Finding London (Flawed Heart #1) (3 page)

“Oh,” is my only response.

“I am in a hurry though and in need of a truck washin’, so if you wouldn’t mind getting started, that would be awesome.”

My mouth drops open, but I quickly close it while rolling my eyes toward Loïc, God of Assholes—drop-dead gorgeous ones but assholes nonetheless.

“Right,” I snap, turning to grab the hose.

Ugh, what a jerk.

Unadulterated fury powers me through cleaning the truck. In actuality, most of the crap comes right off with a simple spray of the hose, but the truck itself is inconsequential at this point. What is driving my rage is Loïc sitting pretty inside the cab of his truck, his fingers tapping away at his phone. He seems completely oblivious of me. Although I’m pissed, I’m still using every opportunity I can to get his attention.

Isn’t watching a half-naked chick leaning over a wet truck some sort of fantasy for guys?

Yet, every time I glance his way to see if he’s checking out my ass, I find that he’s not. He’s staring at his damn phone.

Maybe he’s gay. He has to be.

But I didn’t get that vibe from him in the least.

He’s just some Army jerk.
Why do I care?

I finish spraying his truck down and stand outside his closed window. He doesn’t look up until I tap against the glass. When the window is open, a rush of urgency comes over me. I’m suddenly inundated with this longing to say something to keep him here, to make him want me.

Part of me knows that, when he drives away, I will never see him again. For reasons that escape me, that thought terrifies me. I don’t know anything about Loïc besides that he drives a big truck, he might have lived in the South at some point in his life, and he’s in some sort of military service.

But it’s not about what I know of him. It’s what I see in him. Behind his insane good looks is
something
. I’m not sure what it is, but I want to find out. I need to find out. And the fact that he doesn’t seem to be interested is causing me to panic.

His right eyebrow rises. “All done?”

“Yeah, it’s five dollars,” I answer with a sigh.

There is so much I want to say to him, but none of it seems appropriate or, to be honest, sane. I shouldn’t feel this range of emotions toward a stranger, and I’m starting to wonder if the heat is getting to my head.

He hands me a twenty. “Keep the change”—his deep blues send an electrifying current through me—“for the puppies. And, London?”

My eyes expectantly shoot up to his.

“Thank you,” he says before pushing his gearshift into drive and pulling out of the parking lot.

London

“Why didn’t he want me? I’m amazing.”

—London Wright

I turn my attention from the
How I Met Your Mother
rerun that I’ve been watching to face my best friend, who is sitting at the other end of the couch. She is being awfully chatty at the moment and has been talking my ear off, ruining the better half of this show with her obsessive babbling. Granted, I’ve watched this particular episode at least three times, but that’s not the point.

She must notice my less than amused look. “Listen up, girlfriend. You need to stop this little pouting session that you have going on. It’s getting annoying. As they always say,
When it rains, it pours
.” Paige plops a corner of her frosted Pop-Tart into her mouth.

“What exactly do you mean by that? What’s raining?” I ask, my eyebrow quirking up in question.

Paige looks at me like I have two heads, her face scrunched up in confusion. “How am I supposed to know? That’s just what they say.” She shrugs.

I chuckle. “Well, Paigey Poo, the entire point of using an expression like that is to have it make sense to the situation and, by extension, help in some way. Your sayings never fit what is going on, so there’s really no point in saying them at all.”

“I say them because I like to. It makes me sound”—she pauses, thinking of the exact word she wants to say—“smart.”

I can’t hold in my laughter, and an obnoxious roar of giggles comes from my mouth. “No, it doesn’t.” I wipe the few stray tears leaking from the corners of my eyes. “It actually has the opposite effect. You do know this, right?”

She plops another piece of her Pop-Tart into her mouth, her expression one of annoyance.

“It’s just, when you say something that doesn’t make sense, it makes you sound a little silly. I love you, silly and all…but I’m just saying.” I give her a sheepish smile.

“You can
just say
all you want, but I will continue to say what I want even if you think I sound stupid.” She narrows her eyes at me.

“I never said you were stupid.”

“Yeah, you basically did,” she huffs out.

I let out an exhale. “You’re right. Say whatever the hell you want. I’m in a bitchy mood, and I’m sorry that I’m taking it out on you.”

Paige crosses her legs underneath herself and leans in toward me, a wide smile on her face. “You’re forgiven. So, are you really still all grumpy over hot Army guy?”

I sigh. “I think so. The whole thing is ridiculous. I don’t even know him. I have no idea why his dismissal made me so mad.”

“Well, I’m pretty sure this is what we call the first-time blues.” She nods her head with her lips pressed into a line.

“Huh?”

Her hands flail as she talks, “It’s obvious, isn’t it? This is the first time you’ve ever been turned down, and your ego is throwing a pity party.”

I absently chew on my lip, thinking about her words.

She continues, “It was bound to happen, London. You can’t take it personally. Not everyone in the world will be attracted to you.”

I squint my eyes toward Paige. Irritation lines my voice as I say, “You make me sound like a stuck-up snob.”

“Well, the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree.” She shrugs.

“We’re bringing my mom into this now?”

She’s right. My mom is a total snob.

Paige looks at me in confusion. “Why would I bring your mom into this?”

“You said that the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree.”

“So?”

I roll my eyes. “That means that I’m like my parents.”

“No, it doesn’t.” Paige shakes her head. “I don’t know why you’re bringing your mom into this. Yes, she is a little snooty, but you know I would never compare you to her.”

