CONNOR (SEAL Team Seven) Book 1 (15 page)

“What’s up brother?” We
were all gathered in Logan’s kitchen because he’d called and said we needed a
sit down. Usually that meant serious business. I was in a hurry to get back to
my woman because she’d been acting kind of frisky before the phone rang. And
that teasing whisper in my ear just before the phone rang had given me ideas.

I’d almost brushed Logan
off but that was something none of us had ever done. Our code was such that
when one sent out an S.O.S we all answered no matter what. We’d learned in our
time together to put each other first, to always have each other’s backs.
That’s how we’d made it through some of the toughest runs in our careers. That
kind of trust was not to be tampered with. I’m pretty sure we’d all be old and
grey and still living by that code. But the last time these fuckers called me
out of my bed I’d had to lie to my woman about how my knuckles got fucked up.

“I got a call from the
C.O.” The room fell silent. We were out yes but we all knew because of our
team’s special skills we would never truly be free. They’d built the team yes,
but we’d made it what it was and what it was
was
an
elite force of manpower equaled to none.

“I’m not going. Whatever
it is, wherever it is, I’m done.” Tyler stormed out of the kitchen as the rest
of us looked on. We knew why he felt this way the sentiment I’m sure was shared
by most if not all of us; but we also knew no matter what gripes we might have
that it wasn’t that easy to turn our backs on our calling.

“Go after him Connor.”
Logan ordered me while the others stayed silent. No one wanted to tangle with
Ty when he got like this. He could be a hardheaded fuck when his blood was up
about something. “Why do I always get sent to the tiger’s lair?” It’s true
whenever he acts up they all look to me to rein him in, I’ve got the battle
scars to prove it.

I didn’t have time to
consider the ramifications of what Logan’s announcement meant for me. Whatever
it is if he hadn’t told them to go fuck themselves then it must be bad.
“Because you two are more alike in that aspect and you’re the only one who can
reach him, go get him brother before he hurts something.” I left the room and
my brothers to go face a man’s anger.

He was kicking the wheel
of his bike when I came out. “Save it Con I’m not doing it, not this time, fuck
them.” I let him work off some of the steam he had working there knowing that
it was only after he’d gotten most of it out of his system that he’d be able to
hear me. It was always this way with Ty. He could get hot at the drop of a hat.
I’d once seen him destroy a whole room in less than ten minutes and there’d
been no way to stop him. But when the blood was no longer in his eyes and he
calmed down a little he was as quiet as a lamb. It was freaky to see. “What’s
destroying your bike gonna prove brother?” He glared at me before walking off.

“I don’t owe those lying
fucks anything. I gave them my youth and the best part of me and for what? So
some over inflated windbag could sit behind a desk and make money on the backs
of our brothers and sisters in arms? And now they want to cut their benefits and
shit but they need our help? Fuck that shit, how about I go take their asses
out? They’re the real enemy the fucks.”

What could I say to
that? We all agreed, it was fucked what was going on. Most people had no idea
how under appreciated the men and women who fought for their freedoms really
were. They didn’t know the sacrifices that were made each and everyday. But we
did it because we believed in something, because that code of honor ran deep.
Deep enough to overlook the mishandling of funds and the stench of corruption,
that was even now kept well hidden from the public. But now wasn’t the time to
go there either.

“It’s not for them
brother, whatever this is you know it’s got to be some fucked up shit for Logan
to even contemplate dragging us back in. We knew when we left there was a
possibility that it was only a matter of time before they came looking. Well
it’s happening sooner than we thought but hey.”

He kicked at the weeds
that had started growing in Logan’s back yard. We’re gonna have to make a run
soon with the lawnmower. “I refuse to put anymore into this shit. They’ve taken
all they’re gonna get. What’s the point of us over there fighting this shit
while they’re making backroom deals with the same fucks we’re trying to
eliminate?” Shit this was going to be harder than I thought. Firstly because I
agreed with him one hundred percent and secondly I didn’t really want to leave
my woman and go anywhere either. This whole thing was fucked already and we
hadn’t even left stateside.

“Ty, you know that if
this thing wasn’t important whatever it is, Logan wouldn’t have brought it to
the table. You also know that if one goes we all go so there’s no point in
fighting it. Let’s just see what Logan has to say. We all know that the fucks
in office are assholes but this is not about them. Chances are this is some
shit that can fuck with our citizens and we took the oath brother. God, family,
country, hanging up our weapons didn’t change that. We are what we are and you
can’t tell me as mad as you are right now that you’re willing to leave our
people in a vulnerable position whether from domestic or foreign fuck ups.” I
knew I was getting through to him when he finally stopped his mad pacing and
just stared off into the distance. “Fuck.”

