Authors: Jessica Miles
“Look Ethan, I am really attracted to you. I just need to get my head around this vampire thing. I am not about to run off screaming just yet. I know you won’t hurt me, you have had plenty of opportunity to do that. And I do want to see how it goes. But at the same time I am thinking this is totally crazy stuff and I can’t process it at all. I am going to lie down for a bit. I want to think. Come and see me in an hour, please…”
She walked out of the den and back to her room in a daze of conflicting emotions. She lay on the bed and thought about calling Adam. No can do… what would she say? Oh, you were right Ad, they are a little weird. In fact they are all bloodsucking vampires actually and she’d been bitten and Ethan had drank her blood!
She laughed out loud at the thought of it. He’d think she’d lost her marbles… or would he? Dear Adam… he’d tried to warn her off. He didn’t know the details, she was absolutely sure of that, but he felt she shouldn’t have come here for some good reason. At this moment she did not know if she should stay or not.
She was so very attracted to him. He was still Ethan, and actually, strangely, he was even more attractive to her now that she knew. It must be the danger element stirring up her blood. She was risking body and soul to be with him… or was she, he didn’t seem that threatening? She was suddenly overcome by mental and physical exhaustion. She closed her eyes and drifted off into a light slumber. She dreamt of the heady coppery tang of blood in her mouth, pointed white fangs and steamy hot sex under the stars…
Chapter 19
“Serena. Wake up…”
He was sitting on the bed next to her with a hot drink in a mug. She thought how ridiculous it was. A vampire making tea! She sat up and took it. Peppermint tea. Perfect! She was so thirsty. She drank it quickly despite the searing heat and enjoyed the burning sensation as it went down.
“Where do you get blood from?” She asked. “Do you ever kill people, suck them dry?” She was wary of what the answer would be…
“No vampire should kill a human these days. This is the modern world and we have rules. Besides, there is little point in killing your source of nourishment, is there? We simply entrance people and then suck a little blood. It is a very quick process from beginning to end – And no, I can see what you are thinking – they do not get the full works, not like you did! I am very choosy. Although we’re not all like that of course…. Anyway, our food sources do not feel anything and hardly remember a thing. We have some emergency blood supplies in the house and we can hunt animals if we fancy it, but I never have.”
“So how often do you need to do this… find people to bite?” She asked intrigued
“Once a week is enough for food. But some like to do it more. It is a rather a turn on and some are addicted to that alone. But here’s the thing Serena… Vampires can bite each other, if we want to. If you and I mate, I could bite you before I start to weaken or get bloodlust, it wouldn’t hurt your body. It would be just like it was last night. You will feed me. If you turn, then I can feed you. We will be able feed each other. We have the perfect blood match which is far more satisfying than randomly chosen blood types from a multitude of other sources. We won’t have to look elsewhere for blood. We won’t have a craving for that. You are just the mate I have been waiting for, for so very long… I love the scent of you, the taste of your blood and the sight of you arouses me like nothing else. I can imagine you would become the most beautiful vampire – we very rarely have natural blond ones, for some reason they are usually dark like my adopted family.”
“So, if I did mate with you, would I be expected to live here permanently?” this was an important question she needed answering.
“You can live wherever you like. But yes I would like you to be here with me as much as possible, for us to bond and mate often. If you were not here, I would feel lonely without you. I am sure you will come to feel that way too.”
“But you go to work Ethan! What would I do all day?”
“You can still work. We’ll have to work that out, won’t we! Nothing much will change. You can learn to eat and drink and behave like a human if you turn… otherwise, nothing need change, if you don’t want it to.”
“Would I ever be able to have children?”
