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Authors: Jade C. Jamison

Tags: #Literature & Fiction, #Women's Fiction, #Contemporary Women, #Romance, #Contemporary, #New Adult & College, #Contemporary Fiction

He shook his head. “I don’t. I
want
you to believe me, but I guess it’s up to you.” He got quiet then, and that was when I saw the sadness in his eyes, the heartache through those windows to his soul. He blinked again. “It was something I needed to do.” He sipped the coffee and then started talking again. “See, Jess, there’s something you need to understand. Or, at least, I would like to try to help you to understand.

“When I married Fay, I’d never been on my own, and I moved into her home with her, her disabled mother, and her little brother
—oh, and her all-but-dead father. Yeah, her mom might have been in a wheelchair, but that didn’t change the fact that she wasn’t—
isn’t
—a nice person. Did I love Fay? At one point, yes. I know I did. I lost that, though, and stayed for Flynt. He’s a good kid and he deserves a chance, and now that he’s eighteen, he can make his own decisions.” I raised my eyebrows. “Yeah, he’s living with me now. But that’s beside the point. Jess, I went from a foster home to Fay’s to Mark’s…and I wondered in the back of my mind so many things. Did I really love you or were you just some hope I clung to, desperate to be rid of Fay? Did I just love the
idea
of you?

“You can hate me for being gone all you want, but it gave me the clarity I needed.
” He swallowed. “I discovered that, yeah, I love you, and I don’t want to be without you.” I felt my eyes grow wider, and I felt more hope than I had in months. “And I’ll work my entire life to be worthy of you.”

I felt my iron shell melt then as the furnace of his heart worked its way around me. “Oh,
Kage,” I said, “you
are
worthy of me. So you were gone a while. I’ll get over it.”

A slight smile crept over his face. “I don’t think you understand. I, uh…remember when I was reading your thesis?” I nodded. “Fuck. I don’t think I’ve ever felt so dumb. It made me realize I should have stayed in school.”

I reached my hand across the table and touched his. “You’re not dumb, Kage. You’re plenty smart.”

He smirked. “I’m not going to debate that with you, but I guess I was smart enough to come back.” The tears started falling then, and I couldn’t stop them anymore. “Don’t cry, Jess.” He got up and sat next to me in the booth. “I did do something super stupid. I left to get my head on straight. I wanted to be sure I knew what I wanted. And I do. God, I do. I want you, Jess.
Forever. I don’t want to be without you. You are the best woman I have ever known, and I will spend the rest of my life proving it to you.”

I lost my breath. I hadn’t expected that, but there it was just the same. He wasn’t done talking, though. He saw the spark in my eyes, I think, because he stroked my cheek. “Please say you forgive me, Jess.” I didn’t know if I did, because all his words had taken me by such surprise that I didn’t know what I thought anymore. He must have seen that in my eyes because he said, “Just say you love me.”

That I knew without a doubt. Even if he would have told me we were done forever, it wouldn’t have changed the fact that I did love him to the ends of the earth. I nodded my head. “I do, Kage. I do love you.”

He kissed me then, a kiss full of promise, and it was as though no time had passed. I could feel myself let go of all the fears I had ever felt about him, all the doubts, and even all the anger I’d felt when he left. I not only wanted to believe him; I
did
. “I don’t know what the future holds, Jess, but I don’t want to do a damn bit of it without you. You are the only person for me. You are the part of myself I hadn’t known was missing until you found me. I had to be sure what I was feeling was for real, and it is, Jess. I think most people spend their whole lives trying to find something like I feel for you, and I can’t lose you.” He kissed me again, a vow, and I knew I would never doubt him again. “Please say you can find it in your heart to forgive me. I had to do a man thing, and now I’m over it.”

I laughed then. “I do. I forgive you.”

My hands were in his and he was looking down at them. “I don’t know how your lease works, but I would love to have you move in. I—”

“I thought you said
Flynt had moved in with you.”

“Well, yeah, in the second bedroom. But I have a queen-size bed and no queen to share it with.”

I grinned. “That sounds nice, but I can’t leave my roommates high and dry without a replacement.”

“So you don’t move until they have a new roommate. I can live with that. Wouldn’t you like to be out of that bedroom before it gets cold again?”

“You noticed how my room gets super cold in the winter too?”

“Yeah, but you always curled up close to me then.”

“I still can.”

He stroked my cheek. “You and me, Jess. We can conquer the world.”

