Complete Poems and Plays (82 page)

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Authors: T. S. Eliot

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L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
Oh Claude! I am terribly sorry for you.

I believe that if I had known of your … delusion

I would never have undeceived you.

S
IR
C
LAUDE
.
                                           And as for me,

If I could have known what was going to happen,

I would gladly have surrendered Colby to you.

But we must see Mrs. Guzzard. I’ll arrange to get her here.

L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
And I think you ought to get Eggerson as well.

S
IR
C
LAUDE
[
rising
]
.
Oh, of course, Eggerson! He knows all about it.

Let us say no more tonight. Now, Colby,

Can you find some consolation at the piano?

C
OLBY
.
I don’t think, tonight, the piano would help me:

At the moment, I never want to touch it again.

But there’s another reason. I must remind you

About your speech for the Potters’ Company

Tomorrow night. I must get to work on it.

S
IR
C
LAUDE
.
Tomorrow night. Must I go to that dinner

Tomorrow night?

C
OLBY
.
                      I was looking at your notes —

Before you brought me into the conversation —

And I found one note I couldn’t understand.

‘Reminiscent mood.’ I can’t develop that

Unless you can tell me — reminiscent of what?

S
IR
C
LAUDE
.
Reminiscent of what? Reminiscent of what?

‘Tonight I feel in a reminiscent mood’ —

Oh yes. To say something of my early ambitions

To be a potter. Not that the Members

Of the Potters’ Company know anything at all

About ceramics … or any other art.

No, I don’t think I shall be in a reminiscent mood.

Cross that out. It would only remind me

Of things that would surprise the Potters’ Company

If I told them what I was really remembering.

Come, Elizabeth.

L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
My poor Claude!

[
Exeunt
S
IR
C
LAUDE
and
L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
]

CURTAIN

 
Act Three
 
 

The
Business
Room,
as
in
Act
 
1.
Several
mornings
later.
S
IR
C
LAUDE
is
moving
chairs
about.
Enter
L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.

 

L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
Claude, what are you doing?

S
IR
C
LAUDE
.
                                                        Settling the places.

It’s important, when you have a difficult meeting,

To decide on the seating arrangements beforehand.

I don’t think you and I should be near together.

Will you sit there, beside the desk?

L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
On the other side, with the light behind me:

But won’t you be sitting at the desk yourself?

S
IR
C
LAUDE
.
No, that would look too formal. I thought it would be better

To put Eggerson there, behind the desk.

You see, I want him to be a sort of chairman.

L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
That’s a good idea.

S
IR
C
LAUDE
.
                                           On the other hand,

We mustn’t look like a couple of barristers

Ready to cross-examine a witness.

It’s very awkward. We don’t want to start

By offending Mrs. Guzzard. That’s why I thought

That Eggerson should put the first questions.

He’s very good at approaching a subject

In a roundabout way. But where shall we place her?

L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
Over there, with the light full on her:

I want to be able to watch her expression.

S
IR
C
LAUDE
.
But not in this chair! She must have an armchair …

L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
Not such a low one. Leave that in the corner

For Colby. He won’t want to be conspicuous,

Poor boy!

S
IR
C
LAUDE
.
After all, it was he who insisted

On this … investigation. But perhaps you’re right.

L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
Claude, I’ve been thinking things over and over —

All through the night. I hardly slept at all.

I wish that Colby, somehow, might prove to be
your
son

Instead of mine. Really, I do!

It would be so much fairer. If he is mine —

As I am sure he is — then you never had a son;

While, if he were yours … he could still take the place

Of my son: and so he could be
our
son.

Oh dear, what do I want? I should like him to be mine,

But for you to believe that he is yours!

So I hope Mrs. Guzzard will say he is your son

And I needn’t believe her. I don’t believe in facts.

You do. That is the difference between us.

S
IR
C
LAUDE
.
I’m not so sure of that. I’ve tried to believe in facts;

And I’ve always acted as if I believed in them.

I thought it was facts that my father believed in;

I thought that what he cared for was power and wealth;

And I came to see that what I had interpreted

In this way, was something else to
him

An idea, an inspiration. What he wanted to transmit to me

Was that idea, that inspiration,

Which to him was life. To me, it was a burden.

You can’t communicate an inspiration,

Like that, by force of will. He was a great financier —

And I am merely a successful one.

