Avoiding Commitment (25 page)

After what felt like an eternity, Lexi
extracted herself from Sandy’s grip and slinked out of the room.
She rubbed her tired eyes as she moved into the den. Her smile lit
up when she found Jack waiting for her. He could have been asleep.
She was the one who waited for the coast to clear before coming to
find him. There was no need for him to wait up for her. Those few
hours rest were like gold right now, and he had chose to stay up
and wait for her instead.

“Miss me?” she asked sitting down next to him
on the lumpy blue sofa.

He yawned in the midst of answering her,
“Ohhhhhh…yeaaaaah.”

“We should probably get out of here,” she
said feeling his arm come around her middle and hold her in place.
He tilted them backwards so that they were spooning comfortably on
the couch. She sighed and nestled closer to him. Thoughts of
leaving left her as she felt slumber draw close. The soothing feel
of Jack’s breath hot on her neck caused her eyes to flutter shut,
and she could feel herself begin to drift off. Then she felt his
lips pressed to that same spot on her neck, and all of a sudden she
was wide awake.

It was only one kiss, but it left her heart
speeding ahead of her. She rolled to face him, and met his
smoldering gaze. Everything about their embrace in that moment
showed that they weren’t friends. That they could never be friends.
That they were stupid for even trying. All she wanted to do was
kiss him. Every nerve in her body was pushing her closer towards
him. She had never stopped wanting him, as much as she tried to
deny the obvious facts. When they were together, she lost all
cognitive thought.

Jack moved closer, as if there was any room
between them, and she could almost feel his sweet lips on
her…almost taste him. A rumbling from upstairs stilled their
movement. They waited a second for the noise to die away, but after
a few seconds, it returned and stronger.

Lexi swore under her breath. The universe was
really
trying
to keep them apart. Jack smiled at her
reaction, but his face was strained.

“What’s going on up there?” she whispered to
him in the darkness.

“No idea, but you should probably go back to
your room,” he whispered back. His meaning was clear. They could
not be in a more compromising situation. If she didn’t get back
now, everything would blow up in their face.

“No.”

“Lex, you have to get back.”

“No.”

“You can come back once everyone goes back to
sleep.”

“No.”

“No, you won’t come back?”

“No, I’m not leaving.”

“You’re so stubborn. We’re going to get
caught. Go back to your room.”

“No, let’s go to the beach instead.”

“Do you not hear that upstairs?” he asked
pausing to allow her to listen to the continued noise.

“Jack, I hear it, but they’re just going to
go back to sleep, and then we’ve missed all our time together.”

He stared intensely at her before finally
speaking, “Fine. Let’s get out of here before they come
downstairs.” He scooted them off the couch, and after snatching up
her hand, dove out of the house and down the stairs.

“How do you know they are coming downstairs?”
she asked enjoying the feel of his hand entwined with her own.

“Were you not listening at dinner?” Jack
asked lightly swinging their hands as they neared the water line.
“I forgot about the conversation when we were…together.”

“Oh...no, not really. I was pretty spaced out
I guess.”

“Yeah, I think I noticed that.”

“So, what’s going on?”

“Seth dared Hunter to go skinny dipping
tomorrow in the middle of the day. Hunter agreed, but only if
everyone else did it too. The girls were pretty grossed out by that
concept. So Seth said they would do it later tonight when no one
else was on the beach.”

Lexi giggled. “Yeah, I guess I was really out
of it. Somehow I managed to miss that entire conversation.”

Without uttering another word, the couple
began to take a slow paced stroll along the beach. If they stayed
in front of the house, then they would be caught together by the
potential skinny dippers.

The feel of Jack’s hand in her own almost
burned her. All she could think about was how close to kissing they
had been earlier on the couch. She would have succumbed to him. The
familiar feeling of losing control had taken her over. Instead of
steering away from the feeling, she had gotten lost in it once
again. And now she was out on the beach with him when any of their
friends could find them missing at any moment.

