âI understand,' I said.
He took a deep breath. âAnd after this I feel it might be safer if the Queen did not instruct you in any more cases.'
I nodded. âGiven where this one led?'
He spoke quietly. âIf you love her, as I do, you will leave her in peace now.'
âI agree, Master Warner. And I am sorry again that I accused you.'
He nodded, then reached out a hand. âGoodbye, Matthew,' he said.
âGoodbye, Robert, and thank you.' I hesitated, âBeware of Richard Rich. I fear I have made him into the Queen's enemy.'
âI will.'
Barak and I rode across the bridge over the moat. My eyes turned to the sea, then flickered away. I drew a deep breath.
âTo Hoyland,' I said. âThen home.'
We turned and rode away from Portchester Castle, away from the sea.
Chapter Fifty
TWO HOURS LATER we rode again down the narrow lane to Hoyland Priory. We passed through the gate and faced the house. Poor Abigail's flowers had mostly died and the grass on the once neat lawns was starting to grow high. The windows were shuttered. I saw the butts by the nuns' graveyard had gone.
I had been relieved to turn inland, but now, as we rode towards the porch, the gentle motion of the horse seemed all at once like a heaving deck. I grasped the reins, pulled Oddleg to a halt, and closed my eyes, breathing heavily.
âAll right?' Barak asked anxiously.
âYes. Just give me a moment.'
âThere's Dyrick.'
I opened my eyes. Dyrick had come out onto the steps. He stood there in his black robe, frowning at us. The sight restored me; I would not let that man see my weakness. Dyrick called over his shoulder into the hall, and a boy ran out to take the horses.
âYou're back at last,' Dyrick said in his grating voice as we approached. âIt's been four days. Master Hobbey has been out of his mind with worry. Where is Emma? Did you find her?'
I had to smile at how, even now, he had to be argumentative. Yet I could see he had been mightily worried; fearing no doubt that what the Hobbeys had done to Emma might have been discovered.
âI found her, Dyrick. But she would not return with me. She ran away again, I do not know where she is.'
âWe heard of the
Mary Rose
sinking, the attack on the Isle of Wight.'
âThe French failed to take it. Though they are still in the Solent.' I had already agreed with Barak to say nothing about being on the
Mary Rose
. There was no point. âThe lawn is starting to look unkempt,' I said.
Dyrick grunted. âHalf the servants have left. Even that old crone Ursula has gone, saying the household's cursed. They've all run back to the village, to try and ingratiate themselves with Ettis. He has been released, by the way. Master Hobbey kept his word.'
âWhere is he?'
âIn his study. He never leaves it now, save to go to his son.'
âHow is David?'
âRecovering, but they think he will never walk properly again. And Jesu knows what is happening in his mind. I fear he may spill out the whole story,' Dyrick added in a pettish tone. âHe needs to be kept somewhere where he can be watched.'
I stared at him. His words reminded me of how West and Rich had protected themselves after Ellen's rape. Nothing like that, I would make sure, would happen to David.
NICHOLAS HOBBEY sat at his desk. When we came in I saw the sad blankness that had been on his face since Abigail's death, then a kind of desperate eagerness. He had, I saw, lost weight.
âEmma! Have you news of her? We have been waiting.' There was an old man's querulousness in his voice now.
âWe were detained in Portsmouth. There has been fightingâ'
âYes. They brought the news the
Mary Rose
was lost. But, sir, Emma-'
I took a deep breath. âI found her, but she ran away again. She has left Portsmouth. I do not know where she is now.'
His face fell. âIs she still - pretending to be her brother?'
âI think she will continue to do so. That identity is all she has known for years.'
Dyrick said, âShe can't last for long on the road. She took no money.'
âIt is possible she may try to join a company somewhere.'
Hobbey groaned. âSleeping in hedges, stealing food from gardens - '
Dyrick added angrily, âAnd any day she could be caught and exposed for who she really is.'
I said, âEmma is intelligent. She will realize she cannot support herself, that she risks discovery. I think there is a chance at least that she may seek me out.'
âIn London?' Hobbey asked.
âI told her I was taking her wardship, that I would leave her to decide what to make of her life.'
âThen pray God she does come to you.' Hobbey sighed, then added, âI plan to go back to London myself, sell this wretched place and buy a small house, somewhere quiet. It will be easier for David, and I can find better help for his afflictions there.'
âAfflicted he is,' Dyrick said emphatically.
âDo you think I, of all people, do not know that?' Hobbey snapped. He turned back to me. âI will get a good price for this house and all these woods. Sir Luke Corembeck has expressed an interest.' He turned to Dyrick, with another touch of his old sharpness. âMake sure of the price, Vincent. I leave the negotiation to you. Whatever we make will be all David and I have to live on in the future, once - once my old debts are paid off. Master Shardlake, will you hold Emma's share if she has not returned by the time Hoyland is sold?'
