Isaac went up to Grier and walked them both back inside. As he threw the lock and turned on one track of lighting waaaaaay across the room, he grimaced. Man, the kitchen didn‟t smell much better than those two out back had: burned egg, charred bacon, and blackened butter were not a party for the ol‟ sniffer.
“Are you all right?” he asked, even though once again the answer was self-evident.
“Are you?”
He ran his eyes down her from head to foot. She was alive and he was with her and they were safe in this fortress of a house. “I‟m better.”
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“What‟s in the backyard.”
“Friends.” He took his gun back. “Who want both of us to be safe.”
To keep himself from dragging her into his arms, he sheathed both guns in his windbreaker and picked the pan off the stove. Dumping the remains of her almost-dinner in the sink, he washed the thing out.
“Before you ask,” he murmured, “I don‟t know anything more than you do.”
Which was essentially true. Sure, he had a leg up on her when it came to certain things—but as for the shit in the backyard? Fucking. Clueless.
He popped a dish towel off a hook and…realized she hadn‟t said anything for a while.
Pivoting around, he saw that she had taken a seat on one of the stools and wrapped her arms around herself. She was utterly self-contained, having retreated into her skin and turned to stone.
“I‟m trying…” She cleared her throat. “I‟m really trying to understand all this.”
He brought the pan back over to the stove and braced himself on his arms, thinking here it was again, the great divide between the civilian and the soldier. This chaos and scramble and deadly danger? To him, it was business as usual.
Except it was killing her.
Like a complete lame-ass, he said, “You want to give dinner another shot?”
Grier shook her head. “Being in a parallel universe where everything looks like your life, but is actually something else entirely is an appetite killer.”
“Been there.” He nodded. “Done that.”
“Made it your profession, matter of fact. Didn‟t you.”
He frowned and left that one right where it had landed on the counter between them. “Listen, are you sure I can‟t make you—”
“I went back to your apartment. This afternoon.”
“Why.” Fuck.
“It was after I dropped your money off at the police department and gave a statement. Guess who was at your place.”
“Who.”
“It was someone my father knew.”
Isaac‟s shoulders tightened up so hard, he found it difficult to breathe. Or maybe his lungs had frozen solid. Oh, Jesus Christ, no…not—
She pushed something across the granite at him. A business card. “I‟m supposed to call this number if you show up here.”
As Isaac read the digits, she laughed with a sharp edge. “My father had the same expression on his face when he read what was on it. And let me guess, you‟re not going to tell me who‟d answer the ring, either.”
“The man at my apartment. Describe him.” Even though Isaac knew.
“He had an eye patch.”
Isaac swallowed hard, thinking that whatever he‟d assumed she‟d had in that tissue when she‟d gotten out of her car…he‟d never considered that it would have been given to her by Matthias himself.
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“Who is he?” she asked.
Isaac‟s reply was just a shake of the head. As it was, she was already standing at the precipice of the rat hole he and her father were sucked into. Any explaining would be the size-thirteen boot in the ass that sent her over the edge and into a free fall—
With a sudden surge, she burst up from the stool and grabbed the glass of wine she‟d been nursing. “I am so goddamn tired of all this silence!”
She pitched the chardonnay across the room, and when the glass hit the wall, it shattered, leaving a bomb burst of wet stain on the plaster and shards all around on the floor.
As she wheeled toward him, she was breathing hard and her eyes were on fire.
There was a beat of raw silence. And then Isaac came around the island toward her.
He kept his voice low as he approached. “When you were in the police station today, did they ask you about me?”
She seemed momentarily nonplussed. “Of course they did.”
“And what did you tell them?”
“Nothing—because short of your name, I don‟t know a goddamn thing.”
He nodded, bringing his body even closer to hers. “That man at my apartment. Did he ask about me?”
She threw her hands up. “Everyone wants to know about you—”
“And what did you tell him?”
“Nothing,” she hissed.
“If someone from the CIA or the NSA comes to your door and asks about me—”
“I can‟t tell them anything!”
He stopped so close, he could see each individual lash around her stunning blue eyes.
“That‟s right. And that‟s what is going to keep you alive.” As she cursed and went to turn away, he grabbed her arm and snapped her back around. “That man at my apartment is a cold-blooded killer and he let you go only because he wants to send a message to me. The reason I‟m not telling you anything—”
“I can lie! Damn it—why do you assume I‟m naive?” She glared up at him. “You have no idea what it‟s been like my whole life, seeing all these shadows and never having them explained. I can
lie
—”
“They‟ll torture you. To make you talk.”
That shut her up.
And he kept going. “Your father knows this. So do I—and believe me, during training I got put through an interrogation session, so I know
precisely
what they‟ll do to you. The only way I can be sure you don‟t get that is if you really don‟t have anything to say. Frankly, you‟re too close to this anyway—through no fault of your own.”
“God…I
hate
this.” The trembling in her body wasn‟t about fear. It was rage, pure and simple. “I just want to hit something.”
“Okay.” He tightened her fist and drew her arm back over her shoulder. “Take it out on me.”
“What—”
“Hit me. Tear my eyes out. Do anything you have to.”
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“Are you mad?”
“Yes. Insane.” He dropped his hold on her and braced his weight, staying close…close enough so she could cork him a good one if she wanted to. “I‟ll be your punching bag, your Kevlar vest, your bodyguard…I‟ll do anything to help you get through this.”
“You‟re crazy,” she breathed.
As she stared up at him all flushed and alive, the heat in his blood surged—and took them into even more dangerous territory. For fuck‟s sake, like he needed to get sexed up? Now, yet again, was not the time or the place.
So naturally, he asked, “What‟s it going to be…Do you want to hit me or kiss me?”
