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Authors: T. S. Eliot
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L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
Oh Claude! I am terribly sorry for you.
I believe that if I had known of your … delusion
I would never have undeceived you.
S
IR
C
LAUDE
.
And as for me,
If I could have known what was going to happen,
I would gladly have surrendered Colby to you.
But we must see Mrs. Guzzard. I’ll arrange to get her here.
L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
And I think you ought to get Eggerson as well.
S
IR
C
LAUDE
[
rising
]
.
Oh, of course, Eggerson! He knows all about it.
Let us say no more tonight. Now, Colby,
Can you find some consolation at the piano?
C
OLBY
.
I don’t think, tonight, the piano would help me:
At the moment, I never want to touch it again.
But there’s another reason. I must remind you
About your speech for the Potters’ Company
Tomorrow night. I must get to work on it.
S
IR
C
LAUDE
.
Tomorrow night. Must I go to that dinner
Tomorrow night?
C
OLBY
.
I was looking at your notes —
Before you brought me into the conversation —
And I found one note I couldn’t understand.
‘Reminiscent mood.’ I can’t develop that
Unless you can tell me — reminiscent of what?
S
IR
C
LAUDE
.
Reminiscent of what? Reminiscent of what?
‘Tonight I feel in a reminiscent mood’ —
Oh yes. To say something of my early ambitions
To be a potter. Not that the Members
Of the Potters’ Company know anything at all
About ceramics … or any other art.
No, I don’t think I shall be in a reminiscent mood.
Cross that out. It would only remind me
Of things that would surprise the Potters’ Company
If I told them what I was really remembering.
Come, Elizabeth.
L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
My poor Claude!
[
Exeunt
S
IR
C
LAUDE
and
L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
]
CURTAIN
The
Business
Room,
as
in
Act
1.
Several
mornings
later.
S
IR
C
LAUDE
is
moving
chairs
about.
Enter
L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
Claude, what are you doing?
S
IR
C
LAUDE
.
Settling the places.
It’s important, when you have a difficult meeting,
To decide on the seating arrangements beforehand.
I don’t think you and I should be near together.
Will you sit there, beside the desk?
L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
On the other side, with the light behind me:
But won’t you be sitting at the desk yourself?
S
IR
C
LAUDE
.
No, that would look too formal. I thought it would be better
To put Eggerson there, behind the desk.
You see, I want him to be a sort of chairman.
L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
That’s a good idea.
S
IR
C
LAUDE
.
On the other hand,
We mustn’t look like a couple of barristers
Ready to cross-examine a witness.
It’s very awkward. We don’t want to start
By offending Mrs. Guzzard. That’s why I thought
That Eggerson should put the first questions.
He’s very good at approaching a subject
In a roundabout way. But where shall we place her?
L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
Over there, with the light full on her:
I want to be able to watch her expression.
S
IR
C
LAUDE
.
But not in this chair! She must have an armchair …
L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
Not such a low one. Leave that in the corner
For Colby. He won’t want to be conspicuous,
Poor boy!
S
IR
C
LAUDE
.
After all, it was he who insisted
On this … investigation. But perhaps you’re right.
L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
Claude, I’ve been thinking things over and over —
All through the night. I hardly slept at all.
I wish that Colby, somehow, might prove to be
your
son
Instead of mine. Really, I do!
It would be so much fairer. If he is mine —
As I am sure he is — then you never had a son;
While, if he were yours … he could still take the place
Of my son: and so he could be
our
son.
Oh dear, what do I want? I should like him to be mine,
But for you to believe that he is yours!
So I hope Mrs. Guzzard will say he is your son
And I needn’t believe her. I don’t believe in facts.
You do. That is the difference between us.
S
IR
C
LAUDE
.
I’m not so sure of that. I’ve tried to believe in facts;
And I’ve always acted as if I believed in them.
I thought it was facts that my father believed in;
I thought that what he cared for was power and wealth;
And I came to see that what I had interpreted
In this way, was something else to
him
—
An idea, an inspiration. What he wanted to transmit to me
Was that idea, that inspiration,
Which to him was life. To me, it was a burden.
You can’t communicate an inspiration,
Like that, by force of will. He was a great financier —
And I am merely a successful one.