I cupped his cheek. “Yeah, let’s do it.”

“Starting now.”

I smiled. “No, not starting now. I have papers to grade.”

“Grade?”

“Yeah. Remember I told you I’m teaching a class this semester?”

He nodded.
“Yeah. So…after that?”

I smiled again. “Actually, I think I can pencil you in for a little time before that…and then I’ll work you into my forever.”

“Damn. I like the sounds of that.”

So did
I, because Kage was all the man I could ever wish for.

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Finger Bang

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Blaze Donahue has admired Kaylee from afar for quite some time, and part of the reason he’s kept his distance is because he’s had no indication that she might even be interested. But when he’s given the opportunity to offer her his own version of OM with no strings attached, he makes an offer she has a hard time refusing.

When there are undeniable sparks between the two, Kaylee runs, afraid of the overwhelming feelings she has for this gorgeous, sensitive guy. Blaze feels compelled to convince her otherwise but wonders if he’ll be able to crack through the ice surrounding this sweet girl. Can they find true love or will it just be a one-time O?

COMING JUNE 2014

Other books by Jade C. Jamison:

The Bullet Series

Jade loves her rock star series, and the Bullet series has been her most popular thus far. It all started with a little book called

Bullet:

An Epic Rock Star Novel

What if you discover the man you want is toxic?

She’d tasted a little bit of heaven with him, and now they’ve gone through hell and back, but can their relationship take anymore?

Valerie Quinn is a naïve college freshman when she meets on-the-rise rock star Ethan Richards. He’s an idealistic, handsome, reckless young man, but he’s captured her heart. She doesn’t give up on him and eventually his walls crumble down. By the time Valerie has given herself to him completely, she discovers he’s damaged and may be beyond help. Can she save Ethan and their relationship before he implodes, or will he self-destruct and take her with him?

Then Kiss Me

Casey Williams has left a loveless marriage and is trying to rebuild her life. She finds that, even though you can never go home again, you can find lust again, and she finds a love interest in Scott, her coworker. She also discovers his secret, that he’s a drummer for a heavy metal band, and falls hard for him…just in time to find that, between his questionable friends and psychotic maybe-ex-girlfriend, he might not be the right guy for her. But her heart beats like a drum for him, and she finds herself willing to play with fire to get closer.

Quickies

Sexy Short Stories and Other Stuff

Quickies is
a collection of miscellaneous words that really don’t fit elsewhere and certainly can't stand alone. A mixture of poetry, short stories, and bite-sized nuggets, Quickies is full of small stuff that won't consume an entire day of your life but that you'll enjoy just the same. Stories like “Drawn to Him” and “Dancing on Air” are hot and sexy...and fun. And there’s also a bonus for fans of Jade's book Bullet—all the stories she wrote for fun for blogs (as well as one deleted scene) are also collected in Quickies. So enjoy Quickies...because sometimes you want it slow and steamy, but other times you want it super-hot, nasty...and quick!

The Nicki Sosebee Series

The character Nicki developed out of Jade’s need to read a strong heroine, and do we mean strong! Nicki has a sailor mouth and can keep up in that department with her rough-and-tough best friend, Sean Ramsey. And don’t get her started talking about sexual freedom. She’s all about it. Granted, it stemmed from a lost opportunity at love (with said best friend), but she appreciates sex as much as any man ever thought of. She’s still finding her way through life too, but she’s figuring it out.

Got the Life (Nicki Sosebee #1)

Nicki Sosebee wants her first headline, but she doesn’t want it to read “Reporter found dead.”

Nicki
Sosebee has been working low-paying jobs ever since she finished school, but now that she’s older, she wants more. She’s a novice reporter trying to learn the ropes. Just as she’s getting her career goals on track, though, her love life gets worse and worse. Sure, she has no problems picking up good-looking guys for brief flings, but relationships? Out of the question. Maybe it’s because Sean, her gorgeous best friend, just can’t see her as more than a buddy. So when Sean encourages her as she pursues her first headline-producing story, Nicki realizes that her life’s pretty sweet…if only she can live long enough to see tomorrow’s front page.

And more! Jade just won’t shut up!

BOOKS BY JADE C. JAMISON

Stating His Case

Fabric of Night

Worst Mother

MADversary

Then Kiss Me

Old House

Quickies: Sexy Short Stories and Other Stuff

TANGLED WEB SERIES

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