Dangerous Embrace (Embrace #1) (39 page)

Mark gave her a significant look, and she knew he was thinking about the night before.

She shook her head. “I’m scared. I’ve been drinking, and working out, running, the self-defense lessons.” She covered her face with her hands. “I’m glad you know now. I was going crazy wanting to talk about it.”

Mark drew her closer.

“I don’t want to lose another baby. What if something goes wrong?”

“Shh, babe, don’t get worked up. We’ll take it one day at a time. You’re not alone this time. I’ll be here to take care of you and the baby.” He kissed the top of her head. “I love you...and we’re having a baby.”

~

Sarah’s words cut right to his soul. She’d never openly admitted to being scared of anything—or anyone.

Mark prayed God would not put her through losing another baby. The cruelty of that was unconscionable. He would do whatever necessary to keep her healthy and safe.

He thought about the night before and Kevin Lewis. His chest tightened at the memory of her packing and then of the cameras trained on her driveway. He released her and got out of bed.

“Where are you going—don’t leave,” Sarah called after him.

“I’ll be right back. I have to do something in the office.” He rushed in and signed onto the server. Within a few minutes, he’d deleted the last twenty-four hours from the DVR that housed all the video from Sarah’s house.

He went back and crawled into bed with her.

“Where did you go?”

“I erased the porno we made in your driveway last night before the guys at work found it.”

“What?”

“The cameras are still up from when you were in Oregon. They would’ve gotten a good show if they decided to look at the surveillance video.”

She put her hand over her mouth to hide her grin.

“They have no reason to go looking, but I erased the last twenty-four hours just in case.”

“And did you watch it before you erased it?”

He smiled. “Only the good parts.” His smile faded and he lifted up the blankets, but she yanked them back. “Stop, I want to see if I hurt you.”

She gripped the blanket firmly. “You can ask me.”

He tilted his head. “Did I hurt you?”

“No, you did not hurt me.”

“I don’t believe you.”

“You didn’t hurt me, but you scared me when you walked out on me.”

Mark felt the squeeze in his chest again and looked away from her.

“He is going to come after us.” When he didn’t respond, she said, “You’ve never been on the receiving end of his fists. You don’t know what he can do.”

He looked up and the expression on her face melted his anger. “You can’t let him continue to dictate your life.” He pulled her closer. “What happened to that woman I met that insisted she wasn’t scared of anything.”

“She was a liar.” Sarah bowed her head further into his chest. “Afraid of everything, but she didn’t want you to know that.”

“We have everything now, each other, the baby, Jamie. We can’t let him interfere with what we have. You have to shake free of him, Sarah.” He pushed her back to see her face. “It’s just you and me. Don’t let him in.”

“What if you’re wrong this time?” she said earnestly. “I’m pregnant—this could be my last chance to have a baby, your baby, Mark.”

“You’re torturing yourself over this and that will do more harm to the baby than anything else right now.” He sighed as he looked into her frightened eyes. “Will it make you feel better if I call Brian and have Kevin checked out? Tell him about Charlie?”

She held her breath for a moment then nodded her head. “Will Brian do it?”

“Baby, Brian would walk on glass if you asked him to. He cares about you almost as much as I do.” He glanced over at the clock. “I’ll call him...I thought I would be enough to make you feel safe, but I can see now that I’m not enough.” He shook his head and closed his eyes. “I can’t stand to see that fearful expression in your eyes.”

Sarah’s shaking hands moved to her chest and she sat up on her knees. “Did you see the look in Kevin’s eyes when you touched me? He would rather see me dead than see me with someone else.” She placed her hands on her belly. “If he comes after me while I’m alone, he’ll kill me. He’s strong—he hits too hard—I can’t fight him like I did Maylyn.”

“It’s okay, baby, I’ll do whatever I have to—we’ll talk to Brian and see what we can do.” When she didn’t relax, he said, “Sarah, you’re my life now...you’re everything to me. Please stop trying to leave me. Stop and let me take care of this.”

Sarah looked down at her stomach. “I could lose everything. Now that I have you, what I would do if I lost you? It would destroy me.”

He drew her to him again. “I understand more than you know.”

~

Mark forced her to eat breakfast by threatening to call the doctor. Dr. Davidson would put her on bed rest if she didn’t take care of herself. After eating, she felt more in control, but she constantly fought the nausea at the thought of having to tell Brian everything about her past.

When they were seated in the family room with a cup of coffee, Brian said, “I’m glad you called, I have good news.”

“We could use some good news right now,” Mark said.

“Internal affairs and the DA concluded their investigation.”

Mark straightened in his seat. “What’s the verdict?”

“The DA will not press charges, reasoning Maylyn’s death was an act of self-defense.”

“Oh thank God,” Sarah said, glad not to have that hanging over their heads any longer.

“What about IA?” Mark asked.

“We have a meeting set for Monday. But it’s fine. Martinez and I ran a clean investigation. I’m not worried,” Brian said. “Rupert Maylyn was not murdered.”

Mark bowed his head and sighed in relief meeting Sarah’s eyes. If it wasn’t one thing it was another, and Sarah was as tired of drama as he.

When they grew quiet, Brian’s gaze went from Mark’s to Sarah’s with concern. “Mark told me you guys had a problem that I can help with. What’s going on, Sarah?”

Sarah stared at him, not sure what to say, and then her eyes dropped back to her coffee mug unable to force the words out.

When she didn’t speak, Brian tried a different tactic. “Mark told me the good news. Congratulations.”

“There’s more,” Mark said smiling.

Sarah wasn’t sure which news Brian was talking about, and for the life of her, she didn’t understand where Mark found the strength to smile.

