‘Keep going!’ Jatal urged. ‘Make for the stairs!’
The group charged. Swords slashed and the creatures fell. Yet more of them surged from behind, falling upon the guards and dragging them down below the water to disappear. Jatal rushed for the stairs. He shouldered his way through the melee. The man holding the lantern fell, his scream ending in a mouthful of the foul water. The light snuffed out, hissing.
Jatal blundered on, reaching the stairs and finding the opening by slamming an elbow into its stone lip. He charged up without pause. He leaned against a wall to support himself and when that wall ended in an opening he tumbled into a side chamber, crashing into furniture that broke beneath him. Yet he managed to keep Andanii out of the way, cushioning her with his own body. He laid her down and bent over her. In the absolute dark he remembered his waist pouch and a nub of candle that he kept there. He found it and the small tinderbox. He set the box on the cold stone floor, opened it, and set to striking into it. The flashing sparks each revealed the room for an instant, leaving lingering after-images of a broken frail desk, of walls dark with painted frescoes.
The tinder lit and he gently blew. He used it to light the thin wick. The candle caught, filling the room with a light that was incredibly bright to his starved eyes. He took Andanii’s head on to his lap. ‘Andanii – my princess … can you hear me?’
The eyelids fluttered. A smile came to the lips – followed by a wash of blood that spilled down her chin. As awareness rose within
her
, the smile twisted into a panicked grimace and her hands fought him then clenched his arms. ‘
Flee
…’ she breathed.
All anger was gone from him now. All resentment. He thought he understood her at last. She’d had ambition and the ruthlessness to chase it. In short … he’d cursed her for doing nothing more than acting like a man. Acting as any of his brothers would have done. For acting as he could not bring himself to do.
‘I understand,’ he whispered to her tenderly. ‘You made your choices. Why should I be resentful? You acted in the best interests of your people.’
She smiled now, almost wistfully. ‘You understand … do you?’ She gripped him tighter, convulsing. ‘Jatal – my prince … promise me this … Promise!’
He ducked his head. Tears fell from his eyes to wash the blood from her cheek. ‘I promise.’
She nodded, easing her arms. ‘Good … Go. Flee. Return to the tents of the Adwami. Read your books. Write your poetry. And try … try to forgive me …’
‘Forgive! Andanii … You are my life!’ But she did not answer. Her head eased to one side.
Jatal pressed his own hot face to her cooling cheek and wept.
How long he crouched there, trembling and weeping, he knew not. At length, he gently set her head down on the cold stone and rose. He picked up the tiny stub of candle. Its weak light barely illuminated the room yet he could make out a painting of a dark throne and a seated figure. Its face had been chiselled from the stone – deliberately disfigured. He was hardly conscious of his surroundings as he staggered into the hall.
What followed struck him as a carnival of horrors. Nightmare images came and went as he stumbled through room after room. Which were real, and which he imagined, he did not know. At one point he lurched into a horde of the black-robed children all gathered around a corpse, feeding. As one they raised their pale faces to him, their mouths bright crimson.
But no … their mouths had been sewn closed
…
At some point later he faced a lone Thaumaturg in an empty hallway. Half the man’s head was gone, smashed in by a brutal blow. Yet awareness and intelligence filled the remaining eye. This wandering eye found him, and winked. ‘Where does life end?’ the man asked, his voice listless and dull. ‘With the mind or with the heart?’
Then the mage stiffened. The single eye widened; awareness of some secret known only to him dilated the pupil. The mouth opened
as
if he would speak but only fouled fluids poured out in a thick dark red sheen. He toppled – but not before the ghost of a sad smile touched those painted lips. Behind stood the begrimed and blood-smeared figure of a shaduwam. He held out his hand to show something to Jatal. It was a lump of muscle; a heart still quivering.
The shaduwam raised it to his mouth and took a great bite. Swallowing, he licked his lips. All the while his eyes gripped Jatal’s numbed gaze, eyes like black subterranean pools. ‘That is where we differed,’ he explained. ‘They say the mind. We say the heart.’