I followed him back
inside with a slap on the back. The danger wasn’t exactly over but at least he
was willing to listen to reason. The others were standing around waiting. I
know they wouldn’t have carried on without us, that is not our way. When you’ve
spent as much time together in the kind of situations we have you get to know
each other pretty damn well. I know my brothers and they know me, and that’s
why I knew that none of them were too happy with this turn of events.

“Before we go any
farther, we’ve got a problem; Connor.” I knew what he meant, I was barely
holding onto my sanity by a thread. This was the reason we’d all made a pact,
the saying goes never leave a man behind. For us that went double, it was
fucked to be in the heat of combat with your woman thousands of miles away. It
was fucked not knowing every second of everyday if she needed you.

As men we do what we
have to, that doesn’t make that shit easy. That’s why we’d agreed to a man that
we wouldn’t get hitched before our gig was up. If it had happened, if one of us
had fallen in love before now we would’ve played the hand we were dealt. But
luck and prayer was on our side because for the fourteen years that each of us
were
in, we never felt that pull.

 
Now though, my ass was in the sling and so was
Logan’s. How was I going to leave her? I’m honor and duty bound to answer the
call there’s no two ways about it. Retired or not, my skills were honed in this
man’s navy, he made me what I am for a reason. I pretty much know they think
they own my ass for a lifetime. I’ll let them think that until I snap that
cord, until then I have to do what I must for my countrymen and women. But how
can I leave her?

“Let’s hear what they
want first then I’ll decide if it’s worth leaving my woman here unprotected.”
Zak and Quinn nodded in agreement as we all pulled up a seat. All except Ty who
was once again pacing back and forth like a caged beast. As opposed to leaving
our women behind as the rest of us were, Ty was the worst. His history made
sure of that but that’s his story to tell.

“Khalid has surfaced.”
Everyone in the room tensed.
Son of a mother-fucking bitch.

 
“Where,
when?” I was almost at the edge of my seat. This fuck is one of the deadliest
assholes to ever walk the earth. The Desert Fox, that’s what we’d tagged him.
Early on in our career we’d been given Intel but just before we’d been set to
smoke him out of his hole in Kabul he’d disappeared.

Since then he’d been
attributed the blame for more terrorist acts than any man before him, but
always he stayed in the shadows. No one knew where he was or who was hiding
him, but it stood to reason that he must have friends in very high places.
There was no way for such a well known wanted man to have stayed so well hidden
all these years without the help of some very influential and powerful people.

“The Sudan.”

Fuck I knew there was no
way we were gonna pass this shit up. The chance to bring down the world’s
leading terrorist. He’d evaded us, and the others who’d come before us for all
these years. The only one we’d missed though we were only in on the tail end of
that deal.

By the time our team had
formed they’d already moved onto the new kid on the block. There had been some
assholes on a par with the Fox but none could ever quite take his place. My
mind was already on the fact that I had to leave her. Logan had a hard on for
Khalid, he hated the fuck with a vengeance. Ever since he’d blown up a school
of young girls just before Logan had been able to reach them and lead them out
to safety. That was maybe ten years ago but Logan hadn’t forgotten. But could
he leave Gaby?

“I’m in.” Zak threw his
hat in the ring first and so it went. Fuck, Danielle. My gut tied itself in
knots at the thought of leaving her now when everything was still so new. We’d
only just dealt with her ex and his bullshit. She still didn’t know anything
about that shit. The woman who we’d learned days later was really one Rosalind
Haynes from Louisiana had given her some bullshit story about a family
emergency back home. True to form my girl had offered her help in anyway
necessary but I was there to smooth that shit over.

Haven’t seen
hide nor
hair of Robert in the last few days and it was only
a day or so before the ship was due to dock. Now with this shit there was just
too much going on at once. My first inclination is to say fuck no. I don’t want
to leave her here with this shit so up in the air.

“When do we have to give
them an answer and how soon will we have to be in the desert?” I broke off when
Ty started his shit again.

