Enchantress: A Novel of Rav Hisda's Daughter (4 page)

He sat down and stroked his beard in thought. “Considering the season, Rav Hisda probably taught about the fall holidays. Can you recall any teachings about them?”

Heaven rescued me, and I recalled a Baraita appropriate for the situation. “In a discussion on forgiveness, Father quoted from Vayikra: ‘You shall not take vengeance and you shall not bear a grudge.’”

Rava looked at me with disdain. “Every schoolboy knows that.”

“But do they all know the Baraita that teaches ‘what is taking vengeance and what is bearing a grudge?’” I asked. “Revenge is when one man asks another to lend him a sickle and the second refuses, then when the second man asks the first to lend him a shovel, the first one says, ‘Just as you wouldn’t lend me your sickle, so I will not lend you my shovel.’ This is taking vengeance.”

“Go on,” he said. This Baraita was clearly new to him.

“A grudge is when one man asks another to lend him a sickle and the second refuses, then when the second man asks the first to lend him a shovel, the first one says, ‘Here it is. I am not like you who did not lend me your sickle.’ This is bearing a grudge.”

“Is that the end of it?”

I shook my head. “In both cases, the first man should seek forgiveness from the second at Yom Kippur, for a Mishna in Tractate Yoma teaches that Yom Kippur does not atone for sins between a man and his fellow until he appeases his fellow.”

“That is well for property cases,” Rava said. “But what about personal suffering?”

Was he blaming me for his suffering? Thankfully, I thought of a pertinent Baraita. “Those who suffer insult but do not insult in return, who hear themselves disgraced but do not reply in kind, who perform Elohim’s mitzvot out of love and accept their suffering, they shall be as it is written (in Judges): ‘Those who love Him shall be as the sun rising in might.’”

Rava nodded thoughtfully, but to my disappointment he remained silent.

His pause made me think of some Baraitot about the world being created on Rosh Hashana. “Seven things were created before the world and they are Torah, repentance, Gan Eden, Gehenna, Elohim’s throne of glory, the Holy Temple, and the name of the Messiah.”

I followed with the miraculous events Elohim created on the eve of the sixth day, and continued in this vein until my voice grew hoarse, and we had to sit quite close for him to hear me over the noise of the flapping sails. “I’m sorry, but I’m not used to giving such lengthy speeches,” I whispered. “On the subject of Rosh Hashana, perhaps you could talk now. Did you have a good New Year?”

“No, I did not.” His eyes narrowed in pain. “I returned to Machoza to find that Romans had pillaged my home and vineyards when they sacked Ctesiphon. My wife moved what little she could salvage to her father’s house in Nehar Panya. She then accused me of neglecting my marital duty by going to Eretz Israel without her permission, so her
ketuba
payment has increased substantially. Add that to the cost of rebuilding my home, and I’ve had to mortgage my lands.” He took a deep breath. “To make matters worse, my father is very ill and unlikely to recover.”

“I am so sorry.” I could no longer pretend to be an uncaring acquaintance. “Please let me help you.”

“I don’t want any help, especially not yours.”

“Let me supply the extra
ketuba
payment. After all, you were delayed returning home because you stayed to save my life.” The Rabbis stipulated that when a man divorced his wife, he had to pay her an agreed-upon sum to live on afterward. The amount was written in her marriage contract, her
ketuba
.

“I did that for my own reasons, not because I expected a reward.”

“Even so, it would be ungrateful of me to let you suffer on my account.”

Rava stopped to think, and I congratulated myself on my foresight in secretly arranging to become his lender. Sure that he’d be too proud to accept my assistance, I had turned to my brothers Mari and Tachlifa, who managed my property. Both had in-laws in Machoza who were willing to act as my agents in acquiring whatever land Rava needed to mortgage.

“Speaking of suffering, do you recall what your father taught about the Holy One’s afflictions of love?” he asked.

“Yes,” I said slowly, curious and afraid of where Rava was leading. “If a man sees that afflictions are befalling him, he should look to his deeds to determine if he needs to repent for some sin. If not, he should attribute his sufferings to neglect of Torah study. If he finds neither of these, he should accept them as Elohim’s afflictions of love.”