“Ah well that’s one of those little things we are missing that I mentioned last night. Children are not possible between two vampires, female vampires are sterile. But between a female human and a vampire… yes, it happens. Quite frequently actually. Male vampires tend to think long and hard before they allow procreation to take place. It’s quite different to having sex… quite a separate function for the body.” He paused and looked off into space for a moment before continuing. “The child will be born human and remain that way until puberty and then start to turn vampire naturally. You would really have to consider if you want a vampire son and daughter as ultimately that’s what you will have. Serena, look you are jumping ahead here – let’s just take this one thing at a time. You don’t need to make any decisions now at all. Don’t try and cross all the t’s and dot all the i’s at once…! ”
“Okay, but just one more little thing Ethan… Exactly how old are you?”
Chapter 20
She looked at her 182 year old lover’s beautiful red eyes in amazement.
“That’s quite enough questions for now. Let’s have some more recreation time… do you feel up to it now?” he asked smiling at her seductively.
“Well, if you really do promise you won’t bite me again. I want to feel the real you this time. No funny blood sucking business, okay?” She asked for reassurance.
She really was rather keen to do this with him, despite his revelations. It all excited her more than she would ever have believed. He excited her, whatever he was.
He got up and pressed a few buttons on a control panel in the wall behind her.
“I would like something musical to get us started…. How about this, do you like it?”
He sat down next to her smiling as the long strange intro started.
“Oh, I think I have heard this before, what’s it called, remind me?” She asked.
“It’s called ‘High for This’. It has become one of my favourite songs of late. I have set up another five after this… that should keep us going for a while, don’t you think?”
Sweet chills ran up and down her body as she listened to the sensual haunting track and the words. Very appropriate, she thought.…
“Serena, I want to rock your little world…” He said. He lay aside of her, just looking for some time. As he started to undress her, she still couldn’t quite believe it! She had just given a real living vampire permission to make love to her…
He started his seduction of her. His mouth was hot and it traveled fleetingly everywhere, followed closely by his warm fingers, whipping up a frenzied reaction from her. Her body arched up. She was heating up inside, a flame forming in her heart and mind and she was moaning loudly with want. He picked her up like a doll and sat her down on his lap gently easing himself inside her.
“I want us to enjoy this slow human part for a little while longer… before I pick up the tempo.” He said softly against her ear, breathing heavily. She crossed her legs tightly behind his back, squeezing him deep inside her. He played with her hair, twirling it round and round in his fingers. They sat locked together, facing each other with daylight streaming in through the window and bathing them in beautiful dappled golden rays. She imagined the scene they portrayed. Dark immortal entwined with fair mortal. He smiled at her and her heart skipped a beat.
“Serena, touch me. Do whatever comes into your head……” He said softly. She cautiously started exploring him, a little unsure….. This was the first man she had ever really touched at all and he felt amazing beneath her hands and lips. She could hear his response in his breathing and his skin started to radiate heat beneath her hands and mouth. He certainly felt human enough to her right at this moment, especially the large hard part inside of her. She became more confident and forceful… scraping her nails lightly across his back and chest.
“I like that” he murmured sighing… “Do it much harder, you won’t hurt me….”
He leaned his head back as she started to treat him a little roughly. She dug her nails in hard, kissed and licked his face, nibbled his ears quite sharply and sucked his neck and wondered for an instant if she would ever bite him properly there and suck his blood ….
Then she switched off those thoughts in a creative and playful mood, as she heard him sighing louder…. And she continued her fun and games.
“Ready to be rocked?” he asked after a little while and she nodded. He held her against him, her legs were still locked tightly around him and they were suddenly rolling from the bed to the air and down again, her hair whipping around them. He left the bed and launched them off around the room in a whirl or blurred jumps and mid air rolls interspersed with some rather hard hitting fast sex up the wall, on the floor and across the bed that took her breath away and left her dizzy….
Oh my God in Heaven… none of this is possible! She told herself in a completely stunned state of mind.
This wonderful, perfect, wild and handsome creature wanted her as his mate. How could she ever belong to another now?