I might have been truer to my father’s inspiration

If I had done what I wanted to do.

L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
You’ve never talked like this to me before!

Why haven’t you? I don’t suppose I understand

And I know you don’t think I understand anything,

And perhaps I don’t. But I wish you would talk

Sometimes to me as if I did understand,

And perhaps I might come to understand better.

What did you want to do?

S
IR
C
LAUDE
.
                          To be a potter.

Don’t laugh.

L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
I’m not laughing. I was only thinking

How strange to have lived with you, all these years,

And now you tell me, you’d have liked to be a potter!

You really mean, to make jugs and jars

Like those in your collection?

S
IR
C
LAUDE.
                                  That’s what I mean.

L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
But I should have loved you to be a potter!

Why have you never told me?

S
IR
C
LAUDE
.
                                 I didn’t think

That you would be interested. More than that.

I took it for granted that what you wanted

Was a husband of importance. I thought you would despise me

If you knew what I’d really wanted to be.

L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
And I took it for granted that you were not interested

In anything but financial affairs;

And that you needed me chiefly as a hostess.

It’s a great mistake, I do believe,

For married people to take anything for granted.

S
IR
C
LAUDE
.
That was a very intelligent remark.

Perhaps I have taken too much for granted

About you, Elizabeth. What did
you
want?

L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
To inspire an artist. Don’t laugh.

S
IR
C
LAUDE
.
                                                              I’m not laughing.

So what you wanted was to inspire an artist!

L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
Or to inspire a poet. I thought Tony was a poet.

Because he wrote me poems. And he was so beautiful.

I know now that poets don’t look like poets:

And financiers, it seems, don’t look like potters —

Is that what I mean? I’m getting confused.

I thought I was escaping from a world that I loathed

In Tony — and then, too late, I discovered

He belonged to the world I wanted to escape from.

He was so commonplace! I wanted to forget him,

And so, I suppose, I wanted to forget

Colby. But Colby is an artist.

S
IR
C
LAUDE
.
                                A musician.

I am a disappointed craftsman,

And Colby is a disappointed composer.

I should have been a second-rate potter,

And he would have been a second-rate organist.

We have both chosen … obedience to the facts.

L
ADY
E
LIZABETH
.
I believe that was what
I
was trying to do.

It’s very strange, Claude, but this is the first time

I have talked to you, without feeling very stupid.

You always made me feel that I wasn’t worth talking to.

S
IR
C
LAUDE.
And you always made me feel that
your
interests

Were much too deep for discussion with
me
:

Health cures. And modern art — so long as it was modern —

And dervish dancing.

L
ADY
E
LIZABETH.
            Dervish dancing!

Really, Claude, how absurd you are!

Not that there isn’t a lot to be learnt,

I don’t doubt, from the dervish rituals.

But it doesn’t matter what Mrs. Guzzard tells us,

If it satisfies Colby. Whatever happens

He shall be
our
son.

[
A
knock
on
the
door.
Enter
E
GGERSON
]

S
IR
C
LAUDE.
                 Good morning, Eggerson.

E
GGERSON.
Good morning, Sir Claude. And Lady Elizabeth!

S
IR
C
LAUDE.
I’m sorry, Eggerson, to bring you up to London

At such short notice.

E
GGERSON.
                     Don’t say that, Sir Claude.

It’s true, I haven’t much nowadays to bring me;

But Mrs. E. wishes I’d come up oftener!

Isn’t that like the ladies! She used to complain

At my being up in London five or six days a week:

But now she says: ‘You’re becoming such a countryman!

You’re losing touch with public affairs.’

The fact is, she misses the contact with London,

Though she doesn’t admit it. She misses my news

When I came home in the evening. And the late editions

Of the papers that I picked up at Liverpool Street.

But I’ve so much to do, in Joshua Park —

Apart from the garden — that I’ve not an idle moment.

And really, now, I’m quite lost in London.

Every time I come, I notice the traffic

Has got so much worse.

S
IR
C
LAUDE.
                       Yes, it’s always getting worse.

L
ADY
E
LIZABETH.
— I hope Mrs. Eggerson is well?

E
GGERSON.
                                                                Pretty well.

She’s always low-spirited, around this season,

When we’re getting near the anniversary.

S
IR
C
LAUDE.
The anniversary? Of your son’s death?

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