come here.” He leaned forward, and I backed away from his hands. “Now, Allie. I am too tired for this...”

“What if I have to go to the bathroom?”

“Do you?”

I hesitated, considered lying. “No,” I said.

He shook his head, gesturing. “Then no.”

“Are you going to beat me up if I try to go outside?”

His eyes focused on mine in disbelief. After a pause, they grew openly angry. “I don’t need to beat you...I can tie you up and drive a stake in the ground!”

Realizing I was too tired for this as well, I slid back on the dirt, sitting on the blanket. Watching me, he ran fingers through his black hair, muttering in German.

I caught enough that I flinched.

I saw him notice, and stare. Not needing that all that much either, I rested my face on my arms. Suddenly I was more tired than I thought I could stand.

“I’m sorry,” he said.

I glanced up, then wished I hadn’t. The guilt was still in his eyes.

“I did not know you knew German,” he said.

I shook my head. “I don’t.” At his silence, I sighed. “I had a roommate from Stuttgart. I picked up a few words. ‘Immature’ and ‘bitch’ happen to be two of them.” I saw him wince. “...She argued with her girlfriend a lot.”

His skin darkened. Lacing his fingers, he nodded, staring at his feet.

“I apologize.”

“Forget it.”

“I did not mean—”

“I said forget it.” I rested my face on my folded arms. “I know you’re trying. You suck at it, but you’re trying. I’m just not used to sitting in dirt holes, sleep-deprived. And I hate being ordered around all the time. Since I’ve known you, it seems like no one ever wants to do anything else.” At his silence, I added, “But I told Ullysa I’d listen to you...so it’s my fault.”

The silence lengthened.

“Do you want to know more about who you are?” he said.

Grimacing, I shook my head. “No.” I closed my eyes, then opened them again, remembering I really couldn’t sleep.

“Allie,” he said. He waited until I turned my head. “It’s not only to stay awake. I want us to talk. I want to...move past this somehow.”

I nodded, dejected. “Okay.”

His brows drew together. “You would rather fight?”

“No.” I said. “That’s why I was hoping we could just...not talk.”

At his silence, I bit my lip. Looking at his face, I sighed again. He really was trying. I, on the other hand, was being a brat.

I took another breath. “I’m sorry. I really am tired.”

When he didn’t look up, I tried again.

“Look,” I said. “...That whole thing in Seattle.” I felt him stiffen, but went on anyway. “I was avoiding you that morning. I’m not denying that. I felt like roadkill, and you seemed really pissed off...” Feeling my cheeks warm as I fumbled around the other thing, the real reason I’d stayed away from him, I met his gaze. “...But I didn’t ‘offer’ you to Kat. I said she could see you. And...” I hesitated. “...Well, I guess it was the wrong thing to say. I mean, clearly...it was the wrong thing. So I’m sorry. I’m really sorry, Revik.”

There was another silence.

Seeing his expression grow slightly less hard, I added,

“No one would tell me anything. I guess I could have asked you, but it seemed a little heavy for chess conversation. I know it’s some seer thing, but that’s all I know.” Waiting another beat, I tried again. “What I’m saying is, I still don’t know anything, Revik.”

He just looked at me. Then he exhaled, clicking softly.

“Thank you,” he said.

I bit my lip, then shrugged, meeting his gaze.

“So do you want to do it now?” I said. “Tell me, I mean. About that thing—”

“No.” He shook his head, his eyes showing a faint alarm. “No...I am too tired to talk about that now. I do want to tell you something, though.”

“Fine,” I said. “Knock yourself out.”

He looked up the cement walls of the lighthouse. I saw his eyes cloud, then focus, as if he were practicing more than one way of saying it. Turning, he seemed to give up.

“I didn’t fuck her,” he said. “Not even that morning.”

“Jesus.” I winced, covering my eyes. “I don’t remember in any way asking about that.”

“I wanted to,” he said. “But I didn’t.”

“Great,” I said, fighting anger. “Good for you.”

He studied my face, then rubbed his own with a hand. His accent grew stronger. “There is no reason to be embarrassed. Seers are naturally possessive...I gave you cause. I didn’t mean to.” Thinking, he reconsidered. “Well. Yes, I did.”

I stared at the floor as I sorted through his words. Finally, I shook my head.

“Yep. Still not asking, Revik.”

He stuffed the remains of the plant burrito he’d been eating into the backpack. He looked tired...and now, angry.

I shouldn’t care. Why did I care about this? Taking off my jacket, I bunched it up for a makeshift pillow, stuffing it under my head.

