Antagonize Me (10 page)

He backs up and looks at me and the only reason I notice is because his mouth has left me and I feel strange without it there.

“What are you doing?” I ask looking at me then to his pants where his erection is obviously straining.

“We’re going to a party. Football has finished and there’s this big party. I have to go, and since
I
do,
you
do,” he says leaning back down, kissing my hard nipples and then biting as he does. I make a face because, well, seriously? I’m practically naked in front of him, and he wants to leave?

“You’re joking, right?” I ask on the verge of being very angry. He smiles and grabs my hands then pulls me up. His hands go straight to my ass.

“I will make it up to you, ten times over later on,” he says with a wink.

His house is beyond packed by the time we get there. People are loitering everywhere and I’m way too sober to be here. As soon as we enter the house, people spot Kyrone and cheers break loose from everyone. Celebrating their captain, I try to sneak away while people come across to him and give him manly taps on the back and girls try to steal a kiss. Some I want to punch, especially when they can obviously see me at his side with his hand around my waist. When he leans over to hug Lance, I break away and sneak off to find the girls that obviously will be here with the rest of the school. I make it a few feet away from Kyrone when his arm captures me and brings me back to him, stopping my escape. My back is now flush with his front and he grinds himself into my ass with no shame whatsoever.

“Five minutes and we have a date with a blue bed,” Kyrone whispers in my ear which results in sending shivers all over me. I nod my head and break free to find everyone. It doesn’t take long as they’re all outside near the pool. Hillary sees me first and calls me over, then Tanner spots me. His smile lights up and I’m surprised that the sight of him isn’t giving me butterflies like it used to. There’s still something there, it’s just not as strong as it once was. I watch while he whispers in Katrina’s ear then makes his way toward me. I look behind him to see Hillary shaking her head directly at me. She doesn’t want me to do anything stupid, and to be honest, neither do I.

“Can we talk?” Tanner asks when he reaches me grabbing my hand. He starts to walk away from the party and I follow behind as he has a firm grip on my hand. We stop at the back of the pool shed and he sits down on the ground indicating for me to follow. I sit and place my hands on the grass, trying to grip it hard. I don’t know why he wants to talk. We’re friends, but things have been awkward lately to say the least.

“I’m sorry. You’re my best friend CJ and I’m afraid to lose you.” I try not to look at him, but it’s hard. His words hold meaning and I can feel them. I think I’ll always have a connection with Tanner, no matter how big or small.

“I know,” I say replying while looking down at the ground.

“I’m not going to lie to you, I enjoyed kissing you. Hell, I want to do it again right now, but I don’t want to make you mad at me.”

“I’m not mad, just shocked I guess.” Looking up and brushing my hair behind my ears, he looks surprised that I said I wasn’t mad. I give him a small smile. What happens next, I don’t expect. His lips land on mine, again. After everything he just said, I didn’t think he’d do it again. I remove my hands from the grass and reach up and push his shoulders back. His lips pull away from mine and I’m lost for words.
I have no idea what to say!

“Shit,” I hear Tanner say, and my head shoots up to see a very
not
happy Kyrone glaring over at us.
Shit is exactly the first word that came to my mind also.

“Tanner, no more! Just no more with the lips, okay?” I say to him while standing up. He nods his head and I walk off to look for Kyrone. I find him on the sofa, drinking with a girl on his lap. He isn’t paying attention to her. Actually, he isn’t paying attention to anyone. He seems lost in his thoughts. He notices my stare and looks to me then looks up at the girl perched on his lap and kisses her breast. I don’t stay to watch the rest and walk straight out the door. This is drama I don’t want, nor need.

I don’t hear from Kyrone that night, and I didn’t expect to. We were not exclusive, but for some reason it hurts, just a bit, in my chest. Something I’m not too sure how to describe. I start the process of packing and decide to call my grandfather to let him know I will be leaving next week.

“What’s wrong, Angel?” he asks softly when I’m not my usual bubbly self.

“Nothing,” I reply, not wanting to get into it with him.

“Look, I know I’m not your mother, or even your grandmother, but I can still listen just as well as they can. Hell, probably even better. You know how women can talk,” he laughs in my ear. “Is it about a boy? Perhaps the captain or the friend?”

I sigh because I don’t know what to say.

“Listen, if it’s meant to be it will be. Don’t stress over anything. You’re not a girl to stress; I know, I raised you that way. You will meet plenty of people that will make you feel things you never expected. Some good and some bad, but sometimes, just sometimes, they will flip your world on its ass. And when that happens, Angel, you will know. You will know…
that
is your person.”

