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Praise for
MY IMMORTAL
“A sexy and oddly poignant tale of lust, love, and redemption.”
—Booklist
“Well-written . . . thought-provoking, fabulous.”
—Midwest Book Review
“Intriguing, entrancing, and enrapturing!”
—The Romance Readers Connection
“The writing is seamless, the story a page-turner, and the romance is one to defy all odds.”
—Romance Reviews Today
(A Perfect Ten)
“Sultry, steamy New Orleans is the perfect setting for Erin McCarthy’s story of shocking sin and stunning sensuality.”
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USA Today
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"Keep an eye on this new author.” —
WordWeaving
"Both naughty and nice . . . sure to charm readers.”
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Booklist
“One of the romance writing industry’s brightest stars . . . Ms. McCarthy spins a fascinating tale that deftly blends a paranormal story with a blistering romance.”
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Romance Reviews Today
“Characters you will care about, a story that will make you laugh and cry, and a book you won’t soon forget . . . priceless.” —
The Romance Reader
(5 hearts)
“An alluring tale.” —
A Romance Review
(5 roses)
“Fans will appreciate this otherworldly romance and want a sequel.” —
Midwest Book Review
“Fascinating.” —
Huntress Book Reviews
“A keeper. I’m giving it four of Cupid’s five arrows.”
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BellaOnline
Titles by Erin McCarthy
A DATE WITH THE OTHER SIDE
HEIRESS FOR HIRE
MY IMMORTAL
FALLEN
The Vegas Vampires series
HIGH STAKES
BIT THE JACKPOT
BLED DRY
SUCKER BET
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FALLEN
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ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
Special thanks to the following:
Christy Carlson, for helping me fill in plot points over French baguettes on Royal Street, and for reading along as I wrote. I truly appreciate your encouragement and your friendship.
Michael, for Chopin.
Kathy Love, for being the friend that’s there every day, in every way. This book wouldn’t exist without you.
Prologue
NEW ORLEANS, 1849
Anne Donovan would do anything for John Thiroux.
She would die for him.
Sitting in front of the cracked mirror Madame had provided for her in the tiny, shabby room that was hers based on the fact that John paid to keep her available, Anne brushed her auburn hair. Embracing the familiar tingle in her body, the heaviness in her breasts, the ache between her thighs that always arose when she thought of her lover, she sighed with contentment, anticipation. John was everything to her, an absolute angel of a man, and she was completely and utterly in love with him. He had saved her from the steady stream of anonymous men she’d previously had to endure in various bawdy houses to stay off the streets, and his favor allowed her to send money to her cousin for her daughter’s upkeep. It was true she’d had a private benefactor prior to John, but that one had been an oddity, and Anne had been grateful to exchange him for the beauty and passion of her current lover.
The knock on her door cut through her lazy daydreaming and had her pushing her chair back and hastily dropping the tarnished hairbrush down on the vanity table next to her rouge. She wasn’t ready. She didn’t have John’s tray set with his drink poured, pipe out, his favorite spoon lying next to the bottle. Panicked at the thought of doing anything less than pleasing him entirely, Anne was yanking at the bodice of her gown to adjust it and rushing across the room when Madame popped her head in. Relief flooded her for a brief, glorious minute, until she heard the woman’s words.
“I’m sending a gentleman in to see you.”
Fear slid overtop of her relief, as Anne stared at Madame’s round, fleshy, dissolute face. The phrase felt foreign, unheard for months, familiar in the sick pit it created in the depths of her stomach. “What? You can’t mean . . .” Her heart pounded at the thought of pleasuring another man besides John. Touching a stranger, taking him into her mouth and body, enduring the strain of humiliation, revulsion. She had thought that behind her. “John . . .”
“Mr. Thiroux requested this,” Madame said with a wink. “He’s in a strange mood tonight, honey, drunk already, and asked to watch you in play with his gentleman friend.”
That gave her pause. John had never made such a request before, but then again, she did recall him mentioning that he enjoyed the fact that she’d known so many men, that she had her choice of protectors, and yet preferred his body to others. He often talked at length about how she would one day tire of him and seek another, which she knew beyond a doubt she never would. Her heart, her soul, belonged to him, and she craved him, ached for his approval, burned for his body, longed for his love.
She stood indecisively. Decisions were not her strong suit. She’d made a significant number of poor ones, the succession of which had led her to the unfortunate lifestyle she had found herself in prior to meeting John. Yet none so important as this decision now, because she could not jeopardize her position with him. “I don’t know . . . that doesn’t seem . . .”
“Would you want to anger him?” Madame demanded. “Ruin a good thing for you and me? You don’t have a choice. This man is an artist, like Mr. Thiroux. He’ll be gentle, and he’ll be here in two minutes. Remove your gown and save some time.”
Though it still seemed as though this could be a mistake, Anne hastened to obey as the door closed. She would do anything John wanted. Anything. She would die for him.
Gabriel St. John knew that he was fallen. From angel to demon, favorite to disdained, he embraced the change, welcomed the passion, wallowed in the ecstasy he found day after day in the bottom of the bottle, and night after night in the arms of his favorite whore. In the two years of his tenure walking the earth as a Watcher, he had absorbed the stench and pain of human misery surrounding him until he could no longer suffer the helplessness and hopelessness they brought upon him. Their sad, desperate, begging eyes were a much easier burden to bear when his over-heightened angelic senses were dulled from vast quantities of whiskey, opium, and the beautiful green fairy of absinthe he had come to adore. It was a drink he had come to worship, to crave with every ounce of his preternatural essence. His absinthe was his clarity, his respite, his one true love.
“Good evenin’, Mr. Thiroux,” a stout woman in full-blown scarlet silk said to him.
Gabriel stepped inside the parlor, such as it was, of the House of Rest for Weary Men. The name of the two-bit bordello never failed to amuse him, the irony even more prominent in his case, given that while he was weary, he was not a man, and in either case, rest was never what a man sought at this particular address. Escape. Fleshly pleasure. A bawdy good time. Oblivion. They were all sought at various times by various men for mere pennies passed to Madame’s hand. Gabriel was never bawdy, but he longed most vigorously for escape, for a contentment that eluded him, for the respite the grandiose name promised.
“Good evening, Madame Conti, you’re looking well.” In fact, Madame was looking rather ill at ease, standing in front of him, blocking his way to the creaky, slanted stairs that led him up to Anne, where his glass and spoon would be waiting. Perhaps he’d forgotten to pay. He wasn’t really sure when he’d last fronted Madame money for his nightly sojourns, but several months prior he had sold a painting for a significant amount, and had settled his affairs far enough into the future that he had lost awareness of the time.