Call It Sleep (53 page)

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Authors: Henry Roth

“Like real poinde's!”

“C'n yuh bend 'em?”

“'N yuh cut 'em all outchuh self?”

“Gee, I wish I had dot kin' o' chair!”

And as Benny was about to stow them away in his bosom again—

“Aintcha gonna give us one?” Izzy pleaded, “Look, I god de match! Led's smoke one—jos' one—will yuh, Benny.”

“Nyo!”

“Aaa, don't be a stingy louse!” they clamored.

Benny hesitated. “Lyuh gonniyl yuledth mhe sthmhoke tdew?”

“Sure! We'll letcha smoke all yuh want!”

“Wadyuh t'ink!”

“Dlyust one.” He relented and drew a single reed out of the bound sheaf.

Izzy seized it jubilantly. “Now watch!” he admonished them. “Like a steamboat it's gonna give.” And striking the match on the stone between his legs, applied it to one end of the reed, meanwhile sucking at the other. The former glowed, the latter yielded a sere, aromatic smoke.

“Gee!” they saucer-eyed. “Give a look, he's real smokin'!”

“Wad'd I tell yuh!” Izzy's features spread out in triumph. “I know dem chairs. Dey makes a noise w'en yuh sid on 'em. Crrk! Crrrk! Don' dey Benny?”

“Lyea. Dlyon' flyegedl, I'm fylyoist t' stlmook.”

“Next aftuh Benny!”

“Next aftuh Simkee!”

“Me! I'm nex' aftuh—!”

“You! Hoddy huh gid like—!”

“G'wan!”

“Wadda noif! Hooz nex', Izzy?”

After much wrangling, turns were assigned.

Being near them, hearing the erratic spatter of their voices, yielding to their flickering moods was like basking in a hectic familiar oblivion. Their squabbling, their stridence drowned memory; that tireless tossing of their bodies, their whirring gestures, jerky antics stitched a fluctuant, tough, ever-renewing veil between himself and terror. David forgot. He was one of them.

Someone—it was Srooly—came out of the cheder, and once outside the door, squinted at them in surprise. “De cop'll getchoo!”

“Yea!” they sneered. “He ain't a'scared o' us! Ha! Ha! Haw! Haw!”

Still squinting, Srooly approached. “Watcha smokin'?”

“Cantchuh see, cock-eye Mulligan? A cigah!”

He bent closer. “It's a stick, liar!”

“Sure! It's a smoke-stick an' id could be fuh a poinder. Bud we didn' wanna.”

“Uh! So hoddy yuh go?”

“Like dot.” Lefty, whose turn it was, enlightened him with a billow of smoke. “Dere's liddle holes in id, all de way t'roo!”

“Give us a puff,” Srooly asked.

“Id's mine,” Izzy announced. And no one contesting his claim, “I'm gonna dinch it an' smook somm maw lader—aftuh Lefty finishes.”

“Give us a puff befaw.”

“Fuh somm o' yuh flies I will.”

“Wise-guy! Yuh givin' Lefty a smook fuh nutt'n.”

“So wot? Don' smook den!”

“Aaa! Kipp it!”

“Puh! Who wants yuh flies!”

“Awri!” said Srooly. “I'll give yuh one.”

“Give!”

Srooly brought out a smallish, square vial, squinted thoughtfully at the flies inside. “Most o' 'em I jos' caught in de gobbidj by Seven-twenty. On'y de big ones I take.”

“Hurry op, Lefty!”

“Aaa, waid a secon', I jos' god id!” Lefty puffed vigorously.

“Hey! I fuhgod!” Srooly suddenly remembered. “Huz nex'? Yuh bedder go in, de rebbeh says. Cause on'y Moishe is dere.”

“Me!” Schloimee rose. “Waid fer us, will ye, geng. Don' forged!” He went off.

Srooly held the vial up to the light. Grey horseflies, glittering blue-bottles crawled and fell on the glassy sides. “Dey's a old geezer in de cheder, yuh know?”

“Wit' whiskers like de rebbeh!” The rest informed him. “We theleen 'im faw lyow dyihl. He's loinin' de guys.”

“Naa, he ain' loinin' de guys,” said Srooly. “He's jost sittin' an' lookin.”

“So watz'e want?”

“Cow shid I know?” Srooly shrugged. “De Rebbeh wanzuh show off, dat's all. An' now—Hch! Hch! Hch! Moish is readin' an' he's dumb like anyt'ing. Hch! Hch! De rebbeh's gonna be med on him.”

“Aw' yaw dumb too,” said Izzy cuttingly.

“So he sh'd worry,” the rest consoled themselves. “De rebbeh never hits w'en sommbody's lookin!”

“Yea—? He stuck me in de ass wid de poinder—under de table! So de udder old geezer shouldn't see!”

