Creed of Redemption (S.I.N. Rock Star Trilogy #2) (14 page)

There is some truth to what she is saying. I’m not that same naive fuck that she toyed with back then. That shit would never work with me now.

“So you’ve come and given your apologies. I accept. Now what?” It’s a legitimate question. What did she hope to accomplish by coming here.

“I don’t know. I didn’t get that far. I wasn’t even sure if you would agree to see me.”

“Well, you kind of didn’t give me much choice. It’s not like you gave security your name.” The security guy is standing over to the side, no doubt listening in on our conversation. She looks up at me finally.

“I’m sorry,” she says and a lone tear trickles down her cheek. Damn her. She knows I don’t like to be the reason for a woman’s tears. That is why I try to be as upfront as I can.

I know I’m going to regret this, but I remove the rope so she can get through. I nod over at the security guy and walk her back to my dressing room. The guys have no idea who she is. I’ve never talked about her. Not even to Sevyn. When I left New York, she was dead to me. One thing all of this has shown me is that some people are worthy of redemption. Lourdes has forgiven Sevyn and I so maybe, if Melissa is being sincere, I can forgive her too. I’m trying to let our memorable moments outweigh the bad. She gave me an outlet—a sense of control. I was able to shed the weak boy that had been crushed by the disappointment of his father and transform to the man I am today. I owe her a chance to be redeemed for that reason alone. I’m not looking for another relationship because no woman will get that from me…maybe ever. I will spend some time catching up with her and maybe explore some of our mutual interests, but nothing more.

We enter the dressing room and the chatter stops. Melissa latches onto my arm and casts her eyes downward again. Shit, she’s assumed the role of my submissive. She’s falling back into how we were before she left. The guys don’t know what to look for so I doubt they catch on. I look toward Lourdes, whose eyes are trained on her. She and I have never reached this level so I’m not sure if she recognizes what’s going on.

“Stop,” I whisper. “I’m not your Dom, and my band doesn’t know that side of me, so you can’t…” She seems to understand. She raises her head slowly, but doesn’t let me go.

“Who do we have here, Diesel? I’m guessing this is the woman that the security guy was talking about,” Keyser digs.

“Yes. This is Melissa. An old friend of mine.” The girls walk up to get a better look at her. Lourdes has her arms folded. Her lips are tight. She doesn’t like this one bit.

“And when he says friend, he means an old girlfriend,” Melissa says timidly.

“An ex, huh?” Keyser says checking her out. “Damn, man.” I know he likes what he sees. Melissa is dressed in skinny jeans, a tight cleavage showing T-shirt, and fuck-me stilettos.

“You voice is so cute,” Lily comments. “I wasn’t expecting such a cute squeaky voice coming from that package,” she adds admiring Melissa’s curves like Keyser.

“Diesel has never mentioned you,” Xander admits before realizing his mistake. He face palms and Melissa lets out the most adorable giggle.

“No worries. Our break up wasn’t the prettiest one. I was devastated to learn that he had moved before we could reconcile,” she admits.

“So is that what you two are doing now? Reconciling?” Lourdes finally speaks up. That fucking question is loaded with sarcasm. She’s pissed. Holy crap, how could the guys miss the jealous undertones? The room is shocked silent. Before Melissa can answer though, there is a quick knock on the door before Ivy barges in. The rest of her bandmates are right behind her.

This night just turned into a fucking hot mess in an instant. Melissa laces her small fingers through mine and I don’t want to push her away. After all, Lourdes hasn’t spoken to me all day after I spilled my damn heart to her and Ivy has been giving me the cold shoulder since she found me in a room held up with Lourdes. My life is a fucking soap opera right now.

The guys come in and take a seat after raiding our liquor stash. To say they are oblivious to the tension that has increased to nth degree since they walked in, is an understatement. Ivy walks over and stares daggers at Melissa. Her glacial concentration hasn’t left our joined hands since she walked into the room. I feel it coming before it happens. I could predict it.

“You’re Ivy St. Clair, right? Backup vocals for Reckless Ambition?” It’s a rhetorical question since the band is pretty fucking famous. Melissa’s attempt to diffuse the obvious anger radiating off of Ivy is an epic fail. She isn’t even paying attention to Lourdes, even though when she was drunk she called Ivy a whore and rubbed in the fact that I was leaving with her.

“Obviously,” Ivy spits. “Who the hell are you?” Now why in the hell is she jealous? I only fucked her one time. Thank God I didn’t tap that more than once if this is how possessive she gets.

“Ivy, stop,” I say but Melissa answers. I see the train wreck.

“I’m Diesel’s ex,” she answers. She tightens her grip and straightens a little taller. I can feel the hint of difference in her posture.

“Oh. Ex. As in insignificant,” Ivy retorts. “I fucked him just a few days ago so I guess that makes me his ex too.” She laughs condescendingly.

“Are you really comparing your ex fuck with our two year relationship?” She drops my hand. “Little girl, please. I’d run circles around you. You’d wish you knew half of what I knew in that department. Keep bragging cause if that pussy of yours was worth anything, we’d be having a different conversation. You wouldn’t be bragging about having him a few days ago because he would have already been back balls deep in that. When we were together, he couldn’t go a day let alone two or three.” And there it is. The whole room is so quiet you could hear a damn pin drop. Melissa is what you call a switch. She can go from submissive to alpha in the blink of an eye.
Ivy meet Melissa’s alpha.

The evil smile she’s sporting now is daring Ivy to do something.

“Whatever, bitch. Didn’t seem that way when I was making him come.”

“Okay. On that note, let’s go,” Xander says as he sees, like I do, where this is going. Lourdes spins on her heels and she is the first out the door. She doesn’t wait on anyone.