Chapter 21
She awoke some time later filled with a marvelous glowing feeling. She reached out for Ethan but the bed was cold and empty. He had left her again. Why did he leave her? It was incredibly upsetting. She lay still in the settling dusk of the evening. She started to feel cold and very hungry. She wrapped herself in the bed cover and wandered into the kitchen for some food. She remembered seeing a fruit bowl there. Purely meant for her of course! She stuffed her face greedily eating three bananas and two apples and made her way back to her bed. Her mind was meandering through the events of the last day. She started to get small pricks of concern prodding through her initial outer contentment.
Serry, what in God’s name are you doing? Her sense and logic asked her. What about Adam, her parents, her friends. She may have to give all that up for a man, if that was the right term to use, whom she didn’t really know. Would she ever know him… he was after all a vampire. Whatever Ethan said, things would change, she was sure of it. If she was to become his mate, she would certainly not be human for very much longer, it would be inevitable.
She started battling with her inner demons. She could not stop thinking about how it was when they were together, it was so nuclear hot. It could be even better if she were to change. But there are some really big negatives… she thought… no children, ever! She just couldn’t do that to a child. condemning an innocent to vampirism without a choice. No enjoyment of food, or the sun… just blood lust for ever more. She would be his plaything, despite his assurances about a job and working… She started to wonder exactly what had happened to his previous lovers. Where had they gone, those other unsuitable immortal women?
She discussed her options inside herself for a long time. It was now late evening. She got up and showered. Her stomach clenched tightly with nerves at what she needed to do. She must not waiver or she would be lost. She packed her bag and went to find Ethan. He was lying asleep on his midnight blue bed. She shook him with a firm resolution in her mind.
“Ethan… take me home now please.” She said as his eyes flickered open. She looked into the red circles hardening her resolve even further, trying desperately not to feel anything. He leaned up on his elbow.
“Why Serena…. What have I done?” he asked her with a pained look.
“Nothing, I can’t fault anything you have done … you make me feel simply amazing. You
are
amazing! I just need to go home and think about us. I really can’t do that here. You are far too… sexy, enticing and exciting. I can’t think at all.” She said honestly.
“No, please stay Serena… you don’t need to think – just feel. Feel me, us…” He urged. “Feelings tell you the truth…. We won’t mention the future. I just want you here with me now – I have wonderful things to show you…. Don’t you want some more of me soon Serry… a little more fun together….?” His voice trailed off with a hurt tone emerging…
“No. Just take me home now, please!” She said with her voice rising and her desperation emerging. “Please Ethan, if you feel anything for me. Take me home right now.”
“I promised you I would do whatever you want.” He said a little coldly as he got up and slipped on his clothes.
Their journey home was not a pleasant one for either of them. He was distant, moody and silent driving her home. She looked out of the window; her thoughts were jumbled and swung 180 degrees between begging him to take her back to his place again and keeping to her plan to go home… She sat in a highly pensive mood, miles away and in acute emotional pain. They drew up to her flat and she turned to face him.
“Ethan. I won’t be coming back to work again obviously.” He nodded and sighed. “I would like you to find me another job please. I have very little money. Unlike you I need to work. And, Ethan, I need a few days alone.” She got out her phone. “Put your phone number in here and I will call you by the middle of the week.” He put his number in.
“Are you really sure this is what you want right now Serena?” He asked looking at her so intensely she felt her heart ache. She thought she might be more than a little in love with him. She leaned over and kissed him for a long time, very thoroughly and left the car.
She closed the door of the flat and leaned against it. She felt so safe. She was home. Inside these walls there would be no entrancements or deception, no high speed sex, erotic biting, euphoric serums or blood lust going on. This was a purely human domain. Tears started to stream down her face. She was so confused, she wanted him so badly.
Why did he have to be who he was?
She burst into wracking sobs and slid down the door to the floor. Adam appeared in the hallway with Phil.
“Serry – what on earth has happened?” he rushed up to her and took her through into the living room.
“Shall I go?” asked Phil, but she didn’t want him to. The more humans around her the better just now. She felt safer and everything seemed more real. More human in fact!