Everything came crashing down upon Jatal at that moment and he staggered against a wall. His stomach heaved and he vomited up what little remained. He felt as if he were sinking into that abyssal underground pool of icy water, drowning. He tried to speak but nothing came. The darkness swallowed him.
Roaring woke him. A distant constant roar as of a storm, or a herd of horses running. He raised his head, blinking. He sat beneath a smoke-filled night sky. The moon, which had been waxing, shone a watery silver light that was occluded by the burgeoning Visitor whose jade glare nearly flickered, so near did it loom. He was among a crowd of men and women: a mix of Adwami troopers, Thaumaturg acolytes and civilian peasants. Even one or two of the foreign mercenaries sat with them, their heads hanging. Everyone bore wounds, from sword strikes to beatings. All were disarmed.
They were crowded together in one of the stone courtyards of the Thaumaturgs’ Inner City. Shaduwam priests carrying clubs and staves guarded them. Now and then, two of the Agon priests came to collect one of the captives and drag him or her up the stairs and into what Jatal presumed was a temple or cloister. What went on within, he did not have to imagine.
Dully, he noticed that the roaring came from without – from beyond the tall walls of the Inner City where plumes of smoke coiled all about. The noise resolved into the sound of a city that has roused itself like a kicked beast. It struck him that even an anthill would rally to defend itself when disturbed. He hoped that Pinal had had the sense to pull the Hafinaj from the engagement. Yet he registered the concern distantly, and hazily.
Nothing, it seemed, troubled him at all at this moment. Not even his impending death at the hands of these betraying defilers. The only thing able to raise a slight crease in his brows was the utter stupid waste of it all. What could the damned Warleader hope to gain from all this? He could not possibly hope to rule here. Nor among
the
Adwami. What was his purpose – beyond the sowing of chaos and destruction? No doubt such was the goal of the shaduwam: the eradication of their rivals. But what of this old traitor general – if that was what he was. Mere vengeance? All this blood merely to wipe out the sting of some thwarted or blocked ambition? The idea that this was all his own life – and the lives of all those who had fallen around him – was worth just made him tired. In fact, everything made him tired now. Every breath. The idea of continuing to live through the next moment utterly exhausted him.
The group of captives dwindled as the night wore on. Eventually, as he knew they would, two Agon priests came for him. They had to lift him by the arms as he made no effort to put strength into his legs – he saw no reason to cooperate. Oddly, he felt as if he was watching the proceedings as from a great distance, looking down on a play, or a dance of meaningless shadow figures.
They dragged him up the stairs and into the darkened hall. Pools and streaks of messy deaths marred the polished set flags of the floor, as did bloody handprints and smears on the walls. Tapestries lay torn and wet with fluids. The heat of many fires struck him as a furnace exhalation and made him drowsy. He hardly registered a thick greasy miasma of roasting flesh.
A shout halted the two dragging him along. Another priest stood before him; Jatal raised his gaze up the man’s completely naked form, caked in drying gore, to the grimed shining face and wild, mud-hardened nest of kinked hair. The man smiled a mouthful of small white teeth filed to sharp points. He looked vaguely familiar.
‘Greetings, Prince Jatal of the Hafinaj,’ the Agon priest announced. He motioned and the two holding Jatal released his arms. Jatal straightened, swaying slightly. ‘I am told you are an educated man. A philosopher.’ He gestured for Jatal to join him. ‘Come. You may appreciate this.’
‘If you would take my heart – go ahead,’ he told the priest. ‘You are welcome to it. I have no more use for it.’
The priest gave a small deprecatory wave. Jatal now recognized him as the one who had confronted their council what seemed now so long ago. ‘If that is truly the case then we do not want it. We are only interested in what others value.’
Jatal frowned, puzzled. ‘You mean gold?’
‘Oh no. Not wealth. I mean what people
really
value about themselves.’ He leaned close to whisper and Jatal smelled the stink of rotting flesh. ‘The delusions people hold about themselves.’ The priest took his arm to usher him into a side chamber. Here a figure
writhed
, gagged and bound, on one of the ubiquitous stone operating platforms. It was a Thaumaturg captive. Shaduwam priests appeared to be in the process of burning the flesh from him piece by piece. They pressed white-hot irons to him then lifted them away taking the melted flesh with them. The figure flinched and squirmed with the hiss and smoke of every application.
