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“Oh.” That threw me big time, but she had a point. I’d talked to my mom about everything. School, sports, my friends, Todd’s ex-girlfriends. I’d never come to her about any boys or even hinted I had my eye on anyone at school. No heartbreaks, not even a crush. I wondered for a moment if that part of it bothered her, that we didn’t have that kind of a relationship to share.
“You’re not mad?” I asked quietly.
“Why would I be mad?”
“I don’t know.” I adjusted my towel and dragged Thackery across my lap. “I just thought…”
“Honey, I’m an ex-pothead who married a mobster’s son then adopted a black kid. You think I’m going to judge my only daughter for being gay?”
“I guess not.”
“It’s your crotch, Gingey. I’m just glad you’re not pregnant or on any powder drugs or pills. Just be safe and get tested regularly like I told you. I kissed my roommate in college. She was nice; it just wasn’t for me.”
“Oh.” I laughed a tad hysterically. “Well, good.”
“Just be a good girl and your dad and I will be happy.”
“And just don’t get pregnant?”
“I’m too young to be a grandma. Are you going out with this young lady tonight?” It was weird to hear someone talk about Camila like she was any regular girl.
“Yeah. Nothing big, but I have to get ready.”
“What’s her name?”
“Uh, I’d rather not jinx it.” Mom made a little scoffing noise. I could just see her rolling her eyes at me. “Let me see how this date goes before I start talking her up. It could be nothing, but yes, it’s girls for good.” It felt good to say. It felt great to say it to my mom and to know she still loved me either way.
“Okay. Well, thank you for telling me. And I’ll be sure to tell your dad.”
“Thanks, Mom.” I shook my head in disbelief as we said our good-byes. I didn’t realize till the moment she picked up the phone how terrified I had been of upsetting my parents for any reason. I
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felt much better as I headed down the hall, a huge weight I’d been oblivious to, lifted off my shoulders.
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The bathroom was empty so I took a long shower. Afterward, I didn’t feel bad taking my sweet time blow-drying my hair since my roommate was gone. I turned up my music louder, singing along with Katy Perry at the top of my lungs while I lotioned up and put on my makeup.
The music and the solitude revived me, but when I was done getting ready, the end result in the mirror gave me a much needed boost of confidence. Amy had found the perfect dress. The emerald green silk showed off “just enough leg and not enough booby,” as Amy liked to put it. The perfect mix to drive Camila crazy. I liked it because it made me look older. So many of the dresses we found made me look my age or younger with crazy cuts and patterns.
This one accentuated all the right parts. The neckline scooped just low enough to show off my ruby necklace, which I had grown completely accustomed to wearing twenty-four seven. The fabric had a slight shimmer to it. It hugged my stomach and my chest, and the skirt came just to my knees. I decided to wear my long red waves pulled back in an artful bun. The whole package said classy but willing. The ruby red platform pumps Amy had picked out for me said willing and ready. Amy had grabbed some silver hoops and bangles to match my necklace and a gray cropped motorcycle jacket to complete the look and match Camila’s overall style. Amy insisted I needed a little pattern to make the look complete. I didn’t argue and shoved my phone and my wallet into my new leopard print clutch.
Camila was right on time, knocking on my door at exactly eight o’clock. If I hadn’t been so determined to go on an actual date with her, I would have yanked her inside, mounted her, and called it a night. She looked too good. I blinked, my mouth actually flopping open. The difference in our height had only been an inch or so. It was a safe guess Amy had told her what she’d picked out for me because Camila’s peep toe heels were just a little bit higher than mine.
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A part of my brain noted that her toenails were red, but my clit forced my eyes to skip up to her skintight vinyl leggings. The loose black shirt she had on covered her perfect ass, but hung off her shoulder, giving me a peek of the black satin bra she had on underneath. My favorite red lipstick was back and there were black spiked studs in her ears. I forgot all about any sort of readiness or willingness; her outfit demanded that I fuck her right then and there.
I got as far as, “Uh, hey.”
“You look good, Red,” she said a little too sweetly, knowing just how amazing she looked.