Surprise washed over her when they stopped in
front of the pier. The pier was over a mile away from their beach
house. Yet, time with Jack had just flown by. She hadn’t even
realized that they had been walking so long.

He nudged her forward to keep her moving, and
they slunk along the wooden planks. Lexi skirted the edge where an
old fishing pole rested. They reached the edge and sat down on a
green bench set up for tourists.

“I don’t know if I can do this anymore,”
Jack’s husky voice muttered sounding defeated. It was such a
strange sound coming out of him that Lexi had to stare into his
face to even believe that he could feel that way.

Lexi knew what he meant. Her heart was racing
knowing that they were so close together, but they couldn’t be
together. Only a mile up the coast, their significant others were
blissfully unaware of what was happening out on the pier. She felt
terrible about the deception. Not only was the sleep deprivation
killing her, but the lying too. She couldn’t keep up this act for
much longer. Not when Jack wanted her. The way he had kissed the
nape of her neck had proved what she already assumed. He had been
trying to hold back how he felt from her all week, but moments like
that kept creeping in to their time together. But they weren’t
supposed to be together. Hadn’t she only thought earlier that the
universe was just
trying
to keep them apart?

“I know what you mean,” she whispered sadly,
her chin dropping to meet her chest.

“I’m not sure I want to break up with Kate
though,” he said miserably.

That snapped her right out of her own pity
party.
Break up
with Kate! Holy shit! Where had that come
from? Maybe they were talking about two different things. “Uh,
Jack?”

He tilted his head to look at her under his
thick dark lashes. “Yes, my dear?”

“You’ve been thinking of breaking up with
Kate?” She couldn’t keep the disbelief out of her voice.

He nodded choking on his own words. “Ever
since I saw you like a vision on the beach the first day you got
here.”

“Wh…Why would you do that?” She knew the
answer. But she wanted to hear him say it.

“I thought that was quite obvious…for
you.”

She sighed loving the way that sounded coming
out of his mouth. She had wanted to hear that for so long. But
would he break up with Kate? Could she think about breaking up with
Clark? Her heart ached at the mere thought of letting him go. She
didn’t want things to change with Clark. She loved Clark.

She just didn’t know exactly how she felt
about Jack, and that scared her. Could she love Clark so much, and
still want to spend so much time…have so many inappropriate
thoughts about Jack at the same time? God, she wasn’t sure, and her
head was pounding with the waves of confusion overtaking her.

“For me?” she finally got out.

“How could you not know?”

“I knew, but I thought it was like last time.
I didn’t think you would want to end things with her. I didn’t
think you want to…be with me,” she whispered into the cool ocean
breeze.

Her hair whipped around her head and a long
strand landed across her face. Jack reached up and tucked the lock
behind her ear for her. He pulled her face closer to his and his
voice spoke gruffly into her ear, “
You
have always been what
I want. I just made mistakes along the way. I told you that I would
make it up to you, that I would show you what I could be for you,
if you would only let me.”

Lexi’s mind was racing along ahead of his
words. He wanted her. Just like she had always dreamed. How could
she turn away from him so long as he wanted her? Consequences be
damned, Lexi pushed her face forward and moved her lips against
his. Taken by surprise, he remained stiff. She was relentless
though, and began to tease his bottom lip with her tongue. He
moaned and she used the opportunity to insert her tongue in his
mouth. She straddled his body and pressed herself firmly against
him. His hands came up and wove their way into her thick brown
hair. Yanking ever so lightly, he pulled her head back giving him
access to her bare neck. She purred as he roughly kissed her neck
hard enough to send waves of pleasure through her body, but not
hard enough to leave a mark.

She grabbed the base of his shirt and began
to pull it off over his head. He seemed to like the idea and did
the same to her. He ogled her breasts for a moment before taking
them both in his hands and massaging them. She arched her back, and
he moved to flick his tongue against her rigid nipples. She was
practically feverish for him. Despite the fact that she could feel
every inch of him, she felt that there was too much clothing in
between them. She wanted to feel his skin against her. She wanted
to feel his rock hard abs against her stomach, and his hands rake
her naked form. God, she wanted to feel every inch of him deep
inside of her.

