“Okay.”
He cinched the saddle on his horse. “You sure? You didn’t come to me willingly.”
She did the same to her own horse, then turned to him. “I just did.”
His lips lifted. “So you did.” He moved over to her and stood behind the right stirrup. “Let me help you.”
She shivered as he cupped his hands around her waist, then held on to her while she laid her foot in the stirrup. With ease, he lifted her onto the saddle. Even though she’d been doing this since she was a child and she could ride a horse blindfolded, without moonlight and stars, his chivalry was romantic.
“Thanks,” she said as she sat her horse.
“Don’t thank me. I just wanted to look up your skirt.”
She blushed crimson, but couldn’t help the thrill of delight that a man like Gage found her attractive.
He climbed onto his horse, then led them out of the barn and shut the doors behind him. There was a full moon tonight, which meant they needed nothing else to light their way. They traveled side by side at first, since there was plenty of room on the dusty, unpaved road. Brea enjoyed the silence, the breathtaking night, inhaling air and just being next to a man like Gage.
“When was the last time you rode?” he asked, finally breaking the silence between them.
She shifted her gaze to him, noticing how easy he was in the saddle, as if he’d been riding a long time. If you spent any time on a ranch, especially around horses, you knew who were greenhorns or pretenders and who were true ranch folk, comfortable with the country lifestyle. Gage rode easy, his body one with the saddle and the horse. He had a good command of the animal, held the reins lightly in one hand as if he knew exactly what his horse was going to do.
“It’s been a few years. Probably three or four.”
He nodded. “You ride easy, like you haven’t forgotten.”
She smiled. “My daddy put us all on horses as soon as we could sit upright. First we rode with him, then as soon as our mom wasn’t hysterical about us falling off, we rode alone.”
“Good idea. You like riding?”
“I used to love it.”
“Used to?”
“When I lived here I rode all the time. You could almost never get me to climb into any of the vehicles if I could ride instead.”
“You liked it here.”
She studied the landscape, the way the gray light of the moon washed across the scrub of the prairie. It was stark, serene, as if she and Gage were the only creatures here. Besides the cattle that she heard mooing off in the distance, of course.
“Yeah, I did.”
“So what made you move to Tulsa?”
She shrugged. “I wanted something . . . more.”
“Like?”
“A few years ago I knew exactly what I’d been searching for. Excitement. City life. Something I’d never had that I thought I wanted. I’d gone to college in a small town, had grown up here, in a place that had what I thought was nothing. Tulsa isn’t exactly a major city, but it’s still a city. It had museums and movie theaters and malls and fancy restaurants.”
“And all those are things you wanted and couldn’t have out here in the middle of nowhere.”
She laughed. “Yeah.”
“So you like big city life.”
“I spend most of my time in my apartment.”
“Why?”
She shrugged. “I don’t know. I used to love being outside.”
He stopped his horse. She halted, looked over her shoulder at him. “What?”
“Something happen to spook you?”
“Here? No.”
“I don’t mean here. I mean there. In the city.”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
He inched his horse up to hers, then halted again. “You stopped going out. What does that mean? You stopped going on dates or you stopped leaving your apartment?”
“I’m not agoraphobic, Gage. I go to the gym and the grocery store and the office supply store. I’m out all the time. It’s just not the same as being here.”
“You didn’t answer my question.”
And men thought women were obtuse? “What question?”
“When was the last time you had a date?”
She stiffened. “What difference does that make?”
“Just answer the question.”
“I’ll tell if you will.”
He laughed. “Okay. I took Cheryl Daniels to the drive-in two months ago.”
She arched a brow. “Two months ago? Kind of a long time for someone like you, isn’t it?”
He tilted his head to the side. “Someone like me?”
“Yeah. Good-looking men like you don’t typically go without a woman.”
“I’d like to think I’m not typical. Now your turn.”
No, he definitely wasn’t typical at all. She inhaled and spit it out. “Two years.”
He frowned. “Why?”
Brea looked away, patted her horse’s neck. “I don’t want to talk about this.”
Gage drew closer, took her reins in his hands. “Who hurt you?”
She slid her gaze to his. “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“Some guy did a number on you.”
She hadn’t even realized they were moving again, or that Gage had control of not only his horse, but hers, too. And she wasn’t going to reply to his comment.
They rode for about forty-five minutes and Brea was pleased that she wasn’t sore from the ride, even if she hadn’t been on a horse in a long time. But she was in shape and she exercised regularly, so maybe that accounted for her ability to climb aboard and acclimate again so quickly.
She remembered this part of the ranch, though she hadn’t traveled this way for years. They arrived at the pond where her dad used to take them to fish. There was a small cabin just up the bank from the pond. It was just a one-room shack, really, but Brea recalled it had a fireplace and a bed and a sofa.
Gage stopped, got off his horse and came around to hers.
“I do know how to dismount, you know,” she said, looking down at him.
He gave her one those now-familiar half smiles she found incredibly disarming. “It’s more fun this way.” He held his arms out and she slid into them, letting him draw her to the ground. He held on to her for a few seconds, his fingers burning into the skin of her waist, before he stepped back and tethered the horses to a tree near the water.
He retrieved a blanket from the saddlebag, then pulled out a sack containing . . . something.
“Come on over here,” he said.
She thought they’d go inside, but she walked down the bank and saw him spreading the blanket out on the hill.
“What are you doing?”
He took a six-pack and a bag of chips out of the bag.
“It’s warm tonight. Thought we’d stretch out on the blanket, look at the stars and have a snack.”
She skirted her gaze to the chips and beer. “That’s the snack?”
“Yeah.”
She laughed, then sat on the blanket.
Gage stretched out on the blanket, popped open two cans of beer and handed one to her. He laid the bag of chips between them.