“ We said we’d never do
that shit, and this is fucked Logan that you’d even think of dong it. You and
Connor have your women now you can’t just up and leave them no matter what the
fuck. They come first fuck everything else. Fuck these assholes. Fourteen
fucking years, I gave them fourteen years of my life and would’ve given them
the whole twenty, and for what? So they can lie to our fucking faces like we’re
fucking sheep.” Tyler bunched his fists as he prowled around the room.

“We’re not doing this
for them brother, you know this. They’re protected, you better believe their
asses are covered. We’re doing this for each other and for the men and women we
pass everyday on the streets. Because we all know they’d sell us out to the
highest bidder. As for the girls, you think this is easy for me? I don’t even
let Danielle drive herself to fucking work and with this smuggling shit and the
money moved where they can’t find it it’s fucked.” I had to stop talking
because I was only talking myself out of going.

“I’m telling you right now Logan if I find out
this is some fucked up bullshit to have us protecting their oil interest or
diamond mines or some shit I’m going to put a bullet in some fuck’s head.”

“I
thought you calmed him down Connor?” I shrugged my shoulders at Quinn.

“Hey this is his calm.”

“I haven’t given them an answer as yet but most
likely if we answer the call it will be in a few weeks at the least.”

I went home a lot later
than expected so I knew she would be asleep by now. I just needed to feel her
under my hands. In the next few days I was going to have to get my fill of her,
enough to carry me through the weeks ahead.

 
Fuck, we hadn’t had enough time. How could I
leave her now when it was all still so new? What kind of warrior will I be?
Will I be able to focus or would my mind be back here with her? Will I make
unnecessary mistakes? These thoughts and more played through my head as I made
my way upstairs to our bedroom.

I stripped as soon as I
hit the bedroom door without turning on the light and made my way over to the
bed. She’d fallen asleep reading so I removed her reading tablet that was lying
on her chest and placed it on the night table before pulling her into my arms.
“Connor.” Her voice was sleep soft and sexy as she snuggled into m.

“Yeah baby wake up I
need you.” Her hand made a sleepy foray into my hair as she searched for my
mouth with hers.
 
She was naked the way I
like her to be when we sleep and I ran my hands over her. Pulling my mouth away
I latched onto her nipple and sucked it into my mouth while running my finger
down her middle until I reached her pussy. Slipping three fingers inside her I
went back to her mouth as she fucked herself on my fingers. “Connor?” her voice
sounded unsure as my mouth became ravenous on hers and my fingers plunged
deeper and deeper. All I could think about was leaving her, being away from her
for all those weeks or months or however the fuck long this cluster fuck takes.

“Get on your knees and
whatever I do don’t be afraid.” I helped her into position and lined up behind
her. Her pussy was already wet and swollen from my fingers as I moved my mouth
over her. I swiped her with my tongue back and forth while holding her hips in
place before sinking my tongue inside. She screamed and grabbed onto the sheets
while I ate her, trying to get her taste to stay with me. When I’d made her cum
in my mouth I knelt behind her and slipped my cock home. I went in hard and
deep on my first thrust. I was pissed the fuck off and fair or not I intended
on taking out that frustration on her sweet little pussy tonight. That’s why
the warning before the fuck. “Hold on.”

When she looked over her
shoulder in surprise I knew I was doing some shit she’d never experienced at my
hands before but still I didn’t let up. I couldn’t; I was at a place in my head
that I’d never been. The thought of having to leave her behind and go into
uncertain danger fucked with my head and my heart. If I could take part of her
with me I would. For now all I will have are memories.

“I want to look at you
baby.” I pulled out and helped her onto her back before sliding back into her
gently. I looked into her eyes as I loved her. Trying to imprint her beauty on
my brain.

“What is it Connor?” Her
hand came up to caress my cheek as I shook my head at her. Not yet, let me
enjoy this before I shatter us both with the shit I was about to do to her. I’d
promised her that I’d never leave her. As much as I was against leaving my
woman behind I’ve come to learn that she’s fucking petrified of that shit.

Now I have to break my
word. I buried my face in her neck so she wouldn’t see the fight going on in my
soul. “My
Dani
. I love you so fucking much. Will you
marry me tomorrow if I asked?” She nodded her head yes without question, her
eyes worried because she knew something was wrong with her man.

I made slow sweet love
to her for the rest of the night, turning to her throughout the night and
slipping into her waiting warmth. Each time I turned to her or rolled her
beneath me she was there with me. Accepting me into her sweet body without
question.

At least I could do that
much for her, give her my name so that the child I’m sure I’d planted inside
her would have my name.