“Sarah is pregnant.”

Sarah looked back up to see Brian’s face break out in a big grin. “You guys are having a baby—that’s awesome.”

He shook Mark’s hand before leaning in to kiss Sarah’s cheek. “Congratulations, Sarah. If anyone deserves this it’s you guys after what you’ve been through.”

“Thanks,” Sarah said, enjoying his enthusiasm.

“You don’t seem very happy about it.” He turned toward Mark. “I guess now I get the bad news.”

“We’re ecstatic about the baby and about getting married...there’s something else though. We hope it’s not a big deal.” Mark glanced at Sarah. “We have to explain before Brian can help us. I don’t know how much you want me to tell him.”

Sarah closed her eyes and thought about how she had spent her entire life constructing a wall to keep people out to protect herself. Now she was breaking down the wall for the same reason. Everything somehow felt backwards, like the sun shining on a rainy day. For some reason Mark was the rare exception to whom she let see through her wall, as if he were her rainbow that shown on those sunny-rainy days.

She opened her eyes and looked into Brian’s, searching for the reassurance she needed from him.

“Sarah, I’ll do whatever I can to help, but you have to tell me what’s going on.” After another moment, he said, “You can trust me—Mark and I have been friends since we were kids. We don’t always see eye-to-eye, but we’ve always had each other’s backs.”

“It must be nice to have friends like that,” she said quietly.

“You do have friends like that. I’m not here because Mark needs my help. I’m here because he said you needed me.”

Sarah nodded. “Thank you, I’m sorry for being overdramatic about this.”

“You don’t have anything to apologize for, stop doing that.” Mark looked back at Brian. “Sarah’s been pregnant before, eight years ago. The father of the baby nearly beat her to death when she was six months along and she lost the baby.”

Brian’s face burned red and he closed his eyes for a second.

“She had been with the guy for several years. He was really controlling, verbally abusive, and physically abusive to her throughout most of their relationship...” He paused and said to Sarah, “I’m telling him everything. I want to make sure he understands what this means to you.”

“I know...tell him whatever is necessary for him to understand.”

Mark told Brian the story of how she lost her baby, the beating, the rape, everything, including the way she left the hospital to get away from Kevin.

Brian rubbed his face with his hands, and Sarah could see the same hard expression she’d seen on Mark’s face when she’d first told him the story.

“She developed an infection and by the time she’d gotten proper medical care she was really sick. To make a long story short—the doctors told her she would never be able to get pregnant.”

Brian relaxed a little. “Now she’s pregnant. That’s great.”

“The problem is the ex-boyfriend. She’s been hiding from him for eight years. He threatened to kill her if she ever left him—he’s a mean son of a bitch.” Mark reached out for Sarah’s hand. “We ran into him last night at the Christmas ball.”

“Aw fuck!” Brian said through clenched teeth. “And now he knows where you are.”

She nodded and tried to smile at him. It was a pathetic attempt.

“No wonder you’re terrified.”

Sarah sat in a daze with a pounding headache while Mark explained the rest of the story. She forced herself to put on a brave face. She could see the wear of her emotions on Mark, and she didn’t want to pull him down into her dark pit.

“Sarah, I need you to write down everything you know about Kevin, date of birth, last known address, nearest relatives. I’ll check him out. I can have a friend at the airport check see when he flies home from San Francisco. We can make sure he’s on that flight. Do you have a picture of him?”

“No, I left everything like that behind.”

“His family’s business has a website and his picture is on it with a short bio. Let’s go to the office and I’ll bring it up for you.”

Sarah’s head shot up.

Mark stood to take Brian upstairs, but before walking away, he turned to her. “Are you going to be okay by yourself for a few minutes?”

“Yeah, can I talk to you for a quick second?”

“I’ll meet you up there, Brian.”

Brian nodded and bounced up the stairs.

“What’s up?”

“How did you know about his family business and the website?”

“Did you think I wouldn’t check him out myself?”

Sarah leaned over and gave him a tight hug. “Thank you. I’m sorry for all this. I don’t mean to be so much trouble.”

He held her, inhaling deeply and holding her for a moment. “Please, don’t apologize to me again. I love you. I’m sorry you’ve had to go through this. You should be able to have everything you want...you should be a mommy and a wife and you shouldn’t have to live with your life being threatened at every turn.” He pulled back and framed her face in his hands. “I’ve seen how strong and resilient you are. Give yourself time, baby, and stop feeling guilty.”

He stood up and gave her a faint smile before leaving the room.

Sarah took a deep breath and tried to focus on what he said. “I have to be resilient—stronger,” she told herself.

She considered what kind of an example she’d be setting if she were a mommy. That pissed her off and made her hate Kevin even more. Mark was right—she needed to stop letting Kevin into her life,
their life
, and into her nightmares. It was one thing to let him affect her, but it was wholly unfair to let him affect Mark’s life, Jamie’s life and her baby’s life. She leaned over and reached for the notepad and pen to write down all the facts she had on Kevin Lewis.

“Son of a bitch, Mark. That guy beat on her? She’s lucky to be alive.” Brian and Mark stared at the picture on the screen. “No fucking wonder she’s freaked out.”

Mark moved to the other side of the desk and sat down on the folded futon, giving his desk chair to Brian. “I told you he’s a mean son of a bitch. The things he did to her...” Mark closed his eyes and tried to contain his anger. “She wakes up from vicious nightmares of him strangling her.”

“Mark, man, she needs to take care of herself. If she’s not sleeping and the stress—”

“What can I do? She’s so exhausted she can’t even think straight.” He ran his hand through his hair. “Things were supposed to get back to normal now.”