In the wake of the demand, Grier ran her tongue over her lips and Isaac tracked the movement like a predator. Yet it was clear as he stayed where he was that what happened next was up to her.
Which proved what kind of man he was in spite of the profession he‟d fallen into.
On her side, she wasn‟t thinking anything remotely professional. She was confused and off-kilter—this was last night all over again with the reckless buzzing. But that wasn‟t what compelled her now.
This could be the only time she had with him. Ever. She‟d spent all afternoon wondering where he was, if he was okay…if she would see him again. If he was still alive. He was a stranger who had somehow become very important to her. And though the timing was horrible, you couldn‟t schedule the opportunities you had.
Dropping her arm, she uncoiled the fist he‟d made for her, and as it came down, she wished she could keep it to herself because that was a more responsible choice. Instead, she leaned into him and put her palm between his legs. On a growl low in his throat, his hips thrust forward.
He was hard and thick.
And had to hold himself up as he swayed.
“I won‟t stop this time,” he growled.
She tightened her grip on him. “I just want to be with you. Once.”
“That can be arranged.”
They met in the middle in a blaze, lips crushing, arms winding around, bodies coming together. In the dim kitchen, he picked her up and took her down onto the floor between the island and counter, rolling over at the last moment so he was the bed she lay upon. As her legs settled between his, the hard ridge of his erection dug into her and his tongue entered her mouth, taking, owning. As they kissed in desperation, his body undulated beneath her, rolling and receding, the powerful contours of him achingly familiar in spite of how little time she‟d spent against him.
God, she needed more of him.
In a fumbling move, she yanked up her shirt and he was right on it, pulling down the lacy cups, freeing her nipples, and then moving her up so that his lips latched onto one, sucking, pulling, licking. His hair was thick against her fingers as she held him to her, his mouth wet and hot, his hands grabbing her hips and digging in.
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He rubbed her in tight circles as he flicked his tongue, and only the raging need to have him inside gave her the focus she needed to go for his nylon sweatpants. Shoving the waistband down, she kicked off her loafers, hooked a toe, and peeled them all the way off.
No boxers. No briefs. Nothing in the way.
Wrapping her palm around his thick shaft, she stroked him and he moved with her, counterthrusting to increase the friction. And the sound he made…holy heavens, the sound he made: that growl was all animal as he inhaled against her breast.
Grier sat up, his lips popping off her breast, and with a curse, she all but ripped her yoga pants and her panties off. As he gripped himself and stood his erection up, she restraddled him and sat down, lowering herself onto him, joining them together, moving his windbreaker up so she could get to more skin. The feel of him kicked her head back, but she watched his reaction, hungry to see what he looked like—and he didn‟t disappoint. With a great hiss, his teeth clenched and he sucked in air through them, the cords in his neck straining, his pecs popping up into tight pads.
As she took over and set the pace, it was as if she were owning him in some primal way, marking him with the sex.
“God…you‟re beautiful,” he panted as his hot eyes watched her from lowered lids, tracking the movement of her breasts as they peeked out from between the shirt and the crammed-down bra cups.
He didn‟t stay down for long, though. He was fast and strong and sure as he sat up and kissed her hard, pushing in even deeper and holding her to him. At first she panicked that he was stopping again, but then he burrowed into her neck and spoke to her.
“You feel so good.” His Southern drawl was low and husky and it went straight into her sex, heating her even further. “You feel…”
He didn‟t finish the sentence, but slipped his big palms under her to lift her up and down, his massive biceps handling her weight as if she were nothing but a toy—
She came so hard she saw stars, a bright galaxy exploding where they were joined and sending a shower of sparkling light throughout her body. And just as he‟d promised, he didn‟t stop this time. He went rigid and jerked against her, his arms shooting around her waist and tightening until she couldn‟t breathe—not that she cared about oxygen. As he twitched inside of her and shuddered against her, she sank her nails into his black windbreaker and held him.
And then it was all over.
As their breathing slowed, the stillness afterward was much the same as the departure of that great, sourceless wind: oddly traumatic.
Silence. God…the silence. But she couldn‟t think of anything to say.
“I‟m sorry,” he bit out roughly. “I thought this would help you.”
“Oh, no…I—”
He shook his head, and with his tremendous strength lifted her off his body, separating them easily. In a quick move, he set her aside, yanked his waistband back up, and reached for a clean towel. After he gave the thing to her, he settled with his back against the cupboards and put his knees up, arms balanced on the tops of them, hands hanging loose.
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Squeezing her eyes shut briefly, she cleaned up quick and redressed. Then she settled in an identical pose next to him. Unlike Isaac, however, she didn‟t stare straight ahead; she looked at his profile. He was so beautiful in that male way, his face all angles and bone—but the weariness in him bothered her.
He‟d lived on the edge for too long.
“How old are you really?” she asked eventually.
“Twenty-six.”
She recoiled. So that was the truth? “You seem older.”
“I feel like it.”
“I‟m thirty-two.” Still more silence. “Why won‟t you look at me.”
“You‟ve never had a one-night stand. Until now.” Like he‟d cursed her in some way.
“Well, technically, it‟s been two nights with you.” As his jaw clenched, she knew that wasn‟t a help. “Isaac, you didn‟t do anything wrong.”
“Didn‟t I.” He cleared his throat.
“I wanted you.”
Now he looked at her. “And you had me. God…you had me.” For a brief second, his eyes flared with heat again, and then he refocused on the cabinet in front of him. “But that‟s it. It‟s over and done with.”
Okay…
ouch
. And for a guy who seemed bitched that he‟d indoctrinated her into the one-night club, you‟d think his conscience would feel better if they did it a few more times.