“I love you and
you’re
my person,” I say softly.

“As you are mine, Angel. I would not have gotten through life recently if it wasn’t for you. I love you and remember to rock the world.”

I try to hold back the tears, the tears that want to flow endlessly down my face. I do… I do when I pack my bags and I do when I answer Hillary’s call. Then comes the silence that follows when I enter the shower, the thoughts that endlessly loop in my brain. Then the tears break through, just one at first, then a few more and that’s all I can take. I turn the shower off and wipe my face clean. I’d be lost without my grandfather and the thought squeezes my heart.

I don’t think today is my day and last night was definitely not my night. Why should today be any better?

I know I have to go and see Kyrone today because I have to say goodbye. To clear the air, as they say so I can leave without something wanting to pull me back. Then there’s a part of me screaming that I’m lying to myself.

I grab my phone from my bed and make my way to his house. Everyone will probably be sleeping since it’s early, but I have to see him. I need to tell him I care for him and that I wouldn’t intentionally hurt him. I don’t think I could end what we had on a bad note. It needs to be good because
he
is good, no matter how hard he hides it sometimes.

When I reach his house, it’s very quiet, so I let myself in. People are passed out on the floor and sofas. I make my way up the stairs and when I reach his door, I don’t know if I should knock or not. I haven’t been in here on my own. It’s usually Kyrone carrying me in. I decide to knock, in case he has company, which is not something I want to see today. Just as I go to knock the second time, the door flies open with a topless Kyrone on the other side, looking very hungover and delicious. My eyes travel down his sculpted body and back up again. When I reach his face, he’s smiling and, of course, I get butterflies.

“Didn’t think I would see you today, Greeny,” Kyrone says, walking away and leaving the door open for me to enter. I follow him and he drops his jeans and climbs back in bed. I stand there awkwardly, unsure of what to do.

“I wanted to talk to you about last night and to say goodbye,” I say, biting my nails. He’s making me nervous. He sits up in bed and the look he gives me is so mixed, it’s hard to read.

“What? When do you leave?” he asks.

“I leave this coming week.” I’m standing near his door, watching his face become a work of art. His expressions are mixed, as they go from confused, to angry, to upset.

“I knew you were leaving early, but I didn’t think it was
that
early.”

“Yeah, it’s for the best. I just wanted to say goodbye and to thank you.”

“Thank me for sex?” He raises his eyebrows playfully, but some part of him isn’t happy.

“Oh yes, and that,” I say, winking at him.

“Don’t forget the orgasms. I’m a fucking God at those.”

“Oh, how could I ever forget? No one will ever get me to the point that Kyrone Masters can,” I say, placing a hand on my heart and smirking at him.

“Damn straight woman and don’t you forget it. I do have a magical cock after all.”

“Yes, and what magic it creates, but try not to catch anything while you’re off fucking the state of Texas,” I caution.

“Deal, Greeny,” he promises softly.

“Thank you for being my friend as well,” I say, much quieter this time.

“You know, it was only so I could get between your legs,” he replies, trying to contain his laugh as he walks toward me. I look up at him when he reaches me I smile.

“Oh, yes I do. I will miss you,” I say, looking directly into his eyes.

“I will miss you, too,” he says, then surprises me by leaning down and touching his lips to mine. Not in a sexual way, but soft and nice. It makes my heart race. His lips stay on mine for what feels like ages, but without either of us moving to go any further. There’s no positive outcome to be gained and I think we both understand that.

The moment his lips leave mine, I miss them, the warmth of such a gentle and sweet kiss. I look at him and see him watching me.

“Leave now, Greeny, before I tie you to my bed so you can never leave.” His eyes are locked on mine with something shining in them.

* * *

I leave that morning and don’t see or talk to Kyrone for a full year. He never leaves my mind and I think a part of him will stay glued there till the end of time, no matter what role my life takes.

My life is busy. As a matter of fact, it’s so busy I hardly have time for myself, let alone anyone else. On the days I’m not at the magazine, I’m teaching dance at night and even the weekends. Hillary tells me I will burn myself out if I keep it up the way I’m going. Maybe she’s right, maybe she’s wrong, but I’m enjoying keeping myself busy. Taking life by the horns and riding it for all it’s worth is fun. I’ve spent one whole wonderful year at FAM magazine. I’ve grown and changed since my time here. I’m not the same girl I once was. I didn’t think I’d change, but I guess living in the adult world does that to you. You grow up faster and start to have bigger goals set for you. I miss the people I haven’t seen in over a year, but I see them everywhere without actually seeing them if you know what I mean?