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Authors: Ted Hughes

Wallowing in the greasy pulps, he tries to crawl clear.

But men in bloody capes are flinging buckets of fresh

                                                            blood over him.

Many bulls swing up, on screeching pulleys.

Intestines spill across blood-flooded concrete.

The din is shattering, despair of beasts

And roaring of men, and impact of steel gates.

Bull’s skins stripped off, heads tumbling in gutters.

Carcases fall apart into two halves.

Lumb scrambles from the swamp.

He tries to wipe his eyes and to see.

Men crowd round him, laughing like madmen,

Emptying more buckets of the hot blood over him.

They are trying to drown him with blood

And to bury him in guts and lungs,

Roaring their laughter

As if they imitated lions.

Till he crawls on all fours to the wall, and hauls himself

                               up by the edge of a sliding steel door

And forces it open

As the men come at him, jabbing with their electrified

                                                                          clubs

And roaring their infernal laughter

And he runs blind into pitch darkness and the din is

                                                              muffled away.

And he walks

With outstretched protecting arms

Till he sees a doorway to daylight. 

He sees a ginnel, beyond it. Then stone steps upwards into daylight. He stands at the bottom of the steps and looks up at moving clouds. He hears street noises and sees the top of a bus go past and a woman with shopping. A mongrel dog peers down at him between rusty railings. He turns back, and finds himself in a derelict basement full of builder’s old lumber. He looks down at his blood-varnished
body, crusting black, already flaking, and trembling with shock and bewilderment. He strives to remember what has just happened to him. He can no longer believe it, and concludes that he must have been involved in some frightful but ordinary accident. He searches round for some other exit from this basement, in growing agitation, but there is only the door to the street. He returns to the bottom of the steps and stands looking up again at the clouds, till his trembling becomes hard shivering. Suddenly he remembers the streets full of corpses, but his dread then was nothing like what he feels now. He forces himself to move.

He climbs the stone steps.

GAUDETE

Powerful, age-thickened hands.

Neglected, the morning’s correspondence

Concerning the sperm of bulls.

The high-velocity rifles, in their glass-fronted cupboard,

Creatures in hibernation, an appetite

Not of this landscape.

Coffee on the desk, untasted, now cold,

Beside the tiger’s skull – massive paperweight with a small man-made hole between the dragonish eye-sockets.

Major Hagen, motionless at his window,

As in a machan,

Shoulders hunched, at a still focus.

The parkland unrolls, lush with the full ripeness of the last week in May, under the wet midmorning light. The newly plumped grass shivers and flees. Giant wheels of light ride into the chestnuts, and the poplars lift and pour like the tails of horses. Distance blues beyond distance.

    

    The scene
balances on the worm’s stealth, the milled focal adjustment, under the ginger-haired, freckle-backed thick fingers and the binocular pressure of Hagen’s attention.

Across the middle distance, beyond the wide scatter of bulls, the prone stripe of the lake’s length reflects the sky’s metals. Crawling with shadow, hackled with reeds, snaggy with green bronze nymphs, maned with willows.

   

Everything hangs

In a chill dewdrop suspension,

Wobbled by the gossamer shimmer of the crosswind.

Hagen’s face is graven, lichenous.

Outcrop of the masonry of his terrace.

Paradeground gravel in the folded gnarl of his jowls.

A perfunctory campaign leatheriness.

A frontal Viking weatherproof

Drained of the vanities, pickled in mess-alcohol and

                                                               smoked dark.

Anaesthetised

For ultimate cancellations

By the scathing alums of King’s regulations,

The petrifying nitrates of garrison caste.

A nerve is flickering

Under the exemplary scraped steel hair on the bleak

                                                                         skull,

But the artillery target-watching poise of his limbs,

                                            stiff-kneed and feet apart,

Absorbs the tremor,

And the underlip, so coarsely wreathed

And undershot, like the rim of a crude archaic piece of

                                                                 earthenware

Is not moved

Forty generations from the freezing salt and the

                                                                   longships. 

The rhododendrons of the shrubbery island

Wince their chilled scarlet eruptions.

The willows convulse, they coil and uncoil, silvery, like swans trying to take off. Their long fringes keep lifting from the Japanese bridge. On the bridge, two figures com plete the landscape artist’s arrangement
 

The Reverend Lumb’s long sallow skull

Seeming dark as oiled walnut

Rests on the shoulder

Of Pauline Hagen, the Major’s wife,

Whose body’s thirty-five year old womb-fluttered

                                                                       abandon

Warms his calming hands

Beneath her ample stylish coat.

Her nerve-harrowed face

Crisping towards a sparse harvest handsomeness

Rests on his shoulder.

She has been weeping

And now looks through blur into the streaming leaf-shoal

                                                              of the willows.

Lumb’s downward gaze has anchored

On the tough-looking lilies, their clenched knob-flowers

In the cold morning water.

A deadlock of submarine difficulty

Which their draughty hasty lovemaking has failed to

                                                                  disentangle

And which has brought words to a stop.

Hagen

Contemplates their stillness. The man-shape

To which his wife clings.

He does not detect

Lumb’s absence. He can watch his wife

But not the darkness into which she has squeezed her eyes,

The placeless, limitless warmth

She has fused herself into,

Clasping that shape

And shutting away the painful edges and clarities of the

                                                            gusty distance,

Under the toppling continents of hard-blossomed cumulus

The tattery gaps of blue

And the high, taut mad cirrus.