“Damn man. I want to see a chic fight,” Keyser grumbles. I push Melissa out the door while Ivy huffs.

“Silly girl. I hope you know that a dick doesn’t need pussy to cum. Hell he can do that with a few strokes from his hand. Please don’t let the natural result of friction against his cock be the indicator as to whether your shit was good or not. Small hint for you. If he can go without it, it probably wasn’t.”

I don’t even know why I brought her back to the bus. I just needed to get her away from Ivy before things escalated. Melissa has a sharp tongue and an even bigger dominant personality. It really takes a bigger alpha to get her to submit—to top her. Thing is, I couldn’t transition into the Dom in me that she listens to in front of everyone. That little show would have been over before it started. I could have silenced her with a single command.

When we get on the bus, the guys are already sharing the “almost cat fight” as they call it with Sevyn.

When he sees her, he drops the water bottle he’s holding and water spills on the floor next to the sofa where he is siting. The guys scatter to avoid getting soaked by the water. Melissa goes statute still. I have to push her further into the living area before she snaps out of it. I forgot to tell her that I had a twin. It never came up. It was all too new—to fresh—to bring up at the time.

“Melissa. That is my brother, Sevyn,” I say stating the obvious. She gives a slight wave but then turns to bury her face in my chest. It’s endearing that she saves this vulnerable side for me. He waves back, but she’s facing me now so she doesn’t see.

“Man, this girl ripped Ivy a new one,” Keyser continues the story.

“What time do you have to be back?” I ask Melissa.

“I’m off for a week,” she admits. “I got a one-way ticket and left the return date open because I was unsure how tonight would go.”

“So basically, you don’t have to be back tonight?”

“No,” she answers simply.

“That’s all that I needed to know.” We walk past Lourdes’s bunk on the way to the bedroom and she doesn’t even look up. She has her earphones in and she is typing away on her laptop. The small intake of breath lets me know that she sees us. Our unfinished business is inevitable, but for now she needs to explain a few things.

I
haven’t heard back from Brooke since I texted her. My status of “holding up” has died a slow death. Knowing that his ex-girlfriend of two years is here, and that he invited her into our bubble, has set me back to the fucking stone ages. Realistically, I can’t be jealous, but I am. Reality can fuck off.
Right off to be exact
. I’m not strong enough to battle my emotions. I’m fighting an uphill battle. There. Are. Two. Of. Them. Both are more assertive than me, so I’m sure they usually get what they want.

Last night I had to immerse myself in my writing to keep from flipping the fuck out. The rationales Melissa gave about Ivy being insignificant, apply to me too. He’s flirted with me here and there, but nothing to indicate he was going through withdrawals from how good our sex was. He didn’t even bother correcting her.

The bus is quiet now and I hate the insecure girl’s flesh I’m wearing right now. Refusing to wallow in the self-pity I’m creating for myself, I get out of my bunk.

Although we haven’t created a duty schedule for our chores, I figure I’ll pull my weight by cooking breakfast for everyone. Nothing extravagant like Sevyn and Diesel, but on a scale of palatable to gourmet—edible. You can’t screw up eggs right? I scramble eggs, and make grits and bacon. Now that their breakfast is ready, I want to try my hand at making poached eggs. I put water on the stove and add vinegar.

“Morning, Lourdes.”

“Morning, Sevyn,” I greet, turning to give him a once over, but he is covered up this time. I can’t see if he has the tattoo or not. Only reason I can convincingly tell the two brothers apart now is because I’m sure Diesel is still making up for lost time with Melissa.

“Smile, beautiful,” he encourages. “She’s only here for a few days,” he points out.

“I guess I’m being pretty transparent, huh?”

“Just a tad, but I’m here for you.” I turn back toward the stove so he can’t see the tears fall. I wipe them furiously with the back of my hand. We haven’t even fucked since the lake house. Yet, here I am so jealous. I actually let out a breath when I see Lily and the guys come to investigate the smell permeating throughout the bus.

“Remember what I said,” Sevyn says as he join the guys. He doesn’t look back, but the words he left me with, calm my overactive mind, to a degree. Lily is the first to arrive in the kitchen so she can make a plate for Xander and herself. She must see my red, puffy eyes.

“Lourdes, can I ask you something?” she begins.

“Of course.”

“Anything?” Okay now she is starting worry me.

“I would never say anything, but what is going on between you and Diesel, and don’t say nothing,” she pleads. She’s promising not to spill the beans. I need to trust someone with my feelings, especially since Brooke has her own priorities to worry about. That sole proprietorship stake in our friendship is dwindling. I’m so proud of her.

“Okay. What do you want to know?” I lead off.

“Are you two now, or have you ever been, involved?” I can’t believe I’m sharing with her.

“Yup,” I answer simply.

“Oh, I am going to need more detail than that,” she gushes.

“Not here,” I say looking around the room until I spy the guys on the sofa. I’m hoping the guys hadn’t tuned into her probing questions.

“Fine. Let’s finish our breakfast and have some girl time on my bunk.” I laugh because I’m not sure that spot is any better. Voices carry on this bus. I nod in agreement and we head to finish our breakfast with the guys.

I catch Sevyn looking over at me a few times. Melissa and Diesel finally come out of the room and I cringe seeing her wild bed hair. She’s wearing one of his band tees and the tiniest shorts ever that don’t even cover the bottom of her ass cheeks. It doesn’t take a rocket scientist to figure out the night the two of them had. I feel a hand grip my knee under the table and realize it’s Sevyn. I can feel the tears welling in my eyes. I need to move before they fall.