Burning Ember (64 page)

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Authors: Darby Briar

It seems like forever before he nods once. He shifts his gaze to Warner, kneels down and growls low, “If she wasn’t watchin’ I’d make you suffer. Suffer until you were beggin’ for death.” He forces Warner’s arms out to his side, stands over him and aims. In a voice laced with promise, he says, “We’ll meet again in Hell, motherfucker. You can bet your ass you’ll pay then.” He pumps five holes into Warner. A shot in each of his hands, two in his chest, and one in his forehead.

A star.

The sign of both heaven and hell.

Warner’s body jolts with each bullet and blood blooms from each wound, and only when it’s finished, do I know I’m rid of him. That he’ll never again hurt me or the people I love.

A door opens and I hear shouts. A few seconds later, a small body slams into mine stealing the last of my strength. As I fall to my knees, I wrap my arms around Will who’s shaking and sobbing.

Then Mav’s there palming my face and whispering, “I’m so sorry, baby. I didn’t know. I didn’t know she was in there.” He kisses my temple and wraps his arms around both Will and me. In that moment, the blanket of comfort and safety comes back. Or at least it does until I remember why I can’t close my eyes just yet.

I gasp, “Oh, God. Sunny!” I raise my head and meet Mav’s eyes.

“Where?”

“In the SUV.” Mav stands and rushes to the SUV. He searches the back seat and then moves to the back of the vehicle. He leaves my sight and a few moments later, he reappears carrying my sister in his arms.

Smoke steps in front of him. He stares at my sister. “That’s my daughter,” he says gruffly. “My Sun. Isn’t that right, baby girl?” He holds his arms out and Mav gently slides her into his waiting arms.

“Y-you . . . didn’t c-come back . . . back for me.”

Hearing Sunny speak fills me with both hope and fear. Hope because she’s alive. But fear, because she’s struggling to speak simple words.

“I know, and I’ll regret it. Regret it every goddamn day of my life. But I’m here now, Sun. And I ain’t ever leavin’ you. You hear me?”

The warm blanket returns. Mav holds me once more. My saint and my sinner. My dark angel.

I close my eyes and I feel him softly brush my hair from my face and kiss the corner of my mouth. “Doll, open your eyes, baby. Open those pretty eyes and look at me.” His voice has an echo quality to it. “Ember. Please, baby.”

But no matter how hard I try, I can’t. I can’t meet his stare this time. The weight of the pain is too much, and my eyelids are just too heavy.

I fall into that deep river of warmth and let it surround me until it is the only thing I feel.

Losing someone we love shows us how much better we should have loved.

MAVERICK

Do you know what it feels like to have the woman you love wilt in your arms? To see the life leave her eyes, and feel it fade from her body?

It feels like the air you breathe no longer exists. Like the sun on your skin will never shine again because God himself is reaching down to pluck her from your strong and capable hands, silently telling you that the treasure he entrusted you with, you no longer deserve. And I can do
nothing
. . . not a damn thing to make it right.

Those feelings sweep through me as Ember closes her eyes and her strength drains from her limbs. They latch around my throat as I hand her frail body over to the emergency room nurses and doctors to work on. They consume me as I pace in the waiting room, and they continue to hold me speechless for two weeks.

Because even when she blinks open her eyes, she’s still gone.

She won’t look at me, talk to me, and retreats further inside herself every time I touch her. She stares for hours on end at nothing, the wall, the window, or at her hands. And it kills me, because I have no idea how to get through to her.

All I know is that I’ll do anything to fix the damage I’ve done. No matter how long it takes or how hard the road is I have ahead of me. Somehow, I’ll find a way to rekindle the spark we share, because even though it lies dormant between us now, it’s still there, and I suspect it always will be.

That alone makes her silence bearable and gives me hope that we still have a future together. I believe in her. Now I just need her to believe in me again.

What doesn’t tear two people apart, binds them together.

MAVERICK

Both of us watch Doctor Alister leave the room. Ember’s sitting in the hospital bed staring at the light blue blanket covering her legs. Something she does all the time now, stares anywhere but in my direction. She’s gnawing on her bottom lip and twisting her fingers together. After a few seconds, she exhales, turns, and picks up the phone.

Up to this point, I’ve put up with her ignoring me, looking everywhere but at me, and treating me like I’m a goddamn ghost.

But that ends today. I’ve been waiting for this. This inevitable fight for over two weeks. I don’t even care anymore that she can have me kicked out, because she’s being discharged tomorrow, so they can only keep me away from her for the night.

Folding my arms over my chest, I growl, “Hang it up.”

Her body tenses at my command, but that’s the only response she gives that she’s heard me.

“Hey. It’s me,” she says softly into the phone.

I move closer until I’m a foot away. “Hang up the fuckin’ phone, Ember.”

Her grip on the phone tightens. “Yeah. Tomorrow. In the morning.”

My body begins to vibrate with anger. I snatch the phone from her hand. “She has a ride and a place to stay,” I snarl before I hang up and slam the phone on the bedside table. Her uneaten cereal from this morning sloshes around and spills. Her water mug falls and bounces on the linoleum flooring.

“You’re not going to Bethany’s. Or with Lil’ or Goose. And you sure as fuck aren’t goin’ home. You’re gonna need constant care for weeks, Ember, until you’re back on your feet and can start doin’ normal things for yourself again. Is that not what the doctor just said?”

When her chin dips and she begins to stare down at her hands, I go on. “Bethany has her hands full with the bar and her two kids, and Lil’ wouldn’t know what the fuck to do. She’d give you food poisonin’ in a week.”