âI will.'
âWe'd get more if we had the village woodlands,' Dyrick grumbled.
âWell, we don't,' Hobbey said. âLeave tomorrow, Vincent, get the negotiations moving from London. I am sick of the sight of you,' he added. Dyrick's face darkened. Hobbey turned to me. âMaster Shardlake, I want you, if you will, to see David. To reassure him you plan to say nothing of what happened to his mother.'
I nodded agreement. I still felt the responsibility of keeping that secret; I needed to see how David was.
HOBBEY AND I ascended the stairs. He walked slowly, clinging to the banister. âBefore we see David, Master Shardlake, there is something I wanted to ask you.'
âYes?'
âI hope you are right and that Emma may come to you in London. But if she is exposed, do you think she will tell-'he winced, gripping the banister - âthat David killed his mother? I believe she guessed it was him.' He stared at me intently. His first concern was still his son.
âI doubt it. From what she said in Portsmouth she feels a deep guilt for what she did to David.'
Hobbey took another step, then stopped again and looked me in the face. âWhat was I doing?' he asked. âWhat were we thinking of, all those years?'
âI do not believe any of you were thinking clearly, not for a long time. You were all too afraid. Except for Fulstowe, who was out to get what he could from the situation.'
Hobbey looked around the great hall, the culmination of all his ambition. âAnd I was blind to how my son was becoming - deranged. I blame myself for what he did.' He sighed. âWell, it is all over now. Dyrick tries to talk me out of leaving, but my mind is made up.'
He led me into David's room. It had a good four-poster bed, chairs and cushions, and an old tapestry on the wall showing a battle from Roman times. No books, unlike Hugh's room. David lay in the bed; he had been looking up at the ceiling, but when we came in he struggled to rise. Hobbey raised a hand.
âNo, no. You will pull at your bandages.'
David fixed me with a frightened gaze. Lying there he looked like a trapped, terrified little boy, the stubble on his cheeks making him seem all the more pathetic.
âHow do you fare, David?' I asked gently.
âIt hurts,' he said. âThe doctor stitched me up.'
Hobbey said, âDavid was brave. He did not cry out once, did you, my son?' He took a deep breath. âMaster Shardlake has come to tell you he will say nothing of what happened to your mother.'
Tears welled up in David's eyes. âI think I was mad, sir. I shot at you and then I killed my poor mother. I seemed able to think of nothing else but shooting at people, all the time. I had to keep our secret, keep Emma with us. Even if I had to kill-'He had been talking fast, almost gabbling, but suddenly he paused, looked at me, and asked in a passionate voice, âSir, can God ever forgive such a sin as I have committed?'
I looked into his wild eyes. âI am no cleric, David, but if someone truly repents, they say He will forgive even the greatest sin.'
âI pray ceaselessly, sir,' he said through his tears. âFor forgiveness and for my mother.'
âThat is all you can do, David,' his father said, going forward and taking his hand. His words reminded me of what Catherine Parr had said to me a few hours ago. I looked down at the floor.
âWhat news of Emma?' David asked tremulously.
âMaster Shardlake saw her in Portsmouth. She is truly sorry for what she did to you.'
âI deserved it,' David said. He looked at me, and I saw that even now he loved her. I shuddered to think of what had gone on in his mind these last six years, warping it utterly. âWhere is she now?' he asked.
Hobbey hesitated. âWe are not sure. But we believe her safe.'
âWill I see her again?'
âI do not think so, David. If she goes to anyone it will be Master Shardlake.'
David looked at me again. âI loved her, you see, I loved Emma all these years.' I nodded. âI never thought of her as Hugh. That was why, when I feared we might actually be exposed, I think-I think the devil took hold of me. But I loved her. I loved my poor mother too, I realized as soon as I had-I had killed her.' He burst out sobbing, tears streaming down his face.
Hobbey hung his head.
âI wonder-'I said. Hobbey looked at me. I hesitated, for I had brought enough nightmare cases to Guy. Yet he thrived on the most difficult patients, perhaps he even needed something like this now. And it would be a way for me to keep an eye on the Hobbeys. I said, âIf you come to London, I know a physician, a good man. He may be able to help David.'
Hobbey said eagerly, âMight he help him walk again?'
âI cannot promise that.'
âI do not deserve to,' David burst out passionately.
I said, though again only to comfort the poor creature, âLeave that to God.'
AN HOUR LATER Barak and I rode out of Hoyland Priory for the last time and turned on to the London road. Before I left I had done one more thing; I went into Emma's room and took the little cross from where it still lay in the drawer by the bed.