I might have been truer to my father’s inspiration
If I had done what I wanted to do.
L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
You’ve never talked like this to me before!
Why haven’t you? I don’t suppose I understand
And I know you don’t think I understand anything,
And perhaps I don’t. But I wish you would talk
Sometimes to me as if I did understand,
And perhaps I might come to understand better.
What did you want to do?
S
IR
C
LAUDE
.
To be a potter.
Don’t laugh.
L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
I’m not laughing. I was only thinking
How strange to have lived with you, all these years,
And now you tell me, you’d have liked to be a potter!
You really mean, to make jugs and jars
Like those in your collection?
S
IR
C
LAUDE.
That’s what I mean.
L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
But I should have loved you to be a potter!
Why have you never told me?
S
IR
C
LAUDE
.
I didn’t think
That you would be interested. More than that.
I took it for granted that what you wanted
Was a husband of importance. I thought you would despise me
If you knew what I’d really wanted to be.
L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
And I took it for granted that you were not interested
In anything but financial affairs;
And that you needed me chiefly as a hostess.
It’s a great mistake, I do believe,
For married people to take anything for granted.
S
IR
C
LAUDE
.
That was a very intelligent remark.
Perhaps I have taken too much for granted
About you, Elizabeth. What did
you
want?
L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
To inspire an artist. Don’t laugh.
S
IR
C
LAUDE
.
I’m not laughing.
So what you wanted was to inspire an artist!
L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
Or to inspire a poet. I thought Tony was a poet.
Because he wrote me poems. And he was so beautiful.
I know now that poets don’t look like poets:
And financiers, it seems, don’t look like potters —
Is that what I mean? I’m getting confused.
I thought I was escaping from a world that I loathed
In Tony — and then, too late, I discovered
He belonged to the world I wanted to escape from.
He was so commonplace! I wanted to forget him,
And so, I suppose, I wanted to forget
Colby. But Colby is an artist.
S
IR
C
LAUDE
.
A musician.
I am a disappointed craftsman,
And Colby is a disappointed composer.
I should have been a second-rate potter,
And he would have been a second-rate organist.
We have both chosen … obedience to the facts.
L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
I believe that was what
I
was trying to do.
It’s very strange, Claude, but this is the first time
I have talked to you, without feeling very stupid.
You always made me feel that I wasn’t worth talking to.
S
IR
C
LAUDE.
And you always made me feel that
your
interests
Were much too deep for discussion with
me
:
Health cures. And modern art — so long as it was modern —
And dervish dancing.
L
ADY
E
LIZABETH.
Dervish dancing!
Really, Claude, how absurd you are!
Not that there isn’t a lot to be learnt,
I don’t doubt, from the dervish rituals.
But it doesn’t matter what Mrs. Guzzard tells us,
If it satisfies Colby. Whatever happens
He shall be
our
son.
[
A
knock
on
the
door.
Enter
E
GGERSON
]
S
IR
C
LAUDE.
Good morning, Eggerson.
E
GGERSON.
Good morning, Sir Claude. And Lady Elizabeth!
S
IR
C
LAUDE.
I’m sorry, Eggerson, to bring you up to London
At such short notice.
E
GGERSON.
Don’t say that, Sir Claude.
It’s true, I haven’t much nowadays to bring me;
But Mrs. E. wishes I’d come up oftener!
Isn’t that like the ladies! She used to complain
At my being up in London five or six days a week:
But now she says: ‘You’re becoming such a countryman!
You’re losing touch with public affairs.’
The fact is, she misses the contact with London,
Though she doesn’t admit it. She misses my news
When I came home in the evening. And the late editions
Of the papers that I picked up at Liverpool Street.
But I’ve so much to do, in Joshua Park —
Apart from the garden — that I’ve not an idle moment.
And really, now, I’m quite lost in London.
Every time I come, I notice the traffic
Has got so much worse.
S
IR
C
LAUDE.
Yes, it’s always getting worse.
L
ADY
E
LIZABETH.
— I hope Mrs. Eggerson is well?
E
GGERSON.
Pretty well.
She’s always low-spirited, around this season,
When we’re getting near the anniversary.
S
IR
C
LAUDE.
The anniversary? Of your son’s death?