“Ppprr!” Lefty surrendered the inch-long reed to Izzy. “Hea! Id's gedden hod!”

“Give us de fly now if yuh want id.”

“Wad kind d'yuh want? De shiny or de hawsfly?”

“De haws! Dey fighd bedder.”

Tilting the vial up, Srooly spilled two or three flies into his palm, stuffed back into the neck all but one and this he gave to Izzy. In return, the stumpy reed was handed over. The horse-fly, wing-stripped, crawled impotently about on Izzy's hand.

“Now
I'll
show yuh hoddeh smook!” Srooly put the bit of reed to his mouth. “Watch a real, reggilieh smooker—like I loined f'om my fodder! Watch!” and sucked with such abandon the ember at the other end sparkled—“M'lya!” Sudden pain contorted his face. “Luddle luddle! Ow! Id boins like fiah! Ow!” He threw the stub down. “Mplyaw!”

“Yeee! Look o' him dance!” Glee filled them. They howled with mirth.

“Oooo! My dung! Ow!” Frantically he licked the sides of the glass bottle—“Ooo, id's hod!”

“Lummox!” they jeered.

“Dot's watchuh ged fuh bein' a hog!”

“Wadyl pulyly stho hodth!”

“Aa, shod up!” Srooly was almost in tears. “I'll feel you off, see if I don'. All o' yuh! Waid'll I ged my big brudder aftuh yuh—lousy bestitts!” He walked off, tongue in the wind.

“Big smooker!” They howled after him. “Fot brains! Yaaa! Good fer yuh! Yaaa!”

When their hoots, cat-calls, capers had subsided—“Who yuh gonna give id?” Lefty asked.

“T' Choloimis on de foist step.” Izzy waved farewell to the fly in his palm. “Bye! Bye! Buzzicoo!”

“Naa, don' give id t' him—he's fat a'reddy. Give id t' Baby Moider by de fence!”

“Naa!” Zucky urged, “Schreck-dreck by de daw—he's de best spider in de woild.”

“No, I ain'!” Izzy would not be overruled. “Choloimis 'z' de biggest so Choloimis geds id.”

He rose. They followed him noisily across the yard.

—
No! No! No!
(Without stirring, he stared fixedly after them)
No! No! You forgot! You forgot!

“Don't scare 'im! Don' shake his house! Sh! Stholop yuh plyushin!” They trooped down the cellar steps. From below the level of the yard, as from underground, their stealthy voices rose. “C'n yuh see 'im? Yea! See 'im in his hole dere? See? He' thyl waitlyn!”

—
Ow!
(Like a stopper blown or a plug, the terrific jar of awakened terror) The cellar! The cellar! The cellar! Told her now! She, Polly! Aunt Bertha, she told! Knows! Long ago! Long ago! She knows! What? What's she going to do? What? No! No! Don't tell, Aunt Bertha! Don't tell! Don't! No! No! No! Ow, Mama! Mama!

Shrill from the cellar, their voices rose:

“Dere! Look! Look! T'row it now! Easy don' bust id! Look o' him! He's walkin' roun'. Whee! Dere he comes! Dere he comes! Lyow! He glyabth 'im! Fight! Fight! Gib'm, haws-fly! In de kishkis—nudder one! C'mon, Choloimis! Yowee! Tie 'im op! He's god 'im! Wid de legs! Waddye big wungl! Pullin' him! Pullin' him! Hully Muzziz! Look! In de hole! Bye! Bye! Buzzicoo! Yea! Yea!” Excited voices fused into a treble dirge. “Bye! Bye! Buzzicoo! Yea Spider! Yea!”

The cheder door swung open. With a hunted expression on their faces, Schloimee and Moish came hurrying out, and a moment later, the rabbi, red lips visible in the glossy black beard, corners down-curved into a threatening frown.

“Where are they?” He crimped blunt brows at David. “There? Below? In that black chaos?”

Grafted to terror, the mind, wrested away, tore terror with it. He couldn't speak.

“What ails you? Are you gagging? Speak!”

“Th-they're down there!” He stammered.

“So!” He intoned viciously. “When I'm through with them, even death will spurn them!” And lifting his head, he bellowed across the yard. “Clods! Bleak and eternal! Come out of that pit, you hear me? Come out before a rain of stripes drowns you there!”

Hasty, startled cries below, scufflings, scuffings. They pellmelled up the cellar-steps, halted in a cluster, shamefaced and cowed. He surveyed them. “Mice!” His voice was withering. “Mice! Who gnaws at the Torah next?”

“Me.” Zuck shuffled forward warily.

“You?” Disgustedly. “What is this? Have all the plaster golems in the cheder connived to read in relays? Hanh? Will you torture me like the heathen god? Or what?” His sour gaze swept them, alighted on David. “You! Come in!”