I felt him staring as I dragged half of the blanket over my body.

“Allie,” he said. “You cannot sleep.”

“I know.”

“Tomorrow,” he said. “Maybe.”

I sank my head into the jacket. I was angry, too. I couldn’t bring myself to shove it aside, even after I felt him notice, even when he continued to stare at me.

It didn’t help that at least half of my rage came from confusion, an almost cloying inability to understand him. Why had he told me that stuff about his childhood? Why the chess, for that matter? And why had he been so sure I’d want to know about him and Kat? What had he even meant by it, anyway? Did saying he hadn’t fucked her mean intercourse only? Because that left a pretty wide range of inbetweens that my imagination was more than happy to supply with images...especially since he hadn’t minded getting a dick massage and shoving his tongue down her throat right in front of me.

And why the hell did I care about this again?

I heard a snap and sigh of plastic and air, then the sound of him drinking. The backpack rustled, followed by his leather-covered shoulders meeting the cement wall. I closed my eyes, opening them when I remembered I couldn’t sleep.

“Can I please go outside?” I said.

He shook his head, clicking softly. “No.”

“Then talk. Tell me something.”

“What?”

“Anything,” I said. “Who was your real father?”

He sighed, moving so that the leather crinkled again. “My biological parents were killed by humans when I was very young. I do not remember them.”

I closed my eyes, cursing myself silently, then turned to look at him.

“Revik. I’m sorry—”

“I raised the subject,” he said. “It’s fine, Allie.”

I watched his face as his mind seemed to go somewhere else.

“Were you really a Nazi?” I said.

His eyes turned slowly in my direction.

“Yes,” he said. “...In the way you mean it. In the strictest sense...meaning politically...no.”

I wasn’t sure how to follow on that.

“So,” I said. “Did you leave after? When you—”

“I don’t want to talk about that.” Averting his eyes, he shrugged. “I don’t remember most of that time, anyway.”

“What do you mean, you don’t remember?”

He sighed, clicking his tongue. “It was a condition of my coming back. A portion of my memory was forfeit. I believe it was partly mechanical...I lost some simply by being separated from the network. Some was a bargain Vash made for my life. With the Rooks.” His eyes remained on his laced fingers. “I imagine I knew things. Things the Rooks needed me to forget.”

Realizing my mouth hung open, I closed it.

“Forfeit?” I said. “How much is gone?”

His eyes grew a touch colder. “I don’t know. I can guess, by piecing together dates with what I remember.” His face smoothed to neutral as he cleared his throat. “...It is very strange that you saw any of it. No one else ever has. Perhaps it has something to do with who you are.” He glanced at me, his eyes and voice casual.

“May I ask...how much did you see?”

Great. I’d just walked into another potential minefield. I tried to be reassuring.

“Not much. You and your wife—” He flinched visibly. “...I saw you in jail, and that guy, Terian. I also saw you in Russia, I think. Something about tanks being stuck in the mud. You seemed unhappy about the way the war was going...” I trailed, figuring that last part was safe at least. “You and some guy talked about who would lead that part of the front.”

His eyes grew calm as he rested his chin on his hands.

“How old are you?” I said, when he didn’t break the silence. “You and that guy Terian...you look exactly the same.”

He laced his fingers together. For a moment, I saw him thinking again, as if considering possible responses. Finally, he shrugged.

“I am young for a seer,” he said.

After a lengthier pause, he leaned his head against the wall.

It wasn’t until another minute or so had passed that I realized that was all the answer I was going to get.

15

MURDER

 

THE DATE WAS May 12th.

I recycled that piece of information from a dropped comment by Revik about our flights, when we would arrive in Tai Pei versus when we left the airport in Vancouver, BC. I didn’t really hear him when he said it; the fact hit me such that I stopped my hand in mid-motion before the white, triangle-shaped skirt of the woman symbol on the bathroom door of the diner where we’d stopped to eat breakfast.

I stood there, frozen, for more than one heartbeat.

I thought of my mom. My eyes lit on a pay phone bolted inside a shadowed alcove to my right. I blinked at it, nearly hallucinating with fatigue, then glanced behind me, watching Revik’s back as he slumped into a red vinyl booth.

Completing the motion of my hand, I entered the restroom.

On my way out, minutes later, I spotted a black plastic tray covered in Canadian coins on an empty table. Scooping it up, I dumped the change into my palm and left the tray on the bar without breaking stride. My fellow-waitress code brought me a twinge of guilt, but I shook it off.

I slid into the creaking booth across from Revik.

“You got me coffee?” I said.

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