I groan. “We’re talking about my parents right now because your little saying implied that I was like them.” My voice rises an octave with annoyance. “Did you mean to say,
If the shoe fits
? Because I think that might make more sense here if you meant that I can be a snob.”

“Yeah, whatever. All I’m saying is, you have established certain expectations, and this Army dude didn’t act accordingly, so you’re butthurt. You need to move on. You know what they say,
The best way to get over someone is to get someone else under you
.”

I laugh. “‘They’”—I raise my hands and bend my fingers in air quotations around the word—“totally do not say that, and now, you’re making me sound like a slut. Have you always hoped your best friend would be a snobby slut?”

She giggles. “I’m not calling you a slut—or a snob really, for that matter. You know I love you exactly the way you are. I guess all I’m saying is, we need to go out tonight. You know, to get you out of your funk.”

“All of that”—I raise my hand in the air, my finger drawing a circle between Paige and me—“was just to say that we need to go out?”

“Yeah!” She grins. “This awesome club band is playing at Necto tonight. Some of the girls were talking about going. I’m sure you could find someone to make out with. That would totally make you feel better.” She winks.

“I could use a night out. Good plan,” I say through a smile. “But, for the record, why didn’t he want me? I’m amazing.”

My phone buzzes against the couch, and I peer down to see my mom’s face on the screen.

“Speaking of trees,” I say to Paige.

“I thought we moved on to shoes?” She looks to me in question.

I laugh. “I can’t keep track with you. Anyway, I’m going to take this, and then we’ll pre-party.”

“Yay!” She claps her hands together. “I’ll get my shower out of the way.”

I love our pre-party ritual that we’ve perfected over the past four years. It consists of snacks, music, drinks, and a couple of hours to style our hair and makeup to utter flawlessness. Someday soon, when we decide to grow up and get real jobs—or employment, period—I’m sure these nights are going to be few and far between. But, for now, I’m going to relish in the joy they bring.

“Hey, Mom,” I say into my phone.

My mom doesn’t call often. She usually communicates through text, so I’m sure she has some news to share.

“Baby girl! How are you? How’s life since graduation? Anything exciting going on? Have you applied for any jobs?”

“No, not really. And, no, not yet.”

“Oh, that’s fine. You have plenty of time,” she says with sincerity.

Exactly. I’ve only been out of college for a month. My mom gets me.

“Have you heard from Georgia?” she asks.

My younger sister is spending the summer between her junior and senior year at Stanford gallivanting through Europe with a group of her friends.

“Not really. I mean, you follow her on Instagram, Mom. You see the same stuff I do.”

“I know. I just didn’t know if she’d called or texted you. She has an international plan. It wouldn’t hurt her to use it.”

I chuckle. “Mom, she’s having fun. She’s fine. She posts proof-of-life photos every day. She’ll call if she has free time, but I’m sure she’s just busy with soaking in new experiences.”

“I know. It’s just weird not to get daily texts from her. You know your sister; she always needs something.”

I can hear the smile in her voice.

“So, not hearing from her is a good thing. It means that she’s figuring things out on her own.”

“I suppose,” she sighs.

“How’s Dad?”

“Oh, you know, working himself to the bone, per usual.”

My dad has made a name for himself in the business world—or at least, I assume he has based on how much money he earns. He’s in the business of mergers and acquisitions. According to him, that means he buys, sells, divides, and/or combines companies in order to help them be successful.

My mom, on the other hand, doesn’t work—at least at anything that brings in money. She keeps busy though. Her social calendar is always full.

“Oh, that’s why I called. We’re moving.”

My parents currently live in New York City. They’ve actually been there for a few years, which might be the longest they’ve ever stayed in the same location. Growing up, it felt like we moved once a year on average. My dad goes wherever his job leads him, and my mom follows.

“Where to?”

“Louisville, Kentucky. We bought a house in a nice suburb outside of the city.”

“Oh, that’s great, Mom. How long will you be there?”

“Who knows? You know how it is.” She chuckles.

“Please say you’re going to keep your apartment in New York.”

They have an awesome place downtown. It’s within walking distance of everything, and it’s so convenient when visiting the city.

“Yeah, I think we are—for a while. It’s nice to have a place here, and your father always seems to have meetings here, regardless of where we’re living.”

“Oh, good. I love it there.”

“Me, too. I’ll miss it, but I’m sure the change of pace will be nice as well.”

“I’m sure,” I agree.

“Well, of course, our numbers will stay the same. I’ll text you the new address. We’re departing for Kentucky tomorrow. We’ll leave everything here in the apartment besides some personal items that have already been moved. Other than that, the designers have the new house all ready. It’s beautiful. I hope you can make it down to visit soon.”

“I’ll try, Mom. Not really sure what my summer plans are, but maybe I can fit in a trip.”

“Thanks, honey. Oh, I have to go and get ready for this new acroyoga class I’m taking.”

“Acroyoga?”

“Oh, yes. It’s great. It’s like yoga and includes all sorts of bendy positions, except I have a base—a guy beneath me. He lifts me with his legs so that all the moves are done up in the air. It’s so fun. You should try it.”

“It sounds slightly dangerous and a little scandalous. Be careful, Mom.”

“Oh, it’s fine.” She laughs. “Talk soon, honey. Love you.”

“Love you, too, Mom.”

I shoot Georgia a text to tell her that I love her and hope she’s having a ball. I end by telling her to give Mom a quick call when she can. I have no idea what time it is over on that continent, but she’ll get my text at some point.

I turn on my pre-party playlist as I step into the shower. A smile crosses my face as the hot water falls over me. I am so ready for a night of fun.