BLUE ICE (ICE SERIES) (28 page)

              ‘Say it.’

              ‘I want you.’

              ‘My name.’

              ‘I want you Dylan.’

              The energy inside me was building quickly and he noticed it, in this short time he already knew my body better than I did. He released my hand and put it over his neck and then his free hand went to my face.

              ‘You are perfect, the most beautiful woman.’

              Those words made the stars come down, he gripped me harder and exploded inside me. He kissed me and remained inside me while laying me on top of him over the bed.

              I did it, I said what I wanted, and he gave it to me, in the most perfect way possible. This was getting better and for the first time I was feeling safe with this agreement.

              I had never been comfortable with physical contact, but this was something different. I was in his arms, over him and being caressed by this perfect Mr. Bastard and yet I was comfortable, relaxed, happy. Maybe this could be something good, maybe I was not about to be a lonely crazy cat spinster. For the first time I felt I could have someone in my life. And this gave me peace.

              My eyelids started to win the battle, his heart beat was relaxing me.

              ‘Katherine.’

              ‘Mhm…’

              ‘You are moving to Chicago, I already have the apartment, it is close to mine. You’ll be there all the time, you don’t have to work anymore, we’ll see each other every day. We’ll have this every day.’

              Oh baby don’t! please don’t!
I fought with myself not to kick his ass in that moment, I just stood up, put on my clothes as fast as I could and didn’t even turn to his way.

              ‘What are you doing?’

              ‘Leaving.’

              ‘Why?’

              I gave it a long thought, but I had made a promise, I was not running, I was leaving him and I needed to explain to him why. ‘As you should have read on my Harvard application, I’ve never wanted to be a high class escort.’

              ‘Katherine, this won’t be like that.’ He was stubborn about this, his voice commanding me.

              ‘How it will be, Dylan? Because to me it sounds as if you want your booty call as close as you can have it; available all the time to please you whenever you like. Will you leave money at my bed every day? Sorry, Berkeley, but I am not that girl.’

              He got angry, even more bitter than me. ‘You are so goddam’ impossible! Why are you so fucking closed!?’

              ‘Because I don’t want to give up my life to be your sex conquest, I am closed?’ I raised my voice to his same level, neither of us was going to give up.

              ‘What do you want Katherine?’

              I stayed quiet for a while, but since this was it, I could speak my mind with no shame.

              ‘I want it all, not today, but I know at some point I will want a ring, the big wedding and the kids. I.want.it.all!’

              ‘I can’t give you that.’

              His eyes were cold, he didn’t even think about his answer, he already knew that.

              ‘And I am not asking it from YOU! I thought we had an agreement; that it would work for a while. But what you want now is not going to happen. If I am closed because of that, so be it.’

              ‘No, you’re closed, because you’re so afraid to feel something that you always choose to run, this is not about Chicago, this is about your fucking closed self!’

              That one hurt, it burned my soul, but I was too proud to let him know that. I just walked away with the little dignity that I had left, hearing him in the background.

              ‘Max, take Ms. Bianchi home please.’

              The last words I heard from him, and he was calling me Ms. Bianchi again. This time he was not following me, he was not running behind me. I knew this had an expiration date, it had been a hell of a long one night stand, but it was over, this was goodbye.

Coming Soon

Ice Series 2

The end of Katherine’s and Dylan’s story

ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

I can’t believe I did this! After being against reading my whole life, Miss E.L. James changed my point of view about the literary world. Kudos to you ma’am!

Of course I have to thank the most important people in my life, my dear family who I dedicate this few pages and my whole life. Also the bunch of friends who accepts my crazyness. Nin and Qk my Grey’s sisters and best friends, Ale who never asked what that picture was for; and my amazing bro’s who probably will never know about this. Also Bibi, my copyright guru and spiritual guide into bitchiness.

My betas! When I was being rejected by the agents’ world as a fat kid in the friend zone, you were the ones who encouraged me to keep going. Specially, Sabrina, Leta and Christie, you are my girls, and I hope you’ll still be there for the ones to come, I can’t thank you enough.

My favorite writers, you helped me without even knowing it. The time you took to answer an email (Sylvain Reynard, Jamie McGuire, H.M. Ward), to tweet me back (Jodie Ellen Malpas, Rachel Van Dyken), or just to make me laugh (Alice Clayton, Kristen Proby, Samantha Young); makes me admire you.

And to you, who read this and hopefully like it (if you didn’t, just act as if you did). I love you for trying!

Un beso,

C.

PS: Yes, this is stupid, and yes, I am going to do it: To MY Blue Eyes, perfect Mr. David Gandy. (He’s too perfect not to do it.)

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