I swallowed anxiously. “Thank you. Where did you get those pants?” I said.
She just smiled wide, flashing her fangs.
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I’d been to downtown Baltimore once, and even then, my dad and I had only driven down a few streets on our way to the university. I hadn’t gotten a good look at the skyscrapers and local vendors or the harbor, and the city lights were the last thing on my mind now. I was focused on the woman next to me and our hands intertwined on her vinyl covered thigh. The side of my hand was on fire resting against her leg.
“So where are you taking me?” I asked.
“A Japanese place on Pratt.”
“Do you own this place?” I asked, absolutely loving the love sexy grin I got back.
“Yes, I do. I own mostly restaurants and hotels here and there.
And the spa you ladies visited. I’d take you by the tattoo shop, but I’d like to get on with the dinner portion of the evening if that’s okay with you.”
“Yes. It’s more than okay,” I said. “I’m just waiting for Cleo and Amy to pop up in the backseat.” Which wouldn’t have been a surprise. It was no one’s fault, except maybe Camila’s meth-addicted ex-employee, but we hadn’t had much vertical, fully clothed time alone. I wanted tonight to be about Camila and me. And only us.
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“There will be none of that. I just want to be with you.”
“That’s exactly what I was thinking,” I replied.
She lifted our hands and brushed the back of my palm against her cheek, a sweet, adoring gesture that had me cursing the console between us. I sighed and settled back into the seat, finally watching the storefronts that passed by.
We arrived at Hama, Camila’s Japanese restaurant and sushi bar, a few minutes later and left the car at the valet stand. The restaurant was packed. The deep wood accents on the walls and ceiling soaked in the golden light, giving the open space the best sense of intimacy.
I followed Camila past the hostess who greeted us with a simple nod. I wondered if she knew exactly who or what Camila was. It felt silly to ask, but I still got the impression she knew Camila was free to navigate the space on her own.
She led us right to the sushi chef. After talking to him for a few moments—in Japanese—she turned to me with a wink and led me to a huge private booth toward the back. I let her take my coat, shrugging out of the gray faux leather, and settled comfortably next to her on the padded bench.
“And you speak Japanese?”
She leaned forward and kissed me. “I’m not sure there’s a language I don’t speak, Red. I ordered a few things for you to try. I hope that’s okay.” My mom had always told me that someone who orders for you without your permission is an arrogant prick and not saying so is an invitation for them to control your life. When it came to Camila, I was willing to let it slide.
“It’s fine. My Japanese is a little rusty.”
“I’ll help you brush up,” she said, scrunching her nose. Just then a female server brought us two glasses of water. Camila thanked her sweetly—in Japanese—before leaning back and gazing over my face. “So tell me more about you, Red.”
“Oh? The way Benny talks, you guys already know everything about us.”
“We know what’s on the books, so to speak, and I know the adorable things I love about you, but I want to know more. Tell me about your family.”
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Now that was easy. I pulled out my phone and started scrolling through my pictures. I pulled up a recent favorite, my mom and me posing on either side of my dad and Todd, both in pizza comas on the couch.
“Oh, your brother is cute.”
“Hey!”
“I’m just saying.” She chuckled. “When was this taken?”
“Right before I came to school. My dad left for Brazil a few days after he dropped me here, but I’m guessing you knew that.”
“I did, but tell me about him. And your mom.”
“I don’t know. They’re just…amazing.” My focus instantly dropped to my lap. I started choking up. It happened every time I thought about my family, every time I considered what they meant to me. Camila’s arm went around my shoulders and she pulled me closer. I took the comfort, leaning into her warm body. My arm brushed her nipple through the layers of her clothes, and my clit throbbed. But that only made me feel more secure, knowing I wanted her in every way and that now she was there for me in all the ways I needed her to be.
“I’m sorry.” I took a deep breath and gave it another try. “I was in this group home in South Boston. It wasn’t bad it was just…”
“A group home?”
I swallowed, trying to pull it together. “Exactly. After my birth mom, I didn’t talk for over three months. I played with the toys they gave us and paid attention in school and stuff, but I just wouldn’t talk. I remember them trying every day to get me to say something.