‘So much for their vaunted negation of the flesh,’ the priest murmured, sounding greatly satisfied.
Jatal understood now; it came to him as an epiphany that somehow lightened the load upon his shoulders. ‘For you there is only the flesh.’
The priest smiled, pleased. ‘Exactly, my prince. I knew you would see through to the truth of it. For us there is only the flesh. No good or bad. Only the flesh and its demands. We are all nothing more than that. Why deny it? It follows, then, that there are no opposites. Nothing can be said to be negative, or positive.’ He waved his hand dismissing all such figments as he urged Jatal along. ‘That is all illusion. Constructs of epistemologies that are at their root flawed, deluded, or self-serving.’
Jatal felt dizzy once more. ‘You are saying that morality is an arbitrary construct?’
The priest steadied him as they came to a large chamber. He brightened even more. ‘Exactly!’ He squeezed Jatal’s arm. ‘You
are
a philosopher. You begin to see the absurdity of it all, yes?’
Jatal knew he ought to argue, but a strange numbing fog smothered his mind. He strove to rally his thoughts, but all that fell away when he saw that the room ahead was an assembly hall. Corpses littered it; the Thaumaturgs appeared to have put up quite a resistance here. But what he’d seen so far of the shaduwam suggested they were even more fanatical. At the end of the hall, slouched in a high-backed chair carved from black stone, was the Warleader. Shaduwam attended him. They were attempting to treat a wound in his side – though he still wore his mail armour. The priest marched Jatal straight up to him.
Something about this man seated in a tall chair, his mail hood thrown back, his long iron-grey hair sweaty, his gaze utterly dismissive, sent a chill up Jatal’s back that was so strong it penetrated the strange numbing haze that blanketed his thoughts.
‘Why is this one here?’ the Warleader demanded of the priest.
‘You are done with him?’
‘Yes.’
Jatal hardly understood that they were discussing him. All he
knew
was that he faced his rival. He swallowed to clear his throat. ‘She’s dead,’ he murmured – or tried to.
The Warleader eyed him, frowning. ‘What’s that?’
‘She is dead. Andanii is dead.’
Pain twisted the man’s features. He gestured impatiently to the priests who were busy lighting candles and preparing some sort of draught. ‘Do not despair,’ he told Jatal, his voice tight. ‘Soon you will be as well.’
Puzzlement and outrage wormed their way through the fog of Jatal’s thoughts. He stood weaving, suddenly exhausted beyond all effort. ‘That is all you have to say? After all she chose to give you?’
The Warleader’s thick brows rose. ‘Ahh,’ he breathed. ‘I understand. All she gave me, you say. She gave me a great deal of her time, that is true.’ He pointed to the tall tankard of fluids the priests were mixing. ‘Now!’ he ordered. ‘We will do this now.’
‘But … my lord …’ one objected. ‘You must prepare further.’
‘Do you question me?’
The priest fell to his knees. ‘Forgive me, lord.’
The Warleader gestured impatiently for the drink. Another of the shaduwam handed it to him. He drank it in a long series of swallows, wiped the spilled thick dark fluids from his beard. He regarded Jatal once again with his dead flat eyes. ‘She encouraged me to talk – to tell stories. And I did. More than I ought to have. I was perhaps pleased by her attentions though I certainly knew better. And from listening to me all those evenings your princess came closest of anyone to grasping a certain secret. One not even she could believe. One she dared not pass on to anyone – not even to you. Especially not to you.’
He pointed to a lit candle and a priest brought it to him. The Warleader passed a hand through its smoke, wafting it to his face and inhaling deeply. This he did several times. Jatal assumed he was deadening the pain of the wound in his side, from which a great deal of blood had spilled to smear his armour.
‘And so, my prince,’ the man said, straightening, ‘I choose to give you something in her honour. Something which you do not want. Because, you see, I understand you now. You are just like me. You are a jealous man.’ He reached out and pulled a gripping tool from the table nearby. It was an instrument Jatal had seen physicians using in field infirmaries. ‘Now,’ he said through gritted teeth.