Her emotionless state is one I’m sick of seeing. She barely eats. She wakes from nightmares most nights, and she’s rail thin, even more so than when she came to the clubhouse that first day. The only time her face has any life in it is when Will’s here and even then, her small smile is shaky at best.

“The Greenbacks may have taken the price off your head, but it doesn’t mean your father will stay away. There’s no way of knowin’ what he’ll do now.”

I’m a bastard for saying it, but it’s the truth and she needs to hear it.

“Do you want to put Bethany and the kids in danger?”

I wait. I wait five fucking minutes and finally, she shakes her head.

“Then you’re comin’ home with me, where I can protect you and take care of you. I can work from home, and I’ve already hired a nurse. I’ve prepared a room for you and Will with everything you’re gonna need.” It’s subtle but she stills. “Sunny’s welcome too, if she wants to stay there after she gets out.”

Doctor Alister updated Ember on her sister’s condition a few days after she woke, and every couple of days since. Sunny has suffered permanent brain damage to her temporal lobe. The full extent of what that means for her in the future, the doctors are still trying to figure out; but so far, she’s having trouble with her speech and recalling some long-term memories. Also, she’s looking at quite a bit of physical therapy and plastic surgery over the next few months.

Ember took the news hard. She cried silently for hours until she passed out from exhaustion. And she was completely zoned out from the world the next day.

Though she probably ignored every word I told her, Smoke’s been at Sunny’s bedside around the clock and he’s spared no expense to get her the best care money can buy.

I didn’t tell her the rest.

That Smoke asked the club for permission to stay in Albuquerque. That a few days ago, Pappy sat down with Edge, me, Griz, Dozer, and Smoke. We told him the club voted against granting the Greenbacks permission to move into New Mexico. The vote had nothing to do with Cap’s accident, because now that he’s awake, and we know exactly who’s responsible for gunning him down, we no longer suspect the GBs had anything to do with it. The sad fact is . . . it was one of our own who was responsible.

No, the club vote against the GBs coming here was unanimous because not one brother wanted to do business with, or trust a man who’d betray his VP and put out a hit on his own daughter. By doing what he did, Pappy, himself, proved to the HOCs what I’ve been saying all along. Our two clubs don’t live by the same code. Our priorities differ. And what we value above everything else, they do not.

I also told Pappy that Ember’s my old lady and made it clear that her, her sister, and her niece are under our protection. If anything happens to them, the club will hold him personally responsible. The fucker had to balls to ask if he could speak with her, said it was about her mother, and I almost reached across the table to choke the life out of him. I would have if Edge and Dozer hadn’t held me back. Instead, I growled that if he or his psychotic son ever come anywhere near her, I’d bury them both.

Edge ended the conversation by delivering the news that until we vote otherwise, GBs need to find someone else to run their dope and clean their money.

I could tell Pappy was boiling with hostility, on the verge of exploding, but we didn’t give a fuck. Cap wasn’t making the calls anymore, we were. And unless Pappy wanted to go to war, he’d live with our decision.

Then the HOCs and I moved to another part of the empty bar with Deeds and the other Greenbacks who came with Pappy. We gave Smoke what he wanted. He squared off against his old friend. No question, it would get bloody. But we took bets on whether or not they’d both survive and who’d win. Of course Smoke did, having a good twenty pounds on Pappy, and the wrath of hell driving his fist. It surprised us all though that the Greenbacks and Deeds never once stepped forward to come to Pappy’s aid, and that Smoke left Pappy breathing, and tossed his colors on his unconscious body before walking off.

That’s the kind of shit that Ember never needs to know. That and I suspect Pappy killed her mother and it’s the reason she never came home.

“Is it safe?” Ember’s voice is brittle, and I stop breathing, questioning whether I really heard her speak. It’s the first damn time she’s spoken to me since just after I killed Warner, and a cool rush of hope fills my chest.

“I’ll make it safe, Doll. I won’t let anything happen to you, Sunny, or Will. The club won’t either. And Taz has been dealt with by the club for startin’ all this. He’s been lettin’ Dozer and some of the other brother’s wail on him because of it.”

“I don’t blame Taz.” She says it so meekly, I almost don’t hear it.

I let my eyes roam over her freckled face, and cinnamon lashes, her nose, her pink lips, and the familiar chain she still wears around her neck, before I say, “I know, Doll. I know who you blame.”

Her face rises and for a second my heart stills. Her gaze stops at my chest and falls back to the blanket. “I don’t blame you either.”

“We both know that’s bullshit.”

“It’s not,” her voice gets stronger.

“It is!” I seethe. She shakes her head. I sit on the end of the bed below her feet and plant my hands beside her knees to try to get her to look me in the eye. “Then, why can’t you fuckin’ look at me? Is it because of what I did? Because you see me differently now?”

She freezes and her eyes close. “No, I’m thankful for what you did.” Her answer sounds genuine. “It’s probably the only thing that helps me sleep at night. Knowing that I don’t have to worry about him anymore.”

I tilt my head and study her. “Then why won’t you look at me? Why do you pull away every time I touch you?”

She shrugs. Her hand comes up, sweeps a tear away from her face, but another slides down her cheek and continues to her chin. I leave the bottom of the bed and sit beside her, cup her face. I try to raise it. When I do, she looks down at my jaw.

Voice thick, I whisper, “Why, Doll? It’s killin’ me. Just tell me.” Using my thumbs, I rub away the tears as they continue to fall.

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