“That is what I remember,” he replied. “By accepting his suffering in this world, the pious man receives a greater reward in the next world than his merits would otherwise justify.”

“You are the last man one could accuse of neglecting Torah study.” I paused to choose my words carefully. “But couldn’t there be some sin, perhaps one you’ve committed inadvertently, that you need to atone for?”

“Heaven knows that I have thoroughly repented for all my sins.” His voice was weary, not arrogant. “Rav Huna taught that those the Holy One loves, He slams with sufferings. As the prophet Isaiah said: ‘Though he had done no injustice, Adonai chose to crush him with sickness.’”

“But . . . ,” I began, my exasperation growing. Isaiah said the crushed man’s reward was in this world, where “he will see offspring and have long life,” not in the next world. Surely Rava knew that. Why would he want to justify suffering?

Before I could say more, he added, “You might think this happens even if he does not accept his sufferings with love. Therefore the verse continues, ‘if his soul acknowledges,’ which means that these afflictions come only with his consent.”

I could no longer restrain myself. “If you want afflictions, then you are welcome to them.” I was assaulted by bitter memories of Rami’s death, less than four years after our wedding, and my little girl’s death from a
kashafa
’s Evil Eye only last year. “I’ve had enough suffering in this life already,” I said. “As Rabbi Yohanan answered when asked if his afflictions were dear to him, ‘Neither they nor their reward.’” Immediately I regretted my harsh tone. Why did Rava make me so angry?

“If Elohim chooses to afflict me with poverty and childlessness, I accept them, but the sufferings my
yetzer hara
has inflicted . . .” Rava’s voice trailed off.

Ah, the
yetzer hara
—the evil impulse. That’s what the Rabbis called man’s drive for pleasure or gain.

Now was the time to apologize for my own evil impulse. “I know Yom Kippur has passed, but I must ask your forgiveness for angering you just before you left Sura.” I hoped I sounded as sorry as I felt. “Please don’t hold a grudge against me for such a momentary lapse.”

He sighed deeply but refused to meet my gaze. “Of course I forgive you.” He kept watching the moving water. “I too had much to contemplate at Yom Kippur. After many discussions with my teacher, I have concluded that you bear no responsibility for the many years of misery I’ve endured on your account.”

He no longer sounded angry. Was he attempting to reconcile? “I don’t understand,” I said.

“You were merely a child when you said you wanted to marry both Rami and me. I should not have let my desire become focused on you just because of a few childish words spoken when you were a girl.” Rava’s tone became wistful. “I should have recognized much earlier that my
yetzer hara
was tormenting me to interfere with my studies.”

“But it has failed,” I protested. “You are an excellent Torah scholar.”

“If I was, I would be able to conquer my
yetzer hara
instead of fighting a continual losing battle.”

“No man is that great a scholar.”

“That will be my challenge this year,” Rava said. “Rav Oshaiya says that if I can subdue my
yetzer hara
despite living in Em’s house while you’re studying with her there, it will be a great achievement.”

“Rav Oshaiya? I thought you were studying with Rav Yosef.”

“Rav Oshaiya is teaching me the secret Torah.”

That was a relief. I would have the entire year, until Jewish Law forced him to divorce his childless wife, to make him see why his
yetzer hara
was so attracted to me.

It was because we were fated to marry.

“It will be a challenging year for both of us,” I said.

“Yes, your new
charasheta
studies will be quite demanding,” he said, evidently misunderstanding me. “But I have every confidence that you will master them.”

I was gathering the courage to tell Rava how I felt about him, when suddenly the wind began to weaken.

“Oh no,” Rava muttered as the sails grew slack and our boat’s progress slowed.

I watched with dismay as the boatmen grabbed paddles and frantically attempted to take us to shore before the current started sweeping us back downstream. “What will happen now?” I asked. All I knew was that we were somewhere south of Pumbedita, but surely Rava was familiar with the river’s many moods.

“We will have to wait until the wind picks up again or they find some donkeys to pull us along the towpath.”

I was gazing helplessly at the motionless sails when my skin began to tingle as I sensed the presence of magic.