“My mom—Todd calls her Linda, still,” I said through my sniffling. “She came in to volunteer and she brought Todd with her.
He’s just so—he brings people out. It’s impossible not to like him.
He walked right up to me and goes ‘Linda, let’s keep this one.’”
“You’re joking?”
“No. I’m dead serious. She looked at me for a minute and then turned back to Mrs. Farnham, the lady who ran the place. I was coloring and Todd just sat and picked up a crayon and started coloring with me.” It took Todd a few moments to realize I wasn’t going to talk to him, but he didn’t care. He just talked and talked,
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going on about nothing important. None of the kids were mean to me; it’s not that much fun to pick on someone who doesn’t bother to fight back, but Todd was the first person who made me feel liked.
“Two weeks later, Linda came back with her husband Fredo and Todd. Mrs. Farnham told me the Carmichaels wanted to adopt me, no trial foster home, but full, immediate adoption, as immediate as those sort of things are. I wish you could have seen Mrs. Farnham’s face when I said I was okay with it. Lawyers conferred, paper work was finalized, and a few months later, I was a Carmichael. I found out later Dad had called in some serious favors to get me out of there as quickly as possible.”
“I have to thank Todd though. He’s my best friend.” I shrugged.
“I was safe in the group home, but Todd saved my life, I think.” I took another deep breath, relief and joy rising to a smile on my face at the thought of the wonderful family I still had.
“And he’s taking a year off?” Camila asked. I scowled at her, knowing her vampire spies had given her that information.
“Yeah. He volunteers at a youth center near his first foster home. He’s going to start med school next fall. Following in Dad’s footsteps. Unlike me, who just wants to cozy up to football players.”
“Well, something tells me your parents are proud of you either way.”“You’d love my parents. My mom is so silly. She’s so much fun, and my dad, he’s just a good person.”
“I think it takes a genuinely good person to do the work he does.”“It does.”
“I’d love to meet them,” Camila said.
“You would? But I thought—”
“If your next statement has anything to do with anything Benny or Cleo said, I’m going to kill them,” she said.
“Well, Natasha and Rodrick too. I just figured…”
“If you want me to, I can meet them. It’ll have to be at night, of course, and they can’t exactly know what I am, but I can still meet them.”
“What about your fancy teeth?”
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Camila opened her mouth. I blinked three or four times. The sharp tips of her fangs were there one second and gone the next.
“How’d you do that?”
Camila shrugged. When she opened her mouth to speak, the sharp tips were back. “It takes a little effort, but it’s not impossible.”
“I’d love for you to meet them.” To express my gratitude, I kissed her softly on the lips, giving myself a hint of her delicious taste.I hadn’t realized how hungry I was until the sushi hit the table.
Camila watched me demolish almost an entire spider roll before I realized she wasn’t eating. I grinned at her, my mouth full of crab, avocado, and rice.
“You are so adorable, Red.” She picked up the last piece and put it between her perfect lips.
I swallowed and took a sip of my water. “Sorry. Those pancakes wore off some time around two.”
“Don’t apologize. Eat all you want and then tell me more.”
The years between my adoption and the moment I met Amy, had been pretty boring. Camila still wanted to know everything about me. I bragged shamelessly about my straight A’s in math, which she seemed to appreciate. I told her about my four year run on an undefeated field hockey team, the many things I’d learned about the perks of paper over plastic, how much I loved Starbursts.
We got on the subject of friends and relationships. I explained to her that school took priority over boys and how I started to realize boys might not have been on my mind at all. My prom date had been a last minute thing with a friend who’d just gotten dumped. I’d planned on going stag. Then I accidentally told her about how my summer ended with my first kiss.
“About that,” she said playfully. “You hinted you were a virgin when we met.”
“Stop. I know what you’re getting at.” I knew this would come up. I was virgin, technically, in the sense that I’d never been with anyone else, but I knew she would question how easily she’d been able to slip sometimes three fingers inside me without a single protest.