The way he was touching her made it pretty
obvious that he was having similar thoughts. He couldn’t get enough
of her. The succulent taste of her, her supple breasts in his
hands, the way she was reacting to his every touch was sending him
over the edge. He wasn’t one to resist temptation, and she felt so
good. Not to mention she was practically throwing herself at
him.

Lexi fumbled for his khaki shorts tugging at
the difficult button. Her fingers missed the mark twice, and she
was getting frustrated. She kissed him hard on the lips, and then
stood up commanding him to do the same. He undid the button for
her, and watched as she slid to her knees taking his pants with
her. His eyes widened when she didn’t stand back up, and instead
took all of him in her right hand, and began a gentle stroke. He
couldn’t stop looking at her. The fluid motion of her hand as it
hit the base and then pulled back up to the head. Then as his eyes
began to close from an overdrive of emotions, he felt her hot wet
mouth close around him. Brushing her tongue around the tip a few
times experimentally, she took the rest of him in her mouth and
sucked making sure his entire dick was wet. His breathing turned
ragged and heavy as she continued her work on him. He groaned as
she hit every nerve perfectly.

He felt himself reaching climax, but he
didn’t want to get there just yet. He wanted her to feel everything
he was feeling in that moment. He wanted them to feel that amazing
moment of bliss together. With all the energy he could muster, he
pulled back from her astounding movements. Her brown eyes looked
even bigger than normal as they looked up at him in confusion.
Forcing her to stop was even more difficult for him since she
looked like all she wanted to do was finish him off. He hadn’t
thought he could be any more turned on, but after that look, his
erection was almost painful.

Grabbing her by her shoulders, he pulled her
up and kissed her lips passionately. All confusion was wiped from
her face as his kiss clouded her thoughts. Never breaking from
their kiss, he scooped her up into his arms and rested her back
against the bench. He left a trail down her front as he reached her
tiny black shorts, yanked them to her ankles, and then tossed them
to the cement ground. He worked his way back up pulling her legs up
around his waist as he lay over her.

Lexi stared mesmerized into his gorgeous
cerulean eyes. She had dreamed of this moment for so long. Now that
it was finally here, she was even more turned on than she had ever
imagined. His skin covered her body, and she could feel him pressed
into her inner thigh. She whimpered with desire for him. “Oh,
Jack,” she muttered kissing his bottom lip. He moaned deep in his
throat and adjusted his position over her.

“You want me, Lex?” he asked speaking for the
first time since his declaration.

“Oh, yes…yes, Jack, I want you,” she said
swishing her hips so that she brushed her wetness against him.

He nuzzled down into her neck, and then
pushed into her. She instantly cried out in pleasure at the feel of
him. He buried himself deep into her and enjoyed the feel of her
clenching and unclenching her inner muscles around him. She waited
patiently as he held that position. She couldn’t believe that after
all that time, it was finally happening. He was with her. He was
inside of her.

She moaned loudly as he shoved harder into
her. Then he began to set a slow languid pace. He was already close
to the brink after the way she worked her mouth around him, and he
was afraid with his overpowering desire for her that he would get
there before her. She felt her body begin to flush as he
continually pushed himself into her. They fit together perfectly.
The feelings he sent throughout her body were unlike anything she
had ever experienced.

As the waves of bliss continued coursing
through her, she let her hips move with his adjusting her angle so
that he hit all new places. Through pants, she managed to get out,
“Jack…oh, Jack…”

“Mmm…yes?” he asked kissing her forehead.

“Harder,” she pleaded.

He groaned as she begged him. God, she was so
fucking hot. She felt him give into her desires, and push into her
harder and rougher. With the last few strokes they smacked their
hips together, and then came at the same moment. Jack pushed deep
into her and hugged her tight to his chest as she cried out into
the night air and arched her back. The orgasm that rocketed through
their bodies left them breathless and exhausted. A sheen of sweat
stuck to their skin