Rava was pacing the deck with impatience, and I could see that he was not the source of what I felt. The awareness grew stronger, and I turned to clandestinely examine the other passengers. There was one other woman on the boat, accompanied by a small retinue of slaves. Her eyes were closed, but her hands and lips were moving.

I shivered as a slight breeze caressed my skin. The woman’s hands continued their motions, and the breeze strengthened until the sails billowed and filled with air. Only when the boat started moving again at a brisk speed did her mouth close and her fingers return to her spinning. At the same time the feeling of supernatural power ceased.

There was no doubt in my mind that I had just witnessed a
charasheta,
an enchantress, at work.

 • • • 

We reached Pumbedita several hours later. My hometown of Sura was old enough for the prophet Ezekiel to be buried there, but most of the city had been built much later. Pumbedita, however, a major stop on trading routes between East and West since the time of Abraham, was truly ancient. Now that I was here, gazing up from the bustling dock to the massive city walls like a provincial simpleton, I began to doubt I was worthy of having someone as illustrious as Em for my teacher.

Em and Abaye were glad to have us arrive together. She clasped me to her ample bosom, while he threw his arm around Rava’s shoulders. Abaye’s wife and daughter were already asleep, so extensive greetings would have to wait. But I had to tell Em about the enchantress on the boat, which I did as we walked up the winding stone staircase to my room.

“What did the woman look like?” Em asked when Leuton began unpacking my things.

“Her hair was covered, so I couldn’t tell its color, but she appeared to be around thirty,” I said. “In truth, she seemed rather average in everything—neither tall nor short, fat nor thin, beautiful nor ugly, no distinguishing features—yet I’m certain I’d know her if I saw her again.”

“She doesn’t sound like anyone I know.” Em scratched her head in thought. “Though a
charasheta
powerful enough to control the wind might have ways of making herself less noticeable.”

“Do you think she’ll call on you?”

Em shrugged. “If she is only visiting and does not intend to perform enchantments, then probably not.”

I gave a slight sigh of disappointment. “I see.”

Em seemed in no hurry to leave until I was completely settled, so I inquired about my schedule and studies.

“For several months, until I’m confident you understand everything, you’ll only observe me as I work.” Her tone was firm, and I thought I heard a warning as well.

“I wouldn’t dream of doing anything without your express permission.”

Em cleared her throat. “Abaye’s first wife also studied with me. She was eager to learn recipes for curing illnesses, which I promptly taught her . . . to my regret.” She paused to wipe a tear from her eye.

“What happened?” I asked gently.

“I knew she suffered from headaches, but I never imagined she would try the remedy on herself without telling me.” Her face was etched with sadness. “I don’t know whether she made the potion too strong or took more when the first batch didn’t help, but we found her unconscious one morning, and she died that same day.”

I shuddered. “How awful.”

She hurriedly changed the subject. “You will continue to inscribe amulets and
kasa d’charasha
when you’re not
dashtana
. We don’t want your skills to languish through disuse.”

“But where will I find clients?” I asked with surprise.

“I will arrange that.”

“I need to become familiar with the streets of Pumbedita,” I declared. The terror of getting lost as a child in the twisting alleys of Kafri had never left me.

“I will arrange that as well.” Em glanced over at Leuton, who was standing patiently next to our now prepared beds. “But first you must get some rest.”

Em was shorter than me, so I had to lean down to kiss her fleshy cheek. “Thank you so much for your hospitality, and for agreeing to train another student.”

 • • • 

I woke before dawn. I knew Rava was an early riser, but I was taken aback when he stepped out into the hallway just as I did. We were facing each other so closely I could see a few drops of wash water still clinging to his beard. His surprise at almost bumping into me was too genuine for the encounter to have been planned.

We had no choice but to walk downstairs together. I turned to Rava. “Where does everyone usually sit?”

“Em sits here, closest to the hearth.” He then pointed out a table that was lower than the five others. “Abaye’s daughter and wife sit over there, so the little girl is as far away from the fire as possible.”

I moved one of three remaining tables next to Em’s, pleased that Rava would have a good view of me. A kitchen slave brought us bread, bowls of porridge, and some dried fruit, and I waited as Rava blessed the bread.