This had to be the strangest date she’d ever been on. No, strange wasn’t even the right word for it. Unique was the appropriate word choice.
“I like coming out here because the stars feel like they’re bearing right down on you,” Gage said, tilting his head back and looking up at the sky.
“You come out here often?”
“Yeah. Usually in the summer, on the weekends. I’ll stay in the cabin overnight, get an early start on fishing.”
Brea smiled. “My dad used to bring us girls out here when we were little. He taught us to fish in that pond.”
Gage turned his gaze to her. “Is that right?”
“Yes.” She sipped her beer. “I remember countless mornings Dad dragged us out of bed before dawn, fishing poles and tackle already loaded in the back of the pickup. We’d spend hours out here watching the sun come up. Dad said it was how we learned patience.”
Gage laughed. “It’s a good way to teach kids to be still.”
She nodded. “He didn’t much appreciate us jabbering away and scaring the fish. And teaching three impatient, wiggly, talkative little girls to shut up and be still was no easy feat.”
“Your dad sounds like he was a great man.”
“He was.”
“What about your mom?”
She grinned. “She’d pack up scrambled egg sandwiches to take along for breakfast, and cold fried chicken for lunch, but wouldn’t come with us. She said it was our time with our father. I think she said that so she could have half a day of peace and quiet to read.”
“So you got your love of reading from your mama?”
“I guess so. She was always busy doing something around the ranch. But whenever she managed to sit down she always had a book in her hand.”
“Must have been hard to lose them both.”
She stared out across the water, the memories of her parents still sweet, still painful. “It devastated us. It left a gaping hole in all three of us. Especially Valerie, who had to suddenly become mother to us all while she was barely a teenager.”
“Your uncle, I assume, was no great shakes as a parent.”
She snorted and grabbed a handful of chips. “He was legally our guardian, but he didn’t know the first thing about raising children. The man didn’t have a warm bone in his entire body.”
“Yeah, I got that impression having worked for him. Must have been hard on all of you.”
“We had Lila, and she was full of love and hugs. But it wasn’t the same. No one can replace your mother.”
She munched on chips and wished she hadn’t revealed so much. It made her heart hurt to relive the anguish of losing her parents. And now she’d laid a melancholy downer on her time with Gage. Great. Just great.
“I’m sorry,” she said, wrapping her fingers around the can of beer.
He reached over and cupped her neck, drawing her attention to his face. “Sorry for what?”
“For dragging sadness and death and such a depressing conversation into our night together.”
“Hey, I’m the one who brought the topic up. If I didn’t want to know how you felt about it all, I wouldn’t have asked.”
“Still, I could have just been vague.”
“Why? I’m here with you because I want to know about you. I want to know how you feel, who you are. And that means where you came from, what events shaped you.”
Who was this guy? Cowboys weren’t . . . deep. Not the ones she’d always known, anyway. Even the city guys she’d dated couldn’t care less about who she was or where she’d come from.
It was clear Gage was some kind of alien life form and not a regular guy.
“So now it’s your turn. Tell me about yourself.”
“Not much to tell, really. I was born in Denver, raised there.”
She cocked her head to the side. “A city boy?”
He nodded. “Yup. A city boy.”
“I wouldn’t have imagined it. So where did your love of horses come from?”
“I had a friend who had a ranch, and I spent summers there starting when I was twelve. It was either that or trips to Europe with my parents, and I wasn’t interested.”
Her jaw went slack. “Your parents went to Europe every summer?”
“Yeah.”
“You must come from a wealthy family.”
“You could say that.”
She realized she didn’t know Gage at all, and what she thought she knew about him was dead wrong. “So you stayed with your friend on the ranch instead of summering with your parents? Why?”
He shrugged. “I liked the horses there, liked working with them. Gave me a chance to do something physical that meant something, rather than loafing and skiing. I’m not much of a skier.”
“Bet that’s blasphemy to those who come from Colorado.”
He laughed. “Yeah, my family wasn’t too happy that I didn’t take to skiing. Or their jet-setting lifestyle.”
“So how did you end up here?”
“After a couple years in college I realized that the family business just wasn’t for me. I dropped out and got a job on a ranch. Been working with horses ever since.”
“And your family?”
His smile disappeared. “My father died about five years ago.”
She laid her hand on his arm. “I’m so sorry, Gage.”
“I wasn’t very close to him. My mom remarried a couple years ago.”
“I see. Did you go to the wedding?”
“No.”
“Why not?”
“Because that family really isn’t my family anymore. I never really belonged there.”
“How can you say that? It’s your mother.”
“True, but I had a younger brother, too, and he’s everything . . . I’m not. He’s a great skier, went to college, continued on the family business.”
“So? I’m sure they don’t love you any less because you chose a different path.”
He snorted. “You don’t know my family.”
She squeezed his arm. “You can’t mean that.”
“Hey, I’m fine with it. I chose who and what I wanted to be, and they disagreed with my choice. I’m free of all their expectations now.”
Brea sighed, wondering how it felt to have that kind of pressure on you to be someone you knew in your heart you couldn’t be. It made her feel very lucky that she had her sisters. They might fight and argue, and she might have left, but she knew she could always come home, that no matter what separated them, they would always love one another.
“Family should love you no matter what,” she said.
“That’s the way it’s supposed to work. In some families it doesn’t. And when it doesn’t, you’re better off without.”
“I’m sorry for that, Gage.”
He smoothed his hand over her hair. “Don’t be sorry for me. I like my life. I’m free to go where I want, do what I want and be whoever I want to be. No one has any expectations of me and I like it like that.”
She stared at him, and it finally dawned on her why he’d said he was unable to commit to a relationship. And that’s why he drifted from place to place—because he didn’t want anyone to tie him down like his family had tried to do. Now she understood and she admired even more his ability to be his own man.