The vista quivers.

Decorative and ordered, it tugs at a leash.

A purplish turbulence

Boils from the stirred chestnuts, and the spasms of the

                           new grass, and the dark nodes of bulls.

Hagen

Undergoes the smallness and fixity

Of tweed and shoes and distance. And the cruelty

Of the wet midmorning light. The perfection

Of the lens.

                 And a tremor

Like a remote approaching express

In the roots of his teeth.

Exerting his leg-muscles, as if for health, breasting the oxygen, his cleated boots wrenching the gravel, down the long colonnade of chestnuts

Under the damp caves and black-beamed ruinous attics

Of intergroping boughs

That lean out and down over the meadow on either side,

Supporting their continents of leaf, their ramshackle

                                                             tottery masks.

His black labrador revolves passionately in its excitements. His double-barrelled Purdey, cradled light in his left elbow, feels like power. It feels like far-roaming tightness, neatness, independence. With this weapon, Hagen is happy. A lonely masterful elation bristles through him. He glances constantly toward the perfection of the down-sloping barrels, blue and piercing, snaking along beside him, nosing over the poor grass and the ground ivy at the drive’s edge.

His features are fixed at enjoyment, a grille. He aims himself, tight with force, down the tree-tunnel, at the cold sheet of lakelight from which two figures, carefully separate, are approaching.
 

A ringdove, tumbling with a clatter

Into wing-space

Under the boughs and between boles

And swerving up towards open field-light

Is enveloped by shock and numbness.

The bang jerks the heads of twenty bulls

And breaks up the distance.

A feather mop cavorts.

With a kind of gentleness

The Major’s gingery horny fingers

Are gathering the muddled dove

From the labrador’s black lips.

A wing peaks up at a wrong angle, a pink foot reaches

                                                    deeply for safe earth.

Startlingly crimson and living

Blood hangs under his knuckles.

And the bird’s head rides alert, as if on a tree-top,

A liquid-soft blue head floating erect, as the eye gimbals

And the Major presents it, an offering,

To his wife.

His machine laughter

Unconnected to any nerve

Is like the flame her face shrivels from.

Now he offers it to the priest

As the meaning of his grin, which is like the grin of a patient

After a mouth-operation.

Lumb’s heavy hostile eye

Weighs what is ill-hidden.

The Major’s carapaced fingers and his mask

Of military utility

Contort together, and the dove erupts underdown –

Tiny puffs and squirts.

He tosses it cartwheeling to Lumb

Who catches it

As if to save it, and clasps it to him

As if to protect it

Feeling its hard-core heat

And drinking its last cramping convulsions

Into the strength of his grip.

The Major calls his dog and stalks past these two, as on

                                           matters of higher command.

He leaves them

Under the breathing and trembling of the trees

Marooned

In the vacuum of his shot.

The dove’s head, on its mauled neck,

Dangles like a fob,

Squandering its ruby unstoppably

Into the sterile gravel. 

Joe Garten, petty poacher and scrounger, in steep woodland, drives his narrow-bladed spade downward, deepening his furrowed concentration. His bowed shoulders jerk between the crumpled feet of gigantic beeches. His brow shines and his yellow hair flings, in a slant mist of bluebells. His moist eighteen year-old palms and fingers are jarred hot and again jarred, against perverse roots and sudden flints, as he follows his brown ferret cord down
 

Towards muffled subterranean

Thudding and squeals.

But now he comes weightlessly upright, hearing the wind-

                                           carried bok of a twelve-bore.

He pinpoints it. He identifies it. He judges Hagen has shot a woodpigeon on his morning walk. Every frond of the wood listens with him.

His sweat glints, falling into the excavation. And as he listens

A new presence, like a press of wind, fills up the air, a thickening vibration. An echoing yawn of roar through all the mass of leaves. It pours down the sunken road, ten yards below him, among coiled, piling beech roots. And the narrow, tree-choked valley is suddenly alert, alarmed, as the sound ceases. Beside the little bridge in the bottom of the wood, a white Ford Cortina has come to rest in the layby.

Garten rises in his hole, peering. Mrs Westlake, the doctor’s wife, winds down her window, throws out a spent match, puffs smoke, relaxes tensely, waits.

The wood creeps rustling back. The million whispering busyness of the fronds, which seemed to have hesitated, start up their stitchwork, with clicking of stems and all the tiny excitements of their materials.

Garten half-lies, watching the white fox-fine profile, under dark hair, in the car window. Her stillness holds him.
He eases his elbows and knees, hunching gently to his attentiveness, as to a rifle. His eyes, among bluebells and baby bracken, are circles of animal clarity, not yet come clear of their innocence.

Clouds slide off the sun. The trees stretch, stirring their tops. A thrush hones and brandishes its echoes down the long aisles, in the emerald light, as if it sang in an empty cathedral. Shrews storm through the undergrowth. Hover-flies move to centre, angle their whines, dazzle across the sunshafts. The humus lifts and sweats.

Garten’s eyes are quiet, like a hunter’s, watching the game feed closer. His heart deepens its beat, expectant.

His fantasy agitates, richly, monotonously, around the cool drawn features of Mrs Westlake, the high china cheekbone, the dark mouth. A tentacle of her cigarette smoke touches his nostril, and hangs, in the lit woodland.

He fastens himself to her, as if to a magnification, fading from himself, like a motionless lizard.

One, two, three cigarettes. In the bird-ringing peace. 

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