“Me?” He started.

“On whom does my gaze end? Get up!” And once more to the others. “Let the rest of you sit here in an agony! But sit!” He shook a violent finger, and then crooked it at David.

He had scrambled to his feet and hurried to the rabbi's side. For the first time since he had entered the cheder, the perilous task of reading when the rabbi was angry suddenly became welcome to him. Any anxiety, any disquiet was inviting if it could stem or shunt the fierce rush of this terror.

“Only one more!” As he entered, the rabbi addressed someone inside. “Be patient, Reb Schulim! Would you leave me in disgrace, nor hear at least one limber tongue? Hanh? Surely, you wouldn't.”

Trailing behind, David peered past him toward the light. In the swirling sepia that always seemed to fill the cheder after the glare of the yard, he could distinguish no one. But when he waded to the window, risen like a square, variegated rock above the sifting dusk, the wavering outlines of a man drifted out of the dim corner beside the rabbi's chair. The figure was seated, hunched over a cane. The wan gleam on his grey beard was like a whisper from light to shadow.

The rabbi chuckled, apologetically, drew up his chair: “When I can pierce stiff brass with a hair of my head, then I'll pierce their skulls with wisdom. American Esaus, all of them! But this, Reb Schulim, this is a true Yiddish child.”

Reb Schulim's only reply was to clear his throat.

David slid over the bench, and while the rabbi pinched the pages, the dusk lifted, and he peeped shyly up at the stranger. He was old, Reb Schulim, hawk-beaked. Although his lipless mouth in the grey beard looked stretched and grim, his eyes, his dark eyes in their intricate pouches were liquid, strangely sorrowful and attentive. Unlike the rabbi, he was neat, wore a black coat of thin, rusty cloth, and instead of an oily brown straw, a wide black hat crumpled the skull cap at the back of his pink and silver-grizzled pate. He hawked incessantly which made David glance up again and again only to be caught in the mournful quietude of those eyes. They affected him strangely.

“He's a curious child.” Reb Schulim's voice was husky and deliberate. “His look is hungry and unquiet.”

“You've struck it, Reb Schulim!” The rabbi spread hairy fingers on the page—kept them spread. “Sometimes he prays like lightning, sometimes an imp flies into his head and he can't see a word. Today I know he'll pray. Here's something to make him.” As though it were hinged to the book, he lifted his hand, but only enough for Reb Schulim to read—not David. “Do you remember I told you once—?”

Reb Schulim puckered his lips, cleared his throat, lifted grave, benign eyes to David's face, but made no answer.

“I'd start him in chumish,” the rabbi wheeled the book around. “But I see his mother so rarely. I've never asked her—Listen!” He took his hand away from the page. “Begin, my David!”

The type was small. The thrill of apprehension that ran through him seemed to flutter the characters before him. He focused on them, condensing their blur. “Bishnas mos ha melech Uzuyahu—!” And stopped and stared. The number on top of the page was sixty-eight. The edge of the book was blue.

“What's the matter?” Rare tolerance softened the rabbi's voice. “Why do you wait?”

“It's—It's him!” Past radiance threw a last parting beam into the depths of his mind. “That one!”

“Which one? Who?”

“That man! Th-that man you said! Isaiah! He said—he said he saw God and it—and it was light!” Excitement clogged his tongue.

“Well, Reb Schulim!” The rabbi's swarthy brow canted in triumph. “One glance was all he needed, and that was months and months ago! This!” His blunt finger drummed on David's brow. “This has an iron wit! No?” His black beard seemed to shake out sparks of satisfaction.

Reb Schulim tapped his cane against the bench. “A cherished seedling of Judah. Indeed!”

“Now all of it!” The rabbi settled down to business. “Begin once more.”

“Beshnas mos hamelech Uzuyahu vaereh es adonoi yoshaiv al kesai rom venesaw veshulav melayim es hahayhel Serafim omdim memal lo.” Not as a drone this time, like syllables pulled from a drab and tedious reel, but again as it was at first, a chant, a hymn, as though a soaring presence behind the words pulsed and stressed a meaning. A cadence like a flock of pigeons, vast, heaven-filling, swept and wheeled, glittered, darkened, kindled again, like wind over prairies. “Shaish kenawfayim shash kenawfayim leahod. Beshtyim yehase fanav uveshtayim.” The words, forms of immense grandeur behind a cloudy screen, overwhelmed him—“Yehase raglov uveshtayim yeofaif—”

“As though, he knew what he read,” Reb Schulim's husky speech. “That young voice pipes to my heart!”

“If I weren't sure—indeed, if I didn't know him, I'd think he understood!”

David had paused. The rabbi